Sakura's childhood

"If you like him, go after him, bastard!"

Kawagami Wanqi, a subordinate and friend of Takasugi Shinsuke, once said to him: "If one day you commit suicide, I will not be surprised at all."

Takasugi didn't speak at that time, but just lit another cigarette, the thin back under the light was stubborn and lonely.

Many times, Takasugi looks at his sinuous palm lines and wonders what the meaning of life is.

For power, money, fame or marriage?Takasugi has never been able to give himself a definite answer, just like palm lines have always followed a person's life in twists and turns.

Then, such Takasugi Shinsuke met Katsura Kotaro.In the autumn park.

Gui was wearing a long beige windbreaker that day, and her long hair was tied into a high ponytail, reaching slightly to her waist.There are several cat food plates around him, and five or six stray cats surround him.

Takasugi stopped far away, silently looking at the young man who was grooming a cat, and felt that his smile was very comfortable.

"It's been a long time since I laughed like this." Gao Shan thought with a cigarette in his mouth, "It's probably been a long time."

At this time, the young man who had been squatting got up and stretched himself, and found Gao Shan who was looking at him, and greeted him friendly: "Sir, are you coming to feed the cat too?"

The one who answered him was the figure of Takasugi who turned and left.

However, in the next few days, Takasugi went to that park again like a ghost.

The young man was still feeding the cat in that place. He tried to communicate with the cat, but he seemed to be talking to himself, and would laugh out loud from time to time.

Gao Shan found that the youth was different from the people he had come into contact with before.

On the fourth day, Takasugi approached the young man and said the first cold "Hello" to him.

The young man was taken aback for a moment, then laughed, and said apologetically, "Sir, you can talk, I thought..."

Under Gao Shan's gloomy eyes, the teasing later got stuck in the young man's throat.

The two met in early autumn, and the beginning of the story was not very pleasant.

Afterwards, the two mostly met in coffee shops.

Although the relationship has always been good or bad, when the contact is about to be cut off, one party will always send a text message or call, asking if there is time to meet.

Although this is a friendship that is not enough for friendship, it is also very valuable to Takasugi.

Gui resigned from his original job in the second year after graduating from university.

On the day of resignation, Gui and Takasugi went to a newly opened coffee shop.

Gui stirred the coffee with sugar, and excitedly talked about his business plan, with a look of longing on his face.

And Takasugi quietly looked at the frosted glass in hand, on which two figures were vaguely reflected.

At the end, Takasugi sighed softly, "Is it meaningful?" For a life like a mayfly, is it meaningful to work hard, look forward to, and smile every day like you?

Gui was taken aback for a moment, and met Takasugi's indifferent eyes.Bottomless.

Gradually clenching the cup wall with his fingertips, Gui replied seriously, "As long as you live, you will always find the meaning of living."

"If it was a troubled time, I think the meaning of life is to establish a correct regime; but now, it is very simple, it is to do what you like and make worthy friends."

Gui rarely showed a serious look, and even showed a little annoyance at Gao Shan's words.

Gui's poor background makes Gui cherish every opportunity even more, and makes such a confused and decadent Gao Shan feel unworthy.

Takasugi lowered his head, and was silent for a moment: "How much money do you need to start a business?"

"Don't get me wrong, I just want to do an experiment to see the meaning of your life." Takasugi added.

Therefore, after the official opening of the "Meatball" store, Takasugi, as a shareholder and experimenter, came here every night after get off work, ordering a dessert that he didn't like, and killing the night.

The business of "Meatball" was up and down, and the waiters had changed several batches, but Gao Shan came every day, rain or shine, and always sat in the window seat of the North Store.

"Is it just an experiment?" Takasugi would ask himself sometimes, but then there was a long silence.

Takasugi was speechless for his abnormality.

On the night before the third rain in Tokyo, at [-]:[-], Kamui received a call from Takasugi, "Come out and have a drink." Takasugi's voice was exhausted.

In the private room of the bar, Takasugi was lying on the sofa, sipping the wine in the goblet, and the suit coat was thrown on the back of the sofa.

"Yo, let me guess," Kamui folded his hands behind his head, pacing back and forth in the spacious private room, "Master Takasugi is in such a mess, is it because his career collapsed or because of his emotional injury?"

Takasugi gently put down the goblet, his voice was lower than usual due to the alcohol, he said, "Both are not true, it's my unilateral matter."

Kamui picked up a large-capacity glass for drinking beer, opened another bottle of red wine with his bare hands, filled the glass to the brim, and drank half of it in one go.

"So, you're having an awkward relationship with him?" Shenwei hiccupped, his face turned red, and both of them knew who the 'he' was referring to.

Takasugi fell silent again, and did not refute, which meant acquiescing.

Kamui raised the glass, "Gudu Gudu" drank the remaining half glass of red wine, then slammed the glass on the table, and yelled loudly at Takasugi: "If you fucking like it, go after it! You've got it!" If it’s not suitable, just throw it away! In case someone dies one day, you won’t regret it!”

Kamui is the only one who dares to talk to Takasugi like this so far.Still drunk.

But Takasugi remained expressionless, poured himself half a glass of wine gracefully, raised his head and said to Kamui, "I'm treating you today."

When Gao Shan was half drunk and half awake, he suddenly remembered the scenes related to Gui, and the scenes played back in his mind like a revolving lantern, clearly terrifying.

At first, I was attracted to him because of that smile, a comfortable and simple smile.

I was attracted to him again because of his interpretation of the meaning of life, which pulled me who was staggeringly standing on the edge of the cliff.

Then, perhaps called the halo effect, his every move has an inexplicable attraction, even things like knocking over a teacup are clumsy and cute.

Takasugi knew what he was afraid of. He needed someone who would tell him to try it, regardless of the consequences.

Like a slowly rising river, swaying on the edge of the embankment, the river needs a gap to rush out.

The person who opened this gap is Shenwei.

In fact, after thinking about it, from the beginning of the unpleasant acquaintance to the current familiar habit, five years and seven months have passed without knowing it.

Five years and seven months, such a long time, Takasugi Shinsuke thought he had only done one meaningful thing——to get to know Katsura Kotaro.

This meaning appeared a little late, but fortunately, compared to the long years that followed, this waiting was nothing.

On the morning of the next day, Gui accidentally saw Gao Shan in the store, who stretched out a hand to him, and said in a usual indifferent tone: "Can you lend me the store manager?"

Gui nodded subconsciously, and when he realized it, Gao Shan had already grabbed his wrist and dragged him to the door of the store.

The rain was at its heaviest, and the rain hitting the ground formed a long translucent curtain, blocking the view of the outside world.

Gui's long hair was slightly wet by the splashing rain, and there seemed to be hazy water vapor in his eyes.

Then, he heard Takasugi say in a voice just within hearing of the two of them: "Let's date."

The customers and waiters in the store were looking out, Gui's wrist was held in Gao Shan's palm, and Gao Shan's palm was sweating slightly, scalding horribly.

Gui didn't know if he had said the word "good" aloud, he only knew that when Takasugi's eyes, those fiery eyes burning in indifference, looked at him, everything around him stagnated for an instant and turned gray.

"Why are you crying?" Gao Shan stroked Gui's cheek with his fingers.