Uncle Teaching Manual

no no no!No! "Zhang Chengyou was shocked by his look, quickly got up and put the chair back, sat down upright and pretended to be hardworking.

Xia Xingsi looked at the way he was pretending with his head down, and didn't say much.

One day the uncle will willingly tell himself what is on his mind, Zhang Chengyou thought.

But imaginations often don't come true.

Ever since that younger sister came, the uncle has been more silent than before. If the uncle opened his heart to him a little a few days ago, it is more tightly closed now.

Except for seeing a doctor every day, the uncle hardly speaks. Unless he asks him a question, he will respond a few words lightly, otherwise he will sit alone.

He couldn't help asking Xia Xingsi a few times, but Xia Xingsi shook his head and said it was all right.

It was the same as before, there was something wrong, but he said it was nothing, just like the first day he met him, treating him as an outsider.

Such a state, as if returning to the time when we first met, made him very upset.

Even Yan Zong came to ask him, the senior seems to be in a bad mood recently, did you quarrel with the senior again?

He could only say no, and Yan Zong asked him what happened to Xia Xingsi, but he couldn't answer anything.

Like everyone else, he doesn't know anything, and like everyone else, he doesn't understand Uncle, as if he is the same as everyone else in Uncle's mind, there is no difference.

What was it before that, he thought that the uncle had already regarded him as a slightly closer person.

Why is the uncle always like this? He keeps everything in his heart and doesn't tell anyone.

Even yesterday when Xia Xingsi was seeing his mother and prescribing medicine, he was paid by Xia Xingsi to do things. It was obvious that Xia Xingsi didn't want him to know about his mother's knowledge.

Could it be that his mother is so ugly that she can't see people at all?

This is impossible, he secretly asked the little nurse at the front desk, and the little nurse said that he hadn't seen any ugly people.

And even if his mother-in-law is ugly, Zhang Chengyou won't mind.

He, Zhang Chengyou, is the kind of shallow person who looks at his face!

In front of the patient, Xia Xingsi still smiled and spoke as gently as before, and he returned to his original form as soon as the patient left. In Zhang Chengyou's view, he is now like a working robot, and the power is cut off when the patient leaves.

Every time he wanted to keep asking, but he didn't want to say anything more, not because he didn't dare, but because he didn't force him to ask the uncle what he didn't want to say.

He was obviously very worried, but he could only pretend that he didn't notice anything, and chatted happily with Xia Xingsi.

He could tell that Xia Xingsi was very tired, which made him extremely tired too.

This afternoon, Zhang Chengyou followed Xia Xingsi to see the recovery status of the patient in room B01, bed 0367, the little girl Xia Xingsi had operated on before.

When they went, the patient in the bed next to the little girl was packing up, saying that they had completed the discharge procedures, and greeted them with a smile.

This patient is under the care of Dr. Huang.

"The patient who made an appointment for this bed will arrive tomorrow, saying that he is on your account." Dr. Huang said while making a medical record.

"Okay, I see." Xia Xingsi looked at the appointment form and confirmed.

Zhang Chengyou stood aside with nothing to do, he couldn't get involved in such a professional matter.

But he was watching from the side, but suddenly remembered something, holding back his words.

After it was over, he and Xia Xingsi went back to the consultation room. Seeing Xia Xingsi ticking off the appointment form as if nothing had happened, he finally couldn't help it.

Now that there are vacant beds, why doesn't the uncle let his mother move here? He heard the conversation outside the door clearly that day. Xia Xingsi's mother is suffering from severe heart failure, and the sooner this disease is treated, the better.

Let's not talk about why Xia's mother didn't come to see her son for treatment when she was sick, but Xia Xingsi didn't seem to care about it at all, and basically followed the hospital's procedures.

He was puzzled for a long time, Xia Xingsi kept silent, until just now, when a patient was discharged from the hospital, he didn't even arrange for his mother to come in for treatment. Although there were other patients who made an appointment first, ordinary people shouldn't be very anxious about such things , Immediately use your own relationship to treat it?

He wasn't angry, just curious and puzzled, and now he couldn't help it anymore.

