Cannon fodder refuses to recycle!

Jian Ze'an stayed in Xu Mengran's room for a long time.

The two were not familiar with each other, and in the end they just swiped their phones in embarrassment.

Jian Ze'an opened the V letter, and Cheng Zichen sent him a message:

【are you home yet? 】

Jian Ze'an replied:

[Well... how should I put it, something happened. 】

【What's wrong? 】

[You know my brother is suspected of dating online, right?When we came home, we met that person, who was our new neighbor.More importantly, I know this person, who is the e-sports player I admired in junior high school, Light. 】

Jian Ze'an was definitely a serious e-sports fan at the time, the kind who followed the live broadcast and watched the games every day. Anyone who was close to him had heard of Light's name from him.Naturally, Cheng Zichen was no exception, and he also witnessed the time when Jian Ze'an collapsed because of Chaoge team's loss of the world championship in the third year of junior high school.

[Your brother also likes men?I didn't see it.But the name Light, is it the missing contestant you scolded me before the final? 】

【right.But there is something else hidden about this matter...]

Xu Changjun's past is too complicated, and it takes a long time to type. Jian Ze'an originally wanted to make a speech, but glanced at Xu Mengran, and was too embarrassed to say something about her family in front of her, so he typed and summarized it concisely.

Break things down into paragraphs.

Cheng Zichen replied: […]

Jian Ze'an understood that the other party didn't know what to say.He also felt that the whole thing was like a joke from the heavens, a coincidence within a coincidence, and the tragedy broke out in one day, only to have the unclear result back then.

He couldn't help but sigh with Cheng Zichen:

[I am complicated now.Especially complicated.Back then, I liked Light so much, but in the end I hated it so much that I really gritted my teeth when I turned black.But he is really miserable, so miserable, I can't hate him, but the feeling of being poured with cold water on Xing's head... I still remember it vividly.The resentment over the years has not dissipated so quickly. ...Well, I don't even know how to face him.Especially his relationship with my brother - my brother is holding someone to comfort him now, I think they will be together.I'm afraid we will see each other often in the future. 】

Cheng Zichen's reply was very calm:

【Is there anything you don't know how to face?Although he had a reason for what happened back then, it is true that he failed you fans.In any case, he is the one who needs to give an explanation.It is he who should think about how to face you. 】

Jian Ze'an was taken aback for a moment, but after thinking about it, it seemed to be the same.

It may be because I was affected by that dream, and I always felt that my brother would stand firmly on the other side, and the result of my conflict with Xu Changjun was that I was unlucky.

But even if my brother and Xu Changjun are still together, the reality is different from the dream.

From the beginning to the end of the dream, the reason why Xu Changjun ran away before the final was not revealed.And now that I know the other party's past, although I haven't completely let go of it, I can't hate the other party, so naturally I won't target him like in the dream.

What's more, after thinking about it, Jian Ze'an didn't think that her brother would be the kind of person who thoughtlessly stood up as a boyfriend.He is willing to trust his brother.

In this case, it seems that there is really nothing to worry about.

Even if I have an awkward relationship with Xu Changjun, so what?

Maybe after a long time, the two parties are familiar with each other, and the relationship will be better.Even if not, it's a big deal if you don't get in touch, it won't matter.

Indeed, as Zichen said, between himself and Xu Changjun, it was Xu Changjun who needed to think about how to face him.

Thinking of this, Jian Ze'an felt a lot lighter.

So he was in the mood to gossip with Cheng Zichen.

【Hey, I reckon that Xu Changjun, that is Light, should be together with my brother.You don't even know, just now when the brothers and sisters finished talking about the past, my brother went up and hugged him, that distressed expression... I haven't seen it since I was a child.I didn't expect my brother to move Fanxin like this, it made my tooth hurt.How should I put it... I think if Xu Changjun and his stepfather appeared in front of him, my brother, who usually pays attention to self-cultivation the most, would rush straight up and beat him to death. 】

Cheng Zichen didn't reply for a long time.

Jian Ze'an sent a question mark.

After a while, Cheng Zichen said:

【Baby, if you act like this, I think you are secretly expressing envy. 】

Seeing that Cheng Zichen didn't call him that after he was five years old, Jian Ze'an blushed directly, and didn't even bother to think about what the other party meant by that.

