partial student

Stairs go up step by step, and life goes down step by step.

Yan Shu has been stagnant in place for ten years, and now he is stepping on the steps that he has walked countless times before, and the feeling of powerlessness and resistance is still with him.

He walked forward, Zhou Jiao followed behind him, and the sensor light turned on, illuminating Yan Shu's face.Zhou Jiao looked sideways, the momentary icy coldness on Yan Shu's face was like a gust of cold wind tearing Zhou Jiao's retina.

But a moment is just a moment, and two seconds later, Yan Shu's eyes were peaceful, as if that bit of coldness and hostility were just sporadic bubbles and dreams.

He was still the Yan Shu in Zhou Jiao's memory, the Yan Shu who would ride a bicycle across most of the city to see him in summer, and the Yan Shu who said he would take care of him.

In a daze, they came to the door, Yan Shu stood still, Zhou Jiao took out the key and handed it to him.Yan Shu held the key, the shape of the polygonal key was nailed into the palm of his hand, and it hurt like it was stuck in his heart.

The key was inserted into the keyhole, twisted slightly, and the door opened with a "click".

The house that hadn't been entered for a long time exuded a damp musty smell, Zhou Jiao went inside to turn on the light, then went to the window, opened the window, the cold wind entered the room, Zhou Jiao shivered.

Yan Shu was standing at the porch, Zhou Jiao saw that he hadn't come in, so he trotted over and took Yan Shu's hand, "Brother, come here."

Yan Shu was dragged forward by him, walked to the living room, and stood there for a while.I went to my room again, the old furniture was still there, the blue sheets on the single bed, the posters on the wall, the curtains hanging down to the floor, everything looked like nothing had changed.

Yan Shu pulled out the chair and sat down. Zhou Jiao stood in front of him, bowed his head and said softly, "After Aunt Yan passed away, I kept the key, and nothing inside has changed."

Yan Shu looked around, the textbooks in the bookcase, the test papers piled up on the corner of the table, and then he had the illusion that they were still there. When he woke up, Yan Fangfang had prepared breakfast for him, and called him out to eat in the living room.He bit the bread that he didn't have time to eat, and rode his bicycle to school. All he met along the way were his friends. They walked together, laughing and talking about whether to go to play on weekends, which class of girls are beautiful, and talking. Imagine the future tomorrow.

That was the time when he couldn't go back, Yan Shu lowered his eyes silently, swipe his finger on the cold table.

They stayed here that night.

Zhou Jiao and Yan Shu huddled together on the small blue bed, the quilt was thin, Zhou Jiao felt cold, Yan Shu held him in his arms.Zhou Jiao raised her head, put her arms around Yan Shu's neck and kissed him.

Love is sleeping in the bones, Zhou Jiao is still not sure what Yan Shu is thinking, he just wants to get closer, the closer the better.

He cuddled in Yan Shu's arms and cried for his brother, with such aggrieved and painful voice, as if he was the one who had been imprisoned for ten years.

He took Yan Shu's hand and placed it on his chest. His beating heart felt like it was about to jump out of that thin chest.

The blue single bed seemed to be crushed, leaning against the wall, making a "creaking" trembling sound.

Yan Shu kissed the tears off Zhou Jiao's face, and said in a low voice, "Don't cry."

Zhou Jiao bit her lip and looked at him pitifully, holding back her voice and not daring to make a sound.

He always felt that Yan Shu had changed, and he couldn't tell what had changed, it was just that feeling, a very different feeling.

He was turned over by Yan Shu, his wet face buried in his arms.

When he heard Yan Shu's breathing, he felt as if he was drowning in the deep sea.

He called his brother sullenly, called Yan Shu's name, and asked cautiously and anxiously: "Do you still love me?"

Yan Shu didn't seem to hear clearly, his breath was heavy, and he didn't answer.

Zhou Jiao is like duckweed's heart, swimming in the world in a panic, he dare not ask any more, and he dare not ask extravagantly, he just wants to be with Yan Shu like this.

A corner of the curtain was opened, and the moonlight was hazy, slanting into the room.The quilt was splashed by the moonlight, Zhou Jiao got out from under the quilt, glanced at the empty space next to him, and sat up immediately after a jolt.

He ran barefoot outside the house.Yan Shu leaned sideways on the balcony of the living room, the sparks were on.Zhou Jiao walked over, and in the dark night, Yan Shu's face fell in the moonlight, dim and unclear.

Zhou Jiao suddenly didn't dare to make a sound, he stood blankly on the cold floor, staring at Yan Shu.

The cigarette ash was shaken into the lid of the cigarette box, Yan Shu lowered his head, took another sip, and looked lazy.He was in company with the night, and let the Buddha fall from the sky to the ground.

