sound of silence

Pan Qiqin didn't know how Shen Jingyu went upstairs to explain his identity to the rehabilitation therapist...his boyfriend...

Basically, he should mind! ?But to his surprise, about 10 minutes later, he not only went downstairs, but also drove a car and wanted to sit in it by himself.

Before driving, he looked sideways at Pan Qiqin for a while, then took out a pen and paper from his pocket, and wrote: "You came to see me, is there anything important?"

"Uh..." Pan Qiqin suddenly felt that more than half of the alcohol in his body had awakened...

Damn, stinking A Fei, why don't you need a reason to find a friend, fuck it, then what he wants now is a reason?

"I... let's find a place to sit down first..." Pan Qiqin looked at his watch uncomfortably, it was almost 11 o'clock, and hurriedly said: "It seems a bit late now, or... I will come to you next time ...Um..."

Shen Jingyu turned her head and thought for a while, then wrote again: "I'll take you back, tell me slowly on the way!"

"Send me?" Pan Qiqin was startled and said, "No way...it's so late now, you'll be too tired if you come and go, and you have to go to work tomorrow..."

"I originally asked for a special rest tomorrow, and you have to wait for the train to go back, not to mention, Zhongshan is very fast!"

"But..." Speaking of this, Pan Qiqin couldn't help feeling a little awkward and said, "Isn't your boyfriend... at your house?"

Shen Jingyu looked forward and shook her head with a smile.Then put down the pen and paper, start the car, and start driving.

Pan Qiqin knew what he meant: it doesn't matter.

For some reason, I admired his wordless response of "shaking his head".

"You really won't be too tired..."

Shen Jingyu still shook her head.

On a cool summer night, the scenery flies by outside the window, and in the car, Kevin Cohen's green piano floats slowly.

Sitting in the second seat, Pan Qiqin felt a kind of joy that he had never had before...

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Pan Qiqin peeked at him.

He was wearing a light blue shirt, a dark blue tie, and his soft hair was slightly curled up to his shoulders, which was quite in line with his thin face... giving people a very refreshing feeling.

red light.Shen Jingyu suddenly turned her head and met his gaze. Pan Qiqin was taken aback, and quickly looked ahead...

Shen Jingyu didn't seem to notice his abnormality, so he just picked up a pen and paper and wrote: "Why don't you speak?"

"Uh... oh..."

Shen Jingyu smiled indifferently, and pointed to the sentence just written: "You came to see me, is there anything important?".

"Ah! The light is green! Hurry up!" Pan Qiqin pointed to the front, then nodded and said, "Okay, hurry up, I say..."

The car was driving again, and at this moment, Shen Jingyu's mind was divided into two halves, always looking at him from time to time, hinting to him to "speak quickly".

"That day, Bunch drove me back... I talked to him about something... I think he should have told you!?" Pan Qiqin glanced at him tentatively, his eyes suddenly became dark, but he still looked at him. Looking forward, it took a while before he nodded.

It seems that the situation is not good.It's not good to beat around the bush...

"I came here specially to apologize to you." Pan Qiqin hurriedly said to him, "I don't know what he told you... but I really... have no other meaning..."

Shen Jingyu didn't "speak" any more.Just focus on driving.

"Senior...how did Bunchy tell you?"

How do you say it?Shen Jingyu finally glanced at him.

want to say?Not so good?Shen Jingyu was silent... He really didn't want to tell Pan Qiqin how angry Liu Bangqi had been when he came back that day, and said all the bad things about him...

─Who does he think he is?Everyone will love him when they see him, huh?

─Don't associate with that kind of self-righteous person!In the past seven years, there has been no contact, and you say that kind of talk when you meet, are you angry?

─Thinking about when something happened to you at that time, we asked him to visit you, but he refused to die, and insisted on asking why he should visit you! ?I really get angrier the more I think about it!

─I mentioned it to Feng Yu, if you have to try again with him, we would rather you go with that rehabilitation therapist!