If it goes on like this, Xia Xingsi will be very tired, and he will be even more tired. Seeing the uncle like this makes him feel bad...

Chapter 19

But when he said his thoughts, Xia Xingsi still had a calm expression on his face.

He just glanced at Zhang Chengyou, then lowered his head to continue looking at the appointment form, with the same indifferent tone, as if everything had nothing to do with him.

"I'm a doctor, I just do what the hospital says."

Zhang Chengyou has heard this sentence many times these days.

Every time he said that, he said that he was acting according to the regulations, that he was a doctor and could not go beyond the rules.

This obvious perfunctory made him very annoyed now.

Now what Xia Xingsi said to him seemed to be an automatic reply, the mechanical one could no longer be mechanical, as if something separated him from him.

Could it be that he was just an outsider in his eyes these days?

Can't you speak your mind?

But that day at the night market, when he took over the blue cross earrings, his expression was so gentle and beautiful.

Is it fake?

why?

Zhang Chengyou looked at him quietly for a while, then walked over suddenly, grabbed Xia Xingsi by the collar, and picked him up, causing Xia Xingsi to drop the pen in his hand.

Xia Xingsi was taken aback.

He was the only one who had done this kind of action to Zhang Chengyou. I didn't expect that Zhang Chengyou would do such a rude action to him now.

In fact, these days, he can see that Zhang Chengyou is impatient. He wants to know what is on his mind. Every time he laughs and talks to himself, there is that indelible emotion in his eyes. out.

It's just that every time Zhang Chengyou asked him those questions vaguely, his hands clenched into fists, and his palms broke out in cold sweat.

Every time he pretended to be indifferent, to cover up his nervousness and say those perfunctory words.

Because he didn't know how to answer.

Now he is not ready.

He never said those things to anyone.

Never, always buried in the bottom of my heart, he originally wanted to never tell it all his life, he wanted to hide it, always be a perfect doctor in the eyes of patients, and always be a perfect image with a high salary in front of others, no one will If you know his things, you will know his thoughts.

But now there is a person who can let him tell everything with peace of mind. He is a little nervous and a little scared.

He really wanted to take some time off, to be alone, to calm down.

But he can't, there are so many patients who need his treatment.

These days, sometimes at night he dreams about that.

But when he woke up, he still had a feeling of fear, which made him feel that he hadn't walked out of the dream.

He wanted to tell Zhang Chengyou very much, but he hesitated to speak every time.

I thought to myself, it's better to bear it a little longer, bear it a little longer, and it will pass.

But now, Zhang Chengyou finally got impatient.

Every day he looked at Zhang Chengyou pretending not to know, he was extremely nervous, he was afraid that one day Zhang Chengyou would suddenly lose patience and force him, but now, Zhang Chengyou finally spoke.

His face was very close, and every detail of his expression could be seen clearly.

He asked himself why.

He asked himself what the hell happened.

He said, what do you take me for...

He clasped his shoulders tightly with both hands, looked at him with such a focused expression, and was waiting for himself to speak.

but i...

Xia Xingsi put his hands in his white coat, tightly holding the fabric of the pocket.

His Adam's apple trembled, and after a long time, he finally made a sound.

"...It's not really a serious matter."

The tone is still so indifferent, as if casually saying that the weather is sunny today.

All emotions were hidden by him, and all that was revealed was calm, it didn't matter.

No one will see his lonely side.

Zhang Chengyou's hand slowly sent him away.

"If you want to know, let me tell you."

Xia Xingsi's hand was still tightly holding the fabric of the pocket.

As he narrated, his hands kept shaking.

"You think all mothers are kind, but they are not, but you can't deny it, because..."

"Originally, Xia Xingsi shouldn't have existed, and shouldn't have come into this world."

"Her marriage to my father was just like my birth. It was an accident, just like a fateful accident."

"When my mother met my father, she was only 21 years old, young and beautiful."

"At that time, she happened to be out of love and heartbroken. She met my dad by a coincidence. My dad was naturally fascinated by her appearance. She was like a young man who had just fallen in love. She was very passionate. Love made me feel that I was the happiest person, so He proposed soon."

