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Meng Dongxu finally decided to find a time to have a good chat with Jiang Xiaoting. He wanted to know everything about Jiang Xiaochuan, but unfortunately Meng Dongxu did not get a satisfactory answer from Jiang Xiaoting.

Jiang Xiaoting was too young when his parents died, and he lived in school all the time.In the first two years, all he saw was that Jiang Xiaochuan supported the whole family by himself, went to work whenever he had time, and even had little time to rest, but even so he insisted on fighting everything alone, letting Jiang Xiaoting Going to school with peace of mind, he didn't even know about the troubles of the relatives at home until a long time later, and Jiang Xiaoting really didn't know anything about Jiang Xiaochuan about his relationship experience.

After talking with Meng Dongxu, Jiang Xiaoting himself began to reflect on himself. Has he really cared about his elder brother these years? What has his elder brother who took care of him meticulously endured in the past few years?

Meng Dongxu left disappointed, and Jiang Xiaoting was also in a bad mood at this time. It's not that he didn't care about Jiang Xiaochuan, but under Meng Dongxu's cross-examination, he was shocked that his so-called concern was so pitiful.

Fang Zheng naturally couldn't bear to see Jiang Xiaoting so lost, but he didn't know how to comfort him. Jiang Xiaoting was an optimist, and he admired Jiang Xiaochuan who was able to protect Jiang Xiaoting so well, so at this time he also silently joined Jiang Xiaoting down.

This situation continued until Jiang Xiaochuan came home, he was really not used to seeing two people who were listless.

"What's the matter? Why don't you talk, the two naughty bastards are so silent today, it makes me think crooked!"

Jiang Xiaochuan meant something, Fang Zheng blushed, and he also wanted to be wrong.Jiang Xiaoting didn't react at all, and he didn't dare to say anything, except for what Meng Dongxu told before he left, there was also his own troubles. It's not worth it.

"Why don't you talk? I'm guessing. Hey, Fang Zheng, your face is blushing. Come on, it's okay if I don't ask. You two are playing, I'm going to sleep!"

Jiang Xiaoting made a grimace behind Jiang Xiaochuan and stuck out his tongue. Only then did he realize what his brother meant. What he thought in his heart was that he was just so sad, and his brother's spiritual world is now at its peak convulsion period. Even if he gave him ten Thousands of loving hugs probably won't be able to affect his heart that has already drifted to an alien planet.

Jiang Xiaoting murmured in Fang Zheng's ear, and began to complain about Jiang Xiaochuan again, but Fang Zheng really confirmed that the two were brothers at this time, and the little bird that felt sad for the first second and the happy second for the second began to explode like Run wild!

But that's fine.

Jiang Xiaochuan was really tired these days. He took on a job and rushed to work desperately. First, there was a real rush there, and second, he just wanted to keep himself busy and stop thinking about it. Facts have proved that this trick is quite effective. , the whole person is so tired that he wants to sleep without giving him a bed.

After sleeping for two hours, Jiang Xiaochuan got up and went to the bathroom. He glanced at his cell phone which had been muted. There were two missed calls and a text message from Meng Dongxu on it, asking him to go out for dinner at night.

Jiang Xiaochuan glanced at the living room and listened to the movement, and as expected, the two boys ran away.If you are alone and have no one to accompany you anyway, then agree.After answering the text message, Jiang Xiaochuan ran back to bed and lay down for a while, waiting for Meng Dongxu to pick him up by car.

Meng Dongxu finally showed a smile after receiving the text message. This kid finally stopped using the excuse of being busy. I really miss him after not seeing him for a few days. Meng Dongxu was busy booking a hotel and was ready to drive to pick him up.

Jiang Xiaochuan was woken up by the knock on the door, got up and opened the door in a daze, and glanced at Meng Dongxu before realizing that he was here to pick him up for dinner.His hair was a mess like a chicken coop, and one leg of his trousers was rolled up to his knees, making him look like a beggar. Jiang Xiaochuan was embarrassed for a while. Although the two of them slept together, they still felt embarrassed.

