Eccentricity

Chen Ziran didn't know how he drank his first sip of wine.

She has an unforgettable painful memory of wine, she only remembers that wine is not a good thing, it is not good to drink, it is bitter and astringent, and it irritates her throat.She is such a sweet person, it is hard to understand why some people in the world like to drink.

But this time the wine, the feeling of the entrance is very pleasantly surprised.

Neither spicy nor bitter, the initial taste soaked in the tip of the tongue is sweet, in the mouth, the mellow compound fruit aroma goes straight to the nasal cavity through the throat, swallowed into the throat, and the root of the tongue has an aftertaste of the seemingly nonexistent cold wine Fragrance has greatly subverted Chen Ziran's previous superficial understanding of wine.

She drank the whole glass without realizing it.

Immediately, his face was like peaches and plums, and there was a charming thin powder.

The wine smelled mellow and sweet in the mouth. Chen Ziran tasted the taste in the first cup, and he didn't resist so much in the second cup. After the third cup, he became dizzy, his black eyes were soaked with water, and he felt Limbs are weak, all the furnishings are dangling in front of my eyes, I can't see clearly, I can't grasp it, and my eyes have become foggy.

"Aran, how does this wine taste?"

Gu Qiong's voice seemed to pass through a [-]-meter-thick cotton wall, beating Chen Ziran's eardrums vaguely, as if feathers were touching his ears and eyes, and he couldn't hear clearly at all. Anxious, she tilted her head and hid her ears on her shoulders, trying to avoid this flirtatious harassment.

Gu Qiong refused to agree, and picked up the drunk who was about to shrink under the sofa pillow, and finally he was able to hold her in his arms openly, letting her lean back in his arms, wrapping her waist with one hand, and holding her with the other. Lifting Chen Ziran's chin from behind, he gently scratched it like teasing a kitten.

Chen Ziran was so drunk that he didn't know the world, he just followed his instincts, his chin was scratched comfortably by Gu Qiong, and he raised his head back, exposing the most fragile neck to Gu Qiong's hands without reservation.

"Dizzy...forehead, uncomfortable..." Chen Ziran muttered with a drunken smell, and the limp right hand couldn't exert any strength, and Gu Qiong gently pulled it into his hand.

"Would you like some water?" Gu Qiong whispered next to her cheek, and the deliberately suppressed breath made Chen Ziran's ears red.

"Yes." Chen Ziran closed her eyes half-closed, leaning obediently in her arms and nodding.

Gu Qiong stretched out his long arms, picked up the glass of cold water, and touched the rim of the glass to Chen Ziran's lips.

The water-colored lips covered with a layer of wine, just touched the glass, and the head couldn't wait to lean forward, wanting to drink a glass of cool water to quench their thirst.

The cup seemed to have grown legs, Chen Ziran took a step forward, and it took a step back, until she had to straighten up and turn around, with both hands on Gu Qi's shoulders, looking for the glass of clear water that could fly.

The cup suddenly disappeared, and Chen Ziran couldn't see anything clearly with his blurred vision, only felt that his lips hit a soft object.

It's not a water glass. The water glass is not so soft, nor is it such a pleasant temperature. She wanted to know what it was, opened her mouth, and bit it lightly with her teeth.

Gu Qiong calmly used a glass of water to lure Chen Ziran over to kiss her lips, the biting of her lower lip had already caused her to rip her palm to pieces.

This is a kiss that Chen Ziran took the initiative to get - even though it was obtained by Gu Qiong's tricks, it was enough to make her blood boil with excitement. The desire to hug and kiss alone in her arms = desire, waiting for this drunk woman to discover her little by little.

When the teeth were knocked together, there was steam in Gu Qiong's eyes, and the tip of his tongue poked out. Gu Qiong's eyes were moist, and a drop of tear that fell wet the faces of the two of them.

Confused, Chen Ziran's throat was so dry and thirsty that he felt the coldness on his cheeks, so he sucked it with his lips, brushed the water drops oozed from the corners of Gu Qiong's eyes, smacked it a few times, and muttered: "Salty, Can't drink."

