star reflection

Useful..." Xiaoling tugged at the corner of her mouth in vain, but finally burst into tears: "No matter what I do, it is wrong, and now I really don't know what to do...Doctor, please help me Help my brother, if this goes on...I'm worried...I'm worried that he will do something stupid..."

"..." Dr. Gu was silent for a moment, and finally nodded: "I will do my best."

I stood by and watched the doctor comfort the collapsed girl, feeling sore in my heart.Alas... I sighed, and went up to touch Xiaoling's head.A girl in her early twenties has to shoulder such a heavy burden... I am sorry for you.If...if I'm still here...

"I", is it still there?

What am I talking about?

"However..." Mr. Gu paused, and said: "If the situation continues to deteriorate, he will have to be sent to the hospital. Because of the existence of that person, Mr. Huo was relatively stable, almost like a normal person I'm living the same life, but I just don't have any memory... But judging from the current situation, it's safer to send Mr. Huo to the hospital. When he's emotionally stable, I'll chat with him and learn more about the situation .”

Xiaoling didn't speak, but nodded vigorously.

The sudden silence lingered between the two of them. I could see that the doctor seemed to have something to say, but he hesitated.Xiaoling looked at her favorite brother absent-mindedly.

I don't know how long it took before the doctor finally said: "I have an idea... This may be good news for you. But I need to confirm it. This requires the use of items related to his memory. Those little Things, where did you receive them? Can you show them to me."

"It's...in a box. I'll get it for you." Xiaoling rubbed her eyes, went to the room and took out a big iron box and put it on the table, but didn't open it.I'm so curious about this box, but I can't touch it, let alone open it.So I could only wait helplessly, and a strange feeling appeared in my heart...

The contents of that box... seem to have a strange attraction to me.

Dr. Gu stroked the patterns on the tin box with his fingers, looked at Xiao Ling who was nervous and said slowly: "Actually, it's not necessarily a bad thing that he can think of that person."

Xiaoling and I raised our heads at the same time, and looked at Dr. Gu suspiciously.

"Although it was caused by external stimuli, the more or less recovery of memory also shows that he has the possibility of 'returning to normal'...Miss Huo, please don't get too excited, just say that there will be this possibility. In fact, it is more likely Yes, it is to stay in this state forever...

"Besides, even if the memory will be restored, it will be very subtle, and I will remember it bit by bit...for example..."

Dr. Gu opened the box, and carefully took out the contents with a cautious attitude unique to doctors——

It was a mess of little clutter that looked ordinary, nothing special.Among them, there are a few bookmarks made of leaves, a small bunch of dried flowers, a few messy paintings, some small things made of wool, a few small empty bottles... There are many, many, piled up on the table. one slice.

However, it is these ordinary gadgets that give me a warm feeling like bathing in the sun.

But it was something else that caught my attention even more.

There is also a thick stack of paper-wrapped things in the iron box, which looks like a photo in shape.I unconsciously turned my attention to the photo, but Dr. Gu didn't show it until the end... This made me a little disappointed.

A little... just a little, really.

The doctor's statement continued: "He will think of any small things. For example, the silhouette of a leaf, a fresh scent of flowers, a gorgeous starry sky, or random essays in childhood...everything may change. The embodiment of the person he relies on the most in his heart. Because it is the only thing he can think of related to that person."

Across the distant fog of time, a childish voice appeared in my mind.Ah... isn't that what I asked my mother when I was a child?A naive and ridiculous question...

Do people become ghosts after death?

Yes.

What does it look like when a person becomes a ghost?

This...whatever he is in the hearts of those who love him the most will become what he is.

……

Like the waves of the sea, as if there was a bang on the ground, in the process of wandering in the world, the words that my peers said to me suddenly flooded into my mind——

You are a leaf...a mess...like a milk bottle...I can't see you, just a scent...

And... those late nights away from the hustle and bustle of the city, the beautiful scenery of the sea seen on the cliffs by the sea-a gorgeous reflection of stars that is different from the sky.

It turns out...those stars...are my reflection?

Then who am I?

……

ah!Ah ah ah ah ah! ! !