"Sit down, I'll clean up!"

Jiang Xiaochuan kept running away, but Meng Dongxu shook his head with a smile, he seemed really tired, with heavy dark circles under his eyes.

Jiang Xiaochuan behaved really well today, he didn't lose his temper or lose his temper, and he laughed and laughed during the meal, and it was only after Meng Dongxu made a request that he was a little nervous.

"Last time, the bar owner said he wanted to buy us a drink, shall we go?"

Jiang Xiaochuan was taken aback for a moment, wondering who it was?

"Shimizu? Your friend?"

Meng Dongxu nodded, "Yes, he said it was an apology for you!"

Jiang Xiaochuan hummed, "What's the matter? It's your friend's business. In fact, it should be for your own good. If you really like Mu Siqi, he has helped you a lot, hasn't he? This girl It's none of my business, I can do it for two days, just tell me when you set the time!"

Meng Dongxu was taken aback by what Jiang Xiaochuan said, and sighed, he was so reasonable, he felt really guilty, but he still felt that something was missing.

26

The two of them went to Qingshui bar after a day. The business was very good that day, but Su Zixi still took time out of his busy schedule to entertain the two of them. Su Zixi found an excuse to dismiss Meng Dongxu, and Jiang Xiaochuan immediately understood that Su Zixi had something to say. Say to yourself.

Jiang Xiaochuan still has a good impression of Su Zixi. Although this is the first time he has seen him, he is really envious of this person's bright personality. As a girl can be like this, no wonder he can manage the business here like this .

Su Zixi held a glass of wine, with a sincere expression on his face, "I always wanted to apologize to you for what happened last time, and everything I said was just an excuse. I really didn't think carefully about this matter. Here's to you and Dongxu You must have caused a lot of trouble, and I apologize to you today, I don’t ask for forgiveness, I just ask you to be with Dongxu well, Dongxu is worth it!”

Jiang Xiaochuan smiled, "I won't accept your apology, because I don't think there is anything wrong with you. You are his friend, and you have your considerations. In my opinion, what you did is actually a good thing for him! You Don't take it to heart, whether it's good or not, in fact, the two of us are the key, there is a relationship with others, but it's really not that big!"

Su Zixi suddenly realized, unexpectedly, it was Jiang Xiaochuan who thought the most thoroughly, yes, feelings are something that others are busy with, and only the relationship between two people is the most important.

The two of them clinked glasses together and started chatting. They had nothing in common, but Su Zixi has super communication skills. He can develop countless topics with just a little news. Advertisement? Su Zixi is not an outsider!

Meng Dongxu is happy to see Su Zixi and Jiang Xiaochuan get along well. This is different from his other friends. Su Zixi is a trustworthy person. Although this kind of trust has not been tested for a long time, it just makes him feel at ease. Even if she Occasionally I do things that bother me.

"You two had a nice chat!"

The sour smell in Meng Dongxu's words made Su Zixi laugh, "What kind of jealousy are you eating, or do you think I'm handsome and you can't compare to me?"

"You are quite handsome!" It was Jiang Xiaochuan who said this, and what he said was sincere. Su Zixi's capable and handsome can indeed fascinate many people, but Su Zixi didn't take it seriously, and only regarded it as a tacit joke between the two.

Sure enough, Meng Dongxu hugged Jiang Xiaochuan in his arms again with gusto, "Sister Xi, look at how charming you are, you are going to abduct my people in such a short time!"

"It would be better if I abducted her, I'm so pitiful alone!"

Su Zixi said with a smile that the meal that he asked someone to prepare before arrived. Although Qingshui Bar is a bar, there are occasional people who order food here, and Su Zixi is also delicious, so he specially invited a chef.

