Dip in fire

The bedroom door was still unlocked, Zhong Ning knocked on the door: "Mom, it's me, can I go in?"

No one answered, Zhong Pei still ignored him.

Zhong Ning sighed, his heart was falling, making him uncomfortable.

Zhong Ning said again: "Mom, I went in. You are the same as before, you can beat or scold if you want, but don't ignore me, okay?"

There was still no response from the house.Zhong Ning hesitated for a moment, and gently pushed the door open.

Zhong Ning saw Zhong Pei at a glance.Zhong Pei was sitting on the rattan chair by the window, when she heard Zhong Ning push the door, she subconsciously turned her head to look at Zhong Ning, and then turned her head out of the window.

The sunlight from outside the window fell into the wrinkles at the corners of Zhong Pei's eyes, filling the aging lines of her skin with beautiful light.

Zhong Ning walked over step by step, putting the things in his hands on the table first.

Zhong Ning opened the packaging bag and took out a box of delicious food: "Mom, I bought you delicious food, all of which you like to eat."

Zhong Ning said, "It's your favorite restaurant."

Zhong Ning: "There are fish-flavored pork shreds, braised scallops, rock sugar lilies..."

"You can beat or scold." Zhong Pei suddenly said, "Is it useful?"

She tossed and turned all night last night, her throat was hoarse, and her eyes were red.When people are old, if they don't rest well, they will look old immediately.Zhong Pei's skin was particularly loose today, and the bags under his eyes looked heavy.

Zhong Pei turned around, looked at Zhong Ning and said, "It was useless for me to beat and scold you when you were 20 years old. Now that you are thirty, it is even more useless for me to beat and scold you."

One sentence made Zhong Ning's chest blocked and he couldn't breathe.Zhong Ning hurried to Zhong Pei, and he knelt down at Zhong Pei's feet.

"Mom, don't be angry, don't be so sad. If I hurt my body, I don't know what to do." Zhong Ning rested his head on Zhong Pei's knee and whispered, "Please."

Zhong Pei was silent for a while.She sniffed and took a deep breath, suppressing the hot and sour moisture in her eyes.

Zhong Pei looked down at the back of Zhong Ning's head.She actually asked: "All these years, do you blame me?"

Zhong Ning was taken aback for a moment, then raised his head abruptly.Looking at Zhong Pei's face, he thought to himself, "How could I blame you? What right do I have to blame you?"

"Mom, what are you talking about?" Zhong Ning realized that his voice was trembling like this after speaking.

"If I hadn't stopped her, Zhang Weilan might not have left." Zhong Pei gritted her teeth desperately, but tears still fell.

She quickly wiped away the tears with the back of her hand, and turned her face away to prevent Zhong Ning from seeing.Her aggressive look is actually the same as before.

"Mom, don't say that." Zhong Ning lowered his head, he had no face to look at Zhong Pei again, "I understand that you are all for me."

Zhong Pei shook her head: "I really don't understand. I don't understand, why you? Why do you have to be like this?"

Zhong Ning's every word beat Zhong Ning's heart to pieces: "When I gave birth to you, I knew I was sorry for you."

Zhong Pei said: "Everyone else's children have fathers. You don't. Not only do you not, but..."

Zhong Pei's voice was choked with sobs: "It's just so dirty."

Zhong Ning's ribs began to choke, and he had to stretch out his hand and press hard because of the pain.

"But I still want to be your mother. When I gave birth to you, I swore right then and there that I must treat you well." Zhong Pei's tears fell down one after another, pattering on the back of Zhong Ning's hand.These light tears actually hit the back of Zhong Ning's hands sorely, as if they could give his hands a discount.

"I'll do my best to give you everything I can. I'm not afraid of what others will think of me behind my back, and they can scold me as I please." Zhong Pei said, "But you...why can't you... "

"Mom, mom, stop talking." Zhong Ning leaned forward and couldn't help hugging Zhong Pei's waist, "Stop talking, I understand everything. I'm sorry."

