Lonely Lover ABO

"Doctor Zhou, are you coming to work?"

"Well, I'm going to see a doctor today."

After greeting the nurses one by one in the corridor, Director Zhou of the Deputy Department walked into the office, put down his handbag, changed his clothes, and was ready to go to work.Today is Sunday, and there are not many people here. She looked through the outpatient cases, and just said she stood up to get some hot water to make a cup of tea, when suddenly a person bumped into the cold outside.Dr. Zhou was taken aback, and couldn't help but said with reproach: "Oh, you young people, why are you so reckless, you don't even know how to knock on the door?" After she said that, she took a closer look, only to find that it was the former Two days to see the big boy who was sick.

"Oh, it's you. Why, you decided to abort the tire?" Seeing no surprise, he walked to the water dispenser and filled the thermos with half of the hot water. Doctor Zhou rubbed his back and walked back slowly.The boy sat there with his back hunched over, with a dull expression. It seemed that he had been hit by his lover, and he even spoke in a tone that was unlovable: "Well, let's have a medical abortion."

"You should think about it. After taking these two medicines, the little thing in your stomach will not be able to keep it." Sitting down, although Dr. Zhou said so, he had already turned on the computer to prescribe medicine for him.The boy's eyes were like a pool of stagnant water, staring fixedly at the computer screen without saying a word.This kind of situation is often seen in the deputy department, and Dr. Zhou has long been familiar with it.Young people, young people are restless, and they don’t take protective measures. After winning the bid, one party is unwilling to take responsibility, so it will become like this.This boy is not bad. In the past, some children would cry directly in front of her, complaining while crying. As a doctor, she has become a psychiatrist instead.

Print out the medicine list and hand it to him: "Here, here is the medicine list. You pay for the medicine next, and then come to me."

"En." Standing up like a walking dead, the big boy arched his back slightly and walked out quickly.Looking at his back, Doctor Zhou stretched his neck, and after a long time, sighed leisurely: "These young people..."

There are a total of six pills for medical abortion, three pills are taken now, and three pills will be taken after four hours.Cheng Qian followed the doctor's advice and ate three pills first, and then started walking around the hospital.Doctor Zhou asked him to climb the stairs more, so he found a secluded place in the building next to the outpatient department and climbed the stairs repeatedly, until his legs hurt and he couldn't stop.

When he was about to leave last time, Dr. Zhou dragged him to do a routine blood test and a vaginal ultrasound, saying it was to check his physical condition and the size of the embryo.He almost forgot the specific situation, but he always remembered one thing very clearly. The doctor said that the small thing in his stomach was only 11 mm in size, very small, and 5 mm smaller than the usual embryos of the same age. about.

Panting in the stairwell, sweating profusely on his forehead, Cheng Qian gritted his teeth, resisting the soreness in his eyes, and tried his best not to think about these messy things.But how could it be stopped?He came here just to kill this little thing!This untimely embryo, which should not have appeared, stayed in his stomach for more than 40 days before it was so small... Thinking of the stupid things I did some time ago, taking cold medicine, antipyretics, and even injecting Beta hormone, Cheng Qian Stopping and holding on to the handrail of the stairs, my heart was so sore that I couldn't breathe.

That was his baby, the baby who had lost every chance of survival because of his carelessness...

Struggling to stop the soreness in his heart, Cheng Qian gritted his teeth and raised his head, looking at the stairs above his head, and continued to walk up with difficult steps.The stomach was already not quite right, and it felt a little sore... He knew that it should be that the placenta of the little thing was slowly loosening.

Panting for breath, the phone "buzzed" in his pocket.Cheng Qian gasped and almost fell to his knees on the steps.He reached out to hang on the railing of the stairs, fumbled for his cell phone, and saw it was a text message.As he expected, this text message...is from Tang Jin, another father of Little Things.

How can a child of a humble person stand with the proud son of heaven?After going back last night, Cheng Qian sat in the door cold and thought desperately for a long time.And the conclusion was that he couldn't think of any answers.Tang Jin once said, don't care about what people who have nothing to do with you say, they just say it casually, and it's not worth being sad for those irresponsible words.But what if that wasn't just a casual statement...?Those words came from the victim, the person who was hurt by his mother's wanton actions. As a child, can he escape this blame?