Duan Lang knew that Su Zixi had a friend, so he brought out the pasta by himself. Seeing that it was Meng Dongxu, he was relieved, at least he would not become his rival in love.

Duan Lang put the pasta in front of several people, and Su Zixi saw that it was Duan Lang who brought it in person, "Ah Lang! Just now, let me introduce you to Dongxu's little lover Jiang Xiaochuan. Xiaochuan is our chef. , the cooking is superb, you will know after a taste!"

Jiang Xiaochuan glanced between Duan Lang and Su Zixi and nodded solemnly. He lowered his head and started eating pasta. Why did everyone he met recently give people a sense of oppression at first? It was them Is it too strong or too weak?

The pasta is really delicious. Jiang Xiaochuan's favorite is black pepper. The taste in this pasta is simply made to suit his appetite. After he took two bites, his eyes lit up. Looking at Duan Lang's eyes In addition to admiration, there is also a little love.

"This is the best pasta I've ever eaten, sister Xi, your chef is simply amazing!"

Jiang Xiaochuan's high opinion immediately aroused Meng Dongxu's dissatisfaction. He also ate it, not just once, why did he think it was okay!Su Zixi was overjoyed as soon as this look came and went.Why are these two so funny, she is really envious.

After seeing off Jiang Xiaochuan and Meng Dongxu, Su Zixi ran to the kitchen to beg for food. A plate of pasta was not enough for Su Zixi, which was normal for Su Zixi. Duan Lang was used to it, and immediately started cooking when he saw people running in.

Jiang Xiaochuan got out of the Qingshui Bar and his stomach was already swollen to the point of discomfort, and it was even more uncomfortable to sit in the car curled up. Meng Dongxu stretched out his big hand to help him rub it, but was slapped away by Jiang Xiaochuan, "You will come out when you press it of!"

"I can't take it lightly!"

"Drive honestly!" Jiang Xiaochuan didn't let him touch it because he still got motion sickness, and now it's really uncomfortable to go up and down.

"That's right, you still get motion sickness, I'll drive slowly, you open the window!"

Jiang Xiaochuan nodded, and opened the window obviously much better, and his breathing began to be smoother.

"Let's eat pasta next time, I'll come with an empty stomach!"

"That food is so delicious? Why didn't I feel that?" Meng Dongxu said dissatisfied.

"Gourmet food is also a matter of personal taste. What he makes is not to your taste but mine. It's as simple as that, just like the way Duan Lang looked at Sister Xi, it's called the right eye! "

"Then I think you're right!" Meng Dongxu answered, and Jiang Xiaochuan burst out laughing, "That's right!"

Love is something that you can see right in an instant, but life is a gradual habit.

May [-]st is approaching, Meng Dongxu has chosen many places for him and Jiang Xiaochuan to travel, this is their first time, didn't they all say that travel is one of the best ways to strengthen couples.

"Go to Qingdao on May Day? Hainan? Or..."

"Can I sleep at home?" Jiang Xiaochuan denied all of Meng Dongxu's May Day plans, and said what he wanted to do most at this time.

"Nine out of ten days we ate and slept at home, Xiao Chuan, why haven't you gained weight all these years!"

The two were lying on the bed, and Meng Dongxu's hand touched Jiang Xiaochuan's stomach to give him a massage. He just finished eating, and his stomach was so nice to touch.

"It's a problem with the system, but I still don't want to go out. There are too many people. I just go out and see everyone. It's better to walk around near home!"

Meng Dongxu also understood in his heart that this was the case, but suddenly, Meng Dongxu's eyes lit up and he thought of something, "Why don't you go back to my house now, I have already given the old man a psychological preparation, and said that I will take someone back!"

Jiang Xiaochuan blinked, "This is the second time you said it, so I decided to go when you said it the third time!"

"Jiang Xiaochuan, let's go to my house, the third time!"