"And you should know what a woman who just fell in love is like, so my mother quickly agreed to my father's marriage proposal."

"But my grandma is firmly against this marriage."

"She hates my mother. My grandma is from a rural area. She thinks my mother is the kind of restless vixen, because my mother has been in many relationships before, and has many ex-boyfriends. Some are excellent and some are ordinary."

"But my dad insisted on marrying her, just like a child in puppy love, the whole world can not want her, just want her."

"My grandpa agreed when he saw how persistent he was, and advised my grandma not to object anymore. Both my father and my grandpa were so persistent, so she nodded reluctantly, because her son is the most important thing in her eyes."

"And so they got married."

"When they got married, they were very young and young. For them, half of the marriage was impulsive."

"Grandma has always disliked her mother, and has never given her any good looks. Even so, her life at the beginning is still very happy."

"My mother got pregnant very quickly. It may be that my mother was too young at the time and didn't want children, so my mother went to the hospital to abort the first two pregnancies. Until the third child, the doctor told her that she would have another abortion this time. It would be very difficult to get pregnant, and my grandma said she wanted a grandson, and she was already very dissatisfied with my mother's previous miscarriage, so she insisted on staying this time, and my mother agreed and gave birth, so, Coincidence and accident—that child is me, Xia Xingsi."

"But after I was born, the little happy life before did not last, but broke."

"My pampered mother refuses to be a housewife with children at home. She likes her career and hates relying on men."

"And my grandma didn't know how to bring them, so they started to quarrel. My dad used to like to gamble, but after getting married, he gradually stopped gambling. Now that he quarreled, he gradually revealed his true nature."

"Besides, my dad didn't have much salary in the first place, so a passionate love affair broke up a marriage.

"The two people who didn't have any emotional basis began to split, and became more and more indifferent."

"And my grandma's thinking is an old tradition, thinking that my mother should take care of the children at home, and that women are not qualified to quarrel with their husbands, so they quarrel more and more frequently."

"Other children played with toys and listened to music when they were young, but when I was young, I either listened to my mother and my grandma arguing or my parents arguing every day."

"And at this time, my dad cheated and fell in love with another young and beautiful girl, and my mother seemed to like other men too."

"Their marriage was originally an accident and impulsiveness. Just like that, they got divorced within a few years."

"I was in kindergarten at the time."

"My grandma is naturally happy. She was not optimistic about this marriage. Now that my mother is gone, she is very happy. She has never liked my mother from the beginning."

"My mother hates my dad very much, she is playful and gambler, and my grandma defends my dad all day long, scolds her all day, and hates her, so in her eyes, I am the same as my dad and my grandma, and she hates it too Me, I feel that I am a burden, so she deliberately bought the judge with money, and let the judge award me to my father."

"After their divorce, the two soon got married and started families."

"At that time, I felt that they all got married and had children, but I became the redundant one."

"They divorced, but I was lonely, and I was the one no one wanted."

"It seems that I shouldn't have been born in the first place, but I was born in an accident. I should be happy, but I live a life that is not happy at all. It is better not to let me come into this world."

"My mother married a foreigner. My mother and the foreigner have been living together until now, and they seem to be quite happy."

"Not long after, my mother gave birth to a boy and a girl. I haven't seen that boy. I think he should be very happy, although he and I are the same mother."

"The girl is the younger sister who came to see me a few days ago. She came to live with me for a while during the summer vacation of elementary school. I don't know the reason, but I clearly saw my mother and my grandma in the living room. I paid my grandma some money, probably for foster care, I didn’t know how much it was when I was young, but I remember it was a thick stack, and their expressions at that time were simply ugly.”

"During the month she came to live, she often took my pocket money to buy ice cream while I was away. In fact, she walked in with a lot more pocket money than me, but she didn't use it. She just took mine and waited for me to find out. , she cried without saying anything, and I was the one who got scolded in the end."

