unconventional love

The surrounding sounds were very mixed, and all kinds of people walked by, some were crying, some were working.But Gu Yanshu couldn't hear anything clearly at the moment, he could only feel his own heavy breathing.

He looked down at his trembling hand, which was bright red, and the scene just now echoed in his mind.After he was drunk, he pushed Bai Yiqing away fiercely, and then said some ugly words.after……

Breathing suddenly quickened, flustered.His head was swollen, which made it difficult for him to think.

Afterwards, blood flowed from between Bai Yiqing's legs, and he fell to the ground, his hair was wet with cold sweat from his temples, and he kept whimpering and moaning.The confusion caused by drunkenness frightened away instantly, and the disconnected lines were reconnected.

Everything in front of me is too shocking, how can I have time to worry about the future?The memory of his brain has been fully occupied, and all functions are only for him to deal with the matter in front of him.

Gu Yanshu hurriedly carried Bai Yiqing downstairs, and drove to the hospital quickly.During this journey, Bai Yiqing never opened his mouth. I don't know if it was because of the pain and he lost his strength, or because he didn't want to speak...

While waiting for the red light, Gu Yanshu grabbed the opponent's hand and squeezed it tightly.While looking at the red light, he comforted, "It will be fine, don't be afraid." But in fact, he himself was already too panicked.

He didn't dare to look at Bai Yiqing, for he was afraid that he would lose his mind first after seeing it.Now Gu Yanshu is extremely remorseful, why did he drink today, why is he so stupid after drinking?Can do this kind of thing.If he could travel through time and space, he would definitely kick himself to death an hour ago!

Bai Yiqing was really in pain, he felt his eyes had been filled with tears, every breath was accompanied by the stirring of the knife, the pain was unbearable and there was a constant stream of heat gushing out from below.But what hurts more than this is that blank sheet of paper...

He was speechless and had no strength.But Bai Yiqing still struggled to get away from the opponent's hand, not wanting Gu Yanshu to touch her.He knew he was hypocritical, but so what?Can't you be willful after everything is like this?He didn't understand that since Gu Yanshu hated him so much, why did he come to hold his hand now?For pity yourself?Or for the child in the womb?

Bai Yiqing turned his face to the side, closed his eyes, not wanting to face the world, and endured the pain silently.

At first, Gu Yanshu thought that the other party was in pain, so he struggled wildly, but soon he understood everything.Bai Yiqing...doesn't want to touch him...

His heartbeat suddenly stagnated, and his throat felt extremely sour as if something was blocked.

For the rest of the way, he didn't speak any more, but just wiped off Bai Yiqing's cold sweat while parking the car.

After arriving at the hospital, he ran out of the car and picked up Bai Yiqing.The opponent's body was light and fluttering, and he kept trembling.Finally... Bai Yiqing spoke for the first time in a long time.

"Is the child... will something happen?" The voice was extremely low, and the voice was very false, and the voice ended hastily at the end, and the whole voice was full of tears.

Gu Yanshu's eyes were forced to turn red when he heard the sound, he lowered his head and kissed Bai Yiqing's forehead, as usual... "I'm sorry, it's all my fault. You will be fine, and the child will be fine, wait for you Well, you can beat me, scold me, whatever you want."

Gu Yanshu kept saying apologetic words, until the nurse pushed the person away in the end, he still kept talking while looking at the direction in which Bai Yiqing was leaving.He didn't say these words for Bai Yiqing, but for himself...

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Gu Yanshu really wanted to calm down, but Bai Yiqing still didn't know what was going on, how could he calm down.

Why... everything has to be focused on this day...

Today is 17 years ago... and today is 17 years later...

"Father...why did I mess up again..." Gu Yanshu raised his arm and rubbed his hand vigorously on the clothes, trying to wipe off the blood.The blood belonged to Bai Yiqing's body, and also belonged to his unborn child...

"Why can't I always do well..."

Such a proud person is now squatting alone in the hospital, trembling and whining like a helpless child.Tears fell down bit by bit, Gu Yanshu had no choice but to cover his eyes with his hands, not wanting others to see his embarrassment.