Meng Dongxu's whole body was pressed against Jiang Xiaochuan, leaving him no place to run. In fact, he had been building himself up psychologically for a long time, but he still felt a little afraid to meet Meng Dongxu's family. He is carrying everything alone, and he has never experienced the atmosphere of his family, and this alone makes him timid, but...

"Okay, let's go to your house!"

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Jiang Xiaochuan's current thinking is to let the storm come earlier, before he is completely trapped.

The Meng family's business is really big. Jiang Xiaochuan once went to the place where Meng Dongxu worked, and he was really shocked. The grandeur was beyond his imagination, and now he is in front of Meng Dongxu's small villa. Another burst of emotion, although this small villa looks small, but it is a prime location, the value can be imagined.

Following Meng Dongxu into the room, he found that the interior decoration of this small villa is very beautiful and has a modern atmosphere. Because Meng Dongxu said hello in advance, his family members also came out to welcome him. Meng Dongxu's parents had to come back late because of something, so Meng Xinyu took care of it. The representative greeted him, which eased Jiang Xiaochuan's nervousness a little. He handed over the things in his hand and smiled subtly. After being introduced by Meng Dongxu, he greeted him and entered the living room from the entrance.

"The kitchen is already preparing the meals. We will start the meal when our parents come back. Brother, you can take Brother Xiaochuan to your room first. I think he is still a little nervous!" Meng Xinyu held back her laughter, and it was not easy to tease him in front of her.

Jiang Xiaochuan was really nervous. The first meeting between him and Meng Xinyu was still very awkward. Now seeing the little girl greet him naturally, he immediately felt that he was cowardly, and he was even more embarrassed.He was grateful for Meng Xinyu's opening. After all, he needed some private space to ease his current mood.

Meng Dongxu's room is quite clean, and it's also because he doesn't come back to live in it very often. Seeing Jiang Xiaochuan, he despises the rich a little bit. There are several houses. Can you live here?

Meng Dongxu went to the kitchen. Jiang Xiaochuan stayed in the room by himself and was not idle all the time. He turned left and right and saw nothing, and felt a little bored. He looked down at his phone and Meng Dongxu came in with fruit. "Eat something, my parents may take a while!"

"Well, okay! Your parents are quite busy!"

"Actually, my sister also has a date today, but I stopped her, otherwise there would be no one in the family to arrange meals!"

Jiang Xiaochuan was taken aback, "Then why do you insist on coming to your house today!"

"Isn't this taking the time to take you to see your parents? If you keep procrastinating, you don't know when it will be. This is also to express my sincerity to you. Since it's a matter of time before I take you to see your parents, why not earlier? I think Give you a complete home! Of course, the sooner the better!"

"I know your sincerity, don't worry, I will behave well today!" Jiang Xiaochuan couldn't bear to let Meng Dongxu be as upset as himself, since he is so confident, why should he make things difficult for him.

It was almost time, and the two of them stopped staying in the room. There were already a few cold dishes on the table in the living room. He hasn't eaten it!

There was movement in the porch, and Jiang Xiaochuan followed Meng Dongxu to see the people. Most likely, they were Meng Dongxu's parents. He was a little nervous at first, and this nervousness turned into a trace of despair after seeing the people who came in.

City H is really small. The most famous psychotherapist in the industry, Bai Jing, is actually Meng Dongxu's mother!

Meng Dongxu introduced Jiang Xiaochuan to his parents with great interest, but finally noticed the delicate atmosphere between his mother and Jiang Xiaochuan after a few minutes.

"Mom, have you met Xiao Chuan? Why are you looking at him like that!"

Bai Jing thinks she has good professional ethics, and she should protect the information of her former patient and maintain a good attitude towards everything about him, but if this person becomes her son's boyfriend, she really doesn't know what she is doing. what to do.

Jiang Xiaochuan looked at Bai Jing's erratic eyes and didn't want to embarrass her, after all, she used to do her best to help herself. "We have met. I used to be your mother's patient. She treated me for about a year. Later, we also communicated by email, so it is not surprising that she looks at me like this!"

