coward

The boy's tears kept streaming down, hitting Li Xiluo's trembling needle-pricked hand, it was very hot.

He looked at the pale young man who was lowering his head and desperately trying to suppress his crying. His hand was held back hard, like a fish that was about to drown and struggled to float out of the sea. To the sky, embrace the birds.

When the boy met the light, he stepped onto the edge of the broken building with no way out, was caught, or was buried in the ruins.

I tear open my rotting wounds, and bow my head to reveal to my god.

I say I love you to the wind every day.Watch it brush your ears with my dirty greed, caress your hair, and kiss the corners of your mouth.

I am like a sunflower growing in a dark corner, blooming withered flowers, others look up and bloom beautifully, I am a coward, I just want to look at you from afar.

if you can.

Bit by bit, piecemeal, the pale boy trembled his lips, revealing the past to another boy.

The setting sun passed through the light blue curtains, climbed onto the brows of the young man on the hospital bed, and gently kissed his forehead.Time flows quietly, and the ten fingers of the two teenagers are entwined in the afterglow of the setting sun.

……

Xu Yitang sat on a chair in the corridor of the hospital in a daze, and the plastic bag on the chair next to him contained the things he bought in the supermarket half an hour ago.There was bread, water, drink, miscellaneous, because he didn't know what to do.The boredom of these days made him flustered.

Xu Yitang had just talked with his mother on the phone and briefly explained the situation. He sat for a while, and when Li Xiluo stepped forward to hug the child who could no longer suppress his crying, and patted him on the back lightly, he When he came out, he closed the door gently, covering the sadness and comfort in the room.

……

Li Xiluo quietly closed the door and came out.He leaned against the wall, leaned his head against the wall, closed his eyes and sighed. The end of his eyes was very wide, and when he closed his eyes, he looked like a thin line drawn by a paintbrush.The lamps in the corridor glowed with a dim cold light, which could not hide the corners of his red eyes.

"Asleep?" Xu Yitang also leaned his head against the wall, turning his head and asked him.

"Ah."

Li Xiluo replied without opening her eyes.

After a while, Li Xiluo opened his eyes, squeezed the cigarette in his pocket, and sat next to Xu Yitang.

"Tang'er,..."

"Don't say thank you, no need."

"Ah."

Xu Yitang pulled out a bottle of water from a bag and handed it to Li Xiluo.Li Xiluo unscrewed the cap and filled half of the bottle.

"Does he...don't want to tell others about his past?" Xu Yitang broke the silence.

"That's right, living a... life, who would like to be discussed behind others' backs?"

"He's not afraid to let others know, he's afraid... I hate him."

Li Xiluo put her elbows on her legs, lowered her head and said.

Xu Yitang turned to look at him.

The child on the bed paused, as if picking some less embarrassing words from the bloody past, what he said was intermittent and illogical, he kept his head down, sometimes biting his lips, tears dripping straight down on the quilt.

……

He remembered that when he held the trembling child in his arms and patted him on the back to comfort him, the child leaned on his shoulder and tightly grabbed the clothes on his chest: "Don't ignore me, I'll tell you everything, don't hate me, don't... ignore me." The young man's voice was hoarse, and his words were so helpless.

"No, I won't ignore you. Brother Luo is here. I am here."

The boy's tense nerves were relieved by a word, and he slowly fell asleep while sobbing.

Li Xiluo reached out and gently wiped away the tears from the corners of the young man's eyes, and helped him tuck the corners of the quilt, his gaze fell on the hand that was being held by the young man.

He was very hard, as if holding the only salvation.

……

When Xu Yitang's parents came to the ward, they saw their son and his buddies sitting on the chairs in the corridor in a daze, and they didn't know what was wrong.

"son?"

"Ah? Parents, are you here?" Xu Yitang and Li Xiluo looked up and saw Xu's father and Xu's mother.

"Hi, uncle and aunt, thank you for your hard work today."

"Where did it come from, it should be. Is the child asleep?" Xu Yitang's mother said while holding Li Xiluo's hand.

"Well, I just finished my IV and fell asleep."

After Xu Yitang's parents finished talking with their son on the phone, they got a general idea and didn't ask, saying they wanted to go in and see the child.

"Tang'er, you and your uncles and aunts should go back soon. You have to go to class tomorrow. Uncles and aunts have worked hard. Thank them for me. I'll just stick around."

"to make."

Xu Yitang wanted to say something else, but when the words came to his lips, he only sighed and patted Li Xiluo on the shoulder.

Li Xiluo carried a large bag of things left by Xu Yitang into the room, pulled up a stool, and sat beside Li Qinghe's bed.Li Qinghe trembled from time to time, as if he was having a nightmare.

He put Li Qinghe's hands under the quilt, pulled up the quilt, adjusted the temperature of the air conditioner, and lay down on the opposite bed.

After lying down for a while, I pulled out the pillow under my head, shrunk in, hugged the pillow, and looked at the person opposite.

