I'm putting on a vest

Shiina Mashiro didn't know where she could go.

When she lived with Ozu before, she knew that Ozu would sometimes come back late and pretended that he was always at home. She knew that it was difficult for others to find what she wanted, but Ozu could always deliver When it was in her hands, Ozu didn't say anything, and she didn't ask anything.Shiina Mashiro just drank milk downstairs alone when Ozu hadn't come back, and waited for the lights in the room to turn on before going back.

She pretended not to know anything, because everyone had secrets, and her secret would kill Ozu if she uttered a single word, but she knew it vaguely, and she thought she knew it.

But that scene did appear in front of her eyes, but she couldn't close her eyes like she did in the slums. At this time, no father came to open her eyes forcibly, but Shiina Mashiro knew that she had to watch, if she didn't It was impossible for her to understand Ozu all her life.

Truth is painful, isn't it?Shiina Mashiro thought, would it be better for me to live in a lie all my life?

She was running, her muscles were driving her bones, the soles of her shoes hit the corridor floor heavily, her lungs were not getting enough oxygen, and when she was running, the right side of her stomach throbbed a little. She walked along the corridor to the nearest bathroom and rushed in. Spit and vomit on the sink, staining the edge of the mirror.

When she turned on the faucet to rinse, she raised her head and saw her eyes from the gaps in the messy hair, as if bleeding was about to drip, Shiina Mashiro rubbed her hands vigorously, when she put her hands down, the edges of her eyes turned a little redder , The whites of the eyes were also congested.

She lowered her head and turned the switch of the faucet to the bottom.

The water spray washed the filth into the sewer, Shiina Mashiro stared at the restored white marble sink, took a deep breath, and splashed the water on his face with his hands.

Her hair and the clothes around her neck were soaked, and the cold water seeped into her pores that were constantly sweating because of the previous strenuous exercise, making her feel numb all over, but she finally regained her composure.

She drank a few more cold water and began to rinse her mouth, swallowing a little in the middle. The cold water passed through her throat, which was burning with stomach acid, and brought a brief coolness. After sliding down the throat, it caused more severe pain. .

The water slid into the stomach, Shiina Mashiro put his hand on the stomach, pressed it through the clothes, and felt the touch of cold water in the stomach.

"..."

She turned her body sideways, glanced at herself in the mirror out of the corner of her eye, and walked out the door.

Shiina Mashiro thought he was calm, but it was actually the complete opposite.

Her brain was so active that it was unreasonable, as if she was drinking alcohol, her vision was always spinning.She couldn't walk in a straight line, and sometimes bumped into the wall on this side and sometimes that way.I have to close my eyes together and open them frequently to confirm that my field of vision is correct.

Once she closed her eyes for too long, she hit a wall, her head hurt, and her mind was buzzing.

Shiina Mashiro slid along the wall to the ground, her forehead rubbed against the wall plaster and became very white, she looked at the floor and her knees for a long time, until she found that tears fell from her eyes and fell on her knees On it, he dazedly wiped it with the back of his hand.

"Stand up." She said to herself with dignity.

This time she felt much better. Although the pain that was ignored due to over-excitement all returned to her body for a while, and her throat was terribly dry, she was finally able to see the road in front of her normally.

She went where she wanted to go.

Shiina Mashiro had been to Mori Ogai's office before.It didn't seem to be his original office that time, (the hound incident did cause heavy losses to the Port Mafia) during this period of time he may have changed back again, and he may have chosen a safer place based on the principle of the Three Caves of the Rabbit.Shiina Mashiro doesn't know.

She didn't look for it relying on her own memory. When she followed Nakahara Nakaya to that room, she didn't deliberately look at the corridor by the roadside for a second, as if she was sure that she would only come here once. Never set foot here again, that's what people always do with things they find disgusting.

Shiina Mashiro is just relying on her intuition, as if she is looking at a painting in front of her, and she is following her intuition, her understanding of the artist, her sense of beauty, and looking at the painting The light and shadow material, naturally deduced how the artist will write the next step, so she walked in the building of the port mafia, and then came to the door of the chief's office.

The door was locked, and Shiina Mashiro moved the doorknob once, but she didn't hear any movement from inside. She inserted her nails into the keyhole, and gently dug between her nails. Her fingers seemed to melt. into the keyhole.

There was no pain in Shiina Mashiro's expression. She turned the finger she inserted into the keyhole, and there was the sound of the key opening the door, and then she just walked in.

The finger, which had melted into the shape of a key, was left in the gate.

Shiina Mashiro only had four fingers when walking, and Mori Ogai also saw this scene, and his eyes became meaningful.