If you don't care, you won't get hurt...it's not easy!He has never been able to ignore the eyes of others, even if he did not do something, even if he is one of the victims... But the truth does not apply to everyone.There are some things that Tang Jin can do easily, but he lacks the most basic confidence.

Having figured this out, it was like a joke to myself who listened to Tang Jin's comfort at the beginning.Cheng Qian felt that he was like a person who couldn't get enough food and clothing, and was asking successful people for advice on the meaning of life.They said, you have to pursue—but you can’t get enough to eat, so why talk about pursuit?At that moment, Cheng Qian suddenly realized that the gap between himself and Tang Jin was so wide and so deep that he couldn't cross it by jumping hard.And if he tried to jump, the end would not be to reach the other side, but to fall.

... What are you still thinking about?It's time to wake up from Meimeng, you are not from the same world at all, do you still want to be with him?

Clenching the phone tightly, Cheng Qian pursed his lips tightly, his heart skipped a beat, he didn't click on the text message, and stuffed it into his pocket again.

Come on, it's time to wrap things up.

"Did he not reply to you?"

Seeing Tang Jin's worried expression, Roy glanced and chuckled while sipping black tea slowly.Early in the morning, Song Shiming received a message saying that he happened to see Cheng Qian entering the hospital on the street, and his expression seemed to be something serious.Thinking of the last conversation with Cheng Qian, he seemed to have no physical contact with Tang Jin in his words, and the Roy people couldn't help but wonder if the little boy did something behind his back to offend Tang Jin.So, taking advantage of the breakfast time, she casually revealed the news to Tang Jin, and as expected, his expression became serious.

There has been no reply to the text message sent, and the phone call was immediately dropped.Tang Jin put down his phone silently, pursed his lips and thought for a while, and then dialed the secretary's phone: "Book me a flight back to Shencheng, immediately."

"Hi! Tang Jin, you..." Unexpectedly, he would go back immediately. The Roy was so surprised that he put down his teacup and almost spilled the tea in it: "I'm going to visit with the professor later. Well, I guess it will be signed tonight, so what's the matter if you run away at this time?!"

"I told you not to touch him, you don't understand what I mean--" Suddenly looking at Roy with a stern expression, Tang Jin's eyes suddenly overflowed with anger.He clenched his hands into fists and stood up abruptly. His tall figure frightened the Roy for a moment, but he immediately argued loudly: "It's not my fault! He knows what good he did! I just It’s just that a friend happened to see him entering the hospital, so it’s none of my business!”

Tang Jin remained silent, still staring at her with his brows tightly frowned.After a while, he may have believed the Roy's justification, and his expression slowly relaxed a little: "...you'd better not do anything. If I go back and find Song Shiming involved in it, don't even try to get rid of it .”

"I..." Roy's eyes panicked when he pointed out the key point, for fear that he might have misunderstood his relationship with Song Shiming.But Tang Jin didn't care about this at all. He just kept his face away and looked at the city scenery with tall buildings outside the restaurant with a serious expression. His thoughts had already flown elsewhere, and he completely lost the mood to talk to her.

At two o'clock in the afternoon, Dr. Zhou returned to the consulting room after his lunch break, and saw Cheng Qian sitting there with a pale face waiting for her.He took out the three medicines and poured a glass of warm water for him to take. Doctor Zhou looked at his dead eyes, sighed, and asked: "After the medicine runs out, I need to put on a tampon, are you ready?" ah?"

"Sanitary napkins? No..." Mumu raised his eyes to look at her, Cheng Qian was in a daze, as if he had never heard of this thing.Although a male Omega doesn't have menstruation, why doesn't he check what must-haves should be brought for medical abortion?Shaking his head helplessly, Dr. Zhou had no choice but to say: "Okay, I'll borrow two or three pills from the little nurses for you to use first, and remember to buy them when you go back at night! Oh, and there are tissues, this medicine is very painful when it has an attack. It hurts, you might vomit... Ah, did you eat anything at noon?"

