Eccentricity

Get up at four in the morning and leave work at eleven in the evening.

Sanitation workers are not easy. Chen Ziran has already made enough mental preparations. When he pushed the last truckload of garbage to the garbage collection station for dumping, he was still paralyzed from exhaustion.

The black garbage truck was piled up with rubbish from four alleys. Chen Ziran's skinny body was pushing behind him like a hill, clenching his teeth, pushing it forward with all his strength, the tendons on his forehead One by one, beads of sweat fell down her forehead.

Between the densely packed farmers' self-built houses, the street lights in the alleys are dim and dim yellow, and Chen Ziran's fine bangs reflect her face, and the sweat drenches her hair, turning it into strands of greasy hair Greasy and sloppy, strands of greasy shadows fell on her face, like ripples on the water surface, making the scars crawling on her face alive instantly, like wriggling centipede legs rippling Crawl on flooded water.

Her body was covered with a rotten smell, and she couldn't use her right hand, so she could only put her entire left shoulder on the side of the garbage truck covered in mud and dirt, and push it with her thin shoulder.

Occasionally, there were pedestrians in the alley, and seeing her approaching from a long distance, she hurriedly covered her nose and hid aside, went into another alley, and took a detour.

After dumping the last load of garbage, Chen Ziran let go of the handle of the car with both hands out of strength, his legs softened, and he almost knelt in the garbage dump.She walked a few steps away, found a relatively clean eaves, and sat on the stone steps to rest for more than ten minutes. Finally, she couldn't hold on anymore, and she lay on her back on the concrete floor, wheezing and wheezing for about ten minutes. Gathering the strength to get up, he moved to his residence with a leaden pace.

The clothes inside her overalls were already soaked, her body was dirty and smelly, people who passed by her avoided her one after another, Chen Ziran panted as she walked, walked through the bustling street outside the alley, and went straight to a house where there were no people there. It's the door of the cake shop that is about to close.

The cake shop is not big, with a transparent glass door and a display window behind it, beams of white light hit the exquisite cakes, and you can smell the sweetness of the cream before entering the door.

Chen Yuran had dinner in the evening, five hours of continuous heavy physical labor, which made her hungry. She swallowed her dry throat, and wanted to open the door and buy a birthday cake for herself.

It doesn't need to be too big or too luxurious, just a small, palm-sized cake, and there is no need to write on it, as long as Chen Yuran believes that this is her birthday cake, then this is her birthday cake, no need for those fancy Stuff, any extra custom decoration is an unnecessary expense for her.

All Chen Ziran wants is a cake that belongs to her alone.

Chen Ziran's right hand was so painful that she couldn't help baring her teeth, and her eyes showed a little pain.The soreness spread from the shoulder joint to the wrist, and I couldn't use any strength at all, so I had to open the door with my left hand.

The raised left hand trembled like a sieve at a high frequency, and she couldn't control it. She wanted to push the door in, but before she could touch the doorknob, the staff in the cake shop immediately opened the door and ran to the door, waving in disgust. , drove her back several steps.

His legs trembled.

"Hey, hey, you can't come in!" The salesperson in the cake shop was a young girl, she drove Chen Ziran out a few steps, pinched her nose, frowned and squinted at her: "Hey...you are so dirty It's dirty and smelly. There must be a lot of bacteria. Our store sells food. Look at the black mud under your nails! What if you bring some germs into the store and eat up the customers' stomachs? Do you still want to let our store do business?"

Chen Ziran opened her palm, the palm was covered with black dirt, even the gaps between the palm lines were penetrated, there were black lines, and what dirt was hidden between the nails, it was unsightly, she was embarrassed She had to squeeze her palms, turn her back to the back, and look down at her clothes. A piece of fluorescent orange work clothes was covered with oil stains, sewage marks, and black mud here and there. No wonder people refused to let her in.

"I won't go in." Chen Ziran grabbed the hem of his clothes and begged the salesperson of the cake shop, "I want to buy a cake, beauty, I'm standing outside the door, can you help me get a piece?"

She looked up, and the salesman stuttered when she saw her, "You... what kind of cake do you want to buy?" She had only seen such a scary and hideous face in horror movies, if it weren't for the fact that Linyuan Night Market is so busy now At that time, the streets were full of people, and she had to treat her like a ghost and be frightened to death.

"A cream cake this big is fine." Chen Ziran gestured, "It's about the same size, it doesn't need to be too pretty, I... I'll eat it by myself, I can't finish it if it's too much."

