Uncle Teaching Manual

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Is this style popular now?

Xia Xingsi thought dumbfoundingly, but he didn't see any women wearing such clothes during the walk just now.

There are far fewer people on the fifth floor, almost empty, only the salesperson is standing, it seems that men really seldom come to shop.

Maybe the business on the fifth floor is really too small, so every time Zhang Chengyou and Xia Xingsi walked past a store, they could hear the salesperson say "Welcome."

The fifth floor was very quiet, except for the voice of the salesperson, only Zhang Chengyou's voice was heard.

Zhang Chengyou was very excited, like a little girl in love shopping, pulling Xia Xingsi along the way to talk about it.

"This one is beautiful, gentle and elegant, and it suits you very well."

"That new product looks good, and you must look good in it."

"..."

It seemed like all the salespersons were watching them.

What are they thinking.

Do you think they are strange, two big men are shopping, are you laughing at them from the bottom of your heart?

Xia Xingsi felt very embarrassed, and followed Zhang Chengyou all the way without saying a word, and he nodded whatever Zhang Chengyou said.

"Uncle, do you want to give it a try?" Zhang Chengyou spoke again.

Xia Xingsi still nodded. In fact, he didn't listen much. He always felt that the salesperson's eyes around him were strange, which made him feel uncomfortable from the inside out.

At this time, Zhang Chengyou who was walking in front stopped suddenly, Xia Xingsi didn't pay attention and almost bumped into Zhang Chengyou's back.

"What's wrong?" He turned around, touched his nose in surprise and embarrassment, and said.

Zhang Chengyou said: "Aren't you going to try on clothes?"

"..." Xia Xingsi was silent.

"Hello, where is the fitting room?" Zhang Chengyou had already picked up the clothes, and asked loudly and politely.

"Oh, there, if there is anything else you like, you can try it together." It is rare to have customers on weekdays, and the salesperson is very enthusiastic.

"Thank you." Zhang Chengyou replied with a smile, then turned his head and said, "Uncle, let's try on clothes."

With that said, he dragged Xia Xingsi to the place pointed by the salesperson.

After being dragged by Zhang Chengyou for a few steps in a daze, Xia Xingsi said: "...Thank you, don't bother, I can change it myself."

"No trouble, I also have clothes that I want to try on. There seems to be only one fitting room in this store, let's use it together." Zhang Cheng waved his arms melodiously.

"..."

Xia Xingsi just wanted to bite off his tongue.

The author has something to say: I can only update at night in the future, I always feel more comfortable writing at night, and I always seem to be unable to calm down during the day

Unknowingly, I wrote Zhang Chengyou as a loyal dog. At the beginning, my setting was obviously a ruffian attack. . . QQ

Xiaolongbao duck blood vermicelli and beef potstickers are all Nanjing snacks. I am from Nanjing, so I am writing about Nanjing snacks. I really like beef potstickers and Xiaolongbao~

There is a very authentic beef pot sticker shop in front of my house. It is super delicious. Once my mother bought beef pot stickers at the central gate. The price was twice that of my door, and it was not authentic beef!Very unpalatable!So I remembered it and wrote it down.

The prototype of the shopping mall that Uncle Xia and Zhang Xiaogong went to was Golden Eagle. That sentence was also said by my family.

Some time ago, I went to Golden Eagle with my mother. It really cost my mother half a month’s salary TAT for any piece of clothing. My mother said that she can make some clothes...

Sometimes when I visit these high-consumption shopping malls, I really feel that the salesperson looks at me strangely, as if I am really poor.

When I was young, my family didn’t have a car. My dad always took my mom and me to Jinrunfa to buy specials on a motorcycle. Every time I came back, I passed a residential area. Every time my dad said, look, this is Fu Human quarters are places we cannot afford to live in.

Sometimes in winter, scarves, earmuffs and masks wrap me so that only my two eyes are left. Looking at the dark night, tall buildings, many houses with lights on, connected together like a starry sky, I don’t know how to describe the feeling in my heart... …

Chapter 25

"Then you go and change it. Actually... I don't like this one very much." Xia Xingsi stood aside, tried to force a smile, and made up a reason.

"But, the one I want to try and the one you want to try are couple outfits."

Zhang Chengyou said, holding up the dress in his hand, with a puzzled and innocent expression.

Xia Xingsi's gaze followed Zhang Chengyou's hand, then his eyes widened "suddenly", and he couldn't relax for a long time.

It's really a couple outfit.

And the size does not seem to be worn by men and women.

Gosh, same-sex couple outfits are now available in malls?What is the name of this store?Simply a pioneer in the industry.

I admire you.

"...This is a new product from our family, and it's selling very well." The salesperson stood aside and said silently.

selling well?

Xia Xingsi felt his head was knocked.

When did the world become so open?He really wanted to see what the people who bought the clothes looked like.

"Uncle, don't you like it?" Zhang Chengyou looked at Xia Xingsi's expression, and gradually let go of the hand holding the clothes, and his voice gradually dropped.

"...No, the color is pretty nice, but I think the style seems...like..."

Xia Xingsi felt that his whole body was sweating, and the eyes of the salesperson next to him became even more dazzling, looking straight at him like a knife.

He felt he was going to make a fool of himself.

"I also think this style is too ordinary, forget it, let's look at other ones." Zhang Chengyou suddenly interrupted Xia Xingsi's words, put down his clothes, and said.

"……what?"

Xia Xingsi was racking his brains to find an excuse, but was interrupted by Zhang Chengyou, he was taken aback, he didn't expect Zhang Chengyou to say no, he, was he helping him out of the siege.

Then he should have noticed that he didn't want it because of the style of the clothes, but because it was a couple outfit...

No way, he just couldn't be so bold...

However, he still helped himself out.

The way Xia Xingsi looked at Zhang Chengyou suddenly changed a little.

"Uncle, let's go, let's take a look at other houses." Zhang Chengyou didn't show any expression of concern, just like before, he held Xia Xingsi's hand and walked forward.

Xia Xingsi raised his head slowly, and saw his side face smiling and talking to him, this warm face was so close to him, and so kind, so kind that he had the urge to touch it.

He lowered his head again to see Zhang Chengyou's hand holding his own, with fingers crossed, a very warm grip.

He suddenly remembered the scene in the idol drama where the male lead and the female lead were walking hand in hand and dangling around.

He and Zhang Chengyou?

...what the hell.

He must have seen too many bad things recently, and his head is broken.

Xia Xingsi was taken aback by his brain hole.

But, this situation, it's like being with very close people -- with family.

This scene, this feeling, he really missed and longed for too long.

For others, going shopping with family members is so ordinary that it cannot be more ordinary.

But for him, it is really very difficult.

Because grandparents don't care about him, they only ask about his grades during the exam, and his father doesn't see anyone all year round.

Therefore, he only had one time, that is, to go shopping with his mother.

And in the end, my mother sent him to——that kind of place by herself.

His heart has been broken ever since.

Now that he has grown up, he is able to support himself, but he still can't find anyone who can accompany him.

Even if it is such an ordinary thing, he still can't find a close person to accompany him to do it, or the door of his heart has been closed for too long, and he is wary of anyone, sometimes even with a smile on his face, he still wears a layer A mask, a gentle mask, can't show the sincerity.

So he doesn't like to go to the street, he rarely goes out, and often stays in the hospital, facing the patients and relieving them of their pain.

There are many, many poor people in the hospital.

There, he found more true feelings, real and warm things, especially when the patients were discharged from the hospital.

However, he has never experienced that feeling.

Being with close people, doing very ordinary things, even if you can't afford clothes here, you still feel happy, warm and at ease.

It was such a good feeling.

As long as you are with your loved ones, with your family, as long as you talk and laugh, even if you are doing very ordinary things, you will feel in a good mood and very happy.

However, the current feeling made him feel that he had found something.

Kind, ordinary, warm, real...

"Uncle, what style do you like?" Zhang Chengyou said.

His head turned, turned, looked and looked.

The uncle wears a white coat all day long. The inside of the white coat is either a shirt or a T-shirt. There are no other styles. The clothes he wears on a date today are the same shirts and trousers as usual. He thinks he must buy a decent dress for the uncle today. .

Since the uncle's family doesn't care about him, then he should care about him.

I am the uncle's family, it's the same anyway =￣ω￣=.

"Ah, style?"

Xia Xingsi was lost in thought, but was taken aback by Zhang Chengyou's question, but he still reacted quickly.

"Uncle, you didn't even listen to me well..." Zhang Chengyou's face instantly turned into bitter gourd.

"Ah, no, no." Xia Xingsi quickly shook his head, repeatedly denying it, he thought for a while, and answered honestly: "This is the style... whatever you want, as long as you are comfortable."

The last time he researched what clothes to look good on was when he was in high school.

After studying medicine, he seldom pays attention to such external things, and concentrates on studying his specialty. As for clothes, as long as they are clean and comfortable.

"No wonder you wear the same clothes every day, but the colors are different." Zhang Chengyou curled his lips and replied honestly: "If you are not good-looking, the nurses in the hospital will definitely say you are ugly."

"..."

After Zhang Chengyou said this, he suddenly felt that the surrounding air was so quiet.

Even Xia Xingsi's breathing seemed to be inaudible.

Phew...it's so cold, what's going on.

He stopped tremblingly, and turned his head.

Seeing Xia Xingsi's extremely dark face.

It's black, three points darker than the black suit next to it.

He was trembling when he suddenly heard Xia Xingsi's deep and cold voice.

This voice was not much better than the tone of the middle-aged female class teacher in high school when he was training people.

"...Do you want to die?"

Xia Xing thought for a while, and decided to use his mouth instead of his hands for the sake of the sentence "If it weren't for your good looks".

"...Then let's go buy that couple's outfit." Zhang Chengyou said silently with his expression stiffened as he stared at him, sweat dripping down his cheeks secretly.

"..."

Xia Xingsi was startled when he heard that, he raised his lowered eyelids, and glanced at him lightly, Zhang Chengyou's expression was extremely obedient, just looking at him obediently, as if he dared to do this thing until he got an answer .

Looking at it this way, Xia Xingsi suddenly felt very uncomfortable.

He lowered his eyes silently again, Xia Xingsi's voice was as quiet as his breathing: "If you like that suit so much, go buy it and ask me what I'm doing...it's not my money."

As Xia Xingsi said, he slowly lowered his head, his eyes wandering around the hands he held with Zhang Chengyou.

He felt that his neck was sweating, and the surrounding air was a bit awkward. He wanted to say something to ease the atmosphere, but he couldn't say it, so he had to wait quietly for Zhang Chengyou's reaction.

Unexpectedly, before he had any reaction, he felt his hand being pulled violently, and then his whole body was dragged out.

He was pulled and almost fell.

After a few seconds of astonishment, he finally realized that he was running with Zhang Chengyou.

Look at the route, it's back to the counter just now.

He was completely dazed, he looked at Zhang Chengyou with a dazed face, and he was pulling himself to run in front of him, as if he was running to receive an award.

It is completely in the state of a primary school student who has passed the No.1 exam and is going to receive awards and praises.

He felt a wind blowing around him.

Before he could stop him, he saw Zhang Chengyou running to a counter and stopped abruptly. If Zhang Chengyou hadn't pulled him, he would have been almost thrown out by this force.

"Uncle, are you okay?" Zhang Chengyou supported Xia Xingsi, and said excitedly and aggrievedly: "I'm sorry, I'm too excited."

"..." Xia Xingsi blackened the black line and said, "It's okay, just let me know before you get excited, I'll prepare."

"...Well, what do you two need?"

The salesperson, who was watching by the side, mustered up her courage, interrupted the conversation between the two, and spoke tremblingly.

Isn't this the pair from just now? Why is it here again? The appearance is so scary. People nowadays really know how to play.

"That's right, we want to try the outfit just now." Zhang Chengyou turned around, pointed at the model, and said.

But when the words came out, he was stunned.

Hey, why did you change the clothes on the model?

Just now, it was still a couple outfit, why has it changed now, what kind of sweatshirt?

"Where's the couple outfit just now?" Zhang Chengyou rushed up and asked excitedly.

"You mean that couple's outfit. It was bought by another customer just now. That outfit sold well. It was the last one just now." An ugly handsome guy with a professional tone.

"..."

"Hey, you What's the matter with you, why did you faint? Are you all right?"

In the terrified voice of the salesperson, Zhang Chengyou fell to the ground with a pale face, with a look of hopelessness.

"...It's okay, he'll be fine in a while." Xia Xingsi lowered his head, looked at Zhang Chengyou who was lying on the ground and rolled his eyes, with a calm face and a flat tone.

"Sorry to trouble you." Xia Xingsi raised his head and said seriously to the salesperson.

After speaking, he dragged Zhang Chengyou to the rest corridor near the shopping mall corridor.

"Oh, no...it's okay." The salesperson nodded blankly.

The salesperson's eyes seemed to be on Xia Xingsi's body, she thought in a daze, he looks so good-looking.

The author has something to say: Normally, there should be a daily update, but if there is no daily update, it means that I didn’t feel well that day, and if I didn’t write it out, it would be purple.

In addition, are those 7 collections collected by my friends, or are there just 7 girls who slipped and collected the wrong ones?

Otherwise, there is no QAQ for Mao’s comment

Shouldn't ordinary readers be making complaints about the text while reading the article? . .

Chapter 26

The mall is very quiet, only the radio is talking.

Xia Xingsi dragged Zhang Chengyou to the bench in the snack department, all the way unimpeded.

Only the proprietress of the snack department lay on the counter and looked at them curiously.

Xia Xingsi put Zhang Chengyou down on the bench, looked down at him with a calm face, and then went to the snack bar to buy two bottles of mineral water.

The proprietress handed the water to Xia Xingsi and said curiously, "Young man, is your friend broken in love?"

Xia Xingsi was taken aback for a moment, but didn't react immediately.

"It's okay." The proprietress smiled, with an expression that I understand, "Young people are like this now. A few days ago, I saw a young man who wanted to jump into the river after a broken relationship, and the next day he was alive and kicking with his daughter. Friends are shopping."

Xia Xingsi was startled again, without explaining, took the water, just smiled, and said politely: "Auntie, you are right, I will try to persuade him."

Xia Xingsi took the mineral water and walked back to the bench.

Zhang Chengyou was still lying on the bench without moving, with an expression of lovelessness.

Sitting next to him, Xia Xingsi unscrewed a bottle of mineral water and held it in his hand.

Zhang Chengyou was still lying on the bench and continued to pretend to be dead. He looked at it indifferently, as if he was used to Zhang Chengyou playing rogue.

He looked at it for a while, then said in a flat and teasing tone, "Do you want me to give you artificial respiration before you get up?"

It's a very calm statement.

Zhang Chengyou's ears moved, and he obviously heard it.

He immediately covered his head, writhed on the bench like an earthworm, and cried out with a painful expression: "I suddenly have a terrible headache, I must be sick, God, I'm dying It's..."

"..." Xia Xingsi seemed to have expected this kind of situation, and said expressionlessly: "This should make you more sober."

As he spoke, he raised the unscrewed bottle of mineral water in his hand to Zhang Chengyou.

Zhang Chengyou suppressed his excitement, and secretly opened a slit, his mouth almost reaching the ears, thinking that something was going to happen.

But what he saw was an unscrewed bottle of mineral water, and the bottle was tilted, and the water was about to splash on him!

"Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!" He screamed and sat up quickly.

Fortunately, the water did not splash on him.

"Uncle, you are so ruthless." Zhang Chengyou sat down, straightened his clothes, and looked at Xia Xingsi sadly.

"Hmph, you deserve it." Xia Xingsi looked at him, turned around, put the mineral water bottle to his mouth and drank.

Zhang Chengyou didn't speak, and looked at him furtively while tidying up.

Looking at his awkward profile while drinking water.

It turned out that Xia Xingsi's hand holding the bottle was kept at an angle where the water would not flow out.

The uncle was just scaring himself with water, but he didn't really want to splash himself with water.

It's just that the surface is more fierce.

Zhang Chengyou snickered in his heart while watching, but he really laughed out unconsciously.

"...What are you laughing at?" Xia Xingsi was drinking water, he stopped his hand, glanced at it, and said, he stuck out his tongue to lick the water that was about to roll down from his lips.

Zhang Chengyou remained motionless and did not answer, staring at Xia Xingsi's lips as if he had been clicked.

He felt that a certain part of his body suddenly swelled and became hot.

"...What are you looking at?" Xia Xingsi was a little terrified by him, always felt that his eyes were weird, but he couldn't tell what was wrong

.

He had seen this kind of look on Zhang Chengyou's face before, after all, he was also in his late thirties, and it was not that he didn't understand this feeling at all, but he was not completely sure on the one hand, and he was not sure on the other.

"It's nothing, I'm just thirsty and want to drink water."

As he spoke, Zhang Chengyou's eyes quickly moved away from Xia Xingsi's body, and then he picked up the water on the table and drank it, speaking and moving coherently, as if someone was robbing him.

"..." Xia Xingsi glanced at him a few times, but said nothing.

I don't know if it's acquiescence or avoidance, or if I really don't know anything.

Zhang Chengyou didn't say a word, just sat with his head bowed, raised the mineral water bottle, and gulped it down several times. Only half of the original full bottle was left.

The shopping mall was already very quiet, but now it was even more silent. The air suddenly froze, and the proprietress who was lying behind the counter watched silently.

Everyone is quiet.

Only the radio is still politely talking about today's discounts.

Xia Xingsi kept looking at him, and suddenly said, "If you don't have enough, you can drink mine."

"..." Zhang Chengyou was taken aback, raised his head and looked at him slowly.

Xia Xingsi rubbed his nose, coughed, turned his eyes away, stood up and pretended to look around, and said, "Do you want to continue shopping?"

"...I don't have anything I want to buy." Zhang Chengyou also stood up, held the mineral water bottle in his hand, touched his nose and said, his eyes followed Xia Xingsi's movements all the time.

...Then who just fainted when I heard that the clothes were sold out.

Xia Xingsi blacked out the black line, but still responded: "...Really, then what shall we do next?"

"Well..." Zhang Chengyou touched his chin, a little anxious.

He had planned it all last night, but the actual date turned out to be completely different from what he had imagined, and everything was messed up.

He has never experienced a serious date. He used to have sex, and he could only do his homework on the Internet impromptu. However, the secrets of dating success on the Internet seem to be deceptive.

"By the way, let's go play video games!"

Zhang Chengyou's eyes lit up, and he suddenly remembered that yesterday when he was doing homework on the Internet, he deliberately found a few dating BL novels to read, in which the main character was going on a date to play video games.

He also saw someone on the Internet saying that dating between men and men is different from dating between men and women. Girls like to go shopping and buy clothes, but boys are different...

No wonder the uncle looked indifferent just now, so he understood.

"Ah? Hit what?" Xia Xingsi was taken aback for a moment, but didn't hear clearly.

But his voice was relatively small, and Zhang Chengyou couldn't hear it clearly.

And now Zhang Chengyou already has a sweet picture of a successful date in his mind, and he was so excited by his own imagination that he was dazzled.

He took Xia Xingsi's hand and ran away.

It's the same as when I ran to the counter to buy couple clothes just now.

Xia Xingsi almost dropped the mineral water in his hand.

The salespersons standing at the door of their counter all turned their heads to watch them run.

It's all the same on the inside: what an odd couple.

Zhang Chengyou has been with Xia Xingsi in the hospital all day after returning to China, and he has never been here, but yesterday he did enough homework and searched all the shops that can be played nearby, so he found it as soon as he came out of the mall. video game store.

"Uncle, there." Zhang Chengyou, who found his target, went straight to the video game store.

Xia Xingsi, who was dragged here by Zhang Chengyou all the way from the shopping mall, had a dazed look on his face, until Zhang Chengyou stopped, pointed at the video game store excitedly and said to him: "Uncle, let's play this!" He slowly came to his senses.

There were a few English letters written on the house number. He looked at it and felt that this place was a bit familiar.

Xia Xingsi didn't speak, but Zhang Chengyou thought he agreed, so he pulled him inside.

Zhang Chengyou's face was full of excitement and pride, and he felt that he had done something right.

Xia Xingsi was dragged in by Zhang Chengyou in a daze.

He walked into the store, looked around, and was stunned when he saw it.

It's a video game store.

All kinds of game consoles, many people flocked in front of these game consoles, laughing and shouting like a group of little lunatics, making a lot of noise.

Lively and crowded.

"Uncle, how are you doing? Do you like it?" Zhang Chengyou saw Xia Xingsi staring at him all the time, thinking that he liked this place very much, so he was even more proud and happy, and surrounded him like Xia Xingsi's tail.

Xia Xingsi did not answer.

It seems that I didn't hear it.

He was completely immersed in the picture in front of him.

There are boys and girls, some wear small skirts, some are fashionable, they are young, they like to play, and they like to make trouble.

He hasn't been to this kind of place for many years.

He hasn't been here since he studied medicine.

After studying medicine, he vowed to be a nerd.

He wants to completely forget about his past self, such as video games, absenteeism, fights... never touch him again.

He wants to change, and the self who is regarded as a "cancerous tumor" by the school will disappear.

He must study hard, be a good student, and become a good doctor in the future. If he lives well, he can also make others happy.

Because he met Zhang Guzhi back then, he understood that the self who has been decadent because of being hurt by his family is really the most stupid person in the world.

That can only hurt one person, and that is yourself, and no one will be sad about it.

Only by being yourself and being a great person can you make others sad.

Therefore, he wants to be a Xia Xingsi who lives for himself.

What parents, what family, everything...he has to forget, although all these cannot be changed, but he can forget them.

Everything is forgotten, changed.

He forgot all the decadent things he had done, he had to forget them all, and sealed up all these memories.

He took off his earrings, changed into his school uniform, went to class every day, and did his homework well. His own grades are good, and now he listens carefully to the class and is even a top student. The teachers and classmates are surprised, thinking that he has grown up. ,changed.

It turned out that the teachers who hated him started to treat him well, and the classmates who never talked to him also started to be friends with him.

But really only he knows how.

He is always gentle and smiling towards people, but he knows that it is just a mask, a gentle mask, and only he knows who he really is.

Because he has understood that he has to do everything well and be a perfect person so that some people can stop hurting him.

Only in this way can he live a good life. People live for themselves.

It turns out he was right.

No matter how good a person is, he can't live up to life and death.

Sure enough, now, those people started to come back to beg him.

Change the attitude of the year.

He looked at them and found it extremely ridiculous.

Man, what a hypocritical creature.

He looked at the patients he cured one by one, and he was in an indescribable mood. Every time the operation was successful, he was as happy as winning a Nobel Prize. Seeing the expressions of gratitude from the family members, he felt indescribable. He felt like a winner.

Healed people who were about to die. He had fallen before, but now he was able to save so many people. He felt that he had succeeded.

Now he has money, a car and a house, and he has nothing to worry about. He has done it, but he is lonely.

The author has something to say: Dating is especially hard to write here.

Got stuck several times.

This chapter has been stuck for many days.

Although I haven't dated before, the feeling I get from dating is that girls choose clothes in the front, and boys sweat profusely in collar bags at the back, but it's not appropriate to write like this in this article, so I got stuck for several days.

I figured out this chapter after asking my friends.

Play video games first, then watch movies, and eat after getting tired. Wow, just think about it!

But the atmosphere is not right, because the dating atmosphere I wanted to write is not like this TAT

Uncle Xia is a Cancer and is easily sentimental, so this chapter is sensational again...

In addition, I opened an essay, which is dedicated to recording code words, some moods and experiences in life, so you can go and have a look, I need comfort (finger).

Recently, my shoulders have been really painful, and it hurts even more after I just finished coding.

Sometimes when I wake up in the morning, my shoulders hurt.

I don't know if it's because I look at the computer too much.

Chapter 27

Now he faces patients or books every day, and he is always alone. Although he is gentle with everyone and seems to be living well, he feels lonely.

Only in the hospital, when facing patients and receiving thank-you letters, will he feel a little happy and feel that he is not a lonely person.

But he started to hate some things.

He has changed a bit completely.

He hated going out, hated parties, hated being in noisy places like this, although he used to be in and out of them all day long, but that was when he was a teenager.

The only thing he can do now seems to be a good doctor.

When he walked out of the hospital and saw strangers accosting him, or received invitations from strangers, he would resist inexplicably.

On the one hand, he doesn't want to be lonely, on the other hand he is afraid of interacting with strangers, on the one hand he wants to find a lover, but on the other hand he just wants to stay at home alone, because these strangers who strike up a conversation with him, he subconsciously thinks that none of them are reliable, all of them It is malicious.

He subconsciously didn't want to get close to understand.

It is a good thing to be on guard, but he feels that something is wrong with him.

Facing those people, he succeeded, because those people are now coming back to beg him.

On the other hand, however, he had completely changed.

At the beginning, he didn't expect that his change could be so thorough.

But facing himself like this, he didn't want to change.

He is almost 30 years old, and now he has a house and a car without worrying about money, what else can he think of.

He told himself bluntly that it was not a big deal not to have a partner.

Let it go.

A person.

But now, Zhang Chengyou is around him all day long, and he can't ignore those small actions.

He gradually had a feeling.

I am not alone.

There are people who care about me.

These seemingly indistinct details have gradually integrated into his life over time. He thought, if this continues, one day he will get used to the existence of Zhang Chengyou. uneasy.

This habit made him feel panicked and a little bit dependent.

Relying on others is not a good thing, because others are always others, and only you can rely on yourself.

But he couldn't give a reason for this idea, because it's good to have no reason.

Patients treat themselves well because they have cured their illnesses, nurses treat themselves well because they are expert doctors, and Zhang Chengyou.

His father is the dean, and his family background is so good, even if he achieves nothing, many people will like him just because of his appearance. He doesn't have to treat himself well, because he has no use value for him.

But he just treats himself so well.

The kind of goodness that comes from the heart and doesn't need any reason.

That kind of warmth, that kind of emotion, like being in love.

It's not that he has never been in love, but compared with the current feeling, the love in the past is not worth mentioning.

He even felt that the previous ones were not love affairs, but just relationships.

In fact, communication and love are two different concepts. Those who communicate do not necessarily have love, and those who do not have communication do not necessarily have love.

He couldn't explain this feeling, this mood, but he wanted to cry inexplicably, but he held back.

Because it is no exaggeration to say that this is the first time he has such a real warm feeling.

For him, this kind of warmth came too late, and it came from a little rascal who he thought was unreliable.

He is very disturbed.

he does not know.

What should I do.

On the one hand, he is afraid of losing, and on the other hand, he is afraid of being hurt.

Although there is no reason to be hurt, he just subconsciously feels that he will be hurt.

He wanted to curl up in a ball.

It feels very safe.

But now there is someone he can lean on, and he doesn't have to hug himself tightly anymore.

But he was hesitating and uneasy.

Although he is doing well now, it is not the real him, and he has never really been himself.

Haven't had a happy day.

From before to now, never.

I have been worrying and struggling all the time.

I struggled until I was 28 years old.

I have been struggling with meeting Zhang Chengyou.

Seeing Xia Xingsi standing there motionless for a long time, Zhang Chengyou thought he couldn't, and was too embarrassed to ask him for advice, so he offered to be courteous: "Uncle, which one do you want to play first? Let me teach you."

Xia Xingsi hesitated and shook his head.

He will, and was good at it.

He used to earn a lot of money by playing video games, because his grandma and mother often pushed back and forth and refused to give him living expenses.

He looked around, the video game store now looked more advanced than before, but those games were basically the ones he had played before, no difference.

"Uncle, do you want to play that? It's not difficult, uncle, you should be able to drive, right?" Zhang Chengyou saw that he still didn't speak, thinking that he didn't understand and didn't know which one to choose, so he helped him out and pointed to a racing game. .

Xia Xingsi looked along Zhang Chengyou's fingers.

A lot of people were watching and couldn't tell who was playing, but the voices should be quite powerful.

Although he hasn't played for a long time, he is here, so it's good to have a look.

Xia Xingsi nodded to him, saying yes.

Zhang Chengyou happily led Xia Xingsi over.

Surrounded by two young boys who were fighting, they looked about seventeen or eighteen years old, dressed very trendy, one of them had dyed yellow hair, and wore an earring on his right ear.

Today is a working day, so they probably skipped class to play.

Xia Xingsi watched them play, and suddenly thought that he would skip class to play before coming here.

People are the same when they are young, and they change when they grow up.

Counting, he hasn't touched these things for about ten years or so. After such a long time, this kind of game is still so popular.

The game is almost over, and there are whispers around.

Xia Xingsi glanced at the screens of the two of them, and knew that the yellow-haired man was going to win.

He saw the look of excitement on the opponent's face. It was just a game, and he was so happy when he won. When it comes to games, everyone is the same.

The game was over, and the yellow-haired one really won. He excitedly made a victory gesture, and the other boy took off his earphones, made a small "cut", and left with a disappointed expression.

"Is there anyone else?" Huang Mao turned his head and asked.

No one answered below.

Looks like he should have won a lot