"No...not at all." Shaking his head, Cheng Qian lowered his face again, and silently stopped talking.Seeing him like this, Dr. Zhou couldn't scold him even if he wanted to, so he had to take him to ask the little nurses if they had any bread or dry food.Finally, I ordered a sandwich and came back with two packs of tissues and three sanitary napkins.Throwing all these things into his arms, Dr. Zhou looked at the time and said, "Eat the sandwich quickly, and continue climbing the stairs in half an hour, but don't run far, and come back as soon as you have a reaction, huh?"

Unpacking the sandwich and eating slowly, Cheng Qian tried hard to endure the soreness in his eyes, sniffed, and nodded vigorously.He forgot everything, the doctor clearly ordered these things, but after what happened yesterday, he forgot all of them, and just remembered to abort the baby, before Tang Jin came back... He stretched out his hand to wipe his eyes, He choked back the tears as he shoveled the sandwich into his mouth, chewing and swallowing hard.Seeing that he was eating in such a hurry, Dr. Zhou couldn't help reaching out to touch his head, and comforted him helplessly: "Don't worry, don't worry, it's okay, take your time...you should cherish yourself in the future, and don't get pregnant again." , come here to suffer this pain. Let me tell you, in this world, no one can be trusted, who can’t talk sweetly when we are together? When something goes wrong, it’s faster than anyone else...It’s true that you treat yourself well .Some things, you can't rely on others, you have to live your own life, you know?"

"...Yeah." Nodding in a muffled voice, Cheng Qian wiped his eyes indiscriminately, stood up recklessly, and said, "Doctor, I'm going up the stairs."

"Hey, okay, remember not to run too far." Before Dr. Zhou finished speaking, his figure had disappeared at the door.

In the afternoon, the number of people in the hospital had already started to increase, walking down the stairs one after another.Cheng Qian climbed the stairs tirelessly, going up and down, going down and up again.Some patients went back and forth twice, seeing him panting and sweating, they couldn't help laughing with their mouths covered, or guessed what kind of illness he came to see.Some people guessed it, saying that it was a drug abortion, that's how it was done... In the past, if someone knew about this kind of thing, Cheng Qian would definitely feel so embarrassed that he wanted to burrow into a fissure in the ground.But at this moment, he didn't feel it anymore, only the sound of his heart beating was left in his ears, fast and turbulent.The surrounding voices, noises, everything is far away, isolated from some kind of medium.

Maybe Tang Jin is still a bit right, some things, as long as you don't care, you won't be hurt.Just like now, when others guessed his predicament, he would no longer feel embarrassed... However, it might just be embarrassing enough to be numb.

Is it embarrassing to be pregnant before marriage, and to have a medical abortion alone?If not, it's okay to let people know.Or, is such a life experience embarrassing?If not, then it doesn't matter if you have the cheek to continue to live on.While climbing upstairs, while saying this in his heart, Cheng Qian realized that he hadn't exercised for too long?The rapid heartbeat and turbulent blood flow made him feel uncomfortable, but it seemed to bring him strength again, making him hard-hearted every step of the way, making him feel that he was becoming more and more stubborn... It was as if, even if Tang Jin Standing in front of him from time to time, he can also say decisively, I don't like you, I don't want to be with you, let's not meet again.

Things always make people hard, don't they?Just like now, in order to defeat Tang Jin's thoughts in one fell swoop, he is trying his best to kill this little thing in his stomach.It's like being out of the way, just playing a game, pointing fingers, and with a "bang", my child died.

Amidst the infinitely amplified gasps, Cheng Qian raised his head and found that he had climbed to the top floor again.His head began to dizzy, and there was a sudden feeling of weakness under his feet, followed by a strange chill in his lower abdomen, and the urge to vomit in his stomach.Turning around unsteadily, holding on to the handrail of the stairs, walking downstairs with weak feet, Cheng Qian tried hard to hold back the feeling of nausea, trying not to vomit on the stairs.He staggered to the fourth floor and crashed into Dr. Zhou's consulting room. There was a young Beta girl sitting inside, crying too, but she was taken aback by him.Seeing him having a fit, Dr. Zhou stood up quickly, asked the nurse to bring him a small plastic basin, and asked him to go to the bathroom to catch the things that flowed out.

