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"I didn't cry." Jiang Qingtang's eyes were covered with moisture, and his mouth was stiff with a nasal voice.

Guan Xu couldn't help laughing, "Okay, you didn't cry, these tears fell from a little fool, okay?"

Jiang Qingtang stared at her with wet eyes, "I'm not a fool."

"I didn't say you were a fool." Guan Xu's face was full of innocence and injustice, "I said that the one who shed tears is a fool. Didn't Xiaotang cry?"

Jiang Qingtang took the initiative to fall into her pit, and couldn't say no to her, so she had no choice but to ignore her, wiped away her tears and went out, picked up the orange she had just peeled on the coffee table, tore off the remaining white fibers on it, tore it in half, and stared at it. Looking at the coffee table, he started to be in a daze again.

Desperate, with a red nose, looking pitiful.

"Xiaotang." Guan Xu sat beside her and hugged her, unable to persuade Jiang Qingtang to come out of the horns, so he could only sigh, "Is that Jiang Ruobin really that important to you?"

From Guan Xu's point of view, the relationship between Jiang Ruobin and Jiang Qingtang is somewhat special because of the bond of blood relationship. In fact, the things he has done to Jiang Qingtang over the years are not as good as strangers. , just because of the blood relationship, she treated Jiang Qingtang so badly, she still thinks about this big brother, in Guan Xu's view, it's ironic.

Jiang Qingtang remembered that Jiang Ruobin was her elder brother, but Jiang Ruobin didn't regard her as a younger sister at all.

Did you push your sister into the fire pit?Because of him, Jiang Qingtang almost married a wretched and greedy paralyzed second ancestor.

Thinking of this, Guan Xu gritted his teeth.

Jiang Qingtang was taken aback when he heard the words, thought for a long time, but couldn't figure it out.

Is it important?In fact, it's not true. Having an older brother these years is the same as not having an older brother. Didn't he grow up well and safely?

But it’s not right to say that it’s not important, Jiang Ruobin is the only sibling left to him by his late parents, they all say that blood is thicker than water, Jiang Ruobin is the only person in this world who has the blood of his parents flowing like himself, Even if he doesn't recognize him, Jiang Qingtang doesn't know what relatives she has in this world.

"After all, he is my brother." After a long silence, Jiang Qingtang said in a low voice, "We have turned against each other, and parents will not rest in peace if they know."

Guan Xu sneered, thinking sarcastically, their parents, Quan Xia, knew how Jiang Ruobin treated his only sister as a human being, so they probably really felt restless.

Jiang Qingtang sniffed, her shoulders slumped, she hunched over, and her voice was long and sad, "It would be fine if Mom and Dad didn't give birth to me."

"If only..." she said, her nose became sore and her eyes became wet, "If only they had a brother."

"I was the one who killed them." Jiang Qingtang burst into tears, "If it weren't for me, my parents and brother would definitely live happily."

For 15 years, Jiang Qingtang often thought, if she hadn't been born, would her parents not have died?There is no car accident, no funeral, they have lived well and healthy up to now, watching Jiang Ruobin grow up, and establishing this career for the Jiang family, they are proud of him, and they are proud of him because he has reached the age of marriage but has no girlfriend. Urging, I hope he can get married early so that they can quickly embrace their grandchildren, just like most parents, although they are the same, they are so happy.

"Fool." Guan Xu put his palms against the base of her neck, pressed her head against his chest, let her cry against her, listened to her sobs, felt her thin shoulders trembling unceasingly, and Guan Xu's heart followed suit. Twitching, sighing, "Your parents, they brought you into this world, the danger is imminent, they use their own lives to protect you, not to make you feel sorry for yourself, but to let you live well with their share."

"Live healthy and happy."

"How sad it would be if their spirits in heaven knew that you thought so."

Jiang Qingtang didn't believe it, she only thought that Guan Xu said this deliberately to comfort her, her chest became more sore, and finally grabbed Guan Xu's collar and sobbed suppressedly, out of breath.

"If only I hadn't been born." She cried hoarsely and exhaled hissingly as she spoke, "I'm a sinner and shouldn't be alive."

Guan Xu hugged her, stroked the back of her head, patted the back of her heart, listened to her crying in the chest, almost tore off Guan Xu's eardrums, her eyes were hot and almost shed tears, and she blinked vigorously, He spoke with difficulty, "Does Xiaotang know, I investigated that car accident 15 years ago."

"Your parents... maybe now I should call them parents too..." Guan Xu's throat choked slightly, "I have seen the video of the police collecting evidence. Tang was protected under her body, well protected and airtight, so Xiaotang was able to survive, grow up safely, and become an upright and kind person."

"I'm sorry for them..." Jiang Qingtang's eyes were red, swollen and burning from crying, her mouth was opened wide, her face was distorted from crying, and finally she could only let out a meaningless roar.

