goddess farmer

"It's really you, Xiao Yuan!"

"...It's me, you are Ozawa?"

"Where did you go? Xiaoyuan, do you know how worried I am about you?"

"Me too! I often dream of you, dreaming that you are alone in the mountains and forests, lost..."

"I had the same dream, dreaming that you were always looking for a way out!"

"I've been looking for you!"

"I've been looking for you too!"

……

Outside the light curtain, I was obsessively watching that "myself" and Jin Chan intimately expressing their concern and greetings to each other. I felt that at this moment, I was the "Fairy of Qinyuan", and in front of me was the former Ozawa, he has grown up...

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"Xiao Yuan, how did you come here all these years? How did you come to Heaven?"

"We got lost that year, and I couldn't find our thatched hut in the mountains. I didn't know what happened, so I walked out of the mountains, and then went to Lingtai Fangcun Mountain, and worshiped the master. He taught me some immortals. Later, Zhen Yuanzi recommended me to come to the Heavenly Court and took over the Peach Garden and the Herb Garden, and now they all call me Qinyuan Fairy!"

"You are Fairy Qinyuan? I didn't expect it! I was in Xitian before, and I heard that Fairy Qinyuan is psychic with all things, and can sense the wishes of trees, flowers, fruits, and all kinds of animals and birds, and can make them grow better... ...I have always admired you, but I never thought it was you!"

"I didn't expect that the legendary master Jin Chan, who was born with a spirit body and extremely intelligent, would be you? What's going on? How did you become Jin Chanzi?"

There was a silence.

"Perhaps, we are born different from other people! Xiaoyuan, do you still remember that the mountain forest when we were young was always surrounded by fairy spirits. As early as that time, we seemed to be psychic with all things and could perceive their emotions. Mind, they need sunshine and rain, and their every move seems to affect our hearts. I believe that only you and I have the same feeling."

"Ah."

"I remember the day we got lost, a gust of wind came from nowhere, the entire mountain forest seemed to be facing destruction, and the two of us were also separated. Like you, I was also lost in the mountains, and I didn't know it later. How did I get out of the mountains and went all the way to Xitian. I met a young monk who told me about Buddhism, the principle of equality of all beings, and the understanding that all things have spirits. I followed his advice and went to Xitian. It was also a chance Coincidentally, the Tathagata Buddha took a fancy to my understanding, so he accepted me as an apprentice..."

……

The two first talked about the past, each immersed in excitement.

They talked about the days when they depended on each other in the mountains and forests, about the grandfather who raised them, about the interesting stories of them climbing trees to pick fruits and picking herbs together...

"Ozawa, what are your plans for the future?" She asked him with a longing expression as the two walked through the forest.

His face moved slightly, and he paused for a moment, and when he came back to his senses, he was also silent.

She could feel that he had something on his mind.

"what happened?"

"Xiao Yuan, this may be the last time we meet!" His expression became a little dignified and a little lonely.

Her heart began to ache...

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I, who was outside the light curtain, seemed to be able to feel her sorrow and his helpless determination...

"How could this be? Why?" She could feel the helpless determination.

"In order to make my Buddha great and let my Western Heaven Buddhism continue, I must do this!"

"What do they want you to do?"

"Xiao Yuan, this is also my voluntary. Reincarnation..."

"Are you going to reincarnate? After reincarnation, you will never remember me?"

"I hope to remember you too!"

"Reincarnated into what?"

"mortal!"

"Why do they want you to be reincarnated?"

"This... have you heard that after Jin Chan is reincarnated as a mortal, he can live forever after eating a bite of his body..."

"Don't talk about it, I don't want to hear it, it's not true! I don't want you to be a golden cicada, you are Tang Ze, you are Ozawa!"

"But, I am also a golden cicada! I have the responsibility to make such a sacrifice for Xitian!"

"Such a sacrifice, for Xitian? You reincarnated as a mortal just to let them... eat you? Let them live forever and let you die?..."

……

Her uncontrollable grief made my heart tremble outside the light curtain. I almost couldn't bear it, and fell from the midair above the light curtain...

When I met Jin Chan for the first time, I said goodbye like this...

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"Xiaoyuan, I failed you! I didn't want to tell you, but you will know soon, I'm afraid you will make trouble, so I'll tell you personally, it's all voluntary."

Jin Chan seemed to speak calmly, but there was a kind of sadness and helplessness in the calm voice.He has a very high understanding and is sensitive to everything in the world. How could he be willing to reincarnate as a mortal and let those people eat him one bite at a time. What a cruel and terrifying thing, how could he be voluntary.He was just helpless, for the sake of Buddhism, for the sake of the Buddha's plea, his heart softened to others, but his heart was as hard as iron to himself.

How could he not love himself and give up on himself like this.How could he treat Qin Yuan like this, the woman who depended on him for life, who cared about him day and night...

……

How could he do this to me?

Outside the light curtain, my heart uttered such a cry.The me inside is also mourning in the same way.