Zhong Pei has endured countless cold looks in his life.So many that others dare not count them.She is willing to bear the thorns all over her body, but she just hopes that Zhong Ning can be free and happy.I just hope that the injustice and indifference of the secular world will not hurt Zhong Ning at all.

But she still lost, a crushing defeat.

For a while, neither mother nor son spoke.The aroma of the food has overflowed and floated in the air.

Zhong Pei took out a tissue and wiped away her tears and snot. The nostrils were filled with a familiar and warm fragrance.

She said to Zhong Ning, "Actually, I know that you haven't forgotten about Zhang Weilan all these years."

Zhong Ning did not dare to move.He felt that his internal organs were being smashed to the ground with a "bang" and smashed to pieces.

"Your bar, I asked you what the English name means." Zhong Pei still looked at the back of Zhong Ning's head.Zhong Ning's hair is black and thick, just like her.

She was like that when she was young, but her hair turned gray before she knew it: "You told me it was 'blue'. Later, by chance, Lin Xi told me that yours is more fashionable than 'blue'. Yours is sky blue , blue."

"You chose this name because of Zhang Weilan, right?" Zhong Pei stabbed Zhong Ning's heart with a knife.

"I'm sorry." Zhong Ning's mouth hurt.

"Also." Zhong Pei paused for a moment, then continued, "That small room at your house."

Zhong Pei: "When I went to your place earlier, you said it was a utility room, and it was in a mess, and you never let me go in."

"Later, I took a peek at it while you weren't looking." Zhong Pei couldn't hold back his tears again, "That old bicycle next to the fish tank also belongs to Wei Lan, right? You still have his things."

"Mom." Zhong Ning looked up, "I'm sorry. Really."

Zhong Pei's hand clenched into a fist, and then let go.Her palm slapped Zhong Ning's face, there was no force, only a soft "pop": "Bastard."

"Yeah." Zhong Ning nodded, and gently grabbed Zhong Pei's wrist, "I also think I'm a jerk. But I just can't forget him."

Life is so powerless.Many things cannot be achieved, and many dreams cannot be chased.Many people can't let go.It's as if the legs and the heart are all fakes, the way you run is never right, and the face you miss is never right.I was exhausted early tomorrow, but God refused to give me a little in return.

"Mom, I don't know what to tell you now." Zhong Ning blinked his eyes, the eyeballs were so sore that they were about to split in the middle.

"As soon as I saw Zhang Weilan come back, I couldn't take it anymore." Zhong Ning said in a low voice, "I can't leave him."

Zhong Ning: "These years, I think he is going crazy."

"Mom, I understand your position, and I'm sorry for you. But one thing, it's still exactly the same as before. I can't lie to you."

"Hit me, I'm nothing." Zhong Ning said, grabbed Zhong Pei's hand, and slapped himself hard on the cheek.He said, "I like Zhang Weilan. You beat me to death, and I like him too."

Zhong Pei trembled all over, a strong soreness stuck in her throat, making her unable to utter a sound.

The smell of the food in the room is still trying to get into the nose. It smells so good, but it turns bitter when swallowed.

Zhong Pei looked at Zhong Ning, at his only son, at the greatest pride in his life, at everything about himself.

Years ago, she beat Zhong Ning with a stick, and Zhong Ning said the same thing. —— Zhong Ning said: "You beat me to death, and I like him too."

Now.Zhong Ning grew up and became sensible.He is [-] times gentler and considerate than when he was young, his head will no longer be held high stubbornly, he will never be fearless and say "I'm right" to his mother, he will never be the same as before. The generally incomparable tough tone.

But he still said: "You beat me to death, and I like him too."

Zhong Pei suddenly couldn't stand it any longer.One more look at Zhong Ning, and her spirit will collapse.

Time is a wonderful thing.You can easily change a lot, and you can polish your persistence to become more and more eternal.

"You go out." Zhong Pei withdrew her hand, closed her eyes and didn't look at Zhong Ning, she suddenly felt very tired.

Just like a soldier who has fought all her life on the battlefield, finally one day, she threw away her sword, spear, sword and halberd, and rode the scarred, old and weak horse back to her hometown, looking at the mottled and dilapidated city gate of her hometown.