After reacting for a while, I was stunned by this news. I was about to ask, but another sentence was said:

[Is it because I don't love you enough?Let you watch other people fall in love toothache? 】

Jian Ze'an looked at the other party's message, his mouth was dry, his face was hot, and he repeatedly typed and deleted on the virtual keyboard with his fingers, not knowing what to say.

... He was simply expressing emotion, that's not what he meant.

After all, Jian Zeping is always restrained and rational.The last time I saw him in color was when he helped Xia Heran and was beaten up by several big guys.

At that time, the air pressure in my brother's whole body was extremely low, like a gunpowder barrel that would explode if poked.

But then he felt different from now.At that time, I also felt distressed and angry at those who hurt and cared about, but not like today...

How should I put it, looking at the expression, I can't wait to hold the person in my arms carefully at the tip of my heart and take care of her.

In short, Jian Ze'an had never seen Jian Zeping like this, so he couldn't help but talk to Cheng Zichen and complain.

How could it be interpreted as envy?

What kind of enterprise-level understanding is this? !

Jian Ze'an hung his finger on the screen and didn't know how to reply, seeing that he didn't speak, he continued to send messages.

[When you were injured before, I wished I could beat the person who hurt you to death.However, I will not make you uncomfortable after that.Baby, don't envy others, I will give you the best. 】

Jian Ze'an's hands were so soft that he almost couldn't hold the phone.

His throat was dry enough to smoke, he stared at the words on the screen, read them over and over, over and over again, his heart felt as if soaked in fruit wine, it was sore and swollen, and he was dizzy and slightly drunk Misty.

He has no time to envy others... Bah, he never envied others!

But right now, really, I can't even remember what other people's names are.

There was only Cheng Zichen left in his eyes and heart.

He felt unbelievable in a daze, could this be what Cheng Zichen said?So... so nasty, so toothache...?

Jian Ze'an stared at the profile picture on the V letter, then looked at the name on it, and confirmed it twice before he dared to believe that he was not hysterical.

He was stupid for a long time before his brain slowly accepted the fact that it was Cheng Zichen who said such words.

When I realized it, I was ashamed, ashamed and embarrassed-in fact, it was more sweet, but I was embarrassed to admit it.

He, Jian Ze'an, has lived for more than ten years. He is straightforward and cheerful. He is known as "Brother An". If you ask him to admit that his heart is sweetened by such love words, he will not recognize him.

So enduring the heat on his face, he poked his fingers on the keyboard:

[You're...you're disgusting.What is that called? 】

There was a voice over there after a while.Jian Ze'an didn't want to click on it. After all, there was Xu Mengran in the room. Just look at what Cheng Zichen said just now, who knows what his voice is going to say.

But Jian Ze'an was about to be driven crazy by Cheng Zichen's news one by one, his fingers trembled a little, and he turned on the voice immediately, and Cheng Zichen's voice with a smile came out of the phone:

"What's the matter, baby? Didn't I call you that when I was a child? Reminiscence memory?"

Cheng Zichen's voice was a little lower than usual, with a slight smile and breath, as if he was coaxing gently, especially the word "baby" with a touch of doting, making Su's ears numb .

Jian Ze'an couldn't help but blushed just now just reading the text, and now he took half a step back and leaned directly against the wall, his legs were a little weak.

Another person in the room——Xu Mengran looked up from her mobile phone in surprise, and couldn't help laughing when she saw Jian Ze'an's appearance:

"Boyfriend? It sounds like I love you very much."

Jian Ze'an's ears were red to the point of bleeding, but he was still a bit burdened, and he tried his best to keep his expression calm and nodded.

But he didn't know that the girl across from him glanced at his blushing face, and understood everything, but she didn't feel like joking because of unfamiliarity, so she smiled and lowered her head to swipe her phone.

With a blushing face, Jian Zean gesticulated like flying on the phone:

[You also know it was when you were a child!Don't...don't call it that! 】

【dislike?When you were young, every time you lost your temper or were sick and uncomfortable, I called you baby to coax you, and you would be much quieter, and you would hug me obediently and call me brother.Thought you liked the title. 】

Jian Ze'an gritted her back molars, wondering if this is something she likes or not?ah?It would be fine if he was five years old this year, he is already seventeen.