─To be obsessed with that kind of person is asking for trouble!

Thinking of this, Shen Jingyu's mood suddenly became anxious.The steering wheel turned and the car was parked on the side of the road.

"He asked me not to associate with you." Shen Jingyu picked up a pen and paper and wrote in a hurry without hesitation.

Pan Qiqin looked at it, and suddenly panicked in his heart: "Then...what do you say?"

Shen Jingyu glanced at him and wrote: "If you get along with me, you still have that kind of..." He stopped writing, took a deep breath and wrote again: "Uncomfortable feeling, then I..."

Before he could finish writing, Pan Qiqin hurriedly grabbed his hand and said anxiously, "No! I don't feel sick. If I did, I wouldn't be here today!!"

Shen Jingyu was taken aback by this behavior, and looked at him for a long time before gently breaking away from his hand, writing: "Please don't say that, I will misunderstand."

Misunderstanding... Misunderstanding what?

Pan Qiqin didn't understand what he meant all of a sudden, just as he was about to ask, he suddenly came to his senses, his face flushed red instantly, and he said nervously, "Misunderstanding...oh...I...understand...sorry!" Hand, said seriously: "I hope... no matter what... we can still meet on the white literature website... okay?"

Shen Jingyu watched him quietly as he talked... and didn't write any more.

You... are you being too selfish?You clearly know that my feelings for you are not pure, but you want to be like this... Sigh!Shen Jingyu's heart sank.

"Senior... are you angry?" Seeing Shen Jingyu's lonely face, Pan Qiqin felt bitter...

But seeing Shen Jingyu's cheeks move, she seemed to be clenching her teeth tightly.The atmosphere froze instantly.

The car drove for a while, Shen Jingyu suddenly tilted the steering wheel again, and stopped on the side of the road.Knowing that he wanted to write with pen and paper, Pan Qiqin suddenly felt annoyed and said, "Can you speak well? I will listen."

In the dim car, only Shen Jingyu frowned and looked at him suspiciously.After a long while, I shook my head and started looking for "tools" again.

Pan Qiqin immediately grabbed his hands and said, "Why don't you even have to say it? You can obviously say it! You can write it to me?!"

Shen Jingyu was startled, and wanted to withdraw his hand, but Pan Qiqin grasped it firmly and said, "I have already said, I don't mind your voice becoming like that...your...previous voice...I forgot it!"

"Let...let go...hand..." Shen Jingyu said...but his face had turned pale, and his hands were wriggling even more hastily.

"You...what are you afraid of? I won't hurt you!" Seeing his panic, Pan Qiqin's anger became even more ignorant, and his hand strength also increased.

"I'm...not like you..."

"What do you mean you're not like me? I don't understand!"

Shen Jingyu's face turned from white to red, staring at him for a while, then leaned back, trying to get further away from him.

Pan Qiqin stared at him, the danger factor was ready to move in his chest...

The soft music can't relax the atmosphere at all, I can only feel the heartbeats of the two people going back and forth, one beat after another, silently fighting against each other...

"You...you probably only speak in front of that rehabilitation therapist? As for me, can't you speak in front of me?"

What the hell is he trying to do... Pure friendship between men... Is that so?Shen Jingyu tensed her nerves, and simply closed her eyes, the doubts and hopes in her heart were fighting fiercely.

Pan Qiqin looked at him, a desire to touch him suddenly ran through his blood.

Is it because I drank too much tonight?Why...Looking at this silhouette that I tried to reject in the past, it makes people feel anxious and full of desire!

Time, stalemate for too long, Shen Jingyu finally opened his eyes slowly, but avoided his gaze, twisted his wrist slightly, as if he still wanted to take advantage of the gap to break free...

"Senior..." Pan Qiqin suddenly let go of his hand.

As soon as Shen Jingyu was released, she quickly withdrew her hand, leaned back, and questioned with puzzled eyes.

Pan Qiqin didn't say anything, just stared at him blankly.