If this kind of look is really impolite to strangers, but Jiang Xiaochuan has experienced so much, suddenly it is very understandable, her son's boyfriend is a person who almost got crazy, how could she be calm and composed, maybe she didn't It is enough to give yourself face by driving yourself out directly.

Jiang Xiaochuan thought so, but still hoped that Dr. Bai would give him a little hope. Unfortunately, she chose to remain silent from the beginning to the end, and Meng Dongxu and his family fell into an awkward situation.

So what if someone who has been mentally ill looks normal now?Isn't it the same as receiving strange looks from others, Jiang Xiaochuan gave up hope, but he didn't expect such a result today.

This time Jiang Xiaochuan walked out for a long time and did not wait for Meng Dongxu to come out to find him. He squinted his eyes and looked at the small villa he had just walked out of, and suddenly understood a truth. Things will always develop in the worst direction. This sentence is true That's right, but the thing went beyond his imagination. He thought that today he would be embarrassed by Meng Dongxu's family, but he didn't expect that he would be completely thrown away.

Even if Jiang Xiaochuan had done so much psychological construction for himself before, his heart still collapsed in a mess. This is not the first time the word despair appeared in his heart, but this time it made him collapse even more, because he had expectations for Meng Dongxu, maybe it was The last anticipation.

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Meng Dongxu's heart was in a mess at this time, he was a little angry, why Jiang Xiaochuan still refused to tell him anything like before, if he did, he would not lose the opportunity in front of his parents.But now, he is sitting on the sofa, it's not that he doesn't want to go to Jiang Xiaochuan, it's just that his parents still need an explanation from him, he can't leave right away, he can put Jiang Xiaochuan before himself, but he can never surpass his parents' status.

He calmed down and explained to them well, explaining his meeting with Jiang Xiaochuan again, and also telling his determination to be with Jiang Xiaochuan, no matter what kind of past he had.

Bai Jing was patient at first listening to Meng Dongxu's words, but later when she heard that Meng Dongxu wanted to be with Jiang Xiaochuan no matter what, she couldn't help it anymore. She knew everything about Jiang Xiaochuan six years ago, She wanted to prevent her son from being with someone who was filled with such evil and unbearable thoughts in his heart, it was too terrible.

Meng Dongxu got up and said that he was going to find Jiang Xiaochuan, but Bai Jing had to hold her son in a panic. She wandered between professional ethics and family affection, and finally her son surpassed everything.

"Dongxu, Dongxu, you can't go to him. Jiang Xiaochuan has killed people. He watched his mother unable to breathe but refused to call. Do you know what this means? He is a person who can treat his biological mother How can you be with him when you are so cold-blooded."

Meng Dongxu stopped, looked at his mother in disbelief, and was shocked by what she said, which was indeed hard for him to accept.

"Mom, what did you say? How is it possible? When did that happen? You must have made a mistake, right?"

Bai Jing has already blurted out, so she no longer hides it. Seeing the shocked eyes of the family members around her, she begins to calm down instead.

"I can't remember wrongly. He is the most special patient I have ever seen. I don't know when it happened, but you can check to see when his mother passed away. He told me about it personally. Said, I have no evidence but I believe it is true. He was in a bad state of mind at that time, and occasionally made acts of self-harm, but he was not sent to me by anyone, he came by himself , I later learned that he has a younger brother, maybe because of this he took the initiative to come to me., Maybe I can also say that he is very strong, so strong that it makes people feel terrible. According to him, at that time his mother was sick The whole person was in a state of confusion, his father had passed away in a car accident, so Jiang Xiaochuan was under a lot of pressure during that time, he wanted all these sufferings to disappear, certain thoughts were brewing in his mind until That day will come."

