Dust is like a city

"Jiang Gao, what are you doing?"

Jiang Gao raised his head and saw Chen Qianchen standing in the darkness. Although what he said was a question, his tone was calm and indifferent, more like a statement. Jiang Gao was a little speechless for a while, "Qianchen...so late You haven't rested yet?"

"I've been waiting for you to come back." Chen Qianchen said calmly, "I've been standing here watching you pack your things for a long time."

Jiang Gao's face turned pale for a while, but fortunately the living room was still in darkness, only a few faint lights were revealed in the room, the other party said for this reason, Jiang Gao knew that it was useless to hide, "I'm here to pack things, it's almost time to go , A Yang's key is also put here, I haven't finished my things yet, I will come again in a few days."

"You already knew that A Yang didn't plan to renew the contract, didn't you?" Chen Qianchen asked bitterly.

Jiang Gao was silent for a moment, hesitated for a long time before saying: "I'm sorry..."

The bitterness on the corner of Chen Qianchen's mouth became even worse, and he knew it, "When did you know?"

This time, Jiang Gao answered irrelevantly: "Qianchen... let's break up..."

In the darkness, there was a long, long silence, so long that Jiang Gao thought that Chen Qianchen didn't plan to talk to him anymore, so he didn't look back, and turned to ask his salute, but Chen Qianchen asked again in a very soft voice. Again: "When did you know?"

"Is it important to ask this now?" Jiang Gao frowned.

"Of course... even if we break up, I still need to know which of your feelings are real and which are fake?" Chen Qianchen suddenly smiled, his smile was helpless and bitter, and his eyes were slightly moist, but in the dark night, everyone Can't see, "If I don't know, I can't help but suspect that our love for more than a year is also fake. I can't imagine that everything I face every day and think I am in love is actually nothing more than your deception ..."

"Enough..." Jiang Gao interrupted him, "I didn't deceive you, but we also have our own difficulties."

"You?" Chen Qianchen smiled, "When did you and Yu Yang get together?"

"We are not the kind of relationship you think." Jiang Gao said impatiently, "Do you think it's such a coincidence that everyone is gay like you?"

As soon as these words came out, Chen Qianchen's face instantly became ugly. Even if Jiang Gao couldn't see all his expressions clearly, he could feel it from the other's frozen figure.

In fact, the reason why Jiang Gao blurted out this sentence was just to refute the relationship between Chen Qianchen and Yu Yang.Yu Yang is a straight man, but he is bisexual, and it took two years for him and Chen Qianchen to confirm each other's sexuality as teammates. Chen Qianchen is purely gay.

It’s just that it’s ironic to say this sentence now. Although Jiang Gao’s original intention was not like this, he himself is upset at the moment. Breaking up is always unpleasant, and he doesn’t have the energy to comfort the other party. He just said: “As you said See, that's how it is."

"I understand why you are so strange these days..." Chen Qianchen said coldly, "Let me guess, you probably knew about the renewal of the contract when I first mentioned it half a month ago, right? Or earlier?"

"It's meaningless to talk about it now." Jiang Gao interrupted him, "It's against the company's regulations to contact other companies in advance. Of course, it's better for one less person to know. There is nothing wrong with what we did."

"But I'm your lover...Why do you think I'll tell the company if I know?" Chen Qianchen said angrily.

"If you knew in advance that Yu Yang and I would not renew the contract, would you choose to renew the contract? Wouldn't the company immediately understand what was going on if you didn't renew the contract?" Jiang Gao became more and more impatient, he knew I am sorry for Chen Qianchen in this matter, but it is really annoying to be pressed so hard by the other party.

Chen Qianchen looked at him in disbelief: "You mean...you can't protect your interests without sacrificing me? So from the very beginning...you made up your mind to take this move?"

"I...I can't say no to you. I know that what we did in this matter is really not kind enough, but people don't want to kill the world for themselves. If other companies want to sign us, we have no reason not to go." Jiang Gao was upset, "So don't think that we are sorry for you, we are not sorry for you, there is nothing wrong with you continuing to sign He Sheng, and you can still develop well in the future, right?"

Chen Qianchen shook his head, disheartened, he couldn't believe that the person in front of him turned out to be his lover.

Jiang Gao also knew that he was a little incoherent now, and he didn't want to continue struggling with guilt and self-cleansing, so he just said coldly: "Okay, we're done, goodbye."

"Jiang Gao..." Just as Jiang Gao opened the door to go out, Chen Qianchen stopped him, "Have you... ever loved me?"

Jiang Gao didn't understand why the other party was still struggling with such boring questions.

"Sure enough... you don't love me?" Chen Qianchen seemed to be laughing, but his voice trembled, "From the very beginning...you were only with me because you were lonely, right?"

Jiang Gao frowned, he did not deny that it was true at first, because of the love ban, instead of going out to find someone, it is better to find someone closer to him to chat with for comfort, but after getting along for so long, there is always some love in it Yes, I have struggled for so long for the other party because of the contract, but now the other party has said that I have become ruthless and ungrateful, which makes him a little unbearable, so he also asked: "Then I ask you One question, if you knew from the beginning that Yu Yang and I didn't intend to renew the contract, would you still be able to stay in Hesheng for me?"