"Okay then, you wait, I'll get it for you." When the salesperson entered the door, he didn't forget to turn his head and remind: "You must not come in."

Standing outside the store door, Chen Ziran watched eagerly, watching the salesperson take out a piece of pure white cream cake from the transparent fresh-keeping cabinet. In order to meet the occasion, the cake boxes used for packaging are specially customized Christmas models, which are colorful and very beautiful.

Chen Ziran watched as the piece of cake that belonged to her was put into a Christmas-shaped cake box, and together with the box, it was put into a handbag with a Christmas tree and Christmas Little Red Riding Hood printed on it.The clerk put a small plastic spoon in it, printed the receipt and put it in together, walked out, and handed the bag to Chen Ziran, "Here, the cake you want is 17 yuan."

Chen Ziran said thank you and took it over, replaced it with his left hand, and opened his mouth, as if he wanted to say something.

"Do you want anything else?"

Chen Ziran nodded, with some pleas in his tone, "May I ask if you can buy birthday candles separately?"

"Okay, five yuan a pack, there are about twenty sticks in a pack, what do you want?"

"I... I don't need that much..." Chen Ziran squeezed the handbag in embarrassment, and asked in a low voice, "You... can you sell one alone?"

"How can I do that?" The clerk said disdainfully, "Birthday candles are all sealed in a package. If I open one for you, who will I sell the remaining nineteen candles to?"

Chen Ziran also knew that her request was unreasonable, so she blushed and hesitated to say sorry, paid for the cake, turned around and prepared to leave.

The clerk saw that she was pitiful, couldn't bear it, and stopped her: "Hey, wait a minute, I remembered that last time an employee in our store celebrated his birthday, and there were unused candles that hadn't been thrown away, if you I can give it to you if you want it, but it’s all burnt, don’t hold it against you.”

How could Chen Yuran dislike it? The clerk was willing to give it to her for free. She was already very grateful.

After taking the old candle that the clerk gave her with both hands, and thanking her a thousand times, Chen Ziran dragged his heavy steps back to his dark basement, switched on the dim fluorescent light, locked the door from the inside, and laid the cake carefully On a simple folding table.

She glanced at the time, it was already 11:30, and half an hour before her birthday passed.

She picked up the newly bought thermos by the table, poured all the hot water in it into a plastic bucket, and mixed half of the bucket of cold water, carried it to the toilet, washed her hair, and took a bath again. Rub the black mud in it with a small brush until the skin is almost broken, and the black mud is gone after washing it white and clean. She smelled the palm of her hand again, it was a fragrant shower gel smell, and there was no such rotten smell. Only then did he dry himself, changed into clean clothes, walked out of the toilet, sat at the table with a small red plastic stool, took the cake out of the bag religiously, and opened the cake box.

This gloomy basement has changed a little bit compared to when we first came last night, it has a touch of human touch, and it looks like it is inhabited.

During Chen Ziran's lunch break, he bought his daily necessities at a nearby hardware store and grocery store.The old-fashioned pink floral insulation bucket by the table, the water cups on the table, the new mattresses, sheets, and pillows on the bed with the soft fragrance of cotton, as well as the stove, gas tank, and boiling water set up on the small balcony Spiked aluminum pot.

The cost of living in Linyuan is too high, so Chen Ziran made a calculation. If the three meals are eaten outside, the minimum consumption per day is 30 yuan, but if you cook by yourself, you only need to control the cost within [-] yuan. In September next year, it should be enough to save up the tuition fees.

Try not to spend money where you can. After you go to college, there are still many places to spend money.

The moment he opened the cake box, the room was filled with the fragrance of milk. Chen Ziran licked his lips, took out the candle that the clerk gave him, and picked out a new pink candle that hadn't been lit yet. , only one or two millimeters thick, she solemnly inserted it into a white round cream cake no bigger than her palm, took out the lighter, lit a candle, got up, and turned off the lights in the room.

In the dark room, only a small candle on the table in the corner flickers with warm yellow light, just like the never-ending morning star hanging in the sky, it is so beautiful that Chen Ziran dare not I believe that I can own such a beautiful good thing by myself.

No parents, no sister, no friends, this is a good thing that belongs to her alone, the door is tightly closed, so at this moment of peace of mind, there is no need to worry about who will snatch her good things.There is no need to worry about someone beating her severely with a branch, forcing her to cry and beg for mercy, and never covet her sister's things again.

