Bamboo Horse's ex-boyfriend has become top class

Song Yu was still very happy when he saw his old acquaintance Shen Jie coming in the afternoon.

Sun Yuanjun excused himself to be busy and stayed in the underground garage for three hours, thinking a lot about the past, present and future.

Counting it, in March of this year, he will be 29 years old, nearly [-] years old, and he should have a new plan and start in life.Many of his friends and classmates chose to live a life of marriage and having children early on, but he, a former top student in school, seemed to have no way to hand in the answer sheet of life.

It is no longer possible to marry a woman, it is just harming others and oneself, and it is impossible to have offspring.Song Yu, the only person who can bring happiness and comfort to his life, suffers from such a disease, and Sun Yuanjun feels that it is not an exaggeration to say that his life has achieved nothing.

After Shen Jie walked out of the room, according to the prior agreement, he called Sun Yuanjun.

Sun Yuanjun answered the phone immediately and met him at the agreed place.He asked nervously, "Is Song Yu's condition serious?"

Shen Jie glanced at him and said, "It's not that serious, but it's actually more serious than before."

Sun Yuanjun: "Before, do you mean seven years ago?"

Shen Jie nodded: "Yes. Song Yu and I met seven years ago, when I was an intern doctor, and he left a deep impression on me at that time. I think this kid is very interesting, but very Pitiful."

Sun Yuanjun asked, "Why?"

Shen Jie: "On the surface, he looks very sunny, kind, and cute, but his real self is very depressed and fragile."

Sun Yuanjun: "Why are you depressed?"

Shen Jie asked back: "Do you really want to know the real reason?"

Sun Yuanjun: "Of course."

Shen Jie cleared his throat, and said solemnly: "Because he has a boyfriend who looks almost perfect to him, and he always wants to maintain himself as he likes. But deep down in his heart, he has a deep inferiority complex. Of course I I have seen a lot of homosexuals with inherent sensitivity and low self-esteem, which is too common."

On this point, Sun Yuanjun very much agrees.When Sun Yuanjun realized that he liked the same sex when he was a teenager, it took a long time to agree with himself.

What is different from the mainstream is of course heresy, and the minority in this world will always be in an awkward position, no matter how open the society looks on the surface.In this regard, even Sun Yuanjun was not spared.

Shen Jie said again: "Obviously you have been his source of pressure."

"I put pressure on him?" Sun Yuanjun recalled that when they were young, he always supervised Song Yu to study hard and sing well.

Shen Jie nodded and said, "Yes, he wants to do his best to accomplish what you want him to be. He has been living like walking on eggshells, but you haven't given him the sense of security he needs."

Sun Yuanjun seemed to have fallen into some kind of contemplation because of his words.

Shen Jie continued: "Your endless scandals have caused him endless pressure, and there is no way to release it. The backlog for a long time, coupled with his mother's suicide, he also believes that he is gay. The carefully maintained balance of delicate nerves is disturbed."

Sun Yuanjun: "So his brain is sick?"

Shen Jie: "Yes."

Sun Yuanjun frowned and asked, "So, do you mean that the main reason why Song Yu became like this now is because of me?"

Shen Jie replied: "To a certain extent, it can be said that."

Sun Yuanjun asked again: "So he left me seven years ago because the disease can be cured by leaving me? Because he stayed away from me, the source of stress."

Shen Jie shook his head and said: "No, he left you because he felt that as a mentally ill person, he was not worthy of you and would be rejected by you. As I said, he always has a deep sense of inferiority when facing you."

Sun Yuanjun's knot that has been haunting his heart for so many years was unexpectedly unraveled today.It turned out that there was no betrayal or doubt in their separation, but Song Yu's heavy love for him made him feel heartbroken and regretful.

He heard Shen Jie say word by word: "I have to confess one thing to you. Today, from the standpoint of my friend, I will persuade Song Yu to break up with you. Of course, if I stand on the standpoint of a psychiatrist, I will also I also hope that you can break up."

Sun Yuanjun asked in surprise, "Why? Why do you do this?"

"Why? You still ask me why?" Shen Jie took out the newspaper from the plane that was kept in his briefcase and threw it in front of him.

Sun Yuanjun picked up the newspaper with the photo of him and Lu Shaoling "kissing" on the headline from the ground, and suddenly felt his face burning.

"There is a limit to being too much. I regret very much now that when Song Yu was hesitant to get back together with you a few months ago, I advised him to go further and be brave." The anger of standing up for his friend made Shen Jie His tone of voice was no longer as objective as that of a psychiatrist, and it even sounded filled with righteous indignation.