After a long, long time... until Shen Jingyu's face turned pale again, Pan Qiqin turned around, looked out of the window, and said in a deep voice, "I'm sorry, senior! Take me... home!"

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"You look very tired. I think you should sleep at my place today!" Pan Qiqin walked to the driver's seat and asked shortly, "Anyway, you asked for special leave tomorrow?"

Shen Jingyu stared at the steering wheel without answering...

Seeing his extremely haggard look, Pan Qiqin opened his car door on his own initiative, took a deep breath and said, "Come on, come out, I'll stop the car."

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midnight.The whole family is asleep.

Pan Qiqin took him to his room.After roughly understanding the environment, he pointed to his own bed and said, "I only have a single bed, let you sleep..."

After all, Pan Qiqin took off his clothes at ease, showing his strong physique and said, "Senior, or would it be more comfortable for you to take a bath before going to sleep?!"

Shen Jingyu stood silently, a sense of uneasiness growing in his heart.For some reason, I always feel that Pan Qiqin's behavior is a kind of temptation... Could it be that he doesn't know that I have feelings for him?

Seeing that he didn't answer, Pan Qiqin smiled lightly and said, "I'll take a shower. Come on, I'll take you to the bathroom."

As he said that, he dialed Shen Jingyu on his own, and led him to the bathroom at home.

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What exactly is he thinking?And... what do I want?Shen Jingyu stood under the shower head, letting the water pour over her head in a daze.

I admit, I haven't forgotten him.But, admittedly, I didn't always remember him.

It's just that the reunion again made me start to look forward to it again.

Because, his willful and selfish attitude has not changed, but the way he looks at me has changed.She is no longer as indifferent as in memory, and even more gentle.And this is what I've been wishing for day and night, how can I...

However, do you see me as Jing Mo or Jing Yu?Are you now Han Shuiyin or Pan Qiqin?It's just, no matter who you are, don't be too gentle with me... In this way, it's too tortured for me...

"Senior, clothes." Pan Qiqin's voice appeared at the door.

Shen Jingyu's heart skipped a beat, she calmed down, stepped out of the bathtub, walked to the door, and opened it slightly.

Pan Qiqin did not hand over the clothes.

"Senior. Can I...can I go in?"

Shen Jingyu was stunned, only to feel that the pores all over her body suddenly expanded...

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The key to Pandora's Box is in his hand, and the seductive snake language whispers in his ears.For some reason, Shen Jingyu had a premonition that she would die in an ugly way.However, he couldn't help but opened the lock.

Shen Jingyu closed her eyes, naked, with her back to the door.Not long after, I heard Pan Qiqin pushing the door in...the sound of undressing...

"Senior, let me help you."

Pan Qiqin passed him, picked up the soap and wiped his hands, and then gently applied Shen Jingyu's back...along the spine, to his buttocks...his thighs...calf...even, the instep.Then, swim back...calf, thigh, buttocks, back...arms...finally, turn him around gently.

Shen Jingyu still closed her eyes and gritted her teeth.Standing with tightly clenched fists.

Let Pan Qiqin wipe his neck, shoulder clips, collarbone, chest, abdomen, belly... Skip the lower body, thighs, calves, insteps... and then swim back...calf, thighs, belly, abdomen, chest, collarbone, shoulder clips, Neck...Then, put your face close to him, very close, very close, so close that you can feel the breath between each other...Kiss him, a shallow kiss, deeper and deeper...Hand, also hold He touched his lower body, moving gently, neither fast nor slow, still rhythmic...

Pan Qiqin kept kissing, and slowly pressed him against the wall. He continued to move with one hand, and turned on the faucet with the other, letting water pour down from the tops of their heads...

Pan Qiqin's desire was completely ignited, and his movements became more and more intense.He kept exploring and sucking, leaving scars of blood one after another like stamps on his neck, shoulders, everywhere, even teasing his lower body with his tongue, using his throat to relieve his pleasure …

Shen Jingyu raised her face and let the water hit her directly... The suppressed panting still came out...