"Be sure to take them all and show me. If the flow is not clean, you have to clean the gestational sac."

In a daze, Cheng Qian didn't understand what it meant, so he nodded hurriedly.As soon as he entered the bathroom, he couldn't help throwing up. He vomited out all the sandwiches he ate an hour ago, and vomited non-stop while leaning on the toilet.At the same time, the lower abdomen twitched and chilled intermittently, as if something was slowly flowing out, followed by a pain like the internal organs were being tightened.His cheeks turned pale from the pain, and he didn't even have the strength to stand up, so he had to reach out and grab the handle of the bathroom to drag himself up.Enduring the pain and putting the basin in place, Cheng Qian gritted his teeth and couldn't help moaning in pain. He fell down and sat down unbearably after taking off his pants halfway.At this time, the pain in the lower abdomen began to turn upside down, that kind of pain... Cheng Qian thought desperately, is it so painful to give birth to a baby?Baby... baby, you hate me for giving you up, so you want me to hurt you this once, don't you?

A small embryo, 11 millimeters in size, can be so powerful. If you let it grow to more than nine months, wouldn't you want to kill me to come out willingly?In the pain, Cheng Qian laughed at his absurd imagination, his lips were white, and he smiled like he was crying.His baby, so unwilling... Is he willing?He also wanted to keep this little thing, but would he dare, could he?The tears that I had endured for a long time finally burst out through the pain at this time... Cheng Qian sobbed silently, and he heard clearly that something fell into the basin, sticky blood, and some lumps , taking away his strength and body temperature bit by bit, making his body gradually become cold.

It's over, no more babies...no more.

The whole body is cold and the surroundings are cramped.In the small bathroom, the smell of blood gradually permeated.The faucet outside was dripping with water, making a hollow sound. Cheng Qian raised his head, and suddenly thought... If he was a little cowardly and shameless, would he be like his mother, putting down shame and moral values ​​in order to keep the baby? , to cling to a rich and powerful person?

... If that's the case, when the baby grows up, he will hate his own biological person just like himself.

so far so good.Cheng Qian smiled slowly, still as ugly as crying.Baby, it's a good thing you're gone.

It was already past five in the evening when I left the hospital.

The medicine flow was not clean. After seeing it, Dr. Zhou asked him to clean the gestational sac.The cold iron pipe extends from the back hole to the reproductive tract, pierces into the gestational sac, and sucks away the remaining fragments little by little.The feeling of bone-chilling cold in the body was still vivid and horrifying until he got off the operating table.Anti-inflammatory and blood-enriching medicines were prescribed, with sanitary napkins in his trousers, Cheng Qian put on his underwear numbly, thanked Dr. Zhou, walked out of the hospital slowly, and walked into the wind.

As the sky gradually darkened, Cheng Qian waited for a while at a nearby bus stop and squeezed into the car in the cold wind.He didn't wear enough clothes, and the coldness of his body came out of his bones, and he couldn't even cover him to keep warm. He could only stagger and squeeze among the crowd in the carriage, hoping to get some warmth.Blood was still oozing from under his body, it felt uncomfortable and awkward, like the murder evidence was left at the crime scene, always reminding him of the crime he committed just now in the hospital.

Get out of the car and walk slowly along the dark street.There is a dull pain in the lower abdomen, and the symptoms have not been relieved.Cheng Qian wrapped his clothes tightly and walked about three or four kilometers weakly, before finally reaching the intersection of Jiu'an Street.The street is very quiet, and from time to time there is the noise of children overflowing from a warm window, everyone should be eating dinner.Slowly approaching the downstairs, Cheng Qian raised his head and saw a familiar car parked there.A black Audi, a common model, with a familiar person standing beside the car.

Still so handsome, so handsome, under the reflection of the night, he looked like a good-looking vampire count, just like the first time I saw him in the hospital.

"Hi, I'm Tang Jin."

His instincts had always been right—he shouldn't have gotten too close to this person in the first place.