Wall climbing observation diary

Yan Ming turned on the phone, thinking that Wang Cho must have misunderstood Chu Qi's acceptance.Because he saw Chu Qishou sent him two sentences.

"Sorry, I can't stay with you tonight. Happy New Year!"

After finishing speaking, Chu Qishou probably felt that it was not enough, and kissed the receiver with a "chirp".

The "chirp" was soft and restrained.As a result, Yanming listened to "Happy New Year" for the fourth time only to find out that there was still this easter egg hidden in the end.

It rained heavily in the middle of the night, and the tires that were spinning on the ground at high speed rolled up into clusters of water.

There was no traffic jam at this point, and Chu Qishou returned home quickly.It was past two o'clock in the middle of the night when I got home.

A light was on in the living room on the first floor, and his mother was sitting on the sofa waiting for him with the silent TV on.

Chu Qishou softly called out: "Mom."

His mother turned around: "Finally back."

Chu Qi collected a few drops of rainwater from the car door on his forehead, took a wet towel from the table and wiped it off, and changed into a pair of clean slippers before walking to his mother.

During such a short period of time, his mother followed his figure with kind eyes.When he got closer and sat down, Chu Qishou saw a few intertwined bloodshot eyes in his mother's eyes, which contrasted with the aging wrinkles around the eye sockets, making her face even more tired.

No matter how well maintained it is, it can't hide oldness at this age.Not to mention staying up most of the night waiting for him tonight.Chu Qishou suddenly felt an indescribable sense of guilt.

His mother first hugged him: "My son is growing up. He is so tall. Sitting in front of mother, mother has to stretch her neck to see your eyebrows clearly."

Chu Qi rested his chin on his mother's shoulder and sighed, "Mom."

It is said that "Mom" is the softest word in the hearts of many people in the world.Chu Qishou was no exception, just by shouting, he seemed to return to the time when he was a child who was indulged in his mother's arms and acted like a baby many years ago.Very warm.

Then the mother grabbed his arm and looked back and forth, the more she liked it, the happier her eyes became.

Chu Qishou asked, "Is Dad asleep?"

The fire in his mother's eyes disappeared again somehow: "He fell asleep. Before going to bed, he was telling me why you didn't come back. He talked about the cleaning aunt telling him that you were always away in the morning. Speaking of Later, he got up from the bed and wanted to call Li Banyan to ask how you are doing now."

Chu Qi's heart shuddered: "Did Dad ask?"

The mother shook her head: "I stopped it. I told him that although Li Banyan is your best friend, but he is studying in the United States recently, it is impossible to take care of you. He thought about it, so he gave up."

Chu Qi took a breath in his heart.He believed that Li Banyan would not tell the story about him and Yanming, but Li Banyan grew up under the noses of his parents, and it might be tricky to tell a little lie.

Unexpectedly, just after he breathed a sigh of relief, Chu Qishou heard his mother say again: "After your father fell asleep, I called Li Banyan."

Chu Qishou's heart was hoisted up again as if he was riding a roller coaster.He carefully observed the look in his mother's eyes and the fine lines around her eyes.

"Don't blame mom for being troublesome. Mom has been really worried about you these past few years..." His mother was a little choked up when she said this, and tears flowed from her eyes. The idea of ​​wanting to become a monk was born."

Chu Qi stared straight in the dim light.

Become a monk.

When did this happen?

Obviously it was Li Banyan who kept saying that he had no fun in life like a monk, so why did he end up wanting to be a monk himself?

Chu Qishou saw his mother crying, so he quickly took out a piece of paper and wiped it for her.

More and more tears soaked through the thin paper.She whimpered and said, "Mom guessed from a long time ago that you are different from others. But I thought you would be able to change it in a few years. I didn't expect you to feel so guilty that you wanted to become a monk."

The words "different" hit Chu Qishou's life all at once.

It turned out that my mother really knew everything. It turned out that she knew everything.

