Dip in fire

That evening, Zhang Weilan called Zhu Ying.After the phone call, he cooked another bowl of tomato and egg noodles for Xiaohuan.

Seeing Xiaohuan eat a bowl of noodles cleanly, Zhang Weilan washed the dishes and cleaned up the kitchen, let Xiaohuan stay in the house, and went to knock on the door of Zhong's house by herself.

Yan Huiwan won't be discharged from the hospital until the day after tomorrow, Zhong Ning is locked in the room, and the door is still opened by Zhong Pei.

Da Duozi has been frightened for the past few days, and the dog dare not open its mouth easily. When it saw Zhang Weilan coming in, it squeaked twice and then fell silent.

Zhang Weilan looked at Daduozi, bent down and touched its dog's head.Da Duozi immediately squinted his eyes in comfort, and rubbed against Zhang Weilan's palm.

"You came here, what do you want to say?" Zhong Pei looked at Zhang Weilan twice, and his heart ached.

——Zhang Weilan has lost weight again, and if she loses weight, she will lose her appearance.

"Aunt Zhong." Zhang Weilan straightened her waist, and actually smiled at Zhong Pei with the corners of her mouth pulled.This smile was extremely short, flashed by, and was more sad than crying.

Zhang Weilan said, "Aunt Zhong, I want to see Zhong Ning."

Zhong Pei was silent for a while, and said, "You know I won't let you see him. I won't allow you to be together."

"I know." Zhang Weilan said hoarsely, "but this is the last time, the last time, Aunt Zhong."

He didn't look up, and didn't meet Zhong Pei's eyes: "Please, I promise, it's the last time."

Zhong Pei was taken aback: "...What do you mean?"

Zhang Weilan didn't respond, just repeated: "Let me meet him, just a glance. Please."

......

When Zhang Weilan opened the door and entered the room, Zhong Ning was lying on the bed.He was not covered with a quilt, his clothes were in a mess, and he looked tired with one arm across his eyes.

Zhong Ning heard the sound of the door opening and didn't move. He just said, "Mom, soft and hard. You've tried it many times. I'm just like this. Don't bother."

Zhong Ning: "If you imprison me for the rest of your life, so will I."

Zhang Weilan paused, closed the door, and walked over slowly.He sat beside Zhong Ning's bed: "You, don't eat soft and hard."

Zhong Ning's body immediately collapsed, and in the next second, he jumped up from the bed. The movement was too fast, and he pulled the bruise on his body, making a "hiss" in pain.

"You..." Zhong Ning stared at Zhang Weilan, subconsciously bit the tip of his tongue, for fear that he might not be awake.

The tip of the tongue hurts, it's really Zhang Weilan, not a hallucination.

"Why do you..." Zhong Ning looked at the window, then at the door, and quickly shifted his gaze to Zhang Weilan's face. He really couldn't get enough of this face.

He had too many things he wanted to say to Zhang Weilan. At this moment, he was scrambling to be the first, and he was fighting for his life, but his mouth suddenly came to an end, and he couldn't use it anymore.

"You... how did you come in?" Zhong Ning asked after a while, his eyes were burning hot and his nose was sore, he reached out and touched Zhang Weilan's face, "Why did you lose weight?"

Zhang Weilan didn't respond, he took Zhong Ning's hand and squeezed it twice carefully.

"Zhang Weilan..." Zhong Ning saw Zhang Weilan like that, his heart was split in two.

He swallowed his saliva: "What the hell are you..."

Zhang Weilan lowered her head and kissed the back of Zhong Ning's hand: "Does the injury still hurt?"

He leaned over again and kissed Zhong Ning's forehead: "The fever is gone, have you fully recovered?"

"...Why did my mother let you in?" Zhong Ning's eyes were red, "What did you tell her? Why did she let you in? Huh?"

Zhang Weilan froze, and the two faced each other, their eyes were red.

They looked at each other for a while, Zhang Weilan slowly opened his mouth, but Zhong Ning suddenly turned his head away, and asked something else: "I haven't asked you yet, how is the exam going? Don't tell me if you don't do well in the exam, I will die of pain."

Zhang Weilan's throat was choked up, and she said softly after a while: "The test is okay, although it's not particularly good, but it's not bad."

"Really?" Zhong Ning turned back and looked at Zhang Weilan.

"Really, the estimated score can be six hundred and four." Zhang Weilan said in a tone that Zhong Ning had never heard before.

Zhang Weilan had coaxed him before, but never before, like this time, was so pampering, so soft, so... Zhong Ning wanted to cry.

Zhong Ning exhaled, then blinked his sore eyes again: "This score is not good for you."

"I really didn't fail the exam. I promised you, how can I fail the exam. This year's questions are difficult, and the score is low." Zhang Weilan's mouth trembled, "I'm not lying to you."

Zhong Ning gritted his teeth, and cowardice suddenly shot up his spine.He rubbed his face and said in a low voice: "Otherwise, you'd better lie to me."

Zhang Weilan was silent, he was speechless.

The air died for a few minutes.

Zhang Weilan knows that Zhong Ning has always been able to see through him, Zhong Ning is very smart and sensitive, even if there are only minor details, he can feel them.He must have guessed it.

Zhong Pei is willing to let Zhang Weilan in, and Zhang Weilan has such a face... Zhong Ning understands, he understands.

"Zhang Weilan." Zhong Ning raised his head suddenly, grabbed Zhang Weilan's clothes, and expressed his sincerity, "No matter what my mother told you, can you not give up? Trust me, trust me, okay?"