He smiled at her, Shiina Mashiro didn't smile, she stood there and raised her hand to shake her blond hair. When the light from the window flashed on her hand, the fingers that had disappeared without a trace grew out again.

She seemed to be fine when she was hurt before, but this time when her fingers grew out, Shiina Mashiro's face turned pale instead, and her hand that brushed her hair was lowered, and her pale fingertips rested on the side of her neck.

"Why... do such a thing?"

Shiina Mashiro thought that she could say very emotionless, and the first few words of her were indeed like the sound made when hitting the piano keys, it was just a pure and beautiful musical sound, but the last few words couldn't help it trembled.

Her fingers were also trembling slightly, and there were a few red marks on her neck, which were not red at first, but just oppressed white at first, and then gradually turned red and swollen with the flow of blood, looking a little itchy.

Shiina Mashiro scratched nervously, his eyes fixed on Mori Ogai for a moment.

Mori Ogai didn't seem to be surprised at all. He sat there without any guards around him, and his young daughter Alice, who had been inseparable from him before, disappeared without a trace.

He spoke to her like a teacher teaching a student.

"How should I put it..." he said, "Because you are very powerful."

Although it was a compliment, it didn't feel any happiness.Shiina Mashiro felt that the way he looked at himself was like looking at a wrapped gift, and he just waited to untie the outermost layer of ribbon before he could accept it.

She felt nauseous.

"You see it too, do you think I'm lying? No. No. I didn't even deliberately ask him to do something or threaten him. For Dazai Osamu, this kind of thing is very natural. Oh, by the way, you called him Ozu, right?"

"..."

The difference in cognition of the same individual is the most important thing for Shiina Mashiro.What kind of life he spent with her, and what kind of life he spent in the other ten years in this world, the difference between this is the biggest panic point for Shiina Mashiro.

Mori Ogai looked at her.

There was a faint smile on his face.

He seemed to be really regretful, "It seems that you still don't know him well enough."

Shiina Mashiro didn't want to continue listening.

She doesn't know what's going on in this world. When she came to this world, she only received a little kindness that was just enough for her to survive. It's like a person who only needs to eat 50 grams of food in three days can guarantee that he will not starve to death. The same, you won’t starve to death, but the feeling is no different from starving to death. When you are walking on the road, you think you will fall down and close your eyes and never open them again.

Everyone does what they want to her, and puts their own desires on her, and never pays the price. She has destroyed the world before, and now she is confused about why she wants to Return the world to its original state.

But she thought of that reason, and she felt that it was worth it after all. Ozu is here now, less than 100 meters in diameter from her, and it is worth doing a lot of things for this person.

Maybe Ozu was a little spoiled by Mori Ogai, maybe what Mori Ogai said is true, Ozu has something to hide from her, Ozu and her are not suitable for her, it's like two puzzle pieces that can't be put together.

But so what?The two puzzles are ultimately the product of the same painting, and she and he may not be able to fit together, but Shiina Mashiro can use her brush to draw all the parts in the middle, as a bridge between her and him.

She doesn't want to listen to him anymore. After Shiina Mashiro came to this world, she was influenced a lot, hurt a lot and learned a lot. If that day...

She stretched out her hand and squeezed it lightly.

Mori Ogai's smiling and unrestrained movement froze.

A layer of blood mist exploded on his right arm, like a crushed tomato, his arm fell straight to the ground, and Shiina Mashiro could see the blood still flowing from the edge. The cuffs were hanging down so she couldn't see his bones.

Shiina Mashiro thinks this is a good thing. If she can do this in the interrogation room, maybe Shiina Mashiro will not be so sad these days.

She missed it, and it should have been his head that exploded.But maybe she didn't miss it, she didn't want him to die in the first place.

Shiina Mashiro is not sure if she has the ability to let a person die. She killed those 37 people before, but she feels at a loss.

Their bullets shot at her. Before Shiina Mashiro could decide what to do, her painting had already stabbed them all into hedgehogs in self-defense. The blood of that day covered the whole ground. I heard that the people behind When people stepped on it, the blood had already solidified, and their footprints left a mark that could not be washed away.

She couldn't tell anyone about this kind of thing.Ozu, she wanted to hide it from him at first, but later found out that he didn't care at all.Nakahara Chuya, what she killed was his colleague, which made her very difficult to speak. When she looked at him, she could always vaguely see those wide-open eyes pierced in his handsome face. The unrepentant face in the sky.

But Q, her little friend, she talked a lot with him in the basement.