Chu Qi opened his lips and wanted to speak, telling his mother that he had never said anything about becoming a monk, but he couldn't make a sound for a long time.

"Qishou, don't be so guilty, mom doesn't blame you, mom just wants you to live a smooth life without any worries." She wiped away her tears and looked at Chu Qishou's sad and astonished face, "Good boy, Don't frown."

She hooked her index finger and scratched between Chu Qi's brows, and the wrinkled skin stretched out.

Chu Qishou's eyes couldn't help but feel a little sour, he nodded, and hugged his mother who was much thinner than him.Mother's shoulders trembled uncontrollably.

"Is it a statement?"

Without warning, his mother asked in his ear.

Chu Qi's hand holding her stiffened for a moment.

"Don't be nervous." His mother patted him on the back. "I should have thought of it when I saw him at your place. It was only recently that I belatedly figured out that he might be yours... yours..."

She didn't say "boyfriend".The elders at this age have always been conservative in their views, and they are willing to accept that their son is gay step by step is enlightened enough, but it is not possible for her to associate "son" with "boyfriend" for a while.

Chu Qi held his breath, and then admitted: "Yes. The two of us have been together for a long time. Mom, I'm sorry. I lied to you last time."

She forced a smile: "hey, don't say sorry. Mom knows you have difficulties. "

Chu Qishou is very grateful that he has such a good and understanding mother.He cried too, tears slipping down his cheeks and onto his mother's shoulders.

At this time, he suddenly thought of another person in the family, and asked, "What should I say to Dad?"

"Let's keep it from him for now. He can't accept it. Wait until we find a suitable opportunity to talk to him frankly." His mother advised him, "You have to listen to him during the Chinese New Year, you know? Don't let him Suspicion, this is not only good for you, but also good for your... for Yanming."

"I see. Thank you, Mom." Chu Qishou collected all the paper balls that the two had finished crying and threw them into the trash can, and pulled his mother to stand up from the sofa, "Go to bed quickly. It will be three o'clock soon." It's too much for your body."

He escorted his mother upstairs, and then retired to his room.Turning on the phone, there was indeed a message from Li Banyan.

"Fuck, I'm going to be scared to death today. Do you know what happened? Fuck, fuck." Li Banyan's voice sounded like a big dog with fried fur.

Chu Qi retracted: "My mother called you and asked about my sexual orientation."

"How do you know!...Your mother is not so direct. It's just that I heard it all at once." Li Banyan was very surprised, "She told you all?!"

Chu Qi received: "I just finished chatting with her."

Li Banyan was dumbfounded: "She accepted?"

Chu Qishou: "Yes. She accepted."

Li Banyan was silent for a long time and did not send a new voice. After about 10 minutes, he said: "Haha! It seems that I really scared her when I said that you are going to become a monk. Come and kowtow to me! I will help you I did you a great favor." There was a strong smugness in his tone.

Although he knew it was not good to do such deceitful things, Chu Qishou thanked him: "Thank you."

Wait for a while to let my mother calm down, and then confess to her.

"At that time, she asked about your sexual orientation on the sidelines, and I played Tai Chi with her on the sidelines, but I didn't expect to hit it." Li Banyan was very happy for him: "What did your father say?"

Chu Qishou frowned: "For the time being, I have to hide it from him."

"Oh, I see. Your dad is more old-fashioned and can't accept that you are gay. It doesn't matter, anyway, he has opened up a breakthrough in your family and pulled your mom into his camp. Let your mom brag to your dad for the rest Pillow wind, I have everything." The more Li Banyan talked, the more serious he became.

Chu Qi was in no mood to joke, and just said, "I hope."

He recalled the conversation he had just had with his mother on the first floor.Mother mentioned the incident of encountering Yan Ming at his house last time, and said with emotion, "I should have thought of it long ago".

