I have a crush on both home and me

Jiang Wei walked aimlessly on the road, the snow fell more and more, until the snowflakes falling on his clothes melted and he felt the cold on his body, he realized that he was far away from Wangjiang Villa.

He looked back, the roadside trees were covered in white, and Wangjiang Villa was completely invisible.

There were no pedestrians on the road, and there were few passing cars. The world was so quiet that it seemed that he was the only one.

Death row prisoner?That man, no, calling him "person" is flattering him.

He is a beast!

When he was young, in his memory, his father always brought all kinds of beautiful aunts home, but his mother always turned a blind eye, and he didn't think it was strange.

As he grew up, he heard the word "mistress" from the servants, and he gradually realized the fact that his parents had a bad relationship, and his father had many women outside.

However, this cognition was completely broken when he was 11 years old.

That day the principal called all the teachers for an emergency meeting, and the students left school early. When he got home, the house was quiet. He thought his parents were not at home, but when he walked to the stairs, he heard a faint sound coming from the basement.

Children are always curious, he walked down the stairs slowly towards the basement.

There was a door in the basement that was ajar, and there was some light from inside. He walked slowly towards the door, and when he saw the scene inside, he was too horrified to speak.

A woman in a white dress was lying motionless on the ground. Scarlet blood flowed out from her chest, staining her skirt red. She stared in the direction of the door with wide-eyed eyes, unwilling to die.

He recognized the dead woman as one of his father's current mistresses.

Next to the woman's body, he saw his mother holding a blood-stained dagger, staring straight ahead, shouting with red eyes, "Don't come here! What did you inject me with? What is it? Don't come here! Get out!" open!"

"They said, this thing can make you obedient and obedient, don't worry, it's just a small dose, it won't cause you any accident, how can I be willing to let you have an accident?"

On the other side, he saw his father throwing away the empty syringe, trying to snatch the dagger from his mother's hand while coaxing him: "I never loved her, how could I like her? Look at this Woman, her eyes, eyebrows, how much like you, haven't you noticed that all my mistresses have a common feature?"

"They all look like you, and they are all your substitutes, Qingwan, no one can compare to you. The person I love is you, and it has always been you, but who told you that you have been unwilling to let me touch you? "

"Qingwan, have you never been jealous for so many years? You see that I brought a woman home, and you are not angry at all? But it's okay, I won't do this in the future, I'm sorry, I don't know this woman To actually want to hurt you, I want to know that I will never take her home, but she is dead now."

"Hey, don't be afraid. She's dead. Give me the knife. It's okay. If she dies, she'll die. I'll take care of it. No one will know. You'll be fine, and we'll all be fine."

"Our eldest son is very good and has already taken over the foreign business. In two years, when he can completely take over the group, I will hand over all the affairs of the group to him, and then we will leave here and go to life on that island."

He saw his mother trembling violently when she heard the word "island", and then shouted hysterically: "Crazy! You crazy! Get out! Get out! Get out—"

The beast grabbed the dagger and threw it into the distance. He hugged his mother fiercely, kissed her constantly, and said, "I bought the whole island. Don't you like orchids? I let people plant all kinds of orchids on the island. Yulan, the house is Chinese style, with a small attic and a garden at the back, all in the style you like. Moreover, that island is very, very far away from here, no one will know, and we will live on that island in the future Now, it's just the two of us... Don't be afraid, as I said, I won't let anything happen to you, and we can spend the rest of our lives there peacefully."

The beast was dreaming of joy, and Mom was on the verge of breaking down.

"You bastard! Let go of Mom!"

He picked up a vase and rushed over, hitting the man on the back of the head hard.

But at that time, he was too short, and in the end he only hit the back of the beast, and the vase was broken, but the beast was fine, and then he was kicked to the wall by the beast.

He was in severe pain, and when he came back to his senses, he saw the beast walking towards him with a dagger in his hands, his eyes were bloodshot, and he didn't seem to be looking at his own son at all.

"You bastard, do you know that Qing Wan almost died in order to give birth to you! You shouldn't be alive, our Jiang family, one son is enough, you are a superfluous bastard! Let me end your life today! The life of the wicked!"

"Don't—" he saw his mother rushing to hug the beast's leg, begging, "Don't touch him! Don't touch him, please, don't touch him, I will listen to you, don't hurt him... "

The beast's expression finally changed a bit. He dropped the dagger, knelt down and gently hugged his mother into his arms, "Okay, don't move him, listen to you, be obedient, I won't move him..."

That day, after the beast left, his mother held his hand tightly, and solemnly confessed word by word: "Jiang Wei, you promise mother, don't say a word you saw today."