Sun Yuanjun obediently listened to Shen Jie's reprimand like a primary school student who made mistakes, and was not prepared to say a word of rebuttal.

At this time, his hair was disheveled, his eyes were bloodshot from staying up all night, and there were thick dark circles under his eyes, which made him look far from the bright, cool and handsome top star image under the spotlight.

Shen Jie continued to scold: "I really didn't expect that you would be willing to hurt someone who loves you so much a second time. I have been in medicine for many years, and I have never seen such a cheerful and cooperative patient. He mentioned that you His eyes were shining all the time. But you pushed him into the abyss step by step with your own hands."

When his remark came to an end, Sun Yuanjun asked with a guilty conscience: "Didn't he get sick again this time because our dog died?"

Shen Jie: "Guide|It's just a fuse, just like his mother's death many years ago, it was the straw that broke the camel's back. Big star, if you just want to have fun, break up early, Song Yu is not that The kind of person who can afford it, at least his fragile nerves can't."

"Who the hell told you that I just wanted to have fun?" Sun Yuanjun suddenly asked sharply, even swearing.The emotions that had been pent up for a long time finally broke out, but he soon realized that the object of his anger was actually himself, so he immediately said sorry for his gaffe.

Shen Jie was taken aback by his sudden increase in volume, and after a while he replied: "It was Song Yu's subconscious that told me that you just wanted to have fun. He has been trying to believe you, but he couldn't fool himself in the end."

The sharpness and sharpness in Sun Yuanjun's eyes disappeared all of a sudden. At that moment, he suddenly understood many things that he had never thought about before and had always been accustomed to.

It turned out that Song Yu never questioned him about going out, and never checked his mobile phone.He never even asked about any scandals about him. It turned out that it wasn't because he was generous, nor was it because he didn't care about himself, nor was it because he was careless.

He just simply didn't dare, he was afraid of losing himself, so he willingly accepted all of this, accepted himself who was not perfect and even had many fatal flaws.

Shen Jie continued: "Didn't you always ask me why he always appears in the state of his childhood? Because he is escaping from reality, he subconsciously wants to go back to his childhood, maybe he thinks that you at that time can bring him enough sense of security .”

After a moment of silence, Sun Yuanjun asked earnestly: "I know that I have not treated him well enough, but is there really no other remedy besides breaking up?"

Shen Jie raised his eyebrows and looked at Sun Yuanjun again, as if he was checking the sincerity in his eyes.

"I'm serious, I'm not acting." Sun Yuanjun explained.

Shen Jie said: "I'm just a psychiatrist. I can neither tell fortunes nor predict. I can only tell you that he really can't bear any new stimuli anymore. Now the auditory hallucinations and visual hallucinations are very serious. If it continues, it will be schizophrenia.”

When Sun Yuanjun heard the word "schizophrenia", his eyes froze and his heart ached to the extreme.

Before leaving, Shen Jie got the money he should get, and repeatedly asked Sun Yuanjun to supervise Song Yu to take medicine on time.

Sun Yuanjun wandered aimlessly outside for an hour, thinking a lot about Song Yu and the future, and it was already night when he mustered up the courage to return home.

When I entered the door, I heard someone talking on the sofa.It gets dark early in the winter night, but none of the lights in the house are turned on, and the room is pitch black.

In the dark, Song Yu said, "Let's break up."

Sun Yuanjun's heart skipped a beat, could it be that what Shen Jie said worked?

After a while, Song Yu said again: "I have been mentally ill for a long time, and I have never dared to tell you. I am not worthy of you, and I have not been worthy of you since I was a child."

Just as Sun Yuanjun was about to say something, Song Yu talked to the imaginary Sun Yuanjun again.

Song Yu: "I'm just pretending to be innocent and cute, but I'm also jealous. When I was young, I was jealous of girls who could ask you about your homework. When I grew up, I was jealous of actresses who played emotional scenes with you. Now I'm jealous of Lu Shaoling , while I'm still awake, let's break up."

After a while, Song Yu felt a wet face kissing his eyes and then his neck. He felt that he had a hallucination again, but he still subconsciously wanted to hug this place that made him warm.

Song Yu rubbed Sun Yuanjun's chest and said, "Brother, I miss you very much." After a while, he asked again, "Brother, why are you crying?"

Sun Yuanjun lay on Song Yu's shoulder, crying like a helpless child. He hadn't cried so loudly for many years.