The moonlight shone on the young man's pale skin, which was cold and white with a little fluorescence, like a glowing jellyfish with a round head in the ocean.

Li Xiluo was amused by her own metaphor, and said good night to the person opposite him softly.

Good night, thank you for spending the long night with me.

When Li Xiluo opened her eyes the next day, she saw that the person on the opposite bed had disappeared.He ran outside before he could put on his shoes, and almost bumped into someone when he opened the door. He took a closer look, "What are you doing, where have you been?"

Li Qinghe stood outside the door, holding the door handle and preparing to open the door.

"I... I went to the bathroom."

Li Qinghe looked down at Li Xiluo's bare feet, the sunlight came through the window behind him, he stood against the light in front of him, they were very close.

When he opened his eyes for a moment and saw Li Xiluo lying on the opposite side, the unrealistic feeling returned.He suddenly remembered what happened yesterday, a string in his brain seemed to be tightened suddenly, buzzing in his mind.

"Hey, that, come in quickly, it's cold outside."

Li Xiluo turned sideways to let Li Qinghe in.Li Qinghe entered the room in a daze, and sat on the bed, but sat on Li Xiluo's bed.

Someone doesn't know it.

Li Xiluo didn't make a sound to remind her.

Li Xiluo put on his shoes, and asked the young man who had been looking at him, "What would you like to eat later?"

"Ah... ah?"

Li Qinghe froze with a little disbelief.

"What do you want for breakfast? I'll go buy it."

"I, no... no need!"

Li Qinghe quickly refused and said no.

"Don't be nervous, aren't you hungry? I'm already hungry."

"Hungry..." Li Qinghe whispered.

"Then what do you want to eat?"

"You... I can eat whatever you want."

After finishing speaking, he felt inappropriate, so he hurriedly said, "It's all good... I... I don't choose."

He looked up and saw Li Xiluo smiled, and felt even more embarrassed.

"On the table are the toiletries that Xu Yitang bought yesterday. Wash up first. I'll go buy breakfast first. I'll talk about the rest later."

After Li Xiluo finished speaking, she wrapped her down jacket and went out. When she walked to the door, she turned around and said, "Don't run around, I'll be back soon, do you have anything to bring?"

"no!"

Li Qinghe was staring at his back when he turned around suddenly, which startled Li Qinghe.Li Xiluo smiled and closed the door.

Li Xiluo left the hospital and turned left, looking for the place Xu Yitang told him yesterday.Turning on the phone, many messages kept ringing.Among them, Xu Yitang called him more than [-] messages on WeChat, and there were two missed calls.

Li Xiluo turned over.

Last night, when he went to bed early, Xu Yitang said that his mother heard about Li Qinghe and scolded Li Qinghe's inhuman father for a long time. In the middle of the night, he came out to drink water and met his mother. His mother said Unable to fall asleep, I sat on the sofa and watched TV.

He called his father over, half coaxed and half persuaded his mother to go back to sleep.Here are a few more clarifications:

Xu Yitang: My mother told you not to give him spicy food, but to eat some light food, such as porridge, noodles, light soup and so on.

Xu Yitang: Don't eat greasy food either.

Xu Yitang: Luo, what are you... planning to do?

Xu Yitang: That kid.

Xu Yitang: Don't blame me for talking too much, his family is not simple, don't...

Xu Yitang: That's right, don't take yourself too seriously.

Xu Yitang: What do you guys say, don't be angry.

When Li Xiluo flipped through these few messages, her fingers paused, and then continued to scroll down.

Xu Yitang: No, answer me?

Xu Yitang: Angry?

Xu Yitang: Can't you?

Xu Yitang: Asleep?

Xu Yitang: Not to mention?

Xu Yitang: Fuck it, I'll go to bed if I don't go back, it's already two o'clock.

Xu Yitang: Tomorrow, the two Chinese classes will definitely fall asleep in a row.

Xu Yitang: ...

Xu Yitang: I fell asleep.

The following are a few miscellaneous complaints.

Luo: Tang'er, you are becoming more and more like a little daughter-in-law, the girls are chirping.

Li Xi fell back and Xu Yitang put the phone in his pocket.The sky is dry and cold, and it is working time, and many people on the road are riding two-wheeled trams tightly covered.Li Xiluo leaned on the pillar at the intersection and waited for the red light.Xu Yitang's two words lingered in his mind.

Why do you want to help him?

Li Xiluo didn't know either.

From him calling his name in the dark alley, from him pulling off his school uniform to see his body full of scars, from him holding his hand tightly and saying don't ignore him.

I want to help him, I just want to help him, I want to give him a hand.I want him to have more than just the darkness of fear and the abyss that chokes people's throats.

Li Xiluo didn't know when it was.But nothing comforted him more than two unwanted wild dogs snuggling up and licking each other's wounds.

Since we're all broken, let's try to put together.

Li Xiluo packed two servings of porridge, and asked for a few as small buns.After looking at the round purple potato balls, he hesitated for a long time before buying them.