According to Bai Jing, Jiang Xiaochuan has had this idea for a long time, until he found the right time, secretly broke his mother's ventilator when a medical staff was changing shifts, then pretended to be asleep, and then everything was like that happened.Meng Dongxu didn't dare to think about the whole process carefully. He was sweating, but he couldn't help thinking about it. He really hoped that all this was fake. His body trembled uncontrollably, and finally he still thought about it. Going to the porch, "Mom, don't bring up things without proof, it will hurt Xiao Chuan, you eat first, I'll go find him!"

Bai Jing shouted anxiously behind Meng Dongxu, but Meng Dongxu still turned a blind eye to it. He moved quickly and was afraid that any reason would make him back down. It was not until he was about to go out that he turned his head and said to the inside, "If what you said is Really, then it's even more impossible for me to leave him, he needs me!"

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Meng Dongxu is very anxious now. Listening to what his mother said, he is worried that something irreparable will happen during the half hour he let Jiang Xiaochuan go away. Now he starts to pray that the less weight he has in Jiang Xiaochuan's heart, the better, so that he can He would not be sad for himself, he also knew that he was hateful, but he still couldn't let go of Jiang Xiaochuan.

He was driving along the main road looking for someone, his brows were tightly frowned, he couldn't breathe, he was so scared.

It's been half an hour, where will Jiang Xiaochuan go?The phone couldn't get through, so Meng Dongxu sent a text message, and then called to confirm from time to time. He also thought about calling Jiang Xiaoting, but he didn't know whether Jiang Xiaochuan would let Jiang Xiaoting know about this past. He was full of worries now. , and nothing else.

Jiang Xiaochuan looked at the incoming calls that flashed from his mobile phone from time to time, and sat by the river with a cigarette in his mouth, blowing the cool wind. This was already the ninth call, and he was going to answer the tenth.At this time, Jiang Xiaochuan admired himself for having such naive thoughts, but he has experienced so many sad things in life, so he wanted to be simple and naive.

Sure enough, Meng Dongxu's phone call came back. Jiang Xiaochuan was glad that he didn't have the unexpected surprise that his phone ran out of battery. He swiped down to answer it, and Meng Dongxu's anxious voice came from his ear, "Xiaochuan, where are you?"

Jiang Xiaochuan squinted his eyes and looked around, "Jiangbian, behind me is a farmhouse called 416! I'll wait for you for 30 minutes!"

"Okay, wait for me, I'll be here soon!"

Meng Dongxu was relieved, Jiang Xiaochuan was still willing to answer his calls, and did not reject him because he let him alone again. At this time, he completely forgot the nine previous calls that were deliberately ignored.

When Meng Dongxu arrived, he saw Jiang Xiaochuan sitting by the river out of breath, with a cigarette in his mouth and puffing out smoke rings. He walked over and wanted to grab it, but Jiang Xiaochuan hid him, "I want to smoke myself." One, this is my spiritual food now!"

Meng Dongxu suddenly didn't know what to do next, he could only stare at him in a daze.

Jiang Xiaochuan turned his head and looked at him, "What do you want from me?"

"I'm worried about you!" Meng Dongxu sat down next to him and said what he wanted to say most now, but Jiang Xiaochuan just smiled slightly when he heard it, "Aren't I fine? I'm still relatively normal now, and I don't want to harm myself, let alone commit suicide. If I hadn’t met your mother, I wouldn’t have let you know about my experience at all, I’m very good at putting on a show, don’t worry!”

Meng Dongxu felt his heart ache again, "I'm worried, I want to be with you!"

Jiang Xiaochuan sneered again, "It's beyond my expectation, what do you mean? I really don't understand!"

Meng Dongxu grabbed Jiang Xiaochuan's hand and dragged it into his coat pocket. Jiang Xiaochuan's hand was too cold, "Aren't we boyfriends? Naturally, I want to stay with you, even if you are sad because of me, I will be ashamed be with you!"

