REMIX

Under the suggestion of the staff, I changed my sitting posture again to look more natural and casual, which achieved the effect everyone wanted. After getting permission, I gave an "OK" gesture to Tata on the opposite side.

Under the adjusted light in the room, she stared at my face horizontally and vertically, "You should be happy."

"No." I said, "Do I look unhappy?"

"You don't even laugh!"

"He seldom smiles usually." Gong Junye, who was sitting on the other side of the couch, said while playing with his newly bought PS4.5.

I nodded sincerely.

"Okay, but."

The air was still for a second, and Tata could no longer bear the silent oppression, and kicked over the table and chairs that had been set up: "I agreed to do an interview with you, what is this person doing here! You go out except for your keys, mobile phone and wallet." Do you still have to bring your boyfriend with you! Enough of you guys!"

"I'm sorry...but he's very obedient and doesn't get in the way." I looked at Gong Junye and gave Tata an apologetic and helpless look, "Besides, no one in this room can invite him..."

The difference between Gong Junye and me is that he doesn't mind living in the eyes of others at all, he still does his own way; he waved his hand, and the staff next to him with a face of "seems like nothing wrong" handed him a cup of coffee, He said to Tata in that gentle and harmless white mist, "I am useful."

Putting down the game console, he leaned out and winked at me: "Baby, have a smile."

"..."

I turned my head and quickly covered my eyes with my hands, but I didn't have time to cover the corners of my upturned mouth.

Tata knelt down with a plop: "Brother, I was wrong."

The planning staff clapped their hands to remind us: "Hurry up, it's eight o'clock."

When the live broadcast started, Tata quickly stroked her dreadlocks and sat upright, and said hello to the camera on the tablet, "Hi! I'm your girlfriend Tata! It's time for the weekly live broadcast again, this week How are you doing? Did you miss me? Did Mercury go retrograde? Did you break up in love? Did you eat dirt? Did the male god take care of you?"

The screen full of bullet screens rushed over like a wasp: "I don't want you anymore!" "You're the only one who talks too much!" "Woman, you are playing with fire." "Shut up!" "Get out!" "Be careful on the way home!"

I took a peek at the constantly changing number of online users in the lower right corner of the screen, from ninety, to two hundred, and finally one thousand, my heart was beating like thunder.

"Let's not talk nonsense, this week's invitation is - the new single has reached the top of the original download chart the day after it was released, and it has been on the top of the original download list for a week in a row. It is a newcomer with a fierce appearance and full of potential. Summer break!"

Maybe it was because Gong Junye was sitting opposite me, the whole live broadcast went smoothly beyond imagination. Although Tata was in control most of the time, there were no jams or embarrassments in the interaction, so I was content.

In the first 10 minutes, there was no one there, but there were more and more spectators behind, and the barrage of questions and messages were also dense. I was a little panicked, and my palms were sweating outside the camera. Tata read me a randomly selected question: "Leave a message! What is the person or event that influenced you the most as a rapper?"

"Two things, the first time I heard Eminem's songs when I was 11 years old," I said, "and the teacher who met me later, and my senior Fei Na, and I was fortunate to collaborate with her on a few songs."

"Want to cooperate?"

"The wishes of those who appeared on the new song production list have come true."

"Is there anyone you like now?"

"Have."

"Thoughts on the person you like?"

"..."

I tried my best to appear calm and calm, and said it without saying anything, I didn't dare to look in Gong Junye's direction, "I have all kinds of thoughts, aboveboard... ulterior thoughts."

Out of the corner of his eye, he saw him covering his face with the game console.

Tata has nothing to love.

"One last question: Do you consider yourself a lucky person?"

If you go back ten years, I might say no.

I was an outcast who picked up garbage, was ridiculed by others, lived in a grocery store, earned money to support the family in my teens, failed the college entrance examination, my biological mother never loved me for a day, and liked men.

"Yes."

——When I look at him, I know how much I have lost and how much I will gain in the future.

After the live broadcast, Tata introduced me to a new producer who will be my partner for the next song.

I thanked Tata and the staff who contributed to this, exchanged contact information with the producer, and went home with Gong Junye.

Last week, Xia Jie was discharged from the hospital. I took her home, took care of my little belongings, and helped arrange her and Zhou Jingyang's "new home", and officially moved in with Gong Junye.

His house already looks like two people living together.However, I was in school, and my luggage was left in the empty room for several days. He helped me move some insignificant clothes, and the remaining books and small personal items such as collections waited for me to come back and pack them up.One thing I like about him is that he is very thoughtful about these little things, so that I don't have to deliberately emphasize anything when I get along with him, and I feel comfortable and at ease.

When I got home, I went to the empty room he vacated for me. It seemed to be my personal space. There were lazy sofas, lamps, record racks and bookshelves in it. The cardboard boxes brought by the moving company were still stacked in the corner. I took out the contents one by one and stacked them neatly on the bookshelf.

Suddenly I found a hardcover notebook, not mine, without signature or content, maybe Xia Jie accidentally stuffed it in when he was packing with me.I thought, flipping the thick white paper back and forth, and they soon stopped on a certain page with an envelope sandwiched between them.

I took out the ordinary khaki envelope with a line written in Xia Jie's handwriting on the front.Tear open and take out a stack of letter papers, I listened to the sound of music coming from outside the door, and sat down on the sofa that hadn't removed the plastic wrap.

Turning on the light of the desk lamp, I unfolded the four-fold letter paper, and the stereo outside the house was playing the carousel station on the home page of JOAH, which happened to be my song, and Gong Junye didn't change the station.

"Tell a story, a story you've all heard

boring, lucky, dumbfounding story

The same role, in my own way

The same plot, rewritten many times

The same melody, let me chant into poetry

Remixit

This damn life, let me remixit"

"Summer break:

You probably don't know what this is.