Chen Ziran clasped her hands together, resting her chin on the corner of the table, staring unblinkingly at the flickering flames on the small thin candle, and stars were also imprinted in her eyes.

The basement was cold and silent, and this candle was the only warmth she could feel. She guarded her little cake, guarded her basement, opened her mouth softly, and sang happy birthday.

"Happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you..."

Her voice was hoarse and low, the muscles all over her body were still sore, her calves were still shaking, and the joints of her right arm were still getting cold wind, which was cold and sore, but she looked at the beating candle, and her heart was completely relaxed. down.

Happy Birthday was sung a little out of tune, but also very serious. After singing the last protracted "Le", the mouth opened to follow the pronunciation, as if it was really smiling happily.Even the eyebrows and eyes were crooked, and the scar from the brow bone to the bridge of the nose was squeezed into a ball.

Chen Ziran closed his eyes and made a wish.

I hope……

I wish I could be a normal person again.

In the past, Chen Yuran had too much wish, she even wanted someone to love her, because she was too greedy, didn't know how to cherish and be grateful for what she originally had, so God punished her and took away all her original things.

Chen Ziran finally knew that she was not worthy of such a greedy wish. She didn't dare to hope for Xiao's love, especially after she had a tattered face.

Her biggest wish now is to be an ordinary person, as long as she can not attract attention, if she walks on the street, she will not be looked at by others, as long as no one looks at her with fear or pity.

Chen Ziran didn't know happiness in the blessings in her previous life. Obviously being a transparent ordinary person is such a happy thing, but she is still not satisfied, and even fantasizes about love.

Pulling out the candle, dipped a smear of cream on her fingers and put it into her mouth. It was sweet and soft, and Chen Ziran squinted her eyes in happiness. The scars on her face crawled like living centipedes, ferocious and terrifying.

It's still delicious to buy the cake yourself, only if you buy it yourself, no one can take it away.

The pain was gone, so Chen Ziran couldn't see it. She smiled with all her strength, not leaving any chance for sadness.

Alone, it's actually pretty good.

Own……

Just like yourself!

Chen Ziran smiled, with a very happy expression on his ugly and terrifying face.

It was because she used to want to eat swan meat as a toad, but she didn't know it.

Chen Ziran is only 19 years old, but being an ordinary person has become her extravagant wish.

Only now did Chen Ziran realize that some people are destined to be unworthy of happiness, and they shouldn't demand extravagance if it's not their own, otherwise disasters will inevitably ensue.

Now she doesn't dare to have such an idiotic wish with a heart higher than the sky, she just wants to be an ordinary person before.

It doesn't matter if no one loves, she will no longer love others in the future, and keep all her love to herself, which means she has lost nothing.

……

Gu Qiong's Christmas is extraordinarily grand.

Her father, Gu Heyuan, was never married all his life, but he had many lovers and many children. At the Christmas dinner, the children were all there, sitting around and pushing cups and changing dishes, maintaining the superficial harmony.

Gu Heyuan's eldest son is over forty years old, and sitting on his right is his eighth daughter, named Gu Ruo, who is six or seven years older than Gu Qiong. The CEO of the Central China region is vigorous and resolute, with excellent methods, and a cold-hearted temperament, restrained and low-key, and the mountain collapses before him without changing his appearance. He is a bit like Gu Heyuan when he was young, but at a young age Foresight and foresight are even better than when Gu Heyuan was young.

Gu Ruo is the most capable of the many children of the Gu family, so Gu Heyuan also values ​​her the most. Not surprisingly, after a hundred years of Gu Heyuan, most of the real power of the Gu family will fall into her hands. Gu Qiong, as the woman who defeated Gu Heyuan's many lovers and became his final bedside person, of course she got more news than others.

Gu Qiong is the youngest child of Gu Heyuan.When she was born, Gu Heyuan was over 60 years old. She was truly old and had a son, and she was the only one who was born by Gu Heyuan's side. She didn't leave home until she was four or five years old.The old father favored the youngest daughter, and Gu Qiong was the apple of the Gu family's apple since he was born. Even if he went out to study later, when he returned to Gu's house, he would be the most favored by Gu Heyuan. On the other hand, even her mother had to carry it back.

Gu Qiong was absent-minded throughout the dinner, only when Gu Heyuan asked her about her studies outside, she smiled and echoed, and the rest ignored her.

