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May [-]

Every time Lu Jiaxuan had a physical examination, the report said that his platelets were very low, especially after chemotherapy.

Dr. Liu gave him a blood transfusion.

After the blood transfusion, Lu Jiaxuan's reaction was very bad.

High fever, vomiting, and various adverse reactions showed that his condition was not optimistic.

Lu Jiaxuan felt that this time was also very serious.

Although he was in good health before and did not get sick a few times, since he got leukemia, he felt that having a fever was a common occurrence.However, it has never been like this before, not only his muscles are sore and his body is weak, but he can clearly feel that his consciousness is gradually withdrawing...

That does not work...

But even at this moment, he couldn't help but think of Lu Shengxuan. For some reason, it might be an illusion brought about by the high fever. He always felt like his voice was ringing in his ears.

【When are you coming? 】

[Sorry, because I used to work here, and then I came back to my side. My friends thought I was going back to work here, so they dragged me out for dinner. 】

【Um...】

[So, I originally booked a ticket on the 19th, so I can only postpone it until the 20th. 】

[It's okay, it's great if you can come. 】

【Well, you have to wait for me. 】

【Ok, I will wait for you】

Lu Jiaxuan felt that he might really be close to death.Probably seriously ill people often have predictions and preparations for this aspect, without any scientific basis, just based on their feelings, but this feeling is extremely effective.

No, I'm going to hold on, my mom and dad, my friends, my teachers, and...him.I don't want to leave them, I want to live with them, even if I just lie on the hospital bed, even if I can only see one side after a long time.

Lu Jiaxuan's eyes gradually became moist and filled with tears.He took a long breath, even though his body didn't have the energy to choke him, let him cry loudly to vent.

He vented his dissatisfaction, his fight against illness, his longing for them, his nostalgia for the world, and his deep fear of not being able to control his fate.

Such a high fever could not be controlled. Dr. Liu had already given him antipyretic injections, but it was of no avail.

On the contrary, after the antipyretic injection, I felt a lot of discomfort, not just caused by high fever.

The hospital issued a critical illness notice, which was signed by his parents who rushed over because of his condition, and Lu Jiaxuan was pushed out of the ward.

He tried his best to raise his head and glanced at his parents. Because it was at the corner, his parents didn't see him.

Mom was sobbing softly and covered her mouth, but the tears couldn't stop streaming down. Dad held her in his arms and comforted her softly, with deep worry in his eyes.

Pushed to the intensive care unit, his eyes gradually lost sight, and he saw that Dr. Liu, who had always been "calm", also showed a flustered expression. His eyes moved upwards, and it was the lights of the ward.

It's late at night now.

Sorry, Mom and Dad, I can no longer be filial.

I'm sorry, Lu Shengxuan, I...

With the face on the respirator, the mouth opened and closed. What he saw for the last time was Dr. Liu approaching him,

"What did you say? What do you want to say?"

"Quick, adrenaline!"

......

When his friends heard the news that he wanted to go back to the hospital to continue working and was leaving here, they planned to get together and have a meal.His father smiled and pulled him over to say goodbye to his friend, but he had no choice but to change the ticket, feeling a little uncomfortable.

Lu Jiaxuan, he must be looking forward to his early departure.

During the meal, it was too boring. This group of people were still drinking and chatting, and it was almost impossible to tell that they were seeing him off. He was a little bored, so he just looked at his phone.

【When are you coming? 】

[Sorry, because I used to work here, and then I came back to my side. My friends thought I was going back to work here, so they dragged me out for dinner. 】

【Um...】

[So, I originally booked a ticket on the 19th, so I can only postpone it until the 20th. 】

[It's okay, it's great if you can come. 】

【Well, you have to wait for me. 】

【Ok, I will wait for you】

Seeing the phrase "I'll wait for you", he smiled, and a sweet emotion gradually fermented and filled his heart.It feels good to have someone say that to yourself.

"What are you laughing at, chatting with your little boyfriend?"

The side made fun of him.

She gave him a blank look, but didn't make any excuses.

"If you didn't pull me out for dinner, I'd be right next to him now."

"Yo - bullying our single dog."

A bunch of people started booing.

The meal is almost finished, and everyone packs up and prepares to go home.

Lu Shengxuan suddenly felt flustered.

Did something happen?

He felt that he would rather believe in this unreasonable premonition, so he called his father and told him that he rushed to the airport.

It was very lucky that there was still a flight departing in an hour and a half, so he hurriedly bought a ticket and boarded the plane.

"The path."

A voice that was not too familiar called him.

He looked back.

"Uncle Quan."

After getting on the plane, I felt a little more stable, and the seats happened to be next to each other, so they chatted.

"You plan to be here when you come back this time?"

"Well, in fact, I also want to take care of a friend nearby. He has leukemia."

"Oh, I just came back from the exchange here. Leukemia, what's the name of your friend, maybe I still know him."

"His name is Lu Jiaxuan."

"Lu Jiaxuan?! What a coincidence, I am in charge of him. Alas, this child is obedient and sensible, but his condition is a little serious. I am quite worried when I go out to communicate this time."

...

After getting off the plane, the two arrived at the hospital in Gou Fengquan's car.

Walking up to the floor where Lu Jiaxuan from the inpatient department was, when he approached the ward, he found that there was no one there.

"What about people?"

Then I saw his parents sitting in the corner.

Obviously, his parents still have an impression of the doctor.

"Xiaoxuan was issued a critical illness notice..."