"Ah!" He pushed Pan Qiqin's head violently, turned back quickly... let out a weak moan... and then the whole person fell into the tank...

The water, in due course, cleared away the cheerful drama.But he couldn't get rid of the heat in his body.

"It's too narrow here..." Pan Qiqin turned off the water, stepped out of the bathtub, took out a large towel, covered Shen Jingyu, who had fallen on the bathtub without any strength...then wrapped him up, let him support himself to stand up...

"Why...why..." The hoarse and hesitant voice finally rang out.

Pan Qiqin didn't answer him, but surrounded him, opened the door, and led him into the room again.

"Why...why..." Shen Jingyu hung her head, wearing a large scarf, sitting weakly on the edge of the bed, and finally couldn't help asking again.

Pan Qiqin still didn't answer him, just turned back and turned off the light, then bullied him, snatched his big scarf... and pushed him down on the bed again...

"Senior...let me in...let me in..."

"Ok…"

Pan Qiqin showed the only politeness he wanted to pursue tonight, and with permission, he finally penetrated him.

"Ah~" Shen Jingyu could only feel that the pleasure and pain in his body were instantly transmitted from his waist to the whole body like electricity...teaching him pain and joy...if it wasn't for the hindrance of the injury in his throat, the pleasure of feedback would be more vivid and more vivid Lively…

However, for Pan Qiqin, this sound is enough... enough for him to be crazy, enough for him to be excited, enough for him to speed up his movements to satisfy each other's frenzy of love...

Shen Jingyu's fists were still tightly clenched, however, his body moved and changed according to Pan Qiqin's movements~

Temptation itself is full of charm, but accepting the temptation is even more mixed with pleasure~

This night, no matter how deep and long it is, is not enough to make people crazy.However, Pan Qiqin's transformation made Shen Jingyu feel a hazy fear at the border of desire.

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Shen Jingyu woke up.

A person is lying on the bed.The scenery in front of me was very strange.

He hurriedly sat up, the tingling pain in his waist and buttocks reminded him of the accidental lingering with Pan Qiqin last night.

Look at the watch, it's past ten o'clock in the morning.He got out of bed naked, his clothes and pants were neatly arranged beside the computer desk, and A4 size paper was left on it.

Senior.I went to work first.

My house is empty in the morning.All out to work.So you just need to close the door when you want to go out.

I've bagged your clothes by the bedside.

You are about the same size as my brother, so I borrowed your jeans from my brother. Just wear mine.Put it on the computer desk.

Archin.

For some reason, looking at this message, Shen Jingyu felt extremely desolate.

Distraught, he hurriedly dressed...Looking around, he began to pay attention to this room...

I really didn't expect that a person who looks so light on the outside has such a well-organized world.Looking around, everything is well organized.

He was sitting in front of the computer desk, stroking the keyboard... Thinking of that time, when he saw his photo on the Internet, his heart almost broke out.With the familiar and rebellious corners of the eyes, the bright and sunny smile is as heart-pounding as when we first met.

Suddenly, the tapes scattered on the side caught his attention... He flipped through them, and suddenly felt numb in his shoulders...

No way…

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On the way back by car, Shen Jingyu couldn't even be happy about what happened last night.

seven years.Not a short time.I didn't deliberately remember this face, but I couldn't forget his eyes that were intoxicated by his own singing—

Senior, join me!Be with me, please~~ He asked capriciously.Followed around behind him, and he finally couldn't resist, so he promised him obsessively...

However, all these peace agreements broke down after impulsively confessing to him and forcing him to attend the orientation meeting.The memory between the two of them stopped spinning after he fell off the bass...

So, last night, when faced with his inexplicable transformation and greed, he nodded completely defenselessly.

It's just that even though I've long been used to this kind of relationship without the help of the law, I've never felt so bad as I do today.