Gu Heyuan stroked her hair and gently advised her to work hard and don't just learn the dead knowledge in textbooks, "Follow your elder sister Aruo more, she knows more than you and has deeper experience than you, let her guide you, Also let you know a little bit more."

Gu Qiong raised his head and glanced at Gu Ruo, who also looked at her lightly.

When Gu Heyuan was young, he was an extremely handsome and beautiful man, and he was also a lover of beauty. He found lovers who were also one of the most beautiful and charming, so the children he gave birth to were all handsome. Gu Qiong was more like his mother, with bright and beautiful features He is heroic, with deep eye sockets, and looks very affectionate.

Gu Ruoze is more like Gu Heyuan when he was young, with cold and thin brows, and extremely beautiful eyes, resembling the flirtatious Gu Heyuan when he was young, but the dark pupils seem to be covered with a layer of icy chill. Mo Shui and Gu Qiong, the so-called "sister" who only meets once at the end of the year, even for Gu Heyuan, don't have much expression.

A pair of sisters are diametrically opposed, Gu Ruo has a flirtatious look, but is extremely cold and stubborn, while Gu Qiong has an affectionate look, as if he is a natural lover, but only knows how to be cynical, like a second-generation ancestor.

The two of them looked down on each other, Gu Qiong tried to make his father happy, and made some false politeness. Gu Ruo didn't even have any politeness, but just nodded indifferently, and said in a deep voice, "There is still business to do." Leave first seats.

Gu Qiong also said a few good words to coax his parents, and got the permission to leave when he was full, and hid in his room, isolated from the disturbance, lying on the bed with a long sigh, remembering that today is Chen Ziran's birthday.

Chen Ziran likes to eat cakes. She is alone this year, so I wonder if she can get a piece of cake?

And Chen Ziran told her that she would make the same wish every year.

Chen Ziran hopes that there is someone in this world who loves her.

Gu Qiong snorted lightly at himself, resting one arm behind his head, while stroking his chest with the other hand, pinching the jade beads around his neck.

This has unconsciously become her habitual action.

Gu Qiong failed Chen Ziran, and he didn't think that Chen Ziran could forgive her.The chances of Gu Qie being able to return to Xichao and settle down in this life are very slim. It is impossible to renew his relationship with Chen Ziran. The tuition fees and plastic surgery fees left to her are just for his own bastard atonement. I hope Chen Ziran can forget her and start over. own life.

In the future, she will be able to see her wish and meet someone who loves her, but that person is not Gu Qiong.

Thinking that Chen Yuran would lie in another woman's or man's arms in the future, Gu Qiong's heart felt a little stuffy. She covered her head with a pillow, buried herself in the quilt and said in a low voice, "Aran, happy birthday."

When she was with Chen Ziran, she couldn't remember what Chen Ziran said, and she couldn't remember what she said herself. After leaving Chen Ziran, her mind was full of memories from the past, but those words came to her mind clearly.For example, Chen Ziran's wish, for example, Chen Ziran doesn't like her own name, and doesn't like the word "孤".

Because she was too lonely, Chen Qiran was afraid of being alone.

Not only afraid of loneliness, but also afraid of the claustrophobic environment, Gu Qiong wondered, will the lovers Chen Ziran meets in the future pay attention to her dislike of claustrophobic places?

She drooped her eyelashes, as if she had a deep affection for Chen Ziran from the beginning to the end, but she just forgot that she had never done these things herself.

When she was with Chen Ziran, she would only coax Chen Ziran with sweet words that could not be more fake, and rarely treated her sincerely, let alone listened to her seriously.

No one who has ever been loved would believe those greasy lies, only a fool like Chen Yuran who has never been loved before would believe them.

Chen Yuran's needs are so few, a cake can satisfy her, and a bouquet of flowers can make her eyes shine. Gu Qiong asked her what her favorite dish was, and she shyly said it was braised pork.

It's so good to feed.

Gu Qiong also casually made a promise that he would cook braised pork for her.It's a pity that casual promises are worse than farting, how can they be taken seriously.

……

After Christmas, the end of the year is approaching.

For most people, the New Year's holiday is the most pleasant and relaxing time of the year. After a year of busy work, they can finally relax a little bit, relax for a few days, and accompany their families to post Spring Festival couplets, set off firecrackers, and eat New Year's Eve dinner. Happiness Happy reunion year.

