coward

"Is it okay to say this?" Li Qinghe looked up and saw that Li Xiluo was expressionless, and asked in a low voice.

"Ah? Oh, yes." Li Xiluo came back to her senses.

"I don't understand." He added after a while.

"..."

"Where?" Li Qinghe pointed the book at Li Xiluo.

"The second step. Just here, ask for guidance." Li Xiluo asked him, pointing at a point on the draft paper.

"Here's a formula."

Speaking of which, Li Qinghe took out the draft paper again, wrote down a few lines of formulas, and read them softly, "f(x)=c, f'(x)=0. f(x)=sinx, f'(x) = cosx..."

Li Xiluo's ears were filled with the sound of the 0.5 black ink pen writing on the draft paper.In addition, those few formulas in a soft voice were also connected into a thread, which got into his ears in the form of silk...

A small foldable table was placed on the bed next to the window in dormitory 406, and the warm yellow lamp made a corner of the dormitory hot.The small table was surrounded by two teenagers sitting cross-legged.

They discussed in low voices, their heads were brought together, their black hair was dazzled by the light.

A corner of the dormitory is warm yellow, most of it is dark.

That corner was surrounded by two teenagers, as if guarding hope and covering the light.

Moonlight shines through the gaps in the curtains, and outside the window is the galaxy, which is also thousands of miles away.

There is always such a faint light in the world that makes people cry.

……

The next morning, there were small snowflakes.

It's really like little flowers, floating in the air. If someone walks faster and brings up some wind, those little snowflakes will fly a few times in mid-air, and finally land gently on the person's shoulders.

Li Xiluo and Li Qinghe got up early, and there were not many people on the campus road at this moment. Li Xiluo put away the umbrella in his hand and handed it to Li Qinghe. I and you go first."

Li Qinghe opened his mouth, as if he had something to say.

"I rubbed against Chen Jingyue."

"it is good."

Chen Jingyue has no umbrella.Not only did Chen Jingyue have no umbrellas, but the boys around him also didn't have umbrellas.

But it's nothing, it's not raining, and the boys are more than happy to welcome the snow.By noon, a white blanket had already been spread on the ground.

The boy grows in stature, but his nature has not diminished at all.A group of tall and big boys held a handful of snow balls, and then they dragged someone and smashed them into their collars, which caused a burst of exclamation, and then there was a lot of laughter, and they rushed to the restaurant.

Li Xiluo shook the snow in his collar, laughed and cursed a few words and ran away.Suddenly his eyes flickered, he picked up a handful of snow from the table tennis table, and threw it down on the person in front of him indiscriminately.

Li Qinghe exclaimed, and saw Li Xiluo who was laughing in a blink of an eye.

The surroundings were all white, and Li Xiluo's eyes shone brightly against the backdrop of everything around him.

"Haha, don't run!" He pointed at Li Qinghe and shouted.

The two were arguing, throwing snow on each other wherever they grabbed it.

"Hey hey!" Seeing that Li Qinghe was about to fall, Li Xiluo hurriedly reached out to grab him.

"Chen! Bu! Wood! Cao!"

The two fell to the ground in unison.

"hiss."

Li Qinghe tasted a fishy sweetness.He stretched out his hand to touch it, his lips were broken, and his fingertips were bright red.Li Qinghe didn't feel the pain yet, he looked at Li Xiluo in confusion.

There was a tooth mark on Li Xiluo's forehead.

"Damn it! Did you bite me a tooth mark?" Li Xiluo also touched it.

"No, no, I'm not either..." Li Qinghe said for a long time without finishing his sentence.

I couldn't go on talking anymore, the two of them lay on the ground, one half and the other half lying on the ground, looking at the scene in front of them, they couldn't hold back, and both laughed.

They were pulled up and couldn't stop.

Smiles are indeed contagious, especially with people who want to laugh with them.

A group of teenagers were making a fuss, the snowball hurt their faces, and no one was jealous. When they arrived at the door of the restaurant, they scrambled and squeezed in noisily.

It was still Li Xiluo who went to line up, why was Li Xiluo always so persistent, because Li Qinghe said that queuing is just queuing obediently, and he doesn't get annoyed if someone jumps in line.Li Qing and Li Xiluo who lined up always saw some shameless people inserting into his team.

Damn it, it's Lao Tzu's meal that I robbed!

What's more, he is also in the shameless group.

Li Xiluo also jumped in line.

Apart from the fact that Chen Jingyue and Zhao Xin's group helped him occupy seats and join his own team, he still had to rob other teams from time to time.

Why, some are even more shameless to join the team of girls in their class, can this fucking work?

It doesn't matter who, Li Xiluo and the others in Class [-] have to stand in front of the people, and the girls who called their class to be cut in the queue should stand in front of them.Sometimes I will bring girls from other classes with me.

I'm sorry.

I'm shameless, and I don't have much quality, so why should you ask me to tolerate you jumping in line?

I have to plug it back in.

Don't even think about joining our class.

There are fewer shameless people in other classes, and Li Xiluo has been caught more often because he jumped in line and brought others along with him.