"Sometimes, when my friend came to play at home, she would make trouble. I remember that PSP was very popular at that time. Once my friend brought it over to play with me. When we went to the bathroom, she actually broke the PSP. In the end, she still cried. In order not to lose money, my grandparents scolded me, saying what kind of friend this is, and told me not to be friends with this person in the future, without considering how few friends I have."

"Fortunately, she went back after that summer vacation and never came again."

"And my father married the cheating partner. She is indeed a very beautiful young girl, but this stepmother is more tricky and spoiled than my mother."

"My dad is still a gambler. He left me to my grandparents and stepmother, and disappeared. I rarely go home. I haven't even seen my dad once in several years. Even if I come back, I don't have a good face."

"My childhood was lived with my grandparents and stepmother."

"In fairy tales, stepmothers are vicious. I never thought I would meet a stepmother who likes to beat people in reality."

"It's my luck."

"A person's bad luck happens one after another. My luck is really bad."

The author has something to say: the next chapter continues Uncle Xia's tragic luck

Chapter 20

Xia Xingsi said, smiling slowly, his face was as pale as a withered flower.

"I used to use iron racks to dry clothes. Actually, it's nothing. It's just bent. I was only in elementary school at the time. What I remember most clearly is pain and hatred."

"Sometimes when the clothes rack is gone, I'll use something else."

"Sometimes when I go to the toilet at school, I will go to the bathroom when there is no one else. I am afraid that people will ask questions and talk nonsense when they see the scars on my body."

"After my parents divorced, I often heard my grandma talking bad things about my mother to the neighborhood neighbors, saying that she was a vixen and ignored me all day long, and now she seduced a foreigner. Fortunately, my father divorced her gone."

"Hehe, in fact, every time I hear her say this, I really want to say to her, do you think your son is a good thing, she doesn't care about me, does my dad care about me, you care about me ."

"It's so ridiculous!" Xia Xingsi let out a long laugh, and clasped his hands on the table, as if maintaining his balance. He slowly stabilized his body, with a pale face and a look of contempt: "You adults, It's all fake."

"My mother is a businessman. She is very rich, and her husband is also very rich. After remarrying, her life is getting better and better. She has never visited me. She probably forgot. She has a son here, haha. "

He lowered his head and gave a dry laugh, weak and pale.

"Until one day in my second year of junior high school, she came to look for me suddenly, saying that she was free today and wanted to take me to the street to buy clothes."

"When I was a teenager, no one took me to the street to buy clothes. She said that suddenly, and I was happy and surprised. Although she treated me badly, there is no child in the world who hates his mother, so I am very happy. I went there happily, at that time, I felt that that day was the happiest day since I was born, because since I was born, no one has ever cared about me."

"She really took me to the street, took me to buy clothes, bought a whole set, from head to toe, very beautiful, it was the first time I wore such beautiful clothes, I was only 14 years old at the time, I was so happy that I almost went to heaven, I looked at it for a long time like those little girls in the class, and I can't describe the feeling at all."

"After shopping for clothes, she said that she would take me to a fun place to play for a whole day. Naturally, I followed her happily and obediently. She drove me there in a car, and it was very far away. It's all places I don't know, but I don't panic at all because I know she is my mother. She won't lie to me."

"She took me to the playground, there are many other places, she was with me from the beginning to the end, very patient, I was so happy, and then at night, she said to take me to the last one, a very fun place. "

Saying that, Xia Xingsi's hand clenched the fabric of the pocket again, as if what happened below was extremely terrifying.

Zhang Chengyou, who had been listening quietly, reached into his pocket, took out his hand, and held it tightly in his palm.

His hands were cold and sweaty.

He really resisted saying these things, but he still said it.

"The signboard in that place is very bright, with neon lights flashing. After entering, the light is very dark and noisy. There are many people, all sitting in twos and threes. They are all strange faces, and they have a dangerous atmosphere."

His voice trembled like a wobbly red audio cable.

Zhang Chengyou saw his expression for the first time, saying that no matter how miserable the previous things were, he was indifferent to him, but now he was like a cat with bristling hair, neither hiding nor running away, just standing there quietly, talking.