But he remembered that he was not with Yanming at that time.How did mother guess it? ...Could it be that the two of them had shown that they liked each other so clearly at that time?

He looked down at the phone screen.Li Banyan sent a website link.

Just looking at the prefix, you can tell that it is a world-renowned pornographic website, and the title even reads "Yan Ming vs. male college students, good job!"

The release date shown next to it is October 2020, 10.

This time... was when he and Yan Ming had been together for less than a week.

Chu Qishou glanced at the title again, focusing on the last two words: "Fake."

Li Banyan was annoyed: "No way, I only sent it for a few seconds... Are you so sure that you can tell it's fake even if you don't even watch the video? Don't you trust him too much?"

Chu Qishou is very confident: "You don't need to look to know."

Li Banyan: "Okay, okay. You were right. The person who took the video is so ugly that he is ashamed to say that he is talking about it. I'm about to throw up."

Chu Qishou grasped the point: "What kind of GV are you a straight man watching?"

"I... am I worried that you will be cheated!" Li Banyan stammered, "If Yanming messes around behind your back, maybe someone will take a picture and post it on the Internet, and I will definitely be able to find it when the time comes. "

I don't know which corner of Li Banyan's mind these weird ideas came from.Chu Qishou laughed angrily at him: "I'm going to sleep. Goodbye."

He turned off the light and lay on his back in a large shape on the bed.After experiencing a special night when his mother discovered his sexuality, he was so excited that he couldn't sleep at all.

Idle and bored.Why don't you send a sentence to Yanming... But what if Yanming turns on the volume alert and wakes him up.

Chu Qi retracted and scanned the typed "Are you asleep?" in the dialog box, but did not press the confirmation button for a long time.It is 03:30 in the morning.Yanming had to continue filming early in the morning, how could he not sleep.

However, at this time, he unexpectedly found that the column of Yan Ming's name had changed to "the other party is typing".The heart thumped violently twice, Chu Qishou hurriedly sent out "Are you asleep?"

It turned out that the other party was still awake.

Chu Qishou waited for Yan Ming's reply knowingly.

Yan Ming replied: I am full.I couldn't sleep.

This sentence not only explained the reason why he didn't sleep, but also indirectly told Chu Qishou that he had almost eaten the meals Chu Qishou made.

Chu Qi asked: Is it delicious?

Statement: delicious.

Chu Qishou was overjoyed: I will do it for you next time.

Yan Ming: It's too late.are not you sleepy?

Chu Qi accepts: Not sleepy.

Chu Qishou hesitated for a while whether to tell Yanming that his mother saw their adultery.But in the end still did not say.He feels that halfway through the process of coming out with his current family, it is not considered a real achievement, and telling Yan Ming that it is not safe will only increase the anxious atmosphere.

Let Yan Ming feel at ease while filming.These things he slowly resolved by himself.

Chu Qi remembered the homestay he had booked earlier.Since his mother was in a hurry to call him back, the price for these two nights could only be in vain.

He has some resentment: I really want to hear your voice.

Yan Ming suggested: Then let’s make a phone call.

Chu Qishou: Wait for me to get the earphones.

After putting on the bluetooth headset, he buried his head in the quilt and dialed Yanming's number.

Yan Ming: "Hi. Did you hear that?"

Chu Qi received: "I heard it!"

Yan Ming heard Chu Qi's side rubbing against the bedding: "Are you hiding under the bedding?"

"I'm afraid the sound insulation is not good." Chu Qi tuned in and heard a similar voice from Yan Ming, "You are also hiding under the covers."

Yan Ming: "Yes. This hotel has a problem with sound insulation. When we were talking in the room, Wang Chou could hear us outside."

Chu Qishou asked: "Do you know what I regret the most in my life?"

Yan Ming: "What is it?"

Chu Qi received: "I didn't fall in love early in middle school."

Yan Ming: "I have never had a puppy love."