I hugged my head, knelt down beside the table, and let out a roar that no one could hear——

It hurts too much, it hurts too much... so does the head, so does the heart...

"Besides, your brother is not born with amnesia. The accident seven years ago, the violent impact and the shock of losing his parents made him become like this..."

The doctor picked up the stack of photos, but accidentally scattered them all over the floor.Hundreds of photos flashed before my eyes, but the static pictures were dynamically displayed in front of my eyes...

No, that's not the picture.Those are... memories.I closed my eyes, groaning in pain... Countless pictures flashed in my mind, and finally I fixed on Ah Qin's shining eyes under the starry sky.

The vast galaxy stretches from this side of the sky to the other side of the horizon.

"Do you know why I like Mars the most among the eight planets? Not only because of its beautiful color or rich legends, but also because of..."

His face was flushed, but his eyes were still fixed on me.

"Because it reminds me of you."

"X, I like you."

fragment four

4,

I will take pictures of our every day and hang them on the wall.

Then when I was making breakfast for him, I pointed to the photo of the two of us to recall the past.

There are so many things rushing into my head that I am overwhelmed.

who I am?Who is Yan Xi?

There are too many things pouring in in an instant, but it seems that nothing has appeared, and everything is close to nothing.

The doctor and Xiaoling were still talking at the table, but I couldn't hear a word.Ah Qin was still obediently sitting by the window with her knees hugged.At this moment, he raised his head and looked out the window.After yesterday's heavy rain, the sky is blue and the sun is shining softly and warmly.

Today is a good day to watch the stars.

I went forward and squatted behind Ah Qin.His hair is very soft, soft and docile.The sunlight penetrated through the window, coating his body with a faint golden layer.I stared blankly for a moment, then gently pressed my forehead against his back.

Later, Dr. Gu took Ah Qin into the back room to talk. I lingered at the door for a long time, but finally did not go in.

Xiaoling sat on the sofa with a row of photos on her lap.Suddenly, a drop of water landed on the photo, wetting the faces of the two people in the photo.The photos were repeated over and over again, showing the shadows of the same two people.

Clean faces, pure smiles, and the movement and stillness of the temperament of the two formed a complete atmosphere that no one could intervene.

The man who grinned almost to the ears and curled up his little curly hair is probably the swallow in their mouth.

Looking at those photos, I complained silently in my heart: What's the matter with this person, he looks heartless and smiles like an emoji... Most of these photos were taken after Ah Qin lost his memory ?He actually... can still laugh like this.

Heartless.I muttered: I am not worthy of Ah Qin at all.

Hundreds of photos are fragments of countless memories.I looked at it for a while, and realized that it was all familiar scenes.

Under the huge banyan tree, the man was sound asleep, lying on his back.And Ah Qin was reading a book at the side, with his palms on the man's head, his slender fingers intertwined with his hair; in the brightly colored playground, the man wrapped his arms around Ah Qin's neck, and the taller Ah Qin was startled, Bending over helplessly but smiling happily; two people having a water fight with each other at the beach; two people who became hot dogs under the sun of the summer drought; two people pushing a cart in the supermarket to buy daily necessities slowly... Countless There are countless photos, each with a date and a small record written in water pen on the back, and the record came to an abrupt end three months ago.

Instead, there is an accident news.

Ghosts don't have hearts, otherwise, I think they must be beating non-stop at this time.

On a certain day in a certain year, a man was involved in a car accident on a certain street and died on the spot.

The accompanying picture is mosaiced, but I can recognize that figure...not just the figure I saw repeatedly in the pile of photos just now...it is also the figure I have seen in the mirror day after day shadow.

Actually... I already understood it, but I dare not admit it, and I have never dared to take the initiative to think of what I should think of.

Actually... that person is not someone else.

that's me.

I am... Yan Xie.

...that Yan Xie who grew up with Ah Qin's childhood sweetheart.That heartless swallow.That Yan Xie who had a crush on Huo Qin but was confessed by Huo Qin.That one... Yan Xi who loved Huo Qin deeply, and was deeply loved by Huo Qin at the same time.That one...the sinful Yan Xie who left Huo Qin behind and went to another world alone.

I am Yanxi.