For sanitation workers, the Spring Festival is the most tiring time of the year, the amount of garbage is several times that of usual, and the wheels rotate almost 24 hours a day. The area where Chen Ziran lives is a village in the city, and migrant workers account for 80.00% of them. % or more, after the NO.20 of the twelfth lunar month, people will almost leave, and the stores will close down and return to their hometowns for the New Year, and the work will be easier.However, there are not enough manpower in other districts of Linyuan City. Workers from Linxi District have to be transferred to help, just because the Ms. Wu who hired Chen Ziran seems to have relatives in the Environmental Sanitation Bureau. , and left Sister Wu's quota in Linxi District, but she used to be responsible for cleaning the four alleys, and now she is responsible for cleaning the entire urban village, but because there are not many people in the entire urban village, the work is still easier than usual. I can get off work at eight or nine o'clock.

Xichao City’s New Year’s custom is to eat dumplings, and Linyuan eats dumplings. That afternoon, Chen Ziran got off work and bought a piece of pork belly, as well as spices such as Chinese prickly ash. Okay, to celebrate the first year that I finally got rid of the Chen family, I just arrived at the gate of the courtyard, and I met Sister Wu who was coming downstairs with a big pot of rice dumplings.

"Happy Chinese New Year, Xiao Chen. I don't have anything for you. It just so happens that the zongzi has just been baked at home. Come and take it. You're welcome. I'll also try your sister Wu's craftsmanship." Sister Wu beamed, "Oh, yes, This year, the unit distributed rice, noodles, grain and oil for the Chinese New Year, our family doesn’t eat blended oil, and we don’t like to eat round rice, so you can go upstairs to get it from my husband later, and I’ll say hello.”

Sister Wu really likes Chen Yuran, an honest child. Originally, seeing her thin and dry, she must have run away after two days of hard work. She didn't expect to work hard, so she really persevered. Even their captain praised her for her hard work and willingness to work hard. To do it, is to do this at a young age, it's so pitiful.Sister Wu used a salary of 2000 yuan to recruit someone who was more useful than the original [-] yuan. She often thought of her, making rice dumplings and steamed buns at home, always thinking of her share, and the rice, flour, grain and oil distributed by the unit. , Sister Wu's family members are tricky and think it's not delicious, so they gave it to Chen Ziran.

Because of this, Chen Ziran was able to save money to save, and he was also very grateful to her, and worked more seriously.

Today's New Year's Eve, I got two more rice dumplings. Now I don't need to cook. I just need to make braised pork to eat the New Year's Eve dinner that only belongs to her.

Another year passed.

While chopping the meat, Chen Ziran sighed that she would be able to go to school in 7 months, as long as she persisted for another [-] months.

Last year's New Year's Eve was spent with Gu Qiong, and it was also at that time that Gu Qiong kissed her for the first time.

At that time, Chen Ziran was in such a panic that he seemed to accidentally slap Gu Qiong across the face, and was finally trapped in the elevator and couldn't get out. To this day, Chen Ziran still dare not take the elevator.

But in fact, I was very happy in my heart, like a deer that hit her so hard that she couldn't breathe, she was nervous and couldn't help laughing at the same time.

Tingling in fingertips.

Chen Ziran looked down, and it turned out that it was cut.

She calmly rinsed away the blood under the faucet, thinking, this is a warning to her, stop thinking about Gu Qiong, it will only hurt herself.

The braised pork had to be stewed for a long time, and the pot cover could not cover the escaping aroma. Chen Ziran counted the seconds and waited. When the alarm clock sounded, he immediately lifted the pot cover and served it on the table, and peeled another rice dumpling. It's her New Year's Eve dinner.

The braised pork was soft, rotten and greasy, and the chopsticks penetrated through it as soon as it was inserted. Chen Ziran couldn't wait to take a bite while it was hot, and chewed it twice.

The salty aroma of the seasoning was first in the mouth, and it was indeed very delicious, but as I chewed, the flavor of the seasoning faded, and the smell of meat became more prominent. Chen Qiran suddenly felt a meaty smell in her throat. She couldn't hold back, and spat out the meat. out.

Unappetizing.

She is used to vegetarian food, so she can't eat too greasy food, it is fishy and oily, and she feels like vomiting after taking a bite.

She had been obsessed with the braised pork for more than ten years, and it turned out to be so unpalatable.

Chen Qiran listened to the silence outside. The Chinese New Year should be the busiest time, but there was no sound around her.She was eating zongzi, hoping to have someone to accompany her at this time.

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