Chu Qishou: "I heard from former classmates that they would call their romantic partners under the covers at night, afraid of being discovered by their parents. It's the same as we are now."

Yan Ming smiled.

Chu Qi had been suffocating under the blanket for a long time, he was so hot that he couldn't breathe, he had to move his head out an inch to expose his forehead to the air, so that the part below his nose was still buried in the blanket.

After a while, Yan Ming said, "I also have things I regret."

Chu Qishou said in a low voice, "What's the matter?"

Yan Ming: "Didn't take off the headgear in time the day I was dressed as a rabbit."

His throat clogged when he said the last word.

Chu Qishou thought that Yan Ming was referring to the day they kissed under a tree with a group of reporters behind their backs: "You still want to take off the hood in front of the reporters? Are you too bold?"

Yan Ming said nothing.

Chu Qishou: "I admire you for being able to send leaflets to them. 'The great hermit hides in the city' may mean that you are not afraid of death."

Yan Ming: "You seem to be more afraid of being exposed than I am."

Chu Qishou: "I don't want to drag you down."

Yan Ming: "You won't drag me down."

Chu Qi received: "You are a celebrity... I am more worried about you. If I come out, I will only go out to my circle of friends. You can go out to the whole world."

Yan Ming smiled shallowly: "The whole world will bless us."

Everyone knows this is just a joke.Otherwise, why would you want to hide it from the public? You would have come out of the closet long ago.

Chu Qi suddenly remembered the fan who delivered the letter to Yan Ming.The fan who said that homosexuality is disgusting was suddenly disheartened.But there is no way.There are tens of thousands of people in the world who do not understand and disagree with them, and they cannot change everyone's vision and views.

So he and Yanming weaved this dream together: "Yes, the whole world will bless us."

The two then chatted about a lot of miscellaneous things, until it was dawn, looking at the gray sky with a bit of fish belly, Chu Qishou felt drowsy, but he was reluctant to hang up the phone.

Yan Ming heard that he wanted to sleep, so he said, "I'm going to hang up."

Chu Qi kept silent.He has fallen asleep.

This sleep was restless and unsteady, and I only slept for more than four hours.He woke up and looked at the time, it was 10:30 noon.My aunt makes the vacuum cleaner downstairs.

Chu Qishou didn't go downstairs until the sound of the vacuum cleaner stopped.

His father, Chu Changyi, was sitting in the dining room reading the newspaper. When he heard the sound of him coming downstairs, he only raised his eyes and glanced at him, then quickly returned to the newspaper: "Yo, my son, he is a busy man. Home. I heard that you are very busy at work."

While talking, the aunt had already brought him a bowl of water and eggs.

His family likes to eat stomach-warming food in the morning in winter.Auntie would put sugar and diced ham in the soup.

"Morning, Dad." Chu Qi stared at the steam coming from the bowl, and his stomach grumbled, "I'm very busy. I need to work overtime often."

He was just about to boast to his father that he got an A in the company's year-end assessment, but he saw Chu Changyi showing a disgusted expression: "Hmph, it's called a big international company, and it still squeezes employees like this."

"By the way, there is one more thing." Chu Changyi took a sip of the water in his teacup leisurely, "Old Ji told me that you have learned to put pressure on others and forced a journalist to delete several videos, right? You used to I hate this kind of thing the most, why have I learned to be bad recently?"

Chu Qishou didn't know the old Ji his father was talking about, but he knew what the so-called "journalist" was.

That is not a serious journalist at all, but a well-known paparazzi who spread rumors.

These paparazzi who have already made a name for themselves are even more arrogant because the artists do not want to offend them.Fortunately, Chu Qishou is not an artist.One thing down one thing, he can subdue them.Not only did he ask Weiwei's team to delete the videos that hurt Yanming, but he also asked her to slowly delete some videos that hurt other artists.At that time he felt that he was very righteous.

...It's just that the means used are really not so righteous when I think about it now.