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"How could you treat me like this? How could you treat me like this? I don't allow you to do this, and I don't allow them to treat you like this? If you die, what's the point of my life? For so many years, I have lived day and night I was thinking about it, but it turned out like this, no, absolutely not..."

"Xiao Yuan! Calm down, please!" Jin Chan was also a little excited.

Looking carefully, there were two lines of tears hanging on his cheeks, and he couldn't help staying.At this time, "she" is like a tearful person.

She reached out and wiped the tears on his face; he held her hand tightly...

Then, the two hugged each other tightly, each other's heartbeats were beating...

"Xiaoyuan, I often think of the days when we were young in the mountains and forests. That was the best time in my life. The trees, flowers, plants, birds, beasts, insects and fish in the mountains and forests are like our relatives. We wandered in the sunshine In the mist, free and carefree, what a beautiful day it was..."

"Xiao Yuan, we are all very spiritual people, and we can feel the spiritual power of all things in the world and the breath of all living beings. We are not only living for ourselves, but also for them! This should also be our dream. , all beings are equal, all things are equal, do you know that I, Xitian Buddha, preached these principles, and I am willing to work hard and dedicate myself to them. For this dream, for all living beings, I have lost myself a long time ago. Only in the dead of night When I think about you and me when I was young, I will laugh..."

As she listened, she couldn't help sobbing.

"You are so stupid, Ozawa! You are so stupid! How can you treat yourself so cruelly? Don't you preach the equality of all beings, don't you preach the non-killing? How did the Buddha let you go this way? ? Is he a tyrant, is he a devil?"

"Xiao Yuan! Don't talk nonsense! The Buddha didn't force me. He also has everything in the world in his heart. I chose it myself. I don't blame him."

"Are you stupid? You chose it yourself? I think he induced you. What is the equality of all living beings? What is for the world and not for yourself? What is the world? I also understand the principle of equality for all living beings. In Jiarong Yushou, I have worked hard for those creatures all my life, but I will not dedicate my body, and it is in such a tragic form..."

"I'm different from you. You are the Fairy of Qinyuan, and you take farming and animal husbandry as your career, but I am a golden cicada, and I want to carry forward the Dharma and strengthen my Buddha, but the strength of Xitian is still very weak now, When many Buddhist disciples reach their deadlines, if they don’t have enough long-lived flat peaches and long-lived ginseng fruits, they will pass away, and the disciples whom I have worked so hard to cultivate in Buddhism will die one by one. I want to save them, and use my life to save them..."

"What about them? They just have the heart to eat you?"

"We are all to carry forward my Buddha and strengthen my Buddha!"

"Hmph," a sneer, "to strengthen a Buddha who does not kill and believe in the equality of all living beings, but wants to eat you who are so kind and righteous? What else is there to promote for such a Buddha?"

A moment of silence.

"Xiaoyuan, let's meet in a hurry, so we won't mention this! I just hope you forget me!"

"Forget you? I want to forget you too, so I won't be in such pain. But is it possible? Unless one day, I'm no longer me!"

"Xiao Yuan, I beg you one thing!"

"Speak!"

"You have to live well!"

"Alive?... Will I live well without you?"

"Xiao Yuan, I'm just reincarnated, not gone forever, maybe one day in the future, we will have a chance to meet each other, and the day when we will remember each other!"

She moved slightly, and her grief eased a little.

"is it?"

"Well, you stay in the heavenly court. Remember, don't tell anyone that we know each other, don't tell anyone that we met!"

"why?"

"You and I belong to two factions. I don't want outsiders to suspect you!"

"These, I don't care!"

"But you have to promise me!" His expression was very firm. "Even if it's the last thing I ask you!"

"What's the need? After you reincarnate, you won't remember me anymore! What's the point of knowing you and me?"

She was speechless for a while, and it could be seen that she was very desperate and sad.

Jin Chan was also helpless at the side, but stayed silently for a long time.

Then he said: "Xiao Yuan, I'm leaving, you... Take care!"

He left, letting go of her hand.The moment she turned around, she stepped forward and hugged him tightly from behind.

Afterwards, he broke free lightly and walked away...

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Outside the light curtain, my heart seems to be broken.I know that those scenes happened between me and Jin Chan, that "I" should be my memory, but now I can only feel it through this kind of wait-and-see...

The later scene in the light curtain is about Monkey King. He came to heaven and was wronged. Rescued him, and then caused him to make a fuss in the Heavenly Palace...

These, Sun Xingzhe has already told me, but through the light curtain in the Tongtian mirror, I revisited it again, and it is even more real...

Everything is like a movie, but those scenes remain in my heart for a long time, hard to erase.I don't want to erase it either, I really want to remember all of this at all times, remember his appearance, her voice, the feeling between them...

They called each other affectionately: "Xiao Yuan", "Xiao Ze"...

The author has something to say: I wrote it in the early morning, listening to the sound of rain outside the window!