He asked Song Yu over and over again: "Song Yu, what should I do? What should I do with you?"

Song Yu kept wiping his tears with his sleeve, and asked, "Brother, why are you crying? Did someone bully you?"

Sun Yuanjun: "No."

Song Yu nodded: "Yes, you are so good in school, who would dare to bully you?"

Sun Yuanjun was stunned for a moment and asked, "School?"

Song Yu: "That's right. Everyone says that you are not only the school bully but also the school grass of No. [-] Middle School."

Sun Yuanjun knew that he would definitely say that he picked up a particularly cute dog on a rainy day two days ago.

The dog was eventually named Langzi.

It especially likes to lie on Song Yu's lap when he is doing homework, and often falls asleep on his stomach.

This dog is very smart, it can always tell which hand of Song Yu is hiding the ball, and can find all the snacks hidden in hidden places in the house.

This dog is so stupid that it will bump its head every time it encounters a glass door. It is so stupid that it only recognizes one owner in its life. When the owner is away, it will always wait...

Sun Yuanjun wiped his face with his hands, got up from the ground exhausted, and reminded: "Song Yu, you haven't taken your vitamins yet."

After Song Yu took the medicine prescribed by Shen Jie, he felt a little sleepy, so he climbed into bed.

While lying on the bed, Song Yu suddenly asked without beginning or end: "Why do I have a feeling that my prodigal son is dead?"

Sun Yuanjun hugged him tightly, kissed his forehead and comforted him: "Lang Zi's illness will recover soon, and he will be brought back from the pet hospital tomorrow."

The reason why he dared to say that was because Song Yu would probably forget what happened tonight again tomorrow morning.

Song Yu has always been up and down like this, often talking to himself, but he doesn't do anything out of the ordinary.

When they are good, they suddenly need to help with housework, or clamor to go out to play.When it is bad, it becomes like a child, wanting to be hugged and kissed, it seems like a child who is still acting coquettishly angry about eating snacks.

Sun Yuanjun has been watching for a long time, and he is used to him changing freely like this, and sometimes he even feels unexpectedly cute.

Regarding work matters, Sun Yuanjun thought about it and decided not to renew his contract with the company.

Lu Shaoling didn't answer the phone calls either.For the first time, I was filled with guilt.But with the first time, there will be the second time, and the third time will be justified.

Manager Su Ke called and scolded him several times.Tell him bluntly that such an idol who is half red and not black and not called fresh meat will soon pass away.

Sun Yuanjun felt that what Su Ke said was right, she just spoke too bluntly.Without the support of the company, without the hype of the marketing account, without the CP fans with their own topics to help him stir up popularity, he even offended a lot of prominent figures in the circle because of Lu Shaoling...

The bleak future of Sun Yuanjun's stardom is almost predictable.

However, so what?Sun Yuanjun has already prepared the plan to be overwhelmed in his heart, just like you have been thinking about something that scares you and you will be nervous about it, but you have been nervous for too long. At that moment, because you have enough psychological presuppositions, you can compare Accept it calmly.

Recently, there have been several popular boy groups in the entertainment industry.Because they are young and popular, they have infinite possibilities in the future. Many half-red and not black seniors can't get things that they can't get without effort.Success comes too easily, and it is inevitable to cause controversy.

A few months ago, when Sun Yuanjun was running an announcement, he happened to share the same plane with them.I saw with my own eyes a bunch of crazy female fans chasing the two teenagers who were only [-] or [-] years old but living in legends like a team of bloodthirsty zombies, and even smashed the glass of the airport.

When Sun Yuanjun went to the toilet, it happened that the leader of the group also came to release the water.

He is thin and tall, and the black mask can't hide that delicate slapped face, but endless fatigue is shining in his beautiful eyes. At this moment, he doesn't look like a big star on the stage, but he looks More like a sad and lonely puppy.

Hearing the noise of crazy female fans waiting outside the toilet door, the boy frowned.

Sun Yuanjun has struggled in the entertainment industry for so many years, and he has never been as popular as him, so he may not be able to personally understand the troubles of this young man.But he was convinced at that moment that he understood something.

Even if he is in a high position now, so what if he is so popular, passing his breath is only a momentary thing.

He really wanted to tell the child that no matter how fresh the meat is, it will not last forever, and it is impossible to go to the announcement every day without studying.There are also female fans who must not date, the premise is of course if he likes women.

The author has something to say: This article has no prototype, and it may allude to some phenomena in the entertainment industry, but it is only based on the author's relatively superficial cognition. If you have a different opinion, of course you are right!