In the car was the audio tape brought out from Pan Qiqin's room.This gentle and familiar voice, why does it sound so heartbreaking... I just feel that my chest, as if being pinched by someone, is so tight and dense that I can hardly breathe.After taking a few breaths, my heart was sour, and tears suddenly fell down.

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As soon as he got home, Mother Shen came out to greet him.

"Ah~ Where did you abandon it? Naji An didn't come back (why overnight)?"

Shen Jingyu looked haggard, just shook his head, bibi went upstairs, and wanted to go up.

Shen's mother grabbed him and said, "That Hongwen is still waiting for you up there."

Hongwen! !yes!Su Hongwen is still upstairs!

Shen Jingyu remembered what happened to him at home yesterday.Instantly, his face turned pale, and his whole body trembled uncontrollably.

"What's the matter? (What) you dare not give up? Then don't give up! Ouqi told him to be fat! (Go back) Oushuo, you haven't come back yet!" Shen's mother immediately pulled Shen Jingyu righteously step aside.

Shen Jingyu was provoked by her mother, but she calmed down, gently pushed her away, smiled reluctantly, turned and walked out the door.

He didn't know how long it took him to walk to the door of the upstairs room. He just felt that when he put his hands on the handles, he suddenly felt his hands and feet go weak, and his mind was like a ball of mud...

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As soon as Shen Jingyu entered the door, she saw him lying on the bed with his clothes on his back, but his legs were hanging by the bed. It seemed that he had waited for most of the night, and finally fell asleep when he couldn't hold on.

Shen Jingyu moved lightly, not daring to take a breath, but the slight sound still woke Su Hongwen awake.

"Are you... coming?" He sat up slowly, wiped his face tiredly, took a deep breath and said, "Now... when is it..."

Shen Jingyu gritted her teeth, and passed her wrist in front of him, letting him look at his watch.

"Morning... what's going on... I thought you were just going to take him to the station?"

"..."

Su Hongwen coughed dryly, sat on the edge of the bed, pulled him in front of him, and said softly, "Did something happen?"

Shen Jingyu's eyes met with his, but she still didn't say a word.

"Jing Yu, look at me. I'm asking you." Su Hongwen looked at him lightly from head to toe, frowned and said, "You...why come back dressed like this? Didn't you just go to the wedding banquet with me yesterday? I remember you didn't change."

Shen Jingyu finally turned his eyes away, but he couldn't help breathing quickly.

"Jingyu, look at me and tell me, where did you go yesterday? What did you do?"

Seeing that he still turned his head away, Su Hongwen's face suddenly sank, he stood up, and said coldly: "I want you to watch me speak, didn't you hear?"

A refreshing scent of soap suddenly hits the nostrils.Su Hongwen felt an uncontrollable irritability in his heart, turned around and picked up the small whiteboard at the side, threw it to Shen Jingyu and said, "Don't say it, just write it."

Shen Jingyu took a peek at him, slowly stretched out her hand, picked up the pen, but only wrote the word "I" on the whiteboard that was very crooked, and couldn't continue writing.

"How about it? Write it!" Su Hongwen said lightly.

Shen Jingyu had no choice but to raise her head now, and looked at him pleadingly... shook her head.

Su Hongwen's originally gentle and kind face suddenly became vicious, gritted his teeth expressionlessly, and muttered: "Why...you always can't change this habit?"

Shen Jingyu was startled for no reason, and was about to back away, when a big black figure suddenly approached him, before he had time to react, but felt his face was hot, his right ear was buzzing, and his whole body had lost his balance. Fell on the bed.

"Bitch!"

Shen Jingyu didn't care about his dizziness, so he quickly got up and wanted to rush out the door.However, Su Hongwen grabbed him with a backhand, rushed forward and grabbed him fiercely, and said angrily with his face flushed: "How on earth did you learn to be good?!" After shouting, he threw him back on the bed with all his strength, and walked up to the bed. He grabbed his wrists and said, "How does it feel to sleep with another man? Is it more satisfying and happier?"