The two felt a chill in their hearts.

"When did you go to the rescue?"

"About... half an hour..."

It hasn't come out yet... As doctors, the two of them naturally understand that if they haven't come out for half an hour, it means...

"Sorry, we did our best."

The hospital bed covered with a white cloth was slowly rolled out, and Dr. Liu's voice could be heard clearly in the corridor.

what...

Lu Jiaxuan...

Lu Shengxuan couldn't believe it, nor did he want to believe it.

Lu Jiaxuan's mother burst into tears.

Trembling, his parents stood in front of the hospital bed, gently lifted the white cloth...

Lu Shengxuan also stood beside the hospital bed, looking over there.

It turned out that he was like this.

Lying on the hospital bed, his face was calm, his slightly long black hair was scattered, his eyes were slightly closed, as if he was sleeping, but his chest did not rise and fall, and his face also showed some signs of emaciation due to the illness, making him look a little weaker.

Certainly not like this if he hadn't been sick.

Lu Shengxuan imagined that a 1.8-meter boy would always show a sunny smile, have a clear voice, and be optimistic...

A bitter smile appeared on the corner of his mouth.

just missed it...

Doctor Gou is also depressed...

Lu Shengxuan turned around and left.

"Xiaolu, what are you going to do?"

He glanced at the hospital bed again, Lu Jiaxuan's parents gently covered him with a white cloth, and the boy's face gradually disappeared in front of his eyes...

But he knew that his appearance remained in his heart.

Walking to a remote stairway familiarly, he squatted there, staring blankly at the handle of the stairs.

He couldn't believe that Lu Jiaxuan left the world like this.

Even if it was acute leukemia, how could a teenager in good health die just like that in a month.

Fists clenched and loosened.

He didn't know that his eyes were already blurred.

Goodbye, Lu Jiaxuan.

Now, it is May [-]th.

Follow up

Hospital

At eight o'clock, Lu Shengxuan sat on the chair in the office on time.

Although he went to work at 08:30, he was used to sitting here half an hour in advance, preparing what he needed, and occasionally staring out the window.

Outside his window, there is also a big tree.

In the hospital, Lu Jiaxuan and Lu Shengxuan are synonymous with golden bachelors.Young and promising, and very handsome, gentle and polite, he is also the son of the dean.

Why there is no boyfriend or girlfriend? Many people are guessing. When some elders introduce him, he just gently refuses.

In his heart, there is a person.

Lu Shengxuan studied medicine at university, and after graduation, he directly practiced in this hospital.He didn't have any clear goals, and he didn't have a direction to strive for. He just saw a doctor for the sake of seeing a doctor.

When he was still an intern, he followed a doctor in charge of a case of a liver cancer patient.

The patient's condition was not optimistic, and it was close to the point where the rescue was ineffective, and the doctor, according to the conventional judgment, accelerated the patient's death.

The doctor was very guilty and blamed himself, and the family members also chased after him not to be aggressive, and even sent people to threaten him.

The doctor then committed suicide.

Lu Shengxuan lived a smooth life and never encountered any major setbacks. After experiencing these things, he became even more resistant to being a doctor.

He just stays at home, relying on hobbies and playing games to occasionally make money for entertainment.

Then he met Lu Jiaxuan.

He originally wanted to go back to the hospital, be a good doctor and take care of him, and he still had his own little selfishness.

Such bad news came unexpectedly.

If I had been earlier...

If I keep being a doctor and don't leave here...

if...

He stopped thinking about it.

Then I will be a doctor just for him.

No more misdiagnosis, no more mistakes, save every life...

You will be happy.

as long as you are happy.

"Doctor Lu?"

Outside the window was a patter of rain, hitting the bed and the leaves, the crown of the tree was shaking slightly...

That day too...

"Ah, I'm sorry." He recovered in embarrassment, and the patients in the ward also smiled understandingly.

"Doctor, you must be thinking of someone."

"Ah."

I'm thinking...

postscript

I once thought that if I got a terminal illness, I would use the money for medical treatment to travel, go shopping, and do some things I wanted to do.

If I was alone at the time, fine, no problem.

But realistically thinking about it, with my family around me, I couldn't do it.I can't let my family watch me approaching death day by day without doing anything.

This is a rather heavy topic.

This article was conceived when I was sick. Thinking about it this way, it would be a tragedy.

Lu Jiaxuan is just an ordinary high school student, what is extraordinary is that he has a terminal illness.

If he hadn't been ill, he wouldn't have known Lu Shengxuan, and he wouldn't have had such emotions. Likewise, Lu Shengxuan wouldn't have known him.

I think the emotional line is really not clear enough, of course it has something to do with my level orz is not very good after all.

And I got stuck for a while, and I felt very uncomfortable when I got stuck.Naturally, the emotions behind it can't be connected.

It's really not very good, but I will work hard to improve, hone myself in writing, and strive to improve.

I have had urticaria for a while, and it is really uncomfortable. It feels like masochism, looking at the rash where I have rash again and again.My family is also very distressed, so I really understand that when you are sick, you must be treated, not for yourself, but for your family, friends and everyone who cares about you.

And about leukemia, I really don't know much about it... I checked a lot of information, but it must be not very accurate, and I should go to the sterile ward, so I definitely can't use the computer, let alone always in the hospital. Chat or something ==

In order to relax everyone, just read it. I hope my article can give you a good feeling.

See you in "Being an Undercover Agent" bye bye~