So cute.

Even the scar across his face became tender.

She knelt between Gu Qiong's legs, Gu Qiong was amused by her, moved his mind, raised his hand, trembling fingertips stayed in mid-air, one centimeter away from Chen Qiran's face, wanting to touch her scar.

Chen Ziran covered her face with both hands vigilantly, knelt face down into the pillow at the corner of the sofa, and hid her head and face like an ostrich, only showing Gu Qiong's back.

"Aran, be good, let me have a look." Gu Qiang lay down next to Chen Ziran's ear, coaxing warmly.

"Can't watch." Chen Ziran's voice was muffled in the cotton.

"Aran, I'll just take a look, okay? I won't hurt you." Gu Qiong's voice was hoarse and gentle.

"Can't see, can't see..." Chen Ziran kept repeating this sentence, the shoulder blades on the back of his heart that almost pierced the pajamas trembled slightly, looking pitiful.

Gu Qiong's chin was resting on her back shoulder, and her ears were pressed against the base of her neck. It was easy to hear her softly weeping and trembling, which made Gu Qiong's heart twitch. .

"Why can't you watch?" Gu Qiong's voice was also hoarse, he hugged Chen Ziran tightly from behind, and asked her against her shoulder.

Chen Ziran didn't answer, but just covered his face, and the extremely suppressed cry was so thin that it couldn't compare to a mosquito.

Gu Qiong hugged her whole body, and could clearly feel the tremor of every bone in her body, "Why can't you see?" Gu Qiong kissed the back of Chen Ziran's neck and asked, "Aran, why can't you see?"

I don't know how many times I asked, Chen Ziran's psychological defense collapsed, and the small sobbing turned into a deep whimper, and her voice became hoarse, and she tightened her body more and more, "I can't watch."

"Why can't I see it?"

"...Ugly." Chen Ziran's sobs turned into wailing, "Ugly, I'm ugly...I'm...ugly, don't look...don't look..."

Chen Ziran didn't know why the owner of this voice was so cruel, insisting on forcing her to admit the reality she didn't want to face.

What else?She's already hiding, isn't that enough?

Gu Qiong told her that it was not enough with practical actions.She turned her around and forcibly pulled away her two hands that were covering her face.

Unable to escape or move, she could only let her unfold herself under the shattered chandelier, her fingers ran across her forehead, bridge of nose, and corners of her mouth, stroking the ugly scars on her face over and over again, constantly reminding Chen Ziran that she was ugly monster of this fact.

"Don't watch..." Chen Ziran begged with tears in her eyes, "Please don't watch..."

"Does it hurt?" Gu Qiong's thumb rested on the corner of Chen Ziran's mouth, and as soon as the words came out, a tear fell on Chen Ziran's scar.

"It doesn't hurt anymore." Chen Ziran closed his eyes and cried loudly, "Let me go, let me go..."

"I mean when the glass gets stuck in." Gu Qi's voice trembled, "At that time...does it hurt?"

"It hurts, it hurts to death." Chen Yuran's throat choked up, "When the glass pierced in, I felt like my face was split in two, one face was completely split, how could it not hurt?"

Blood flowed into the eyes, the whole world was red, it was like hell.

Seeing the split face in the mirror, Chen Ziran really wanted to die.She even hated the current advanced medical treatment, which saved her life but failed to cure her.

Chen Ziran was forced to face the bloody past, and couldn't escape, so he could only cry, sobbing, "Blood...is too bad to drink..."

Her blood flowed into her eyes and mouth along the veins of her skull, and the tip of her tongue was soaked in the smell of blood.

She didn't eat meat before, but it's not that she couldn't eat meat, at least when she was with Gu Qiong, there was often meat on the dinner table, and Chen Ziran could eat it, otherwise she wouldn't know that she didn't touch meat.

The real inability to eat meat started when she tasted her own blood in her mouth. The fishy smell in the meat always forced her to keep recalling the car accident, the cracked face, and the hellish scarlet in front of her eyes.

Gu Qiong's heart ached, but he couldn't feel Chen Ziran's pain.