This kind of sticky address... Is it appropriate to call him Brother An?

[You are enough.I know you're good to me...don't call me that. 】

He paused and replied:

[Okay, if you don’t like it, don’t bark. 】

Jian Ze'an stared at this, obviously he should breathe a sigh of relief, finally this person didn't call him such childish and soft nicknames anymore, but for some reason, a certain corner of his heart felt inexplicably empty.

Before he could figure out the complexity in his heart, Cheng Zichen sent another message:

[When you like it, I will call you that again.Baby. 】

...Why did you continue to call it otherwise?Also, what is "when you like"?

Jian Ze reassures me that I am such an adult, of course I don't like pet names in childhood, and as I get older and I'm an adult, it's even more impossible to like them.What a joke.

Jian Ze'an is completely puzzled now.Until some time after the college entrance examination, when his eyes were blurred by tears, and his hoarse voice could only make a broken sound, someone put his lips next to his ear and called him "baby" softly, but the force was completely inconsistent with the voice Fierce, and after feeling it for a while, he smiled and said:

"Just say you'll like it."

At that time, Jian Ze'an didn't even have the strength to refute.

Of course, that's another story.

At this moment, Jian Ze'an looked at the subsequent news, and Cheng Zichen did not use that soft address again, and the heat on his face gradually disappeared, and he continued to chat with the other party.

Until Jian Zeping knocked on the door and told Jian Ze'an to go home.

"Brother, are you and Xu Changjun married?"

Saying goodbye to the brothers and sisters of the Xu family, Jian Ze'an and the two walked back to their home through the corridor.As soon as the door was closed, Jian Ze'an couldn't wait to ask.He chatted with Cheng Zichen just now, and his heart was full of sweetness, and his awkwardness towards Xu Changjun had long since been forgotten.

When he is happy, he longs for the sun to shine on the world and peace, so he can't help but pay attention to his brother's emotional state enthusiastically.

Unexpectedly, Jian Zeping shook his head.

Jian Ze'an was dumbfounded: "...It didn't work? I looked from the side and felt that the two of you treated each other unusually."

Jian Zeping frowned: "I didn't mention it. It's not the time. He felt uncomfortable when he revealed the things he didn't want to face in the past. Didn't I just take advantage of the situation by saying those things now?"

Jian Ze'an had nothing to say.

His brother is such a person with a high moral bottom line.Fine.

But seeing the way Xu Changjun looked at his brother, Jian Ze'an felt that it was too late.

He stopped talking about the ambiguity between his brother and Xu Changjun, and asked instead: "Is he feeling better after comforting him? I see that although his eyes were red just now, he is obviously much more relaxed."

"Well." Jian Zeping opened the box and began to pack his luggage, "I persuaded him, and then suggested that he make a public explanation and apology to the former team and fans, and he agreed. After making up his mind, he put down one thing in his heart, although It still hurts to think about it, but it’s not as painful as it used to be.”

Jian Ze'an was stunned for a moment, stunned: "Brother, you—you just asked him to apologize publicly? Although I'm a fan of him, I feel miserable after hearing what happened in his family three years ago. Although I also think he should stop Come out and make it clear, but you said this to him when he was feeling uncomfortable? Didn't he turn against you because you provoked him?"

Jian Zeping stopped what he was doing and glanced at him:

"I would persuade him this way because this is what he thinks deep in his heart. I just saw it and pointed it out.... Maybe you misunderstood him because of what happened three years ago. I have known him for half a year, yes He can also be said to be more understanding, he is not a person who is not responsible. Back then... an accident happened at home, and he was too stimulated, so he retired without a proper explanation.

"People will always have a little stress reaction under the blow of excessive pain. On the one hand, he didn't receive the last call from his mother because he was preparing for the war, and he missed his mother's last words. In addition, his mother always opposed it during her lifetime. He played e-sports, and after his mother passed away, he became a little bit horny when stimulated. Thinking that if he didn't come out to play e-sports and stayed in his hometown, his stepfather would not dare to do anything to his sister, and his mother would not stab someone Things. On the other hand, I feel ashamed to face the team and fans, and I dare not look at the team's affairs before.