Q listened carefully at that time, his face was innocent and cruel, she heard that Q had also killed many people, it seemed that one time almost put the whole city in crisis.But instead of saying to her this time, "Gee, those people deserve to die," or "Let me play next time." Instead, he spoke to her in a very realistic way.

Q's hand gently covered the back of her hand. His hand was small, and even though it had many scars, it was not lacking in softness. He told her that even in court, you could at most be sentenced to an excessive defense, as long as Finding a good lawyer is self-defense - the law allows you, why should you care?

"But they're dead..." "Because they're all dead."

Q looked straight at her, his eyes were dark, as if he was going to suck Shiina Mashiro in, she was not sucked in, she was still sitting in front of his eyes, but she felt something in her body Something called guilt, light and light, sometimes very heavy, most of the time quietly lingers around him, being sucked in by Q's eyes.

"Because they're dead, they'll never complain to you again."

Shiina Mashiro wasn't sure if it was because of these reasons that she shifted the attack from Mori Ogai's head to his arm.

Faced with such pain, the blood is still pouring out now, Mori Ogai covered the gap of the broken arm with the other hand, the blood gushed out from between his fingers, his eyes were sometimes a little lax, the overall For now, the focus is still on Shiina Mashiro.

She heard some knowledge from Ozu that he would go into shock in a few minutes, and Mori Ogai would die if no one came to save him.She felt that Mori Ogai would die in a few minutes, and there was still a gap between Shiina Mashiro blowing his head off directly, but she also felt that it was a bit cruel to watch a person stop breathing quietly in front of her.

It was cruel to her.

She wanted to lower her eyes, but she heard Mori Ogai speaking again at this time.

He didn't complain about her like some of the original people would have done when they were still alive, he just asked her, "Is this what you want to do? Now you're done blowing your mind?"

"..."

Shiina Mashiro felt an indescribable hatred for this person.

She opened her mouth to say something, but before she could speak, Mori Ogai walked to the desk with his broken body and opened a drawer.

His body was not as calm as he showed. He opened the drawer with a little force, and almost spilled all the contents. He took out a needle from it, and the liquid in the needle was as bright red as blood.

He poked the needle into what was left of his mutilated arm, eyes drooping, and pushed everything inside.

When he did this, his breathing became visibly short. Shiina Mashiro saw the veins on his temple arched, and the blood inside was flowing violently, like an earthworm lying under the skin.

But after pushing all the contents in the needle tube and pulling out the needle and throwing it far away, his expression calmed down a lot, and his face was still pale.

This shouldn't be some blood recovery drug in the game, at most it's just a flashback that allowed him to concentrate and be able to finish the last few minutes.

After knowing this, Shiina Mashiro was not afraid.

Or even if it is the former, there is nothing to be afraid of, even if he wants to attack her, so what, everything in the world is too fragile for people who are involved with gods.

Mori Ogai smiled at her.

He said that I like your eyes very much. When you look at us with this kind of eyes, it is like looking at garbage.

"You must have strong confidence in your own strength. Or, to be more precise, in your ability to draw?"

Shiina Mashiro didn't want to nod, she didn't think she was a genius, but she did have things that she was sure she could do, and ordinary people always said in despair when faced with these things, " I absolutely can't do that."

Mori Ogai kept a smile on his face, "This attitude is actually very good, really good, I don't hate it, because this attitude will be used by me later."

Shiina Mashiro couldn't bear it at this time, she felt that what this uncle said was weird from the beginning, and the premise he based on at the beginning was very wrong.

"You've done so much," said Shiina Mashiro, "you've done so many strange things, and now you're going to die, but you're always sure that I'll be used by you... How can I be used by you."

She wanted to tighten her palms to make his blood flow faster, and this idea frightened her. Shiina Mashiro's face turned pale, and Mori Owai revealed his face after realizing this. A more beautiful smile.

"Look, it's the way it is now, do you think you're a victim? You're not. In the interrogation room, no one tortured you. You destroyed the world once, and then summoned those monsters after repenting. If not Because you care about Osamu Dazai, you won’t give it a single chance. You think everyone should pity you, don’t you?”

Mori Ogai spoke in a soft voice, and Shiina Mashiro tightened his fingers hard once, causing his blood to spurt out.

Now even with the effect of that medicine, he can't last for a long time, and there is not much to say next.

After Shiina Mashiro clenched her hands, she felt a little tricked. She felt that she had lost to him after doing this, but it was not losing to Mori Ogai, but losing to him represented a certain kind of feeling that she thought she would never lose. Something that succumbs, a certain original sin that humanity has always struggled to get rid of.

She was a little regretful, but seeing his weak appearance of dying, she felt an indescribable joy.