Chen Qianchen opened his mouth wide, never expecting that the other party could ask such a shameless question.At the last moment of the breakup, what I care about is which one has more elements of love or deceit?If the other party really loves him a little bit, he can feel better.

However, at the end of the day, what he was struggling with was how much he could do for him?

It turns out that this love is really not equal.

"Look, you can't answer it, can you?" Jiang Gao sneered, thinking that the other party couldn't answer this question, which meant that he didn't love himself deeply enough?In this case, why bother to force yourself so hard?Thinking of this, Jiang Gao felt a little more at ease.He pulled the suitcase and walked out without looking back.

Chen Qianchen didn't remember how long he stood in the dark, he fell down on the sofa as if his legs and feet were numb.

He always knew that the relationship between himself and Jiang Gao might not last long, but he never expected that the ending would be so embarrassing.

In front of him is the fragmented reality and ugliness.

What he cares most is not whether the two of them will stay or stay, but what he cares about is Jiang Gao's distrust and deception towards him.At this moment, he didn't want to say anything to criticize, but he didn't think that people's selfishness could really hurt people so far.

What a sincere mistake.

Chen Qianchen knew his sexual orientation when he was young, but in order to become a singer, he was afraid of affecting his debut and the future of the group, so he kept hiding it carefully until Jiang Gao discovered it one day.When one day you suddenly find that there is a person from the same world around you, it is really a very unexpected and... heartwarming thing.Even strictly speaking, Jiang Gao is a double, but he is more of the same sex, so they came together naturally.

During those days when we met day and night, I always felt that it was true love, but I didn't expect that the slap in the face of reality caught people off guard.

I heard that it is difficult to have true feelings in this circle, but now it seems that this is really the case.

Stupid, really stupid.Chen Qianchen touched his face and found that he was crying.

"Damn." He swears a rare word, got up and went to the refrigerator to take out all the wine.He told himself not to shed tears for those who are not worth it, he told himself to forget about him immediately, he told himself to do something else and not think about him.Never again.

But the more I warned him not to think about it, the more I wanted to question him over and over again.

Jiang Gao, Jiang Gao, since you have already made up your mind to leave, why bother to show the illusion of affection before leaving?Man... how selfish.

Ah.Chen Qianchen took a sip of wine viciously, raised his mobile phone, silently turned to the address book page, and deleted Jiang Gao's number.

——Jiang Gao, Jiang Gao, even if you create so many illusions, it can't cover up your selfish heart.

"ZiZi-ZiZi--"

Something is vibrating.Chen Qianchen opened his eyes in a daze, and saw that the curtains were opened at some point, and the sunlight pierced in, making his eyes narrowed uncontrollably, and he quickly blocked them with his hands.

"ZiZi-ZiZi--"

cell phone?It's the phone vibrating.After waking up for a few minutes, Chen Qianchen propped himself up and sat up. After sleeping on the sofa all night, his back was sore and his back hurt, and he might even have a little bit of hangover. He sat drinking in the living room last night, unexpectedly, he ended up with After falling asleep here, Chen Qianchen shook his head and touched the cell phone in the corner of the sofa: "...Hello?"

"Qianchen, it's me." A familiar voice came from the conversation, it was Jiang Zihua.

Hearing that it was the manager, Chen Qianchen perked up a bit and said, "Brother Hua?"

"The company asked me to inform you..."

Hearing these words, Chen Qianchen sat up straight, but he didn't expect Jiang Zihua's next words: "They told you not to delete that Weibo post, absolutely don't delete it. The company plans to use this to make a good stir, and the public opinion is now leaning towards What about us, Yu Yang, that little white-eyed wolf, dares to go to another house under my nose, let him go if he is so easy to talk..."

Chen Qianchen was confused, "...Wait Brother Hua, what Weibo?"

"It's the one you posted in the middle of the night yesterday..." Jiang Zihua said.

Chen Qianchen was startled, midnight last night?

"Qianchen, brother knows, you are also angry about this matter, but for the time being, please don't make any other noises... the next matter will be handled by the company."

"...Well, I see." Chen Qianchen rubbed his hair and tried to recall what happened last night. Indeed, he had too many negative emotions last night, and he desperately needed a window to vent. It seemed that he had written something. .

The four of them all have Weibo accounts, and when they encountered unsatisfactory things during the four years since their debut, they would often express them on Weibo in some polite words. After all, in this circle, there are too many unexplainable things.If there is too much negative energy accumulated, there will be emotional problems. In recent years, Weibo has not only been used to interact with fans, but also a window for expressing.

but……

Chen Qianchen touched his face in frustration, Jiang Zihua seemed to give him some instructions on the other end of the phone, Chen Qianchen answered absently, immediately hung up the phone and opened his own Weibo.

Sure enough, the latest update at [-] o'clock in the morning is in sight——

——"Even if you create so many illusions, it can't cover up your selfish heart."