Is everything I do wrong... or is it wrong to exist.

Gu Yanshu squatted on the ground and beat his head, really didn't know what to do for a while.He wants someone to help him, to tell him what to do now.But now he is a person on a deserted island, alone and helpless.

After so many years, he didn't even have the courage to put incense sticks on his father, and he would instinctively avoid them even when they were mentioned.In the final analysis, he was too cowardly.

"Xiaobai..." Gu Yanshu's mind kept revolving around the scene just now and his father's face.The two people he cared about the most in his life were both indirectly or directly hurt by him, so...whose fault is it?

In the corridor of the hospital, people saw a ragged alpha crying, unable to blend in with everything around him.

After a while, an old man in a black coat came over, put a coat on Alpha's body, and took advantage of the opportunity to sit beside him.

The old man's temples turned white, he sighed, stretched out his wrinkled hand and patted Alpha's shoulder heavily, and silently accompanied him by his side.

.........

After a long time, Alpha opened his mouth, his voice hoarse from his crying, "Grandpa, I did something wrong, what should I do?"

Grandpa, I haven't heard it for many years.The old man was also overwhelmed by emotions for a while, and his eyes were red.

Gu Yanshu was really confused, he didn't know who to tell, the person he could confide in had already left him.The blood relationship made him instinctively get close to Mr. Gu, showing vulnerability to him, and wanting to ask him for help.He longed for answers, for solutions.

There is a person who has not been mentioned for many years.People who knew him were slowly leaving, and now those who still remember and care about him... maybe only Mr. Gu and Gu Yanshu.

The old man raised his hands high, with a solemn and sad expression. He trembled his hands, and finally patted Gu Yanshu lightly, and stroked down his hair. "How can a child not make mistakes? No matter how serious things are, grandpa will take care of you." In the eyes of grandpa, you will always be a child, so grandpa will always be your safe haven.

"Today is Yan Yi's memorial day. He loves you the most in his life. If he sees you crying, he will be sad too." A name that had been silent for many years was brought up again.The last time I mentioned it was when the old man forced Gu Yanshu into marriage.

Not because of forgetting, on the contrary, because it is too unforgettable.The more you care about it, the less you want to mention it.Those who leave are free and easy, and those who are hurt are the living.

"No, father won't be sad." Gu Yanshu closed his eyes in pain, and his words were full of self-blame. "He will scold me...it's all my fault..."

"What happened that year was also because of me. If...if it wasn't for my self-righteous surprise, that person would not have come into the house." Gu Yanshu's remorse has been suppressed for too many years, and now he finds an outlet to control it Can't stop flowing.

"I say I hate Omega, I hate Omega, but I actually hate myself the most!" Every time Gu Yanshu said a word, his body followed hard, his hand pinched his leg flesh hard, and there was no pain in his body. Unable to resolve inner emotions.

"Obviously I'm the one who hates you the most! But I'm always blaming others." He almost yelled out the last sentence.

"Who said you are the most annoying? You tell me, I can't beat him to death!"

On the surface, the old man was against Gu Yanshu, but in fact he loved his grandson in his heart.He always knew that the other party was hiding his clumsiness, and secretly engaged in many careers.And the reason why these things can be so easy to succeed is inseparable from his behind-the-scenes management.And although this grandson talked about 'seeking power and usurping the throne' every day, he was the one who dealt with it the fastest to deal with Mr. Gu's company.

"You did nothing wrong." Over the years, Mr. Gu had rarely chatted with Gu Yanshu calmly.The last time he hugged Gu Yanshu was when he was seven years old, and it has been more than ten years in the blink of an eye.The little grandson who used to follow behind him and force him to play with him is already this old, and even taller than him.

"Grandpa doesn't think you did something wrong, neither does Yan Yi. He has always been proud of you as a son, and he is proud of you. You were right back then, but you are now..." Mr. Gu took a deep breath and glanced Operating room lights.hand, hugged Gu Yanshu vigorously. "If you feel that you are wrong, go and apologize well and win his forgiveness."

Crying is one of the best ways to vent.The strings that have been stretched for many years are also time to let them rest.