"You can go on."

Shiina Mashiro's tone unknowingly carried a bit of the pride of a winner. She was very calm, but she was indeed very proud. This pride came from the fact that she was still standing in front of him intact, while Mori Ogai, who once made her A person who has suffered enough will end his life in just a few minutes, and even when he dies, no one can help him.

"Go on."

Mori Ogai smiled at her.Like an ignorant child.

"I still have a gun with me now," Mori Ogai said.

"Then you shoot." Shiina Mashiro was very confident.

Then Mori Ogai did as she said.

He opened the gun, loaded the bullets, and pulled the safety, and his movements were smooth and smooth.It happened right in front of Shiina Mashiro.

In fact, her heart was not as calm as she showed, but Ozu told her that it was best not to reveal her fear no matter who she faced, and she also began to learn to pretend to be calm.What's more, as time went by, Mori Ogai's breathing became weaker and weaker. If he didn't shoot that bullet now, he would never have another chance.

Mori Ogai is skilled, the pistol is like a part derived from his body, he has enough time to observe Shiina Mashiro when he is doing this, his eyes are always on her, she feels as if she has entered the hospital Lie on an iron bed to accept x-ray examination.

He asked her, "Actually, you are very scared. It's not about dying, but about being alive."

"Or to be more precise. It's the price of living."

Shiina Mashiro scratched her neck with her fingertips.

She didn't know how to hide herself, Mori Ogai found it very interesting, Dazai Osamu didn't teach her well.

Maybe he did it on purpose, Osamu Dazai hoped Shiina Mashiro would never know about many things, Mori Ogai couldn't help but laugh out loud.

"Actually, you have had many chances. Destroy the world." He said, "Not only the time in the interrogation room, but also protected by the Central Plains later, no, to be precise, it was the time of surveillance, you know it yourself, we Didn't hide intelligence personnel very well."

He didn't continue on this topic, and now if he provoked her again, he wouldn't be able to finish the matter alive.

The scenery in front of him has begun to slack, and now it's not so much thinking, it's more like memorizing all the words that he has rehearsed countless times and recited fluently.

"You can destroy the world many times, but you didn't, because it's easy to break a piece of porcelain on the ground, but it's easy to restore a piece of porcelain, so that no one can see any traces, especially you can't let the The people you live with can see that it takes a lot of energy."

"It was very easy when you destroyed the world. When you summoned the hound, you just wrote something casually on it, but when you dismissed the hound, your entire finger was injured. I judge that it is impossible to pay any price for these things."

"If it's just the cost of your body, you won't mind, and your paintings won't hurt you. You won't lose anything if you lose sight in one eye and deafness in two ears. Even if you really lose all your hands and bite them You can also draw, so it must be happening on a deeper level."

Mori Ogai looked at her.

"Spiritual?" he said.

Shiina Mashiro's breathing was completely messed up.

"Traveling and killing people can indeed hurt people, but your mental breakdown is too fast."

"Zhong Yuanzhong was also attacked by hounds under my order, which confirmed my thoughts. In fact, when all people encounter hounds, what they suffer the most is not physical damage, but as long as they see them, they will continuously damage their spirits. The more crisis that the black ocean brought us was not suffocation. Before that, our thoughts were covered by the darkness just by seeing it. Thanks to you for sending the memory to me, I can understand so much clear."

"Your abilities cannot be used indefinitely, or your abilities cannot be used indefinitely while you are still awake. There seems to be no difference between the two, but I want to ask, do you think those lunatics in the mental hospital will think that they are the same as you?" Are you the same person you were before you were hospitalized?"

"..."

"That's why I said I can manipulate you, I really can manipulate you, the mind is rooted in the memory. Your mind starts to break down, in fact your memory is the first place to go wrong, Nakahara Nakaya In the past ten days as a bodyguard, your lifestyle has been very simple. In fact, this is not because you are addicted to painting. Even when you just came to this world and wanted to go back to your hometown, your life It needs to be more colorful.”

"You will talk to people on the side of the road, you will go to the convenience store to buy things, but now you are just like this, because your brain is no longer capable of processing more redundant memories..." Memory.

Shiina Mashiro stretched out his hand, ready to shrink again.

"You don't need to worry about it." Mori Ogai said, his lips had completely lost all color at this time, he was not so much speaking as the vocal cords continued to vibrate with inertia to make a sound.

"For Osamu Dazai, you will continue to save this world. See you in the next world where you are more ignorant and more willing to listen to me."

He aimed his gun at Shiina Mashiro.

He pulled the trigger before losing consciousness completely.