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In the bar, the night is getting darker.

Bo Jing sat there silently, clasped her hands tightly, and never spoke, as if she had been silent for too long and didn't know how to speak anymore.

"Laura, what are you thinking?"

Sitting across from her, looking at her with pursed lips, she is used to seeing Bo Jing like this, before the two of them would quarrel, it would turn into a cold war, Bo Jing has a bad temper, and when she gets angry, she wants her to coax others into the sky Still difficult.

"You don't know how to start, do you?" Smiling, she nodded on the table and tilted her head, "Just start with the three words 'you hate me', you are not the best at this sentence Yet?"

Looking at Bo Jing, she didn't know what was in her eyes, and her emotions were hidden deep, "Tell me, how much you hate me."

……

It seems like a long time has passed.

Bo Jingcai finally raised her head slowly, her hands were still folded, but she finally seemed not so hesitant, before she spoke again, she moved her lips, her voice was a little low, "Do you still remember...why did I Are you coming to London?"

Somewhat surprised, but Mimi still looked at her with a smile and didn't answer.

……

Why did you come to London in the first place?

At that time, the two were still young, and when they dated for about 2 years, they suddenly said that Bo Jing was too serious about their relationship, which put her under too much pressure. She said that she was thinking about the relationship between the two of them, and she didn't want to waste time all the time. On Bo Jing.

Bo Jing thought she was going to break up, but she said, "Honey, you're fine," she pressed on Bo Jing, and all she said were hurtful words, "But there are still people as good as you in this world. There are many, it is not realistic for you to want me to be with you all day, I think it is better for us to keep an open relationship in the future."

This was not just for fun, before the two of them finished their quarrel over this matter, Bo Jing soon found out that she had cheated.

After she found out about this, she was about to explode, and without any notice, she ran to the villa where the two were hanging out, trying to at least smash the glass of the house.But the strange thing happened one after another and I still haven't said anything, but I didn't expect that the cheating partner introduced himself after seeing Bo Jing, saying that she and her girlfriend are also in an open relationship, and told Bo Jing not to care, and even asked for a threesome

"You actually fell in love with this kind of person?!" Bo Jing was so sad that she couldn't help it. She saw her girlfriend sleeping with someone else, and the other party was even worse. She was so angry that her voice trembled and her heart ached.

Bo Jing has already thought about it, if she came here so impulsively, she would probably humiliate herself and break up completely, she was ready for this.

But she pulled the third party away, and she said to the other party in Italian: "Don't touch my woman..." Then the development of the matter was out of Bo Jing's control, and she even took the cheating partner He drove away, and then talked with Bo Jing calmly, saying that the two of them should reconcile, but they still need to maintain an open relationship.

Are you crazy?Bo Jing's eyes were red, feeling that the other party didn't listen to her at all.

But she said a lot on her own, saying that if Bo Jing didn't like it, she would not contact anyone when she was with Bo Jing in the future, and that the person she loved the most was Bo Jing.

While talking, she kept kissing, biting the base of Bo Jing's ear, and said that she loved Bo Jing so much that she went crazy. Bo Jing was probably too sad and sad that day. Continue to do it.

Until she found out that she had cheated again, no, according to the saying, it should be an open relationship.

Bo Jing finally understood what it meant. She wanted two people to maintain a stable relationship, and then both of them could find opportunities to go out and play, but Bo Jing couldn't accept this kind of relationship by herself. She was not the playful person she seemed on the surface. , After that, I tried to sleep with someone else for her, but it felt disgusting.

But she knew that she would always go her own way and would not listen to herself. I wondered if she was angry, so she went to London in a fit of anger.

……

Back in the bar, Bo Jing moved her lips when she talked about that incident again, "I came to London because of you, not out of anger, but because I wanted to be with you."

Bo Jing clenched the wine glass tightly, her fingertips turned white, "You said you thought I was too serious and didn't give you time. I know you like to play and want to be out of sight and out of mind. Maybe the distance between us is far away, you will think I, will rethink our relationship."

……

Is it so?

There was a slight change in the deep eyes suddenly, she looked away very quickly, but she was still smiling.

"But later, I found that every time I met you, I couldn't control myself to think about those things..."

The two of them soon began to quarrel again, and after many quarrels, the distance did not solve the problem, and more suspicions arose.Later, Bo Jing began to feel tired about solving the problems between her and her. She wanted to break up completely and date other people, but the relationship has not been going well for several years.

Probably, it was because other people seemed too obvious compared to him.

Bo Jing's tone was a little low, "I want to stop thinking about you as much as possible... Others think I like to play and change girlfriends all the time. I just want to forget you, but I can't fall in love with anyone in London."

Then, her gaze shifted to the tattoo on her forearm, "gether"—that tattoo was actually not done by two people together.