Jiang Xiaochuan wanted to pull out his hand, but he didn't fight Meng Dongxu. He stared at his eyes and pulled desperately for a long time, and finally he bit Meng Dongxu before letting go.

"I'll keep you warm, it's cold here!"

"Don't pretend to be kind. Why didn't I see you feel distressed when I left alone just now?"

Meng Dongxu was already blaming himself, but Jiang Xiaochuan's words pierced his weakness again, he lowered his head, "I have always felt distressed, but I need to make it clear with my parents before I can come to you, and I really want to know about you If you don’t tell me about the past, I have no place to ask. There are too many missing things, which makes me panic. I want to treat you well, but I’m afraid I won’t be able to treat you with my heart. That’s why I’m late. Even if It doesn’t matter if it’s an excuse, I really think so.”

Jiang Xiaochuan looked at Meng Dongxu with doubts about what he said, but the boy's integrity could not be seen at all, he blinked and turned his head away to continue smoking his cigarette.

"Xiao Chuan, don't blame my mother, if he cares about it, he will be in chaos, but don't worry, I have recognized you, and it is useless for anyone to say anything!"

"Even if your parents are against it? Even if I'm crazy?"

"You're not crazy! You're not!" Meng Dongxu desperately wanted to hug Jiang Xiaochuan but was pushed away by Jiang Xiaochuan, "Stay away from me, don't infect you!"

This is really fucked up, that doctor Bai probably said everything he should say and shouldn't say, look at Meng Dongxu's eyes, but even so, he still wants to be with him?Did he take the wrong medicine?

"Xiao Chuan, what are you thinking?" Are you in a daze again?Meng Dongxu shook his head helplessly, then he just waited!

Jiang Xiaochuan didn't stay in a daze for a long time this time, he regained his composure and said to Meng Dongxu, "Come with me, to a place!"

Sitting in the car, Jiang Xiaochuan was thinking for a while. Meng Dongxu's mother didn't know what he had said, but no matter what he said, he had to explain it to himself. If he finished explaining everything, Meng Dongxu still wanted to talk to him. If he is together, then he should really think about it.

Jiang Xiaochuan brought Meng Dongxu to the place he had never let outsiders visit before. This is his mother's tombstone, and in front of it is the lily he brought when he came last time, his mother's favorite flower!

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When standing in front of the tomb, Meng Dongxu couldn't help becoming silent. He remembered what his mother told him about the cause of Xiaochuan's mother's death, and looked at Jiang Xiaochuan's expression, and the last bit of uncertainty disappeared instantly. Jiang Xiaochuan loved his mother very much. , He also remembered what Jiang Xiaochuan said in front of him just now, after being disappointed in himself again and again, maybe he was also disappointed in his family.

Jiang Xiaochuan sat directly beside his mother's tomb, sitting in a familiar position, then raised his eyes to look at Meng Dongxu.

"Actually, I didn't care what your mother said to you, but I was still a little bit unwilling, so I decided to tell you clearly by myself, and then you decide whether you want to be with me."

Obviously made many resolutions, isn't it still a compromise again and again, Jiang Xiaochuan, Jiang Xiaochuan, you, this is really the last time.

"Tell me, I'll listen, but no matter what you say, I will make the same decision as before!" Meng Dongxu categorically insisted, but Jiang Xiaochuan still hummed with disbelief on his face, "I'll forget it if I listen to it! "

Meng Dongxu sighed, this kid really has no confidence in him, and he deserves it.Meng Dongxu sat down after him, not next to Jiang Xiaochuan, but opposite him, facing the tombstone and watching him leaning on the tombstone, watching him reach out and touch the words on it, full of sadness.This is the rare Jiang Xiaochuan, he is always extremely strong and unwilling to fail, and rarely shows his real fragile side, but now, he no longer hides all this in front of his closest people.

