After I became a divine judge [Comprehensive]

no.When I said this to her, I felt something heavy in my heart fell off, and at the same time, I wanted to cry, so wronged that I wanted to cry, like the water that had been accumulated for many years to break the embankment.

Why?Why did I have to suffer like this, why did I have to forgive?Do I have to suffer because I'm an unwanted child, because I'm bad?I always thought that I forgave and forgot those things because of forgiveness, but at this moment I realized that I actually remember every detail of those encounters clearly, and I have never been able to forgive or let go.

What I thought was forgiveness was actually just a cowardice that I hoped to forget and escape.But today, the confusion and pain like a festering wound covered by a Band-Aid was finally torn off and laid bare in front of me.

It's not, it's not that I don't care!It hurts to be hit by the wall with your hair pulled, it hurts to be pushed into the water, it’s sad to be ridiculed and insulted over and over again, it’s also scary to be surrounded by a group of people, it’s really wronged to be treated like this, really I'm at a loss, and I really can't forget it.For a while I looked into her eyes and couldn't help trembling, wanting to tell her that I have never been able to extricate myself from it, nor can I forgive, and I have never been able to understand the reason why she did that.

Why?Why do you want to do this...?

However, I only saw the cold scrutiny in those eyes for the purpose of protecting myself.

She didn't care about my feelings, and I felt a sudden calm when I realized this, which is something I have known for a long time.

Whether I feel sad, painful, or angry about it, she doesn't care, all she cares about is whether I will do something that may be harmful to her, and her life will be threatened because of me.

"That's all." I said that to her, and I said it to myself.After this incident, I have nothing to do with her. I won’t have anything to do with her anymore. I won’t take revenge on her, and I won’t be as instinctive as before. She has nothing to do with me anymore. .

"Well, I know." Her hands were still gripping the hem of the skirt.

And now I am just a little bit of residual sadness, insignificant sadness.

It doesn't matter, you don't need to care about it at all, and it will disappear naturally soon.

I turned my head and looked at the battlefield near the end. The corpses of strangely shaped monsters were piled up on the ground. Only the man who seemed to be the leader was left standing among the god judges. He was sitting on the bloody ground, With the crescent moon sword on his neck, he seemed to have completely lost the ability to fight.

But everyone didn't get hurt very much, it's great. After carefully observing everyone's situation, my first reaction was "great" completely ignoring the tragic situation here.

Why do you think so?Is it right to think so?Is it really okay to think this way?I was suddenly in a trance.

"My lord?" I was in a trance, so that when I was stopped and came back to my senses, I was already standing not far from Sanriyue.He seemed to be able to handle the battle with ease. There were no wounds on his body, and his hunting clothes were not damaged. He was only stained with a little black and red blood from the monster. , Under the sunlight, it shows beautiful lines like a crescent moon.

What is more attractive and beautiful than the crescent moon pattern on the knife is his eyes. He stared at me calmly, but the crescent moon in the eyes was so clear and beautiful in the night that I felt a scorching feeling of being branded for no reason.

"Come to me." He smiled, his lips curved beautifully.

If there is really anything in the world that can confuse people, it is probably the smile on his face at this moment.I thought this way, and forgot everything else for a while, then listened to his words, and walked straight towards him. The blood and flesh under my feet made a viscous sizzling sound under the trample. There was so much blood that I didn't know whether it was an illusion or a real feeling that there seemed to be cold blood soaking into the shoes, sticking to my skin, and injecting the coldness with a fishy smell into my body from the bottom of the feet to the top. , I had an illusion that I was almost frozen, only the eyes that met his smile and his gaze were warm and scorching hot.

And when I walked up to him and was embraced by him, the illusion of being frozen to the point of being unable to move completely disappeared in an instant.

Sanriyue's embrace is warm and powerful, as long as he hugs him like this, it feels like he can escape from all the pain, all the cold, all the uncomfortable things that people don't want to face, and curl up in this warm protection... But, but, I am afraid in my heart , for some reason that he couldn't explain clearly, he turned sideways and faced the direction his blade was pointing at.

He seemed to be a little puzzled and hummed, and then a slight chuckle overflowed from his throat. I curled up in his arms and saw his wrist turn slightly, and the sharp blade cut the man's throat straight and horizontally. The blood splashed everywhere, some splashed on my bare fingers, it was slightly warm, and more of it was mixed with the stumps, flesh and blood on the ground, flowing slowly.