I was so tired that I couldn't even speak a word.

"Mom..." Zhong Ning knelt on the spot for a while, and found that Zhong Pei really couldn't listen to him, so he slowly stood up from the ground.

The floor was hard and my knees ached.

"Mom, you have something to eat, I will come again." Zhong Ning said, "You can treat me whatever you want. Although I have grown up, you are my mother."

Zhong Pei leaned her head back on the chair, letting the warm sunlight fall on her face, she didn't speak.

Zhong Ning could only turn around and walk out of Zhong Pei's room.Walking a few steps is like wandering, and the soles of the feet can't grasp the ground.

After going down the stairs, both Xie Yuanze and Xie Linxi looked up at him.

Zhong Ning pursed his lips and said dryly, "Uncle, sister, I'm sorry to trouble you."

Xie Yuanze didn't ask much, just walked past Zhong Ning, and said as he went upstairs, "Have Xiao Ning bought enough vegetables? I'll go up and eat with your mother."

Zhong Ning smiled shallowly: "That's enough."

When Xie Yuanze went upstairs, Xie Linxi came over again. She patted Zhong Ning's shoulder: "Don't worry, and don't get angry. We are here. It's okay."

Zhong Ning smiled at Xie Linxi again.

Da Duozi and Er Duozi also turned upside down, a dog arching Zhong Ning's pant leg.Zhong Ning squatted down, one hand in each hand, rubbing the ropes for their dog heads to form a bird's nest.

Da Duozi is an old dog. He has been with the young master for many years, and he has long been used to it, so he is willing to be bullied.It's just that Erduozi was a bit careless, although he didn't dare to pierce it, he still snored twice.

Zhong Ning glanced at Erduozi, then stretched out his hand to smooth its hair.

Slowly, it will be fine.Zhong Ning told himself.

After leaving Zhong Pei's house, Zhong Ning called Xu Huai and asked about Azure's situation.There are quite a lot of people opening today. In less than half an afternoon, the bar is almost full.

But Xu Huai had already seen that Zhong Ning was unnatural, so he said: "Why don't you come over, it's fine. If there are regular customers coming, I'll just accompany you for a drink or two."

Xu Huai smiled: "Hey, I just care about you. What's wrong with you?"

Zhong Ning sighed: "My mother knows about Zhang Weilan and I. The house is a bit chaotic."

Xu Huai was silent for a while, and said in a low voice: "Don't be too upset. There will always be a solution."

"Well, I know." Zhong Ning said, "I'll leave Azure to you. Call me if you need anything."

"to make."

Instead of going to Azure, Zhong Ning went home directly.He had just entered the house when Zhang Weilan called.

"Hello." Zhong Ning connected without taking off his coat, and he was talking to Zhang Weilan while changing his shoes.

"Zhong Ning." Zhang Weilan called him.

"Yeah." Zhong Ning walked to the sofa and sat down. Instead of talking about Mrs. Zhong, he asked first, "Have you eaten yet?"

"Not yet." Zhang Weilan said honestly.

Zhong Ning clicked his tongue: "Hurry up and eat, what time is it? You have a broken stomach, don't get sick again." After he finished speaking, he realized that he hadn't eaten lunch yet.

Zhang Weilan forced a smile: "Okay. I'll eat right away. What about you? You..."

"I'll eat it right away." Zhong Ning said quickly.Then he paused for a moment, and then said again, "I just went to see my mother and talked to her a lot."

Zhong Ning: "Give her more time."

Zhang Weilan was silent for a while.Zhong Ning stared at the clock opposite, watching the second hand swinging regularly.

"Take me to see Aunt Zhong tomorrow. I know I shouldn't push her too hard. But I really want to talk to her. These years..." Zhang Weilan didn't seem to dare to speak out, "These years, I've actually missed her a lot."

Zhong Ning rubbed his eyelids: "Let me think about it."

"Then I'll talk about it when I go back tonight. I've already bought the ticket to go home tonight." Zhang Weilan's voice was close to Zhong Ning's ear, calm and powerful, "Wait for me to go home."

The second hand still moved, but at this second, all the restlessness disappeared.