All he could do was hold his hand even tighter.

"Then my mother took me to a private room on the second floor, but it was very quiet in the private room. There was only one man. The light in the private room made it difficult for me to see his face clearly. I only knew that he was someone I didn't know. My mother told me to be good. Sitting next to that person, he is very tall, and he feels a sense of oppression. The private room is very dark and quiet. Since I came in, he has been watching. That feeling made me shudder, and I was a little scared. I wanted to I went home, but at this time my mother's eyes made me a little scared, so I had to sit obediently."

"I didn't listen to what my mother said to him. I just looked at the environment in the private room. I tried my best to divert my attention, but the stranger sitting next to me kept approaching me. There was a smile on his body. The smell of tobacco and alcohol made me very uncomfortable, his face was very close to me, I was very scared and wanted to avoid it, but he held me down, his strength was great, and I couldn't break free."

Zhang Chengyou's complexion changed suddenly, and he suddenly had a serious bad feeling about the following words.

I have already vaguely guessed a few points in my heart.

"Then I kept hiding and he kept approaching. I yelled in fear and called my mother, but she ignored me. I kept looking at her, hoping that she would come to help me, but she didn't move at all. , I kept shouting, my voice became hoarse, but she actually went out and closed the door."

"At that moment, I realized that my mother didn't want to take me out to play at all, but to play with me."

"At that time, I was still in class obediently, and my grades were also very good. I learned the chapter on the human body in the biology class very well. At the beginning, I didn't know what he was going to do. I only knew bad things. It was right to resist, but When he had me completely on the couch, had pushed up my top, reached into my pants..."

Having said this, Xia Xingsi's voice gradually became weaker, faintly in Zhang Chengyou's ear, like a shallow groan, getting farther and farther away.

Zhang Chengyou felt his head grow bigger with a "boom".

Subconsciously want to resist, do not want to listen.

But Xia Xingsi was still talking, his voice was low and steady, like a radio program telling other people's stories, but his hands were shaking violently.

Zhang Chengyou felt that his hands were sweating even more, and it was ice-cold in his palm.

"At that time, I only felt the sound of fiery breathing constantly slapping my face, his hands and his body were hot, and the private room was completely dark, so dark that I couldn't see him at all, I only felt his movements A little bit deeper, there seems to be something in the air, I feel that my thoughts are very chaotic, I seem to be falling asleep, but I can’t fall asleep again, I can only maintain this state of confusion, my heart is very flustered, but there is nothing I can do. I'm only 14 and I don't even have a girl I like."

"I was terrified. I thought that this kind of darkness would surround me for a long, long time. Until the end, I could only immerse myself in the darkness like this."

"However, fortunately, the waiter came suddenly and brought the wine. He probably ordered it for fun, but suddenly interrupted his good work. I was shocked when I saw the door open. , the light from the corridor rushed into the private room, like a flame, quickly melting the darkness, and the sound of music outside bumped into the private room, my mind became clearer instantly, the waiter was also startled at that time, but in People who work in this kind of place are used to this kind of scene of wine and meat pools. He is very calm, and quickly reacted. He walked in quickly and put the wine on the coffee table, and he was about to leave without saying a word. He's fast."

"I reached out and got the bottle of wine on the coffee table. I flicked it to my side, and then heard the sound of the bottle colliding with the body, accompanied by screams. I knew that I had hit him."

"At that time, the waiter was also shocked. I didn't expect this kind of thing to happen. Then I pushed him away very quickly, then jumped off the sofa, knocked the waiter away, and ran out quickly. At that time, I felt like I was lost. Bright moths don't see anything, don't listen to anything, don't care about anything, they only have one thought in their heads: leave immediately, don't think about anything, just look in front of you and run out."

"When I breathed a piece of clean air, I also stopped and stood on the strange street, looking at the colorful street and the strange passers-by, one by two passed me by, and they looked at me immediately. Gone, with something in their eyes that 14-year-old me couldn't read."