"My mother, you know, she has a knife mouth and a bean curd heart. She used to me when she was young. She can't hold me back. Now this is only temporary. Don't be afraid. One day she will understand and compromise. You believe me , as long as we are together, we will definitely..."

"I applied for a university in the south." Zhang Weilan lowered her head and looked at Zhong Ning's hand that was pulling his clothes.

He could see clearly that Zhong Ning's hand shook just as soon as he finished speaking.

University in the South?What about Xiao Huan?Xiaohuan, she...Zhong Ning understood.Xiao Huan entrusted her uncle and aunt, and they all went to the south.

Slowly, Zhong Ning's hand loosened and fell from Zhang Weilan's chest.His voice was drifting, unable to find a place in the air, and murmured brokenly: "You... so... also, this way you will have no burden, you will be free, you......"

Zhong Ning's eyes were hot, red enough to bleed.He heard the beating of his heart "thump-thump", and it was extremely heavy.

Zhong Ning raised his head, carefully looked at the pale face opposite him, and looked at the dark mole of tears.He asked, "But Zhang Weilan, you really don't want me anymore?"

Zhang Weilan's breath stagnated in her heart and lungs, and she lost her voice in pain.He gritted his teeth fiercely, and there was a fishy smell coming from his mouth, which choked back his voice: "Zhong Ning, accompany me all this way, are you really not tired?"

Zhang Weilan looked down at the unfaded bruise on Zhong Ning's arm: "It hurts."

Mouth full of fishy smell: "Even if it has nothing to do with gender, it shouldn't be like this when two people are together..."

"I love you." Zhong Ning said suddenly, and quickly cut off Zhang Weilan, "I love you."

In Zhang Weilan's memory, only Zhong Ning said these three words to him.Parents, grandpa, Xiao Huan, no one has ever said anything.Only Zhong Ning.

And at this moment, Zhang Weilan was convinced for no reason that in his long life in the next few decades, no one would talk to him again, never again.

This is the best ending.Zhang Weilan told herself.

This is the best, good for everyone, no one has to suffer anymore.The rugged and winding road continues, and in the end, as they should be when they are young - bridges return to bridges, and roads return to roads.

Zhang Weilan forced herself to look at Zhong Ning's face, seeing it right and wrong: "I can't bear it. Do you know? I want to give you the best, but I only have the worst. I don't deserve you."

"Zhong Ning, let's separate. We... let's forget about it."

forget it.

Just one "forget it".With a single "forget it", Zhang Weilan threw all of Zhong Ning's courage and persistence behind his back, threw them into the soil, and trampled them to shrivell and shatter them.

A "forget it", Zhong Ning made a fool of himself when his deep affection was lightly let down.

Those scars, those injuries... only got this person to say "forget it".

Some things are so beautiful, so beautiful that they are too heavy and hot, and they couldn't carry them on their shoulders.They would have been bruised.

Intense sadness and anger rushed towards Zhong Ning immediately, covering his head and face, hysterical, and brought out the pain he had accumulated for many days.

Zhong Ning stared at Zhang Weilan: "Really?"

Zhong Ning: "If you leave, never come back."

"Okay." Zhang Weilan whispered, "I will never come back in my life."

"lifetime".Zhang Weilan never promised "a lifetime".The only time it was said, it turned out to be like this.This is not the "lifetime" that Zhong Ning wants.

These three words were pierced by Zhong Ning.Bloody pierced through.

Zhong Ning ruthlessly gave Zhang Weilan a punch, Zhang Weilan was beaten to the ground by him, the bloody smell in his mouth became more and more intense.

"I'll fuck you forever!" Zhong Ning pointed at Zhang Weilan and shouted, "You fucking..."

Tears came down unconvincingly: "I am for you, I... Zhang Weilan, I am really not worth your risk? Is that really what scares you?"

"Okay, let's go." Zhong Ning wiped away his tears fiercely, "Whoever leaves will be reluctant? If you have the ability, get out, and from now on, we will never communicate with each other again!"

Zhong Ning yelled louder and louder, wishing to yell all the blood and tears all over his body.

Zhang Weilan lay on the ground, sat up slowly, and stood up unsteadily again.

He glanced at Zhong Ning, wanting to take Zhong Ning into his life.

He said in his heart: "Hate it, you should hate me to death. I deserve it."

Zhang Weilan turned around and walked out.

Young people only know that "losing" is heart-wrenching, but they never understand "retaining" and "turning back".

Zhong Ning yelled at Zhang Weilan's back: "You bastard!"

Zhang Weilan paused at the door, and subconsciously raised her hand to support the door frame.He didn't look back, just bent down.

His tall and straight waist seemed to be broken suddenly. ——Before he walked out of Zhong Ning's room, he couldn't straighten up thinking about Zhong Ning.

Zhong Pei was standing at the door, and when Zhang Weilan looked up, she happened to see her.

Fortunately, she was standing at the door, otherwise Zhang Weilan might not be able to get out.

Zhang Weilan closed Zhong Ning's door with his backhand, closing that person, those years, one heart together.

Zhang Weilan walked up to Zhong Pei, taking advantage of the light, he saw the snow-white hair roots on Zhong Pei's temples, densely packed, pale and mottled.Because of the two of them, Zhong Pei didn't go to the barber shop for re-dyeing recently.

It turned out that she had so much white hair.

Zhong Pei must have worked so hard these years.How sad she must be now.

I could hear Zhong Ning smashing something in the room, I don't know what he smashed, there were a few loud bangs, it exploded, and then fell.

Zhang Weilan bowed to Zhong Pei.

Zhong Pei turned his face to the side, covered his mouth with his hands, and cried.