"My mother died six years ago. It was eight months after my father passed away. It was very cold and snowing. I caught a cold when I came back from work and didn't wait for the bus. I'm afraid Infected my mother, so I went back home and wanted to wait for her to fall asleep later to see her, but I didn’t expect to take the medicine after I got home and fell asleep very late. When I rushed to the hospital..." Jiang Xiaochuan couldn't help Choked up, this past is a scar in his heart, compared to his father's death due to a car accident, compared to his mother's death because of him, it's all because of him.

Jiang Xiaochuan couldn't help but wanted to cry, but desperately wiped away his tears and wanted to hold back this emotion. It was him who caused the result. He has no right to be wronged here for others to see. He didn't look at Meng Dongxu's concerned eyes, and continued to say "I only heard from the nurse after I arrived at the hospital that my mother unplugged the ventilator by herself during the nurse's shift, but on this day I didn't go to the hospital to accompany her on time, which caused it to happen when I arrived. My mother has been sent to the emergency room, and after that, there will be no more!"

"Then why did you say that to my mother? Say you..."

"I don't trust your mother!" Jiang Xiaochuan didn't hesitate at all when he said this. He really didn't trust anyone at that time. He once suspected that there were other reasons for his mother's death, maybe it was his relatives, and he had no way to find out. There is no evidence or any reason to dissuade him from dispelling such a conspiracy theory. He is burdened with the financial pressure of his family and the pressure of dividing the money left by his father, but when all this comes, he has only one Jiang Xiaoting to trust, but that is He is his most precious brother, he doesn't want him to endure all this chaos like himself, let alone Xiaoting is still young.

So Jiang Xiaochuan found Bai Jing, a psychiatrist who voluntarily provides services to minors. Jiang Xiaochuan needed a place to vent, but he didn't believe that those thoughts in his heart were really willing to be listened to and kept secret, so he told countless lies One of them is the cause of his mother's death. When time passed and Jiang Xiaochuan began to relax his vigilance towards Bai Jing, he gradually confided his heart, and he also found that because of such a lie, Bai Jing also became jealous of him. Occasionally, he would be saddened by this fact, but he also understood that such fear might be the best result for him.

"At that time, I thought that if I said that I put my own mother to death, your mother would be as shocked as most people, and then tell all this, but I waited for a long time, but she didn't have any other strange behavior , It turns out that the psychiatrist is like this, and such a shocking secret can be kept silent, so half a year later, I gradually began to tell the truth, and it was also in the first half year that I had uncontrollable self-mutilation behaviors. Dare to let Xiaoting see it, only dare to make some small wounds to relieve the distortion in my heart. At that time, I knew that I was very bad, and it was really relieved after I started to confide in your mother. So after the treatment, I will also Take the initiative to contact your mother. I just didn’t expect that after 6 years, she really broke the precept today. The famous doctor Bai really cares most about her own children. For you, she can abandon the so-called professional ethics."

Jiang Xiaochuan sighed deeply, but with a smile on his face, "Your mother is so good to you, are you really willing to go against her words and stay with me? Even if I didn't do anything to my mother, but In my heart, I have always hated certain people, and I have thought more than once, maybe at that time I was really forced to do nothing, when there was no hope, I really tried to get rid of them! For those who have Do you still dare to say that you like me who thinks this way?”

Meng Dongxu heard Jiang Xiaochuan's familiar question again, and suddenly he really understood Jiang Xiaochuan's uneasiness at this moment. He said that at that time he didn't trust his mother, he didn't trust anyone, what about now?Isn't he the same insecure and doesn't trust anyone now, and he is still a self who has repeatedly let him down, Meng Dongxu's heart hurts like being pricked by a needle.

"I like you, I want to be with you, no matter who opposes, I will not change my mind, I care about your past, but that's because I hate myself for not being with you when you are sad, and I don't even want to be with you when you are sad. I am also missing your future, Xiao Chuan, I have been struggling in the society for several years, and I have lived through unrealistic dreams.