There is no shortage of visits to the office teaching office.

"You have to cut back when someone else cuts in?" Zhang Chunhua glared at him.

"Ah, this kind of shameless person has to be dealt with like this." Li Xiluo was confident.

"You can't be reasonable?"

"What's the point of a bunch of shameless people?" Li Xiluo sounded grandiose.

"..."

"Although I'm shameless." He whispered.

Zhang Chunhua wanted to say more, but Li Xiluo hurriedly said, "Your class only eats for ten minutes, and there are some people who jump in line, so the fuck...can you eat?" Li Xiluo swallowed back the swear words that fell into his mouth.

"..."

"Then you didn't watch it, there have been fewer queue jumpers these days."

"..."

There are fewer queue jumpers, and Li Xi's reputation as a low-level bully is getting louder and louder.Even the little girl started screaming.As soon as he yelled, not only Li Xiluo blushed, but also when the boys around him made a fuss, they also blushed.

……

Li Xiluo and Li Qinghe were the same.When the two meet, they will greet each other in the corridor and say a few words.The queue is still Li Xiluo, the soup is still Li Qinghesheng, and the meal is still eaten together.

……

Youth in their teens always carries some simple yet intense expectations.

There are many books in the corridor, especially next to the trash can.If you can't throw it down, you pile it up next to it, forming a hill.

In a blink of an eye, the 23rd of the twelfth lunar month is a small year in the north.On this day, the stove is worshiped to welcome the gods, dumplings are eaten and stove candy is eaten, and a few wormwoods are always inserted on the door lintel.

The school is on holiday, bustling, and every student is taken home by his family.

Didn't it just take it back, pack the things, and wait for the family with the schoolbag on their backs, and they don't even have to do it themselves, all the members of the family come, and the packing is done in a few clicks.

Then he was taken away obediently.

Li Xiluo leaned against the classroom window and smoked.

Everyone is gone, no one cares.

Even if he closed all the windows, he didn't worry if the smell of smoke didn't dissipate.

His dad just called to say that he has a meeting and his mom isn't free either, so come back by yourself.

The horn blared downstairs continuously, Li Xiluo felt disturbed for no reason.

He slammed the windows shut tightly, and finally suppressed the heart-piercing voice a bit.

He slammed the cigarette against the wall, leaving a black mass.

He turned and walked out of the classroom and went to the dormitory.

Finally, he turned back and opened the windows in the classroom corridor.

Classrooms should never smell of smoke.

It's outrageous.

……

He went back to the dormitory, which was empty.

There was no sound at all, and the rows of aisle indicator lights in the dormitory looked even more eerie in the dark corridor.

But it's really deserted.

Li Xiluo settled at the door of the 406 dormitory.

He stared fixedly at the light shining through the window and cracks in the door.Across the door, he seemed to be hiding in a sealed cavity, and the glimmer of light scratched him.

Li Xiluo pushed open the door and Li Qinghe was sitting on the edge of the bed kicking his feet.

It looked like he had already packed it, but it was just a box, a bag for quilts.

The bag is not too big, many people have it, and it was given out during the military training of Y people.

Li Xiluo gently pushed the door open, but Li Qinghe didn't notice.

He sat quietly by the bed, leaving the room light and bright.

"You haven't left yet?" Li Xiluo leaned against the door, looked at him and smiled angrily.

No way, just want to laugh.

The boy in front of him couldn't stop laughing.

"Ah, you... are you back?"

Li Qinghe stood up awkwardly as if his quietness of being alone had been interrupted.

"I'll go find... I see you haven't packed your things..."

Li Xiluo felt that when talking to him, he would sometimes be very calm, respond easily and gently, just like the first time he saw his back as steady as an old dog, but often it was like this, with wandering eyes and talking like He thought about the wording a hundred times but couldn't get it right. After speaking, he seemed to hold his breath, lowered his eyes, and lowered his head as if waiting for the verdict.

"Qinghe, what do you want to say? I didn't hear clearly just now." Li Xiluo said intentionally, looking at the young man standing in front of him with his head bowed, his eyelashes were so thick that they fluttered like a crow's feathers.

Li Qinghe took a light breath: "Everyone is gone, I... I didn't see you."

"So are you waiting for me?" Li Xiluo asked.

Li Qinghe didn't speak, lowered his head and his eyelashes trembled slightly.

"Are you waiting for me to help me pack my things? I'm afraid I'll tear the quilt cover up clumsily." He said again.

"No...not." Li Qinghe looked up anxiously, and found that Li Xiluo was looking at him with a smile on his face.

Li Qinghe felt that his ear was scratched by the kitten, and it was itchy and painful.

He really wanted to raise his hand to pull the hair by his ear, but in front of Li Xiluo, his limbs were like the old electric fan at home, dilapidated and stiff.

Li Xiluo laughed, and Li Qinghe froze again.

Li Xiluo stopped teasing him, and the child's ears turned red again.

This is not his fault.

"Ah, that's great, I'm worried that no one will help me."