"My legs are weak, as if I have used up all my strength, my breath is short, like a pale knife, I go in and out again and again, I look at the night and the streets and people around me, and feel An incomparable confusion and emptiness spread from my chest, and I felt extremely cold from head to toe."

"Mom, it turns out that you really don't care about me so much."

"Although she didn't care about me at all before, I thought she at least regarded me as her child, but I was thinking too much. In her eyes, I have always wanted to ask what I am."

"No child in the world would hate his mother, but now when I think of her, I think of her taking me to buy clothes, go to the playground, and eat delicious food during the day... It turns out that everything is for the betrayal just now, and I feel that she has been with me all the time. The hatred spread to her."

"Although she was the one who gave birth to me, although she chose to keep me among the three children, and although she let me breathe the air of this world, I hope that she would rather not give birth to me, so that there would be no So many painful experiences, because of all of this, and she brought me at the same time."

"I'm at a loss, it's all very contradictory."

"My parents' marriage was originally an accident, and my coming to this world was an accident among accidents. My life was full of accidents, but what happened just now was not an accident, it was man-made."

"I know that in this small family, no one really cares about me, not at all. I am like a lonely drifter. Although I have a boat to carry me, I am still lonely."

"Later I found out that the person that day was my mother's client. That client had a special habit and liked to abuse clean and beautiful boys. Boys in this line of work are easy to find, but clean ones are not available, but he is very rich. , that's a big business, my mother didn't want to give up, so she thought of me, that's why..."

The author has something to say: as soon as this kind of plot is written, there is only one word: cool!Ha ha ha ha!

Chapter 21

"……why?!"

Xia Xingsi's voice suddenly rose, like a sharp sword splitting something.

His breathing was rapid and his chest was heaving, just as he had described.

Hesitation, fear, confusion, loneliness, hatred...

All surrounded him without seeing the sun.

"Why doesn't she let her half-breed son go! I'm her son too!"

He has already forgotten his current situation, completely immersed in that dark and painful memory, in which memory loops endlessly, and can never get out.

He hugged his head, squatted down in pain, and growled loudly with a sad expression.

"Why do I have to do this kind of thing, do I deserve it..."

His eyes were hazy, as if covered with a layer of faint white mist, and gradually transparent tears flowed down from the corners of his eyes, like a lonely crystal in the dark, flowing to the corners of his lips.

He was trembling, unable to restrain his emotions, his body was as empty as a nest that had been infested by termites, he only felt pain, sadness, loneliness, sadness...

Suddenly, a hand touched his face.

Gently wiped away the crystal tear at the corner of his lips, like stroking a pearl, gentle and careful.

That hand was warm, like the sun.

He was stunned, and raised his confused black eyes, as if seeing a direction that could reassure him in the future.

He didn't know anything, he just felt that the hand gently pulled him into a warm embrace, the chest was very warm, and he leaned on it gently, feeling at ease and warm like never before, everything stopped.

Darkness, hesitation, fear, confusion, loneliness, pain, sadness...

It's all gone.

The gentle actions of the other party are really like a beam of light that splits the darkness. There are no sweet words, but real warmth, sticking to the chest and heart, so warm that I want to cry.

He buried his face in the chest that reassured him, sobbing lightly.

This was the first time he cried so presumptuously, he didn't have to worry about anything, he just cried out when he was sad.

Because he used to be in his own bedroom, so he couldn't even cry quietly by himself. Now that he finally has his own house, he has passed the age where he can cry unrestrainedly.

He is an expert doctor, how could he cry so easily.

But now, like a drifting ship, he has found a warm harbor.

Like a child, he showed a real and soft expression that he had never had before, and finally took off the mask he had been wearing all along.

The person who made him take off his mask was the person he always thought was a little ruffian.

But at this moment, all face and embarrassment are left behind.

I just feel full of warmth and love, and I just want to be good and real for a while.

The never-before-seen love surrounded him, driving away all pain and loneliness.

It is a love that is warmer and tougher than anything else.

Those warm hands slowly moved up and held his face. His skin was pale, like drawing paper without paint, delicate and cold to the touch, like fat jade, making people love it.