"I heard from Lao Ji that you spent money to suppress hot searches." Although his father said that he had "broken his studies", his face was full of joy, smiling like a naive Maitreya Buddha, "It's amazing, son !Finally, he looks like a human being! He is indeed my precious son of Chu Changyi!"

Chu Qishou felt that he had been praised inexplicably.His eyes were covered by the steaming steam from the bowl, making him even more foggy.

He caught a glimpse of his mother watching TV in the living room.It just so happened that the mother also turned her head to look at him at the same time, she didn't smile happily like her father, but shook her head worriedly at Chu Qishou.

Chu Qi recalled what his mother told him the night before: During the few days of Chinese New Year, you should listen to your father's words. This will not only be good for him, but also good for Yan Ming.

According to his father's character, if he finds out that his son has done something that is not to his liking, he will not lose his temper with his son, but will instead blame others.

Mother mentioned Yanming.That is to say, when his father discovered that his son's sexual orientation was different from ordinary people, the object of his anger would most likely become Yanming.

He has to take care of the words.

"New year, new weather. You should buy a new car." His father threw him a car key, "I bought this car for you before, but you said you wouldn't drive it, and kept it in the garage. If you don't drive it again, it should be scrapped." gone."

Chu Qi took the car keys and looked at them in the palm of his hand.This seems to be the series that Mangman created before.Since he bought Mangman's car, he was particularly impressed.

Chu Changyi was very happy to see that his son did not refuse as usual, and said, "You should also change your watch. Aunt Li, the nanny, said that the surface of the watch you brought back yesterday was foggy."

While talking, he didn't know where to throw a watch box and pushed it to him: "How about this one?"

Chu Qi recognized that this was the watch brand endorsed by Yan Ming, and there was an identical watch in Yan Ming's room, which was several times more expensive than the one he was wearing now.

Chu Qi received his thanks: "Thank you, Dad."

After giving the small gifts, it's time to get down to business.Chu Changyi cleared his throat, and said solemnly: "Qi Shou, don't do it in Huixin. Your little uncle has a problem with his cervical spine recently, come back to replace him. The money you get every month in Huixin Some salary is not enough for pocket money, it is a waste of time, why not go home and help, right?"

Chu Qishu's two hands holding the watch box trembled slightly.

In the blink of an eye, he thought of many things, big and small.

He knew in his heart that his father's words were just a pretense to want him to come back.

His little uncle is an executive in charge of the risk control department in the company. He is proficient in professional knowledge and manages well.And he is just a college graduate with little experience, even if he has a background and leadership, it is impossible to sit in such an important high position all at once.Obviously he had to learn everything from scratch, but his father gave him a piece of attractive "honey" in words.

When there is a need at home, he should naturally come back to help.But my little uncle's cervical spondylosis is no longer a daily occurrence. The department has a lot of staff and is still operating normally. Why did his father suddenly call him back?

Somewhat strange.

In addition, although the salary is not high, he likes his current job at Huixin.

He originally thought that he would at least wait until he was promoted before returning. This would be a reflection of his own ability to work, and it was the result of not relying on the help of his family at all.Just get one more A and you're done.But--

Thinking of this, Chu Qi tightened the velvet watch box with his fingers, and turned to look at his mother in front of the TV. Her mother still maintained a slightly gloomy expression.

- Listen to your father.

He must now listen to his father.

Besides, there's nothing wrong with coming back.How many people dream of such a life, and it is easy to come to him, so what is there to complain about?

Chu Qi made up his mind and nodded, "I will resign."

Chu Changyi was very satisfied: "So it's settled."

Chu Qishou discussed with him, hoping to gain some buffer time: "I will move back in a month after the Spring Festival holiday."

Once he doesn't work in Huixin, he has no excuse to live alone.

One month is a normal resignation cycle, and Chu Changyi has no objection.He threw the newspaper aside and went upstairs humming an opera happily.