For no reason, I thought of being held in his arms during the Warring States Period, when I closed my eyes and buried my head by his neck, and heard the sound of sharp knives sinking into loose meat in my ears.

I have heard the crisp sound of the sword returning to its sheath before, and now I heard it again and finally saw the process of returning to the sheath with my own eyes - lightly flicking off the blood on the blade, turning the wrist slightly sideways, and returning the sword to the sheath smoothly and naturally.

"Go back." He held my hand, the leather armor was a little cold, but for no reason when he held my hand, it brought me an irreplaceable and indescribable sense of warmth and peace of mind.

Go back, he said so to me, I turned my head to look at everyone around me, and then I was rubbed on the head by Tsurumaru who came over.

"Go back, go back." "Wow, that's too cunning, I also want to hold hands with my lord." I raised my hand and scratched my messed up head in embarrassment, looked at everyone, let my mouth open, and the corner of my mouth Up to the point of being silly.

Go back, go back, go home... eh?Maybe it was the sudden relaxation of the tense nerves, or maybe it was some other reason that I can't explain, but the dizziness and powerlessness mixed with pain suddenly swept my body and brain, making my eyes blur. Hei, the body involuntarily fell in the direction of Sanriyue.

……

I opened my eyes, and in front of me was the familiar white color of a hospital ward. I felt an indescribable dull ache all over my body. The air was filled with the faint smell of disinfectant, and the dim yellow sunlight poured in through the glass windows. The empty and cold There were no other unnecessary decorations in the room, and no one else was seen except my sister who was leaning on the opposite sofa with her eyes closed.

Wait, wait, what's wrong?

blah blah blah blah! ?elder sister! ! ?I woke up in an instant, but my brain still couldn't understand the current situation. I connected the memories before I fainted with the current scene. The large groups of questions mixed with the instinctive fear made me almost tear off the mask in my hand. The infusion tube, the heartbeat speeded up the moment consciousness came back.

My sister, whom I haven’t seen for a long time, hasn’t changed much from the one I remember. She has black hair and is loosely scattered behind her head. The white shirt without any pattern or lace is only buttoned up with a few buttons, revealing a well-defined collarbone. , and the outside of the shirt is her favorite blood-red gold-patterned feather. Only the chin seems to be thinner than before. Fortunately, her complexion is still healthy. Judging from the stretched eyebrows, her mood Not bad either.

But... why is my sister here, sister, does my sister know about those things?My heart sank little by little, and I trembled and wobbled trying to float upwards, feeling extremely uneasy.

"Are you awake?" she suddenly called out, her raised phoenix eyes cast a sideways glance casually and casually, and I was so shocked that I, who was carefully observing her, froze suddenly and didn't dare to move. His expression gradually became impatient and he nodded his head a few times in a panic.

"Are you capable?" I nodded subconsciously, then shook my head violently when I came back to my senses.

"Two ribs were fractured, multiple soft tissue contusions." She stood up and walked in front of me, staring at me condescendingly, with a cold expression: "The liver is ruptured."

My breathing became involuntarily rapid, and there were bursts of stabbing pain in my chest. I didn't dare to look at her expression, so I lowered my head instinctively, but a second after I lowered my head, I heard her continue: "Does it hurt?"

She pressed her hand on my head, rubbed it, then touched my hair down, and touched my face. Her palm was covered with a thin layer of calluses, which was not soft, and the force was too strong, which made it a little painful , but it is extremely warm and familiar, and it almost taught me to be so warm that I couldn't help but shed tears.

After all, I am still very afraid that she will not want me, and that she will be disappointed in me. She is the first person to reach out to me, the first person to protect me. The only constant searing warmth I have felt in the long winters.

"Sister..." I raised my hand that hadn't been injected and gently held her hand, raised my head slightly to look at her expectantly, met those black and white eyes, and saw anxiety and extreme longing in her eyes. of myself.

She showed me a rare and rare expression that can be called gentle, a gentle expression that is more precious than any treasure, and then she said something that I couldn't understand, completely beyond my expectations and thinking.

For a split second, I stopped breathing.

she says:

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I, I'm back...Lie down, I feel very sorry for everyone (Doxiaza) a few days ago to take leave and go home to recuperate, but the update didn't come out until now, I will try to update it later (flag), and then, I don't know what to say , but this article will not pit QWQ

Too sleepy, but I'm back!Thank you for your willingness to read this article, everyone who is still waiting for me.

Good night everyone and thank you.