His hands grabbed Zhang Chengyou's clothes nervously, his lips trembled slightly, as if he was waiting for something.

He seemed to know what Zhang Chengyou was doing next, and quickly and shyly lowered his head, not daring to move until Zhang Chengyou's hand gently touched his lips.

His lips are very cold, as cold as his heart, which has been immersed in the cold, dark and deep sea, until he met him.

This coldness made him extremely infatuated.

But he finally withdrew his hand, reached out to smooth out the black hair on his forehead, and then rubbed his cold nose with his nose, that's all.

Xia Xingsi was stunned.

He thought Zhang Chengyou would do something further, but Zhang Chengyou didn't do anything.

He raised his head and looked at Zhang Chengyou in a daze.

Zhang Chengyou was just gentle, looking at him dotingly, as if he could never get enough of seeing him, staring at him intently like a baby, then touched his red earlobes, and touched his beautiful neck with his eyes.

The smile in his eyes turned into a cute Cupid, gently surrounding him.

Everything became quiet and sweet.

Obviously just laughing, but why did he seem to see flowers and pink bubbles.

Xia Xingsi was stunned.

Feeling blurred.

It seems to have seen an unprecedented scenery.

That is love.

In Zhang Chengyou's eyes.

At the corner of Zhang Chengyou's mouth.

Between Zhang Chengyou's fingers.

It is everywhere in Zhang Chengyou's body.

Even the corners of his clothes are filled with love.

He, who has seen through the hypocrisy long ago, actually feels that all this is extremely real at this moment.

This close feeling reminded him of when he was in high school, his mother refused to pay his tuition fees on the pretext that his business was ruined, his father gambled outside all year long and never saw anyone for several years, and his grandparents pushed for tuition fees It should be from his mother, and he has always been a loner. He has no acquaintances except Xie Zhengming. He has to skip classes every week to earn tuition fees, work part-time during the day and study at night, because he always skips classes, but his grades are not First, that's why he became a problem student for the teachers.

Grandpa and grandma thought they were studying hard at school all day long, but they were not at all. Sometimes when they asked about their school affairs, they would just talk nonsense. When I saw their expressions, I almost died of laughter.

It wasn't until the third year of high school that he met Zhang Guzhi who helped him teach him.

The days before meeting Zhang Guzhi, when he thinks about it now, it feels like what happened yesterday, which cannot be described by a lonely person. The feeling is so close to his heart, it is so cold that even his blood vessels are icy.

And now a warm hand stroked his head.

is so real.

The truth made him dare not even recall the past, for fear that if he said a little more, Zhang Chengyou would disappear.

He seemed calm when he spoke, but actually his bones were trembling.

Every time he uttered a word, he didn't dare to look at anything, he just wanted to look at the white desktop and the white coat.

He felt that compared to Zhang Chengyou, who was born in a famous family of doctors, his past, family, and everything about him can be summed up in three simple terms.

Now some girls like him and admire him, mostly because of his status as an expert doctor, high-paying and stable job, good appearance and gentle temperament.

But what they see is only their superficial self, just like the stars on TV, they are all good sides, and when they know the other side of themselves, they may have an attitude.

But now he told the other side of him to this person he thought was a little ruffian, and this person didn't despise him at all, he didn't even show the slightest expression of disgust, and he was so gentle that he didn't know what to say what's good.

This made him feel a strong desire to confide, a feeling he had never felt before.

It seems that if he speaks out, he will feel relaxed all over his body, as if letting go of the past, and he doesn't have to worry about the consequences of speaking out, because he knows that he can rest assured of the person in front of him.

He felt that Zhang Chengyou let go of him slowly, and then held his hand gently like before, it was still so warm.

Xia Xingsi took a deep breath, and his tone was light, as if he had no emotion, and just narrated things in a flat manner.

"Since then, every time I see her come to me, I know she must not come to see me, but to use me for something, so I don't want to see her again, although she is a mother, but seeing her I'm afraid, I hate, I even hate, she's not my mother, she just gave birth to me."

"If they hadn't been married back then, there wouldn't have been a tragic me, but it was also this tragedy that made me