Shen Jingyu gritted her teeth and looked at him without saying anything.Su Hongwen looked at him, trying to find some response from his silence.However, Shen Jingyu finally turned his eyes away.

"You...how...why...confront...ask me?" Shen Jingyu finally spoke.

Why? !Yes, why?Su Hongwen was taken aback, as if he felt that his position was not quite right at this time.

"Let go...I..." Shen Jingyu twisted his wrists, and Su Hongwen let go of the restraint in a daze at this moment, but as soon as he let him go, Su Hongwen's heart was instantly filled with uneasiness.

Shen Jingyu loosened her wrist, stroking her painful face, then picked up the whiteboard and wrote: "Since you don't want it, why bother to teach me!"

Looking at the writing on the whiteboard, Su Hongwen's chest heaved violently, couldn't help swallowing, and said cautiously: "Jing Yu...I didn't mean to hit you...I don't think you could have done anything yesterday...that man It's... probably just your friend... I think you're just tired... that's why you're at his house..."

Shen Jingyu looked at him for a while, then wrote: "No, you guessed it right, I slept with him yesterday. He is Pan Qiqin."

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A few days?How many days has it been?Pan Qiqin flipped through the desk calendar and counted with his fingers.One, two, three... ah... it's only been three days... why is life so difficult?

That day, the day in the car, Shen Jingyu's face suddenly broke into his heart somehow.And like entering no man's land.Hit the depths.

It turns out that it is not difficult to sleep with a man!No... It should be said that it is not difficult to sleep with him.

Only now did Pan Qiqin understand that as long as there is a little time, a little distance, a little jealousy, a little drunk... he can let himself cross the fence and have desire for that man.Primal desire.

But what next?

In the past few days, Shen Jingyu's mind has been filled with everything.He stared blankly at his palm, the scorching touch, the arrogant caress and the sex that is different from women, every time he thinks about it, it always makes him full of desire.

And he always thought that Shen Jingyu would be as cold and proud as he was seven years ago at any time, but he couldn't stand the torment of his indifference to him.Therefore, he will show weakness to himself and come back to chase after him.

However, a week later, not only did Shen Jingyu not make a [phone call], nor did she even hear from her.

Although they had been separated for seven years, Pan Qiqin never believed that Shen Jingyu had already developed the ability to have a one-night stand without being attached to someone.

Therefore, the mood of hoping that there will be no more involvement, but also hoping that he will chase after him, is selfish and contradictory, and of course it also caused him a lot of suffering.After a few days, Pan Qiqin felt very anxious and restless.

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Jing Mo: "Is your surname Pan?"

Jing Mo: "Excuse me, is your surname Pan?"

Jing Mo: "Please tell me, is there anyone named Pan here?"

As soon as the computer was turned on, a series of astonishing scarlet letters appeared in the chat room of the white website.

This guy... unexpectedly Pangren asked, is your surname Pan! ?What does he want to do? !

Pan Qiqin was so angry for no reason that he sent a message as soon as he got online...blocked the conversation...

Han Shuiyin: "Silence!"

Jing Mo: "Excuse me, is your surname Pan?"

Han Shuiyin: "...you are fucking crazy!!"

Jing Mo: "Excuse me, is your surname Pan?"

Han Shuiyin: "Senior, let's use ICQ to chat!"

Quiet: "...what is ICQ..."

Han Shuiyin: "...Wow... What are you doing! ICQ! Open it soon, your name is still offline!"

Jing Mo: "...Are you the Mr. Pan who came to my house?"

Hey, not quite right!Pan Qiqin's heart skipped a beat, and he said suddenly, "Aren't you Jing Mo himself? Who are you?"

Jing Mo: "I'm Jing Ya. Are you my elder brother's junior named Pan?"

Because there are many eyes and ears in the chat room, Pan Qiqin didn't want to reveal his true face on it, so he wrote vaguely: "What's the matter, what happened?"

Silent, paused for a long, long time, and finally wrote: "My brother has an accident."