[full-time master] bitter lovesickness

Ye Xiu had never been in love, and no one had confessed to him more than twenty years before his life, so the word love in his dictionary was vague, and he couldn't give it an accurate definition.

But that doesn't mean he didn't understand anything, when Zhang Jiale hugged him and cried until he couldn't speak, Ye Xiu understood immediately.What followed was surprise and puzzlement, he thought, I am a man, I am not delicate and weak like a girl, and I am not very good-looking among men, why did you fall in love with me, Zhang Jiale? ?

Is it possible that lucky E is still reflected in this aspect?

But at that moment he felt very uncomfortable.Although he couldn't deeply understand Zhang Jiale's mood, he could feel his pain. He wanted to ask, why bother?

But all the hardships are the first to taste the most suffering in the world.

Sorrow arises from love, fear arises from love; apart from the one who loves, there is neither worry nor fear.But most of the people in the world are lonely, and they would rather go to the end in fear, than wander in the world with a heart like a stone.

love it.

Ye Qiu told him to come to Ye's house for dinner, so Ye Xiu arrived early and helped Ye's part-time workers cook. Ye Huan also knew that he was good at cooking, so he let him go.Ye Qiu likes fish and prawns, so Ye Xiu decided to cook H city's special vinegar fish and Longjing shrimp, but he was a little absent-minded today and almost put soy sauce in as vinegar. If Aunt Wang didn't stop him, this dish would definitely turn into soy sauce black fish.

Ye Qiu just finished a big task these few days, had a small vacation, went home early, and saw that the dishes on the dinner table happened to be his favorites, so he felt a little sloppy and insisted on taking out the wine at home drink a little.

Speaking of which, Ye Xiu and Ye Qiu's drinking capacity is definitely a family inheritance. Although Ye Huan's whole person has a tough guy's style of painting, but this drinking capacity is not even a man's style. But seeing Ye Qiu happy today, thinking that he will not return to the team tomorrow, Ye Huan let him go.

Ye Qiu stared at the fish, and asked Ye Xiu, "Xiao Ye, did you make this vinegar fish? Don't tell me, I have been to H City many times, but I have never eaten this famous dish. .”

Ye Xiu glanced at him and said, "My brother likes to eat, so I just made it today."

"What a coincidence, your brother likes it too?"

"No, it's a coincidence."

What happened to Zhang Jiale did not touch Ye Xiu in the slightest. He suddenly realized that perhaps his own death was a hurdle for many people. Then he was the first to think of Ye Qiu. He was very afraid of what Ye Qiu might do. Heavy psychological burden.No matter how much he teased Ye Qiu, Ye Qiu was different from others in his heart.That was his younger brother, his blood-linked blood brother. They had supported each other and walked together for quite a long time, as if they were another self in this world. They were familiar with each other and depended on each other.

But after coming back to the world for a while, Ye Xiu found that he didn't know his brother very well. The young man left home, and when he turned his head again, it was just a matter of life and nothing.

Leaving home when I was young, I have colorful clouds in my heart.Now that I think about it, the frivolity of fur horses that have flowed with the years back then is already too naive to mention, and those promises that have not been made out of the bamboo horses have not been fulfilled in the future, and there are only two people left alone. The shallow attachment that Li can only cherish.

Ye Qiu's drinking capacity is only half a cup of liquor. He has grown a lot over the years, unlike the year when he fell asleep when he was drunk, and he stopped drinking after drinking half a cup. But knowing Ye Qiu's Both of them could tell that this guy was already drunk, his face was flushed, and his skills were basically silly.

But fortunately, he can still walk in a straight line, which Ye Xiu really admires Ye Qiu.Ye Xiu's bedroom was only separated from Ye Qiu's by a wall, so when he sent Ye Qiu back to his room, Ye Xiu looked at the closed door next to him and felt mixed emotions in his heart.

Just as he was thinking, Ye Qiu walked over and put his arms around his shoulders, and said, "This is... my brother's room, so it can be considered your idol's room. Let's go! Let's... go in and have a look?"

Before Ye Xiu could answer, Ye Qiu opened the door and walked in with him in his arms.

In fact, Ye Xiu didn’t even remember what his own room looked like. He had never cared much about these things, but the moment he saw the room, he suddenly realized that these things were still the same as they were five years ago. Before he left for the last time, it was no different.

He never thought that his father and Ye Qiu would be so attached to him.

Ye Xiu is a very carefree person, or it can be said that he can pretend to be a very carefree person.For example, when Su Muqiu passed away, he was uncomfortable and in pain, but he couldn't cry at that time, so he played games as usual, and calmly dealt with Su Muqiu's funeral, but all the tears that didn't shed became his tears. A bay of bitter water in my heart.He has almost never relied on external things to miss anything, and he will also feel nostalgic when he sees Zhou Zekai's brilliant skills, but he doesn't talk about these things, so no one knows.