"Even your brother, don't say anything. That man is a lunatic. He will take revenge on you. Promise mom not to say a word. "

His mother held his hand so tightly that his arm ached. Although his mother was so fragile, her gaze was so firm that he couldn't help nodding his head in agreement.

In the next few years, the beast did not bring any mistress home. He always took his mother with him when he went out and wherever he went. In the eyes of outsiders, the two were extremely affectionate.

Everything seemed to be going well until one day, he saw his mother's arms were full of needles.

"Is he still injecting you? What is he injecting you with?"

"No..." Mom pulled her hand away abruptly, pulled down her sleeve to cover her hand, and smiled, "It's nothing, it's a nutritional injection. Mom can't absorb it well, so..."

"It's him! It's that beast! I'll kill him!"

He looked around looking for something that could be used, when his mother suddenly hugged him tightly, crying in her voice: "Don't... don't do this, Jiang Wei, you listen to mom, mom is fine, your grades are so good, Mom wants to send you to study abroad, so you go abroad to find your brother, okay?"

He shook his head violently, his eyes blurred by tears: "I won't go, Mom, I want to stay by your side, I'm not going anywhere."

"Jiang Wei, be obedient, you go abroad to find your brother, he will take care of you, and then you have to study hard, no matter what you like or want to learn, mother will support you."

"Good boy, mom has never begged you for anything in her whole life. Mom only asks you this time, so you promise mom, okay?"

He has always been soft but not hard. Seeing his mother like this, he finally nodded in agreement, but repeatedly told his mother to take good care of himself.

The time to go abroad has been set, and the air ticket has also been set, but the transfer process was delayed, so he went to the school temporarily.

However, when he came back to pack his luggage and was about to leave, he saw his mother's body.

With light makeup on her face, her mother lay quietly in her favorite white dress, as if she was asleep.

But a person who is asleep should not lie on the road, and should not bleed so much blood.

He guarded his mother's body and did not let others touch it. He firmly believed that as long as he asked a forensic doctor to examine the wound, he would be able to see the countless needle holes on his mother's arm and know what the man was staring at at his mother.

However, no one listened to him.

Even his elder brother is on the side of others.

When he saw his mother's body being carried away, he swore that he would make that beast pay for it.

A year later, he did.

The brute was ultimately sentenced to death without reprieve.

The day of the execution was also such a heavy snow day.

At that time, he was also walking aimlessly on the road like today.

There were not even homeless people on the street, and he sat alone on a bench by the side of the road, not knowing where to go or what to do in the future.

It was hatred that kept him alive before, but now, hatred is gone.

He suddenly felt that life seemed meaningless.

Across the street is a supermarket, and there is a big screen overhead, which is playing a variety show called "Out of the Shadow of Childhood".

The boy on the screen was persuading another girl who was younger than him and had red eyes from crying.

"You are luckier than me, because your mother loves you very much. Although she has gone to heaven, she still loves you in a place you can't see. And I, since I can remember, my mother has never seen Before me, the only impression I have of my mother is the photos."

The boy was wearing a white sweater with the collar of his light blue shirt turned up and a tie on the outside. He looked not much older than him, but he looked like a grown-up with a serious look.

However, that boy is really good-looking, his skin is as white as if soaked in milk, his eyes are black and bright, his eyelashes are long and thick, his bangs are a little long, he looks like a girl, but he is better than his school beauty nice.

He continued: "But, so what, every person in this world has the meaning of his existence."

"We are all small, but at the same time we are great, we are nothing, we are everything, we shine in our own world. I hope I can illuminate myself and bring a beam of light to others, Even if it's trivial."

He looked at the big screen quietly, and was a little lost in thought for a moment, not knowing whether he was attracted by the young man's appearance, or by the young man's words, or both.

After witnessing that scene in the basement that year, his life was destined to be different from that of ordinary people. His mother's death plunged his life into darkness ever since.

He survived by the belief of revenge. In the end, he succeeded, but he also felt that he lost all the strength to live.

But suddenly, he seemed to have figured it out.

Yes, every person in this world has the meaning of his existence.

Why, does he want to live for others?Why, does he want to live for hatred?

The boy on the screen is obviously just a stranger, they have never known each other, and their life trajectories may not have any intersection in this life.

However, in that snowy day, at that moment, it seemed to give him endless strength and courage to live.

"I hope that I can illuminate myself and bring a beam of light to others, even if it is insignificant."

That boy said so.

Later, the boy really became the only ray of light in his gloomy life.

However, he was lost again, lost forever.

Just now.