He glanced at Zhou Jiao's scattershot eyes, and the fireworks in his mouth slowly fell and hit his clothes. He leaned his elbows on the balcony and slowly got up.The skinny boy turned into a tall one, and his standing body cast a shadow on the ground.He walked up to Zhou Jiao, squinted his eyes and drank a cigarette, and looked down at Zhou Jiao.

He took down the half-broken cigarette, held it between his fingers, and asked, "Why aren't you wearing shoes?"

Zhou Jiao stared at him blankly, and realized later: "I forgot."

The waist suddenly tightened, and Zhou Jiao felt the heat around his neck, and his chest pressed against Yan Shu's shoulders, and he was lifted up and carried into the room.

The room was still warmer than outside, so Yan Shu put Zhou Jiao on the bed, took down the cigarette and pressed it out.

"Why did you smoke outside?"

"Smoking in the room will smoke you."

"Then why didn't you wake me up?" Zhou Jiao took his hand and put it in his arms.

Yan Shu smiled, and asked back, "Wake you up, and let you smoke with me?"

"It's not impossible." Zhou Jiao lowered his head and sniffed his palm, the faint smell of tobacco permeated his skin, he opened his mouth, and pressed his thin and pointed teeth against it.

Yan Shu felt slightly numb, Zhou Jiao was biting and playing with him coquettishly, and it didn't hurt.

They lived here for several days, huddled together on the same bed. Apart from having sex, Zhou Jiao would also talk to Yan Shu about his life in the past ten years.After graduating from the college entrance examination and graduate work, life without Yan Shu is like a precarious kite, he is drifting in the wind, and the only thing supporting him is the precarious and breaking thread.

He hasn't spoken so much for a long time, and the language organization is not as smooth as before, and it takes a long time to talk about one thing here and there.He knows his own shortcomings, and after speaking for a while, he will guiltyly ask Yan Shu if he feels annoying, and if he is annoying, he will stop talking.

Yan Shu would stroke his hair and touch his face, and his tone would be gentle, asking him to continue talking.

"I'm a game studio designer now, and sometimes I'm a bit busy at work, but I'm very happy that the games I make can be liked by everyone."

"Games? I thought you would do scientific research, and your grades are so good." Yan Shu didn't know what to think of, and smiled faintly through tears, "I remember that the last thing you knew how to play in the past was games." , charged a lot of money, but always lost.”

"I don't know it now, but aren't you good at playing games? I thought of you when I was making games, and wondered if you would like this game."

After hearing this, Yan Shu was silent for a few seconds, and said softly, "Can this phone download the games you made?"

"I've laid it out for you a long time ago, just waiting for you to find out."

Yan Shu turned and got out of bed, and pulled out the mobile phone that was charging on the table.Zhou Jiao leaned on the pillow and looked at Yan Shu's back. Yan Shu really grew up very tall. He was no longer the thin and tall boy when he was young, but a grown-up. Became an adult.

Zhou Jiao buried her face in the pillow.

Yan Shu turned around and saw his shoulders twitching. He walked over with his mobile phone, pulled off the quilt, and picked up his shoulders.Zhou Jiao slammed into his arms instead, and with a "dong", Yan Shu's heart was also chiseled.

Yan Shu asked him, "What's wrong?"

"No." Zhou Jiao buried herself in Yan Shu's arms and refused to come out.

Yan Shu didn't bother to ask, but wrapped his arms around his shoulders.They approached each other as if they were one.

Yan Shu's breathing was even, and his heart was beating slowly.After waiting for a long time, Zhou Jiao thought that Yan Shu had fallen asleep.

He told himself, and said to Yan Shu's heart: "Brother, after you get your ID card, can you leave here with me and go to my side?"

He didn't dare to ask Yan Shu what to say, he just wanted to express his wish, he asked if he could, and didn't expect Yan Shu to answer.

Consciousness gradually loosened, maybe he was really tired. While he was half asleep and half awake, there was heat streaming down his ears, and he heard Yan Shu's voice, which said, good.

He thought he was dreaming, raised his head, and looked stupidly at the buried face, handsome face, warm kiss, and a little bit of trivial marks spread around his neck.Gradually, he realized that this might not be a dream, his eyes widened slightly, his body felt sore and swollen.

He stared at Yan Shu without blinking, and asked in disbelief, "You didn't sleep."

Yan Shu locked his waist and told him to sit down.

Zhou Jiao repeated what he said just now, stubbornly wanting an answer.

Yan Shu looked into his eyes, took a light breath, and said patiently, "How could I be able to sleep when you are so close to me?"

"Then did you promise me just now?"

"Yeah." Yan Shu pinched Zhou Jiao's chin, kissed his lips, and parted the gap. Yan Shu said, "Don't ask me if I can when I'm asleep in the future. I can only agree when I'm awake."

作者有话要说：感谢在2020-01-2721:40:08~2020-01-2822:42:10期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angel who threw the mine: Immortal 5;

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!