I've been so tired recently, and I don't have as much time to sit down and talk to you as in previous years, so I wrote this letter to you while I was confinement in the hospital.In fact, I have always wanted to leave you something as a souvenir, but many things cannot be fully conveyed in a few words, and I can't always find the right time, so they are slowly put on hold.

But when you talked to me two days ago, I suddenly felt that it was time.When you grow into a handsome adult, will not be easily affected by irrelevant people and things, can control yourself well, and no longer depend on me, I will tell you everything. "

"The story begins here

she gave you name and little house

tell you that from today onwards she is her child

She likes to smoke and swear, never bought a dress

You see her with white wings, she's your angel

She takes you to the bazaar, through the bustling streets

You want to say you're hungry, but you dare not ask her for money

Thinking about Sunday, going to the park by bike, wanting to travel around the world, just walk around the map You think it's all your fault, she has done too much for you

So you are anxious, there is an unquenchable spark in your heart

"Grow up", you heard her too

Talk to the tree like you outside the window

Let's grow up, let's grow up"

"I never talked to you about my parents.

I officially severed ties with my parents, and it has been more than 15 years since then.Now I seldom think of the past, very rarely, occasionally dreaming that the two of them were arguing, fighting, smashing everything in the house to pieces, reconciling the next day, turning over old scores and finding fault on the third day , Scolding each other, on the fourth day the old trick repeats itself.

Day after day, never-ending war.So while I am afraid of violence, I have to rely on violence in order to survive.

The day I left was not a whim, it was my secret plan for half a year, I packed some of my luggage every day, and some of it every day, until I completely emptied myself from their lives. All the tickets are bought, and the three-day and three-night train will come to your city to study at a university.

And from the day I dropped out of school, I got my wish and completely cut off contact with them.I can finally be myself.I smoked, stayed up all night, spent all my remaining savings, bought what I wanted, slept with people I didn’t know, hailed a taxi on the side of the road in the early morning, ran away without paying, and picked up a little wolf dog in the alley. boy, bring him up. "

"Make a wish on your birthday

The weak soldier wants to be the captain and return to the battlefield

Pick up a paintbrush and shoot the crows in the rye

Even a genius wants strength, cowardice is no nobler than begging

It's okay to endure for a while, it's what you do best

sad until late at night, lie at dawn

Fortunately, there are them, waiting for you on the way from school

Doodles in math class, retired singer's bar

Please lend me a microphone, boss, turn the volume up

Want to sing to the whole world, arrogant to exaggerated

Girl has nice legs (wow), buy her a Tequila

Watch the door carefully after closing, don't open it to strangers

Wait, what if it was that person? "

"It's ironic. You were abandoned by your biological parents, but I did everything possible to get rid of that terrible home. Before I met Zhou Jingyang, I hated marriage so much.

When I was young, my thoughts were very extreme. I would rather guard you in this life, because you are my child, and I can pour love on you without asking for anything in return. I don’t have to make demands on another person, ask for it, and finally hate each other and die together.

Occasionally recalling these, I want to talk to you, at least just to vent my emotions unilaterally, and I am afraid that you will be affected by your ears and eyes, which will directly affect your future love.

I hope you can have a good love. "

"When you met him, oh, even complaining was like talking about love

He can do magic and make you unwilling to be mediocre

He is a white horse galloping towards you from a hundred thousand light-years away

Make you move, make you tremble, make you melt

Bind your overwhelmed hands with the loose reins

Take you away, the breath spreads out the whole universe

Smug, invade your locked little planet

Put a flag on your heart and say hellyeah

Oh yeah, you just remember that yeah

I can't learn to restrain myself, I'm greedy for him

Give your all with both hands before it falls"

"But now you tell me that you like a man of the same gender, which is different from what I thought at the beginning. I am glad that you don't have to choose to marry for perfunctory like many people like my parents. Marriage tortures each other and has new worries at the same time, how do you like him? Your relationship is not what it seems to me? When did it happen? To what extent? Why won’t you tell me such an important thing? Incompetent, not good enough for you to trust?

Just when I couldn't figure it out, I accidentally gave birth to a child, walked through the gate of hell, and suddenly realized when I woke up, what was I thinking?Love is such a thing that can never be answered.I myself don't understand why I changed my mind to marry someone else, so why bother to ask you. "

"Say thank you to those who love you

Say thanks to those who helped you

Say fucku to the people who hurt you, tell them not to be in the way

Thank you to everyone who played in their true colors”

"The next words are what I want you to remember:

I hope that whether you are holding a girl or holding a man, you are focused, affectionate, and aboveboard.You don't play with feelings, don't get entangled, don't look left and right, and you are firm in love or not.Whether you hold flowers in your own hands or give them to others, whether you are hurt by betrayal or treat each other tenderly, you can love someone bravely and be as desperate as you are for the first time in your life.

I witness every choice you make, as a bystander rather than a martyr, you are an independent individual, you never play someone's ideal role, so you can sing if you want, and you can like whoever you want.

Go, go wild, watch the aurora, run after the wind, go to places you have never been to, go to hold the hand of the person you like, it is worthwhile to walk in this world.

No matter who you are or who you were born to, wise or stupid, beautiful or ugly, great or unknown, you are my son.

It is the sun that will always make me proud.

Xia Jie

"Tell a story, a story you've all heard

boring, lucky, dumbfounding story

The same role, in my own way

The same plot, rewritten many times

The same melody, let me chant into poetry

Remixit

This damn life let me remixit

This amazing life, let me remixit

This is my life, let me remixit"

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Thank you all for being here.Wait for me to make an episode.