"You didn't feel sorry for them." Guan Xu grabbed Jiang Qingtang's shoulders, lifted her from his arms, held her chin, and forced her to look directly into her eyes, "I'm not telling you this to make you blame yourself , but I want to tell you that they are great people, and they both chose to protect you at the moment when the accident happened, not to make you blame yourself, but to let you live well."

Guan Xu said: "Do you know what your mother left you at the last moment of her life?"

"She said she loves you."

Jiang Qingtang's throat was torn even harder, she couldn't make a sound from crying, tears flowed down her cheeks and into her mouth.

Her eyes were already covered by tears, and her body was trembling uncontrollably. This time, Guan Xu didn't stop her from crying, but just hugged her and patted her on the back gently, giving her something to rely on when she cried helplessly.

"Xiaotang, maybe you have never felt the love of your parents since you can remember, but you have to remember that your growth was supported by the love of your parents, and every day of your life is surrounded by their love." surrounded."

Jiang Qingtang's guilt comes from her self-blame and uneasiness. Why did her parents die in the car accident, but she didn't die?Could it be that, as those people said, she is a mourner, and she killed her parents?

On the theory that the victim is guilty, Jiang Qingtang was the only person who survived at the time. Even when the driver died on the spot, she became the only outlet for Jiang Ruobin who lost his parents and Mr. Jiang who lost his son. Letting go of all the culpability of that car accident back then, and living like atonement, will not reduce her guilt, but will only make the sense of guilt deep in her heart deeper and deeper, which has become a heart disease that she has to get rid of.

"Xiaotang, do you want to listen to the last recording your parents left for you? I have it in my computer." Guan Xu said.

Jiang Qingtang's eyes were blurred with tears, and she nodded with all her strength, "I want to hear..."

Never knew that her parents left her a message before they died.

Guan Xu hugged her like a child, carried her to the study, and turned on the computer.

Click to open the encrypted folder on the D drive, enter the password, the folder expands, and there are densely packed data in various formats, audio, video, pictures, documents...

Jiang Qingtang's eyes were swollen from crying, and he couldn't read the titles of those documents clearly. Guan Xu picked up the headset next to him, put it on Jiang Qingtang's ear, and clicked on one of the audio files.

Jiang Qingtang held her breath.

An indistinct recording slowly came from both ears.

It was a woman's voice, it was very old, the recording quality was not good, and there were some rustling noises, but Jiang Qingtang could still hear her voice clearly.

Intermittent, gasping with difficulty, weak, yet so gentle.

Strange and kind, it was Jiang Qingtang's forgotten voice, her mother's voice.

"Xiaotang, mom and dad are going to another world, I'm sorry I can't grow up with you, you must live, live well, mom and dad love you."

Jiang Qingtang covered her mouth, thinking that the tears had dried up, and then came out of her eyes violently.

The latter part of the recording was reserved for Jiang Ruobin, "Binbin, I'm sorry for being so strict with you in the past. During the days when Mom and Dad are away, you must protect Xiaotang well. You are an older brother, so you must not let your sister be bullied, and you must..." At that time, there were a few rapid coughs in the audio, and the voice became weaker, "... also protect yourself, and strive for success, Mom and Dad love you."

"My children, I love you."

The recording stopped abruptly.

Jiang Qingtang's heart was in unbearable pain, and her palms were pulled so painfully. She grew up alone until she was 20 years old, and finally realized that her parents didn't blame her, they loved her and hoped that she would grow up well.

But Jiang Qingtang didn't realize their last wish, she didn't grow up properly, she grew up into a cowardly and cowardly person, neither mature nor responsible, without Sister Guan, she might not be able to live long ago.

"In the future..." She twitched her shoulders and sobbed intermittently, "...to live well."

Live happily, don't say those frustrating words, don't think about those frustrating things anymore, work hard to look forward, and live as an upright person, even your parents' share, you can't let them down.

"That's right." Guan Xu wiped away the tears on her face with his fingertips, "Parents must be relieved to hear your words."

"Would you?" Jiang Qingtang was dizzy, looking at Guan Xu's eyes were numb, and lost her former spirit.

"Of course, if you don't believe me, listen to the wind outside. This is what they told you."

Jiang Qingtang listened quietly, there was indeed a gust of wind outside the originally quiet window, and even knocked on the window.

Jiang Qingtang was tear-stained, sniffed, looked out the window, and tried to smile, "Mom and Dad, if you can know, I am living a very good life now, very happy."

"Sister Guan is very kind to me, she really loves me, now besides you, I have another person who loves me, you should be good over there, I..."

"I miss you."

Guan Xu silently hugged her tightly.

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The days of updating 6K every day are a bit exhausting, let’s update 3000.

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感谢在2020-04-3023:17:52~2020-05-0120:46:06期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angels who threw mines: 2 professional passing by;

感谢灌溉营养液的小天使：嗷呜嗷呜28瓶；莫臨淵15瓶；皮卡丘、专业路过10瓶；琉特5瓶；ww2瓶；大神不修仙1瓶；

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!