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It was already the next morning when Cui Zhiyun woke up at Bian's house. She didn't spend half an hour like Casey replacing He Xi'an alternately. Still no response.

Bian Boxian called Zhang Yixing, but the conclusion he reached was still to wait, there was no other way.

So Cui Zhiyun could only wait for her to wake up, no one thought that the next morning would be when she woke up.

After Cui Zhiyun woke up, she just sat on the bed without moving, neither washing nor talking.

She was like a rag doll without consciousness, staring straight ahead with dull eyes.

She didn't know how long it lasted like that, and she didn't know when she woke up.

After getting dressed in the morning, Baekhyun ate breakfast in the dining room, but he did not wait for Cui Zhiyun for a long time.

It was already 08:30 in the morning, Baekhyun panicked, he was afraid what if Choi Jiyun still didn't wake up, or if another personality woke up?

Why is there still no response from yesterday to today?

Zhang Yixing has no way to give any information for Bian Boxian's reference, so the waiting is undoubtedly the most tormenting and the most annoying.

"Master, it's time." The driver reminded Bian Boxian of his working hours, and Bian Boxian glanced at the door of the second bedroom upstairs that still didn't respond.

"Wait a minute." Turning around, Baekhyun walked upstairs without hesitation.

No, he must go and see what's going on.

Bian Boxian's heart was beating drums, how could he be interested in going to work if he didn't see Cui Zhiyun?Bian Baekhyun knows that now he has no way to pretend to be nonchalant and keep a distance from Cui Zhiyun.

After all, the current Baekