love is not allowed in hell

It was still raining heavily outside.

Chen Liye stood at the entrance of the hospital, looking up at the rain crackling down from the sky.

He remembered that Lin Qingyan called him this morning, and it happened that there was a thunder in the sky. Lin Qingyan said to him, "It rained a lot today, and I always feel that nothing is good."

A prophecy.

The rain is still so heavy, the same as in the morning.

Chen Liye stood at the door with his hands in his pockets for a long time.There were people coming and going in the hospital, those holding umbrellas remained calm, those without umbrellas hid under the eaves to avoid the rain, and some took risks to sprint in the rain. After Chen Liye stayed for a while, he walked quietly into the rain , let the heavy rain hit him.

Liu Xu drove his own car to the hospital, they came in a hurry, so they only drove his car, and Chen Liye's car was still in the court.He had no choice but to take a taxi back to the court to pick up the car.The taxi driver was very knowledgeable about current affairs. Seeing that this man came out of the hospital with a not-so-happy face, he was very discerning and silent, and sent him back to the gate of the court without a word.

Chen Liye walked unhurriedly in front of his car again in the rain, and after standing in front of the car for a while in the rain, he opened the door and sat in.

This time there is no one left.

Chen Liye took a breath, and slowly put his head on the steering wheel.

it's all my fault.he thinks.

If he didn't sleep in the car in the morning, if he could pick up the materials earlier, if he was with Lin Qingyan...

So many assumptions, none of which can be true.

Chen Liye kept questioning himself with these assumptions. Undoubtedly, each assumption could overturn the current ending, so each assumption tortured him like a knife.

He lay prone on the steering wheel for a while, took a few breaths, choked up for a while, tears rolled down and fell on the back of his hands.Lin Qingyan's failure to pass the test was like a huge rock, which made him suffocate and painful. These few tears could not vent his inner sadness at all.These sorrows seem to be blocked by boulders, and they cannot be washed away by tears at all.

Chen Liye's hands trembled.

After crying for a few minutes, he sat up, wiped away his tears, took a breath, and drove on the road.

Of course, Chen Liye wouldn't go to work in this situation, he drove home directly.After getting out of the car, he walked around the community in the rain for a long time, then stood by the side of the road and looked up at the sky for a long time.

After looking up for a while, he lowered his head again, sat on the side of the road, and turned on his phone while drenched in the rain.In WeChat, Lin Qingyan was the latest to send him a message.

Chen Liye stopped for a long time.

He looked at the message list on his phone and was silent.After a long silence, he finally clicked on Lin Qingyan's profile picture.

Lin Qingyan's latest news was the one that urged him an hour or two ago.

He said that Xu Muyu brought his best friend this time, and said that the best friend had horrible eyes, and told Chen Liye to come and save him.

Chen Liye wanted to laugh when he saw it at the time, but looking at it now, no matter how he looked at it, he felt that the "help me" in the news was so dazzling.

He just stared at that "save me" for a long time, until the circles of his eyes turned red.The rain wet the phone's screen, and after a while, the phone turned off automatically, and the screen went completely black in an instant.

As soon as the screen went black, Chen Liye saw his own face.His eyes were red, his hair and face were soaked by the rain, and he looked embarrassed and ugly.

Chen Liye put down his cell phone and lowered his hands.He saw that the rainwater had accumulated several puddles on the road, and now the rain was pouring raindrops into the puddles.The gloomy sky was reflected in the water. Looking at the sky in the water, Chen Liye was suddenly in a trance, thinking that he was in hell.

After all, hell is always such a gloomy weather.

Chen Liye was silent for a long time, then lowered his head, embraced his arms as if unwilling to face the reality, buried his head in the crook of his arms, and sighed tremblingly.

It was still raining heavily.

getting bigger.

Chen Liye froze for a while, feeling the pain from the rain hitting his body.

But he still didn't get up, and he didn't hide, he held his arms tightly, bit his lips, trembling slightly for some reason.

After a while, the rain suddenly stopped.

There was no more rain to drench him.

But the sound of rain was still loud in Chen Liye's ears. He was stunned for a while, then raised his head like a fool, and saw that the rain was still heavy in front of him, but there were no raindrops in his area.

...?

"What are you doing squatting here?"

The sound made Chen Liye's body tremble suddenly.

It's Xie Weixian.

Xie Weixian was standing behind Chen Liye holding an umbrella.

It was only then that Chen Liye realized that he had unknowingly circled around the community, and then led himself downstairs to his own house.

For some reason, for a moment, Chen Liye didn't dare to turn his head.

"It was you who told me not to appear in front of you today, but now you are the one who ran downstairs to show me in the rain." Xie Weixian, who had no idea what happened to Lin Qingyan, said quite dissatisfied, "Chen Liye, you Are you just bullying me so that I won’t watch you get wet in the rain to make yourself sick?”

The moment he heard his voice, Chen Liye immediately felt a sore nose, everything in his heart collapsed instantly, and the self-blame and guilt suppressed in his heart instantly gushed out like a flood, turning into a few lines of rolling down tears.

"...I'm talking to you, can you react a bit?" Xie Weixian leaned over and said as if teaching a child, "If you quarrel with me, it's quarrel, don't be idle..."

Halfway through his words, Chen Liye slowly stood up.Xie Weixian may still have the instinct of being pointed at the nose by Gu Liye, who is a counselor, to preach. As soon as Chen Liye made a move, Xie Weixian shut up.

Chen Liye stood up without saying a word, then turned his head.When Xie Weixian saw his red eyes and tears on his face, he froze: "You..."

Before he could do anything from "you", Chen Liye stretched out his hand, hugged him, and threw his whole body on him, like a life-saving straw.

Xie Weixian: "..."

Xie Weixian raised his hand - he felt that it was time to push Chen Liye away.If he is destined to leave him in the future, he must be more unfeeling.But when he raised his hand halfway, Chen Liye suddenly choked up in his arms, and the tear-stained face just now flashed in front of Xie Weixian.

Xie Weixian couldn't push it out with this hand.

He couldn't bear it.

Xie Weixian's eyes twitched, he sighed with a headache, put down his hand, and asked, "What's wrong."

Chen Liye tremblingly said: "It's gone..."

"...?" Xie Weixian blinked in confusion first, then narrowed his eyes, a little confused, "What's gone?"

"... Lin Qingyan is gone."

Chen Liye held his hand and trembled slightly, his voice was so shaky from crying, he said, "Dead in hell...and then in front of me..."

The more he spoke, the more trembling his voice became, and in the end he couldn't go on talking at all, and buried himself in Xie Weixian's arms, he broke down and cried.

Xie Weixian didn't say a word.

He lowered his eyes, said nothing, put his hand without the umbrella on Chen Liye's hair, and stroked it gently as if comforting.

Chen Liye hugged him and cried, his collapse suppressed by nature was finally liberated at this moment, crying heartbreakingly hysterically.

Xie Weixian raised his umbrella and looked towards the sky.

The clouds in the sky are still very thick, and it seems that it will not be sunny for a while.

It was still raining heavily.

They just stayed there for 15 minutes.After Chen Liye had almost cried enough, Xie Weixian led him home.

Xie Weixian went to get a towel for him when he entered the house, wiped his hair carelessly and violently, and said: "Go change your clothes and take a shower first, it's raining so hard outside today, I think you'll have to If you are sick, go and struggle."

Chen Liye didn't have much energy, clutching the towel that Xie Weixian pressed on his head, hummed listlessly, and walked into the bedroom.

"..."

Xie Weixian saw that he was absent-minded, but didn't say anything.

As soon as Chen Liye entered the bedroom, he found that the sheets had been replaced with new ones.He froze for a moment, and soon realized that there were only two moving things in the room, and it must have been done by Xie Weixian.

Chen Liye didn't feel anything.While unbuttoning his jacket, he went to open the closet, ready to find out the pajamas and change them after taking a shower.After finding the pajamas, he took them into the bathroom.After taking a hot bath, as soon as he came out, he saw Xie Weixian sitting in the living room, holding a towel and waiting for him.

Chen Liye: "..."

He just wanted to get a hair dryer.

Xie Weixian and the hair dryer, of course he chose the first one.

Chen Liye obediently walked to his side and sat on the ground.The sofa in his house is short, and there is not much difference in height between the two of them.After Chen Liye sat on the ground, Xie Weixian put a towel over his hair. This time, he was not in a hurry to tell Chen Liye to change clothes and take a hot bath, and his technique was much gentler.

"Look out." Xie Weixian said while wiping his hair, "Some people will survive in hell, and of course many people will die. You should have told him the way out of hell, but he didn't believe it." , you have done your best, and his elimination has nothing to do with you."

Chen Liye did not speak.

Xie Weixian knew him well, he knew what Chen Liye was thinking, and said, "Let me explain first, even if you were beside him at that time, the two of you wouldn't go in together."

Chen Liye: "..."

Chen Liye's gloomy eyes suddenly lit up, and he turned his head: "What did you say?"

"I said, it is meaningless for you to blame yourself. After a person comes out of hell, the date of staying outside is set within a certain period, such as three to five days or within a few hours to one day. Last time The two of you went in together because it was time for him, which is pure coincidence. You just came out this time, so it is impossible to go in so soon."

Xie Weixian said: "I still say the same thing. Lin Qingyan's death has nothing to do with you, you have done your best, and he will not blame you."

"It's all fate, you can't change other people's fate."

That last sentence is a bit of a pun.

Chen Liye's eyes darkened again.He didn't want to say anything, and turned his head away again.

"No one blames you, Chen Liye." Xie Weixian said, "Only you blame you."

"...Leave yourself alone."

"..."

Chen Liye didn't say anything, but he felt his eye sockets wet again.

There are no participants around him, no one who can understand his breakdown and self-blame, and no one can see his breakdown and self-torture.

Only Xie Weixian knew.Not only did he know, but he also knew exactly what Chen Liye was thinking, and he could even see how he was torturing himself. He was the only one in this world who could fish Chen Liye out of the abyss—no matter how many times.

Chen Liye took a breath and wiped his eyes.

"Don't wipe it off, cry if you want." Xie Weixian reached out and stroked his hair, and said, "I'm here."

Chen Liye choked up and said, "But you... have to go."

"..."

Xie Weixian lowered his eyes.

You see, he actually understands very well.

They all understand that Xie Weixian won't be able to stay for a long time. His life, which has been continued by hell for 2000 years, has already come to an end, and he is just lingering on hell.

One day it will go, one day it will disappear.

There will always be that day.

Xie Weixian pulled down the towel and put it aside, lowered his body and embraced Chen Liye's shoulders, then embraced him in his arms, saying: "At least now."

Just look at the present.

he thinks.

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