So he thinks that everyone is generally like this, they all suffer pain, but in the end they will choose to keep these backlogs in their hearts, save them for those sleepless nights, slowly savor the ups and downs, and then continue to feel pain during the day. Walk forward without hesitation.

He never thought that his father and Ye Qiu would do this, for a moment, he didn't know what to say.

He could only watch Ye Qiu stop and go in the room, walked back and forth a few times, and finally sat side by side with Ye Xiu on the edge of the bed.

"In fact, sometimes I am very grateful to God, and sometimes I hate him. Sometimes when I look in the mirror, hey, I seem to see my brother again, and I am very happy. I really like this face that is exactly like him. , But sometimes, I don’t like this very much, and I would think, God, this face may really be unique in this world, and I would be very sad again.”

Ye Xiu looked at Ye Qiu with his head down, unable to see his expression, and was about to say something to comfort him, when he heard Ye Qiu say, "I've always thought that I'm really a very bad brother. My little brother When I was ignorant, I always asked my brother to protect me. Don’t think that my brother is a scumbag. In fact, he was really invincible in fighting back then. Later, when I grew up, my brother also left. But every time I see him, I always bicker with him habitually, act like a baby, and act like a child. In fact, I really want to prove that I can already protect you. This kind of complex is full of machismo. "

"But in the end it was he who protected me. I regret it very much, especially. I didn't even have time to say thank you, I'm sorry, he left, and this time he really won't come back again, I really regret it I'm afraid that he won't forgive me, although when I was a child he wouldn't get angry no matter what trouble I caused, but I'm really scared, I'm afraid that this time he will really ignore me." Ye Qiu really drank a little too much, and he couldn't speak. In the beginning, they repeated vaguely, one person was wrapping fingers back and forth, but the emotion became more and more real, the deep and indelible sadness in the words made Ye Xiu feel the same.

At this moment, it was as if they were back when they were teenagers. When Ye Qiu got into trouble, or was unhappy about something, Ye Xiu would comfort him or say a few words of ridicule.Ye Xiu raised his hand hesitantly, and finally put it on Ye Qiu's head and rubbed it lightly.

"I don't think your brother will blame you. Because... brother, no matter what you do, it can be forgiven and accepted by him. "

"Because he is your brother."

Ye Qiu raised his head and glanced at him, the corners of his eyes were a little red, and he asked hesitantly in his tone: "Really...no matter what happens to me...will he forgive me?"

"I will. Believe me. I also have a younger brother. I can understand that kind of feeling." Ye Qiu looked at him and missed his body a little, with an expression that was indescribably complicated, "Then I'll tell you a secret."

Ye Xiu looked into Ye Qiu's eyes, which were full of starlight, just like the eyes Zhang Jiale had when he parted with him for the last time in the morning.Ye Xiu was suddenly very scared. He suddenly didn't want to hear what Ye Qiu said next. He seemed to have a wonderful premonition that once Ye Qiu said those words, no matter what...they would never go back to the past.

But Ye Qiu didn't give him a chance to stop him.

"I...actually like my brother. Since...about 15 years old? I don't know. You...don't tell others." After all, Ye Qiu drank too much, and said a few words in a daze. If it was clear, he fell on his back on the bed and fell asleep.

Ye Xiu just stared at him blankly, and it took a long time before he realized that his cheeks were a little wet.

He actually cried.

Ye Xiu didn't seem to have cried since he was born, but now, thinking about Zhang Jiale's behavior this morning, he seemed to be crying uncontrollably.

Who can wait for another 20 years.Since Ye Qiu was 15 years old, 17 years have passed like water. Ye Xiu has already been 'dead', but there are still people who are willing to love him.

Ye Xiu suddenly felt that he was nothing special.

Hey, that one is his younger brother and the other is his old friend.At this moment, those bits and pieces that used to be turned into incomparably deep pain.If he is really dead, how long will they have to wait? Do they have to go to the end alone to keep the ultimate promise between the lovers?

Ye Xiu leaned down slightly, he looked at the face he was so familiar with, and gently pressed his cheek against Ye Qiu's forehead. "You said...why do you love me?"

Recalling back then when he secretly left home and called Ye Qiu, he said to reassure Ye Qiu, but at that time the kid wanted to come to H City to see him, so Ye Xiu said to him, "Well then, I will I must find a way to let you confirm where I am every once in a while, okay?"

Then there was One Autumn Leaf.

That borrowed name has his real emotions.

Stupid brother, I really love you.Even though I never told you.

But how can you afford what you want?