When he pushed open the door with a bag of breakfast, he saw Li Qinghe standing by the window playing with the small succulent plant in the greenhouse.I don't know which patient left behind.Dongyang hit the boy's body, warm as if it had dyed a layer of gold on the smiling boy.

He seemed to be glowing, and the two locks of hair on his head added some fireworks.

Seeing him come back, the young man standing by the window hurriedly put down the green plant in his hand, his eyes wandered around, and he didn't know where to put his nervous hands.

When Li Xiluo saw her, she didn't say anything. She tidied up the table beside the bed, put the porridge in the lunch box, untied the plastic bag that had covered the buns all the way, opened the stool, and signaled to the person standing by the wall. The boy sat on the edge of the bed and ate.

Li Qinghe sat on the bed, staring blankly at the breakfast on the small table.

Li Xiluo handed him a spoon: "Drink the porridge first." Then he unfolded the plastic bags of several kinds of steamed stuffed buns for Li Qinghe to see: "What kind of stuffing do you like to eat? I forgot to ask you when I left, so I took his house Xu Yitang said that his buns are the best in this area, try it?"

Li Qinghe glanced at Li Xiluo, then stared at the table full of breakfast, very embarrassed.

At this time, a steamed stuffed bun was handed in front of my eyes: "This one is stuffed with mushrooms, I really like it."

The bun was pinched by a hand with well-defined bones, strands of it were steaming white, and a small shiitake mushroom was pinched in the folds of the bun very cutely.

Li Qinghe took the steamed stuffed bun, took a bite, and the aroma filled his taste buds.

Children who have been hungry for a long time don't know how to choose.Any kind of charity is an unattainable luxury.

Li Xiluo looked at the two curled strands of hair, and stretched out her hands to stroke them.

The boy on the bed rolled his eyes.The cheeks are still bulging, like some kind of small animal.

"Cough, my hair is curled up."

Li Qinghe hurriedly put down the buns and wanted to tidy them up, but Li Xiluo stopped them, "Ah, ah, I just took the buns, don't touch them, don't move them, they're quite cute."

Li Qinghe picked up the buns and ate them.

Well, don't look at him again.

Li Qinghe ate quickly, but made no sound at all, which made Li Xiluo keep his eyes on him frequently.

Li Qinghe spent his breakfast in a state of anxiety and tension.

After the two of them finished their breakfast, Li Xiluo threw the plastic bag and lunch box into the trash can, pulled a chair and sat by the window.Neither of the two are people who like to find topics, and they are silent on their own side.

The room was silent.

Li Qinghe hesitated again and again, but decided to say, "Get out of the hospital, I can't stay here anymore, I can get out of the hospital."

Li Xiluo glanced at him, and chuckled, "Why are you trying to be strong? You'll be fine after being injured for a day? After you go out, you have to come back again if something happens. Why do you support me?"

Li Qinghe opened his mouth and did not speak. For a while, the tension, embarrassment, and impracticality of the past two days were thrown into Li Qinghe's head. He felt that everything in front of him would disappear in the next second, just like waking up. Everything about Li Xiluo is like a dream, Li Xiluo's concern, Li Xiluo's tenderness, Li Xiluo's shoulders, Li Xiluo said that he is here, everything is false, it is imagined by his humble soul luxury.

He raised his head and looked at the young man sitting next to him who was flipping the lighter in his hand, "Aren't you going to class?"

"Ham, I'm still in the period of reflection. I have to reflect."

"Oh."

"You... Lao Zhang know? It's your head teacher."

"I probably know that I may call him, but he probably won't answer."

Of course Li Xiluo knew who he was.

After a pause, Li Qinghe still felt that he could just eat and drink for free like this: "The injury doesn't hurt anymore, and the wound is not deep, I just need to pay attention...I can't just stay here..."

"No. You're so badly hurt! Three weeks to heal would be great!"

"I'm leaving the hospital."

"Tsk, why are you so stubborn, kid!"

"out……"

"Stop nagging! Wait two days to see how the injury is doing!"

"Ah."

"I will pay the hospitalization fee next week."

"Give love to whoever, I don't want it."

"..."

Li Xiluo was lying on the bed playing games, and the slippers beside the bed were kicked into a mess by him.

Li Qinghe looked at the person in front of him, and felt that he was not so far away, and he seemed a little closer to him.

He turned his head away from him a second before he looked over, and when he turned his head, he quickly glued his eyes to his back.Humble and pious.

He didn't dare to ask why Li Xiluo was so kind to him.

He was afraid that all these good things would disappear after he asked, and his dirty thoughts would make Li Xiluo look disgusted, and then he would never...

He dare not.

I greedily worshiped my god with my eyes, and carefully hid everything he brought me.

If I am going to die in the next second, please let my eyes stay in his direction for the last second.

The author has something to say: I ate a fried rice cake today, it was delicious.

It's cloudy.

Secret love is one's own ()

Is there one of the previous words?

What I sent is a small sunflower, it seems that the system cannot recognize it.

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