Bo Jing was tortured repeatedly for many years at the time, but she couldn't get out of this relationship. She was heartbroken and got a tattoo "arusapart", and then took a photo and sent it to her, saying that she wanted to break up, break up completely .

But not long after, she came to see her with the exact same tattoo on her right arm, pulled her out of the bar, took her back to the hotel and pressed her against the wall to kiss. Bo Jing cried for the first time after seeing the woman's tattoo.

At that time, the relationship between the two of them was stable for a period of time.

But the good times didn't last long. After returning to Italy, she started her old life again, still saying that she loved herself, and then went to bed with other people. Bo Jing's heart was already at the bottom of the valley.

……

Bo Jing looked, "Can you answer me a question honestly?" She looked into the woman's eyes, "There have been many times between us that we can go on well, have you thought about it?"

The smile gradually faded, she pursed her thin lips, and did not speak for a long while.

After a while.

A faint smile slid across the corner of her lips, "I don't understand what it means to go on well," she looked at Bo Jing, "I only love you, I just sleep with other people, is there any conflict?"

Bo Jing looked at her and didn't know whether to cry or laugh for a while, "You are still like this... Blame everything on me for being awkward," she paused, "Forget it, who is wrong and who is right, It's in the past."

"I loved you."

Bo Jing struggled to say these words, "But you are too selfish, there is no way to reciprocate our feelings, you have not been hurt, but I have been hurt by you."

"Do you know how happy I was when I met Shen Qin, because I found out that I can fall in love with other people, but now, do you know what is the most desperate thing for me? Why do you want to come out? , why am I still being influenced by you..." Bo Jing murmured.

"She's different from you, she..."

"It's not the same, you think I'm selfish, doesn't she?" With a sneer, she interrupted her, and hooked her lips, "If she wasn't selfish, would you still need to sit here alone? "

Bo Jing opened her mouth, wanted to say something, but was interrupted and said, "You don't need to ask me out, Laura, have you asked yourself why you like her?" She stared straight at Bo Jing, " Isn't it because she looks like me?"

"enough!"

Bo Jing suddenly raised her voice, her emotions were a little agitated for a moment, "What's wrong with you?!"

Her voice was trembling, and she didn't care that people around them were looking at them, "When will you understand that the matter between us has nothing to do with Shen Qin, and I don't want to be with Shen Qin at all, so I have finished breaking up with you." task."

"What's the problem between us, don't you know if it can be repaired?!" Bo Jing's voice became higher and higher, and her eyes began to turn red because of her excitement.

The hand that lightly tapped on the table stopped, and the playful expression on his face gradually disappeared, "..."

Bo Jing drank herself a few glasses of beer, and after a long time, she calmed down and said in a hoarse voice, "I'm sorry, I'm really tired, you can just pretend that I want to have a formal talk with you, or pester you After seven years, it's fine for the two of us to sit here and think about the past, whatever it is."

"I want it to be over, really."

Bo Jing caressed the wine glass, looking at her with red eyes, "When you got that tattoo and came to see me, I was really moved. I thought you wanted to be with me, but everything you did later, Go to bed with other people, and keep saying you love me. Even once, you didn't consider my mood. "

She watched, "Who are you thinking about when you are sleeping with someone else?"

Frowning, he replied, "I'm not thinking of anyone."

……

She spoke again slowly, "But when I was in bed with you, I only thought of you."

Bo Jing interrupted her in a low voice, "Enough, I don't want to hear this."

After being silent for a while, she suddenly said, "Bo Jing, if you really think so, I can try to be with you." She looked at Bo Jing and frowned, as if the words were intended for her It's also an important decision to say, "I mean, just with you, I can try."

……

The air stopped.

But it only stopped for a second.

"Sorry, it's late."

Bo Jing looked at her and moved her lips, "I'm sorry, I want to go forward, I don't want to look back." She paused, her eyes showed no emotion, "You want to try, but I don't want to try again .”

"I don't know if there will be someone waiting for me in the future. I only know that the past is gone."

"Just stop here, we should have stopped here a long time ago, sorry."

……

A little surprised, she probably didn't expect Bo Jing to react like this, but she probably lost when she said the words of compromise, she frowned, "You make me feel a little sad, Laura"

Bo Jing didn't respond.

"..."

Picking up her bag, she stood up, she was not a person who would stay and let the other party look at her sad at such a time, she had to put on a posture of "in that case, then I'm leaving".

Bo Jing didn't intend to stop her.

But before she turned around, she stopped, she was silent for a while, and looked down at Bo Jing, "Believe it or not, I'm still a nostalgic person, Laura, the person you expect in your heart will never look back , I hope that by that time, you will be able to endure the loneliness."

"If you can't stand it, you can..." She wanted to say, you can come to me, but she didn't finish her sentence.

Bo Jing interrupted her in a low voice, "I won't."

"..."

"Okay" smiled, turned and left.