"At the most critical moment, he was immersed in pain and didn't stand up to explain. The more he dragged on, the more he couldn't find the right time. He told me that he slowed down later, and thought about explaining it on V blog, but It’s been so long, and I’m going to bring it up again, and I feel that I’m going to stimulate the fans and the team again, and expose the scars again. Another thing, he wants to protect the reputation of his mother behind him, and he’s afraid that his sister will be contaminated by rumors, so it’s impossible to give a completely true explanation , I think it’s better not to say the possible reasons. But he just said a lot of inner thoughts under the emotion. I can hear that although his mother’s death is painful, but it’s been a long time, and he’s trying to find a way Revenge—he took advantage of his stepfather’s gambler temper to set up a situation, and let his stepfather beat someone into the situation because of a gambling debt dispute—the pain is not so painful. What makes him grieve now is actually more What I owe is to the team and the fans. Maybe he didn’t realize it. He has been torturing himself. He feels guilty but dare not think about it, dare not face it. All I did was point this out and push him. "

Listening to Jian Zeping's detailed analysis, Jian Ze'an felt that his previous guess about Xu Changjun was gradually overthrown, and a new image of Light appeared in his heart.

"Then... what is he going to do?"

Jian Ze'an imagined it for a while, and felt a little uncomfortable.

"No, brother, you don't know much about the e-sports industry. There are really all kinds of audiences, and many of them are not qualified. Besides, the Internet is easy for people to vent all kinds of emotions. I don't want to mention Xu Changjun's family. , He was at a loss on the issue of the competition, and he didn't want to tell the truth, so he would be scolded to death if he jumped out to apologize! And maybe some people will maliciously speculate that he is hype... You push him, yes Let him face more trouble. He may have been under a lot of pressure in the past few years because of these troubles. Are you sure he can bear it?"

"No matter how much the outside world scolds, it's better than tormenting yourself with guilt all the time. And,"

Jian Zeping smiled lightly,

"No matter what he scolds, I will accompany him."

Jian Ze'an stared blankly at the calm expression on his brother's face, as if he could see a firm determination from under the seemingly calm face of the other party.

He couldn't say the word "no".

Brother is the one who loves Xu Changjun the most, he says that all the time, what else can he say?

From the perspective of former fans, Jian Ze'an also felt that there should be a formal apology to put an end to the past.

So he nodded:

"If he can take it."

Jian Zeping took the clothes out of the box, put them on the sofa, and patted Jian Ze'an's head again:

"Ze'an, thank you."

"Huh? Brother, why are you thanking me?"

"No matter what Chang Jun said, I'm sorry for you fans. I still remember you yelling and scolding him in the room when you were in the third grade of junior high school."

Jian Zeping hooked the corner of his mouth,

"You can treat him calmly and understand him, I know it's because of me."

Jian Ze'an avoided his hand awkwardly: "What do you mean, thank me for him? I'm your own brother, so it's not right for me to think about you? If you are so polite, I will be angry."

Jian Zeping smiled: "I'm not being polite, not on his behalf, but on my own behalf. I know you're holding back because of me. If you don't know what you've paid, you'd be a jerk."

He paused, and reached out to rub Jian Ze'an's hair again, this time Jian Ze'an didn't hide.

"It's really lucky to be your brother."

After he finished speaking, he coughed, as if he was embarrassed to say such expressive words so bluntly.

As the eldest son, Jian Zeping was raised as an heir since he was a child. In many aspects, he has the characteristics of the traditional "pillar" of Huaguo who is not good at expressing and likes to take care of things silently.

He seldom said such things, and he was a little embarrassed when he finished, so he rubbed his younger brother's head again, said "I put the clothes back in the room", and pretended to be calm and natural, but actually walked into the room at a faster pace. Walk.

Behind him, Jian Ze'an touched the place on the top of his head that was rubbed by his brother, and showed a silly smile:

"...I am also very lucky to be your younger brother."

At this moment, he finally fully confirmed that the third dream must be out of bounds.His brother is the best brother!

The author has something to say: Here comes the big fat chapter!Just say sweet or not~

Hehe, Little Jane really wins, her boyfriend and brother love him very much.