drink moonlight alone

"Qing Yan?"

Grandma is already 73 years old, but her pupils are still clear, as if she can fully reflect the figures of the two people in front of her.Only the wrinkles coiled on it are like uneven wall cracks, criss-crossing and full of weather-beaten traces.She was wearing a shirt mixed with silk and linen, the buttons woven into Chinese knots were neatly buttoned from the bottom to the top one, and the trousers were stained with a little bit of yellow mud. I ran into it when I was in the water.The long gray hair was neatly tied behind the head, and two slightly shorter strands of hair on the temples could not be pulled back from the ears and fell on the shoulders.

Her back was hunched over, and the doorknob was dry and dry, so thin that her blood vessels protruded.

There is no other time that makes Zhou Qingyan feel that those 12 years are real. It not only cuts off the frivolity and willfulness of the young people, but also engraves the traces of the years on the old people. Grandma is better than him. The ones in my memory are much older, but the look on their faces is still kind.His eyes were sour, and he called out with a choked voice, "Grandma."

"Ouch!" Grandma staggered out the door, clutching Zhou Qingyan's arms, and looked him up and down carefully, "Is it really our Qingyan? I thought your mother said you were coming back to see me Lied to me!"

"Stinky boy, with the same virtue as your parents, it can take years or ten years to plunge into your career."

Grandma clutched Zhou Qingyan emotionally, and babbled about the care that had been delayed for many years, which made Zhou Qingyan feel guilty and helpless.After all, his difficulties cannot be told to grandma. His embarrassing love and sympathy, and his father's rage because of disagreement, if he really said it, it would only add to grandma's sorrow.He smiled, bent down and hugged grandma's bony shoulders, "I'm sorry, grandma, but I'm back, so I won't go away."

"Little heartless, only Weiyue is the only one left in your family who visits my old lady every year."

Zhou Qingyan blinked blankly when she heard the words, and was quite surprised in her heart.It’s not that they’ve never seen each other, their family has always been together less often, and their parents often travel to various countries and cities for scientific research. It’s rare for the family to sit at the same table for dinner once a year, let alone Zhou Qingyan’s After taking them abroad, in that era, it was difficult to keep in touch if they lost contact.In the past few years, there has been nothing else except that everyone will connect on the phone and say blessings to each other in different time zones during the New Year and holidays.

The Zhou family has always been awkward in getting along, so that apart from Zhou Weiyue who has been by her side all the time since childhood, only the grandmother who can get along with them for several weeks every summer vacation is the closest to them.

It's no wonder that Zhou Weiyue has such a close relationship with Xiaohua.In the end, Zhou Weiyue went step by step during her absence, as she wished, and walked her life step by step. Gao Lang couldn't tell what it was like, a little relieved, a little sad, but more of a blessing He is safe and well.

The furnishings in grandma's house haven't changed much, but Zhou Qingyan may not be able to find any changes if he really peels off the details from his memory.But the obvious ones can still be seen, for example, the dilapidated sandalwood shoe cabinet in the entrance, which was regarded as a treasure by grandma, was removed and replaced by IKEA's easy-to-assemble plastic four-layer shoe rack; and on the wall of the living room, originally The part of the wall where the imitation painting of Tang Bohu's "Hanguan Xueji" was hung was vacant, revealing a lighter color than the surrounding walls that had been covered by the painting for many years.

"It was cleared last year." Zhou Weiyue held two cans of Coke in both hands, and quietly walked behind Zhou Qingyan, "Grandma said that she wanted to put our family portrait here."

Zhou Qingyan took the Coca-Cola and held it in his palm. He didn't know what to think, and he was a little lost in thought. After a while, he asked, "Can I use painting?"

"what?"

"I think it won't be possible to take a family portrait together when my parents come back...in the short term?"

As soon as Zhou Qingyan finished speaking, the two exchanged a helpless look tacitly, and then laughed at the same time.

"I mentioned this to my mother, so let's just talk about it." Zhou Weiyue pried open the ring of the can, and the aluminum can "sizzled" in frustration, "I didn't dare to tell her that I hope this matter can be put on the agenda .”