Unless she experienced it herself, she would never dare to say that she understood Chen Ziran's pain.

She has dirty thoughts, since she can't keep Chen Ziran anymore, it's better to get Chen Ziran drunk, just like the first time, raw rice is used to make mature rice, this time it is the drunk Chen Ziran who occupies her It's cheap, after Chen Ziran sobers up, she still has the nerve to say leave?

It's a pity that halfway through the implementation of the plan, Gu Qiang couldn't do it himself.

She couldn't bear it.

I don't want to watch Chen's life become more difficult.

Chen Ziran covered her face and cried with her back to Gu Qiong.

Once the scar is dug open, it is not so easy to heal. Chen Yuran's face can still feel the pain of being split in two back then.

Gu Qiong closed Chen Xiaoran's skirt, hugged her horizontally, and carried her back to her room.

With a very light body, holding her in her arms is like holding a child who has not yet grown up. The bones are so thin and thin that Gu Qiong dare not use force for fear of breaking her.

"Mom?" Chen Anan, who was doing homework, threw away her pen and ran to the bedside, asking, "What did you do to my mother?"

Gu Qiong covered Chen Ziran with a quilt, "She drank too much, can you make sober soup?"

"Yes, I'll go now."

Gu Qiong went downstairs with Chen An'an and said, "Can you teach me?"

Chen Anan looked back at her in surprise.

"I...I want to do something for her one last time."

"……All right."

Gu Qiong clumsily cut the ingredients, and Chen An'an was at the side to guide. After all the ingredients were stewed in the pot, Gu Qiong asked Chen An'an: "How did you and your mother come here in the past few years, can you tell me in detail?"

At first, Gu Qiong got to know Chen Ziran from the unemotional documents and reports; then, she got to know Chen Ziran from the gossip of her neighbors;

Every time she thought she knew enough about Chen Ziran's pain, she refreshed her understanding the next time.

This time, is it the last time?

Gu Qiong was not sure.

Chen Ziran's pain, I am afraid that only she can know all about it, and any bystander's perspective is not enough to appeal to one-tenth of her suffering.

Chen An'an narrated in detail, and Gu Qiong asked in more detail, breaking apart and crushing, and engraved the five years about Chen Ziran that he had abandoned on his heart.

The missing details were filled in one by one, and Gu Qi finally knew how the sequelae on Chen Ziran's arm were endured every time. He had no money to buy western medicine, so he had to use folk remedies and herbal medicines he heard from his neighbors. The so-called ancestral plaster prescriptions of barefoot Chinese medicine have no effect at all. When the attacks occur frequently, they are gritted their teeth every day.

Gu Qiong finally understands that every time Chen Ziran wakes up from a nightmare, he will compulsively suggest to himself, to love himself, to be happy, to look forward, everything will be better, sometimes unable to hold on and hide in the toilet silently Crying hard, and laughing while crying, because you have to be optimistic, and you have the courage to live if you are optimistic.

For six years like this, that is, Chen Yuran, another person would have committed suicide long ago.

Gu Qiong also finally realized that what he thought he could impress Chen Ziran was a self-deception. The relationship between her and Chen Ziran had been broken six years ago, and she cut it off with her own hands.

Her heart was about to suffocate, but Gu Qiong still couldn't feel Chen Ziran's pain 100%, unless she experienced Chen Ziran's pain all over again.

"My mother is an amazing person," Chen Anan said.

Gu Qiong pulled the corner of his mouth bitterly, "Yes, she is a remarkable person."

Gu Qiong gave up all the means and tricks, and didn't want to use them on Chen Ziran.

She was reluctant.

I can't bear to lie to Chen Yuran, I can't bear to see her suffer, I can't bear to...

He couldn't bear to keep her by his side.

Gu Qiong thought that he had probably learned a little bit about how to love someone.

作者有话要说：感谢在2020-09-0722:02:30~2020-09-0823:21:10期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angel who threw the grenade: there is still 1 monster;

Thanks to the little angel who threw the landmine: 1 uncle who passed by professionally and wore underpants;

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Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!