A few days after the winter vacation of the third year of high school, the two of them packed up the necessary things, and it was just a big box.

Li Xiluo sat on the bed, watching Li Qinghe busily cleaning the cabinets and closing the windows, Li Xiluo couldn't help thinking: How virtuous.

The two left the dormitory together. When they went down the stairs, Li Xiluo picked up Li Qinghe's suitcase and walked in front.

"Don't, don't, I'll come." Li Qinghe hurriedly followed him.

"What's in your box doesn't weigh much."

"No, it's easy." Li Xiluo blocked it, not letting Li Qinghe take it.

When we arrived at the gate, the security guard had already closed the door of the security room and was holding a tea mug to drink water. Seeing that there were still students who hadn't left, he said, "What's the matter with you two? Why did you two come out after everyone else has left?"

"There are a lot of things." Li Xiluo was simple and clear.

In the end, the two stood in the cold wind and waited for the bus.

"Fuck, where's the car? It's been a long time and there's no sign of anyone." Li Xiluo stood with his back to the wind and pulled the zipper to the top.

"Where's your school uniform hat?" Li Xiluo turned around and saw Li Qinghe standing behind him, his lips were pursed and paler because of the cold.

"Go, remove it." Li Qinghe said tremblingly.

"Tsk, why don't you learn well?" Li Xiluo scolded Li Qinghe very much like a person.

Li Qinghe didn't speak, just lowered his head and shrunk his neck into his collar.

"Come here." Li Xiluo called him.

He dragged Li Qinghe to him.

"Tsk, isn't it cold? Come closer." Seeing Li Qinghe looked up at him suspiciously, he pulled him towards her again.

Li Qinghe felt numb all over his body.

He didn't even dare to move his fingers.

Is this, shielding him from the wind?

He couldn't believe it at first, until his head hit Li Xiluo's chin.

"Hiss." Li Xiluo rubbed her chin, Li Qinghe was completely dumbfounded.

Pressing his cold and soft lips suddenly, his brain exploded in an instant, and the touch crackled in his mind and exploded into a burst of fireworks. It was fleeting but illuminated the entire dark night, and the dying and struggling were also reborn.

The touch on the forehead seemed to be still there, spreading to the limbs little by little, converging to the heart, forming a warm current, and finally burning the whole sky.

Fuck, use a lot of force.

It's fucking knocking again.

Li Xiluo groaned.

Li Qinghe looked up at him, their eyes met, as if thinking of the time when it snowed before, they laughed for no reason.

The young man was flamboyant and reckless, and his laughter was somewhat clear.

Li Xiluo was leaning against a roadside pillar, with a slender body wrapped in a black windbreaker, deep eyebrows, and a flamboyant smile. Although her long hair added some wildness and wildness, it was more of a young man's open-mindedness.

Li Qinghe also laughed.

Whether it is the laughter of young people or the tacit understanding between young people.

When Li Xiluo smiled, he wanted to laugh.

He is in a good mood, and the corners of his mouth are raised.

It doesn't matter whether it is blindly following or homosexual perversion, and there is no reason.

I just want to watch you.

All my life.

Secretly is also good.

Although I have stolen the delusion that I cannot afford.

He looked at Li Xiluo, this was the first time he stood in front of him and stared at him without blinking.

There is no paranoia in the eyes, no possession, only the desire to follow.

Warm and hot, humble and pious.

He watched him laugh, laughed with him, he looked at him, he looked at him.

Li Xiluo: "Is it still cold?"

Li Qinghe shook his head.

The two of them just laughed together in the cold wind, and now there is still a smile on their faces that can't go away.

The twilight is all together, the surroundings are dark, the street is long and has no end in sight, and the roadside is overgrown with weeds.The cold wind poured into the collar, and the wind cut the face, which was painful.

They hadn't waited for the bus yet, but he came with a word from Brother Luo.

Brother Luo squeezed his fingers and said, "Nobody picks up the kid. Brother Luo will take you home."

Someone picked him up after school.

He waited and waited in the team for almost 18 years, and finally someone came to pick him up.

It's okay to be self-deceiving, he lowered his head.He didn't dare to look at Li Xiluo.

The tears were disobedient, and dripped on the limestone floor with a "click", fainting into a drop of wet marks.

I can't hide it anymore.

Brother Luo must have seen it.

Brother Luo not only saw it, but also felt uncomfortable.

"Hey, did you drop the golden beans? Tsk. Like a little daughter-in-law."

Although the words are not personal.

"Let's go, let's go home." Li Xiluo said.

Li Qinghe's eyes were still red, and he couldn't help sobbing.

"Hey, is it endless?" Li Xiluo said with a smile.

Li Qinghe also laughed.

His eyelashes were still wet, like a bird swimming in water, with its feathers wet, but he stared at Li Xiluo without blinking.

is heading for the abyss,

is drowning in the sea,

is indulgence,

is pointless,

is joy,

is pious.

It is the most blatant and presumptuous love of a coward.

……

The author has something to say: This coward is quite obedient, tsk.

? (Here, today's sunflower.)

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