Facing Zhou Qingyan's incomprehensible gaze, Zhou Weiyue looked away, and looked at the hazy figure behind the shoji, grandma busy stretching her waist, Zhou Qingyan lowered her voice, "Grandma's body has grown older in the past few years. Not as good as before."

"How could it be?" Zhou Qingyan narrowed his eyes slightly in surprise, and shook his head unacceptably.

"When you get older, mortal wombs are no match for the years, and minor illnesses can become serious illnesses." Zhou Weiyue held Coke in one hand, and stretched out with the other, but stopped a moment before touching Zhou Qingyan's arms, hesitated for a while, and then covered it , clapped her hands in comfort, "Last year she started to say that she had trouble breathing. I took her to the doctor and said it was ischemic heart disease."

"She... didn't tell her parents, and she didn't tell me either."

Zhou Weiyue said "um" in a low voice: "You are abroad, how dare you bother me."

Zhou Qingyan's heart was in a mess, and she couldn't figure out whether Zhou Weiyue's implication was to blame her parents for grandma, or to be a metaphor for herself.They have been closest to their grandma since they were young. From the time they were born to the memory, all the family and affection, the most, is still in this wooden house on this small island.Grandma always has a busy back, sweaty forehead, and smiling eyes.

The grandma who fanned him and Zhou Weiyue on summer nights when it was difficult to sleep; the grandma who never got into trouble with the two little Doudings but never made up her mind to criticize them harshly; knew that he was always secretly riding a bicycle, and Zhou Weiyue They went to the beach to play, but they always pretended to be stupid and didn't expose their grandma.But before he knew it, he poked his head out and could barely see the end of his life.

"That's why you asked me to come back." He said firmly, and Zhou Weiyue acquiesced without refuting, "Where's grandma?"

"In the kitchen." Zhou Weiyue glanced at Zhou Qingyan, who had red eyes and a sullen expression, and the hand on his arm slid down, clamping Zhou Qingyan's protruding wrist, "She is very happy that you are back." , let her be happy, okay?"

When Zhou Weiyue said this, there was a hint of pleading, his meaning was superficial, and Zhou Qingyan knew it in his heart, just to tell him not to go to grandma with a mournful face, as if the sky was about to fall The appearance broke her Gao Kuo mood, which she hadn't seen for a long time.Zhou Qingyan nodded, turned his face away, and wiped away the crystals overflowing from the corners of his eyes with the joints of his finger bones without any trace.

When her voice returned to normal and she could no longer hear any nasal murmurs, Zhou Qingyan yelled towards the kitchen, "Grandma? What are you doing?"

"Cook!" Grandma's voice can be heard clearly through the curtain, and even a little bit full of air, accompanied by the "dada" sound that rises and falls when the blade touches the chopping board.

"I'll do it for you!"

The sound of the kitchen knives stopped, and after a long while, grandma wiped her wet, dry hands, and lifted a corner of the curtain, "Come on, I'm not used to your foreign stuff, wait, I'll make it for you."

Zhou Qingyan opened his mouth, and the words of defense slipped around his lips.In fact, he wants to say that he is not used to those Western dishes with unique tastes, which are single and change the soup without changing the medicine. The old saying makes sense that when you study abroad, you will go to New Oriental in all likelihood. How much knowledge you have absorbed? Depending on luck, you may be able to practice cooking skills, and that is the real skill.

Not to mention that he is abroad, in addition to cooking for himself, he is also keen to steal Zhou Weiyue's favorite recipes.

But seeing grandma's uncompromising expression, she turned around and went back to the kitchen after she finished speaking, completely like "you can say what you like, but I won't listen", Zhou Qingyan shut her mouth in a brilliant way.When he was about to invite Zhou Weiyue to go outside for a while, whether it was to play with Xiaohua or do something else to pass the time, grandma suddenly said from behind the curtain, "If you are really free, go Go shopping, you haven't come back for a long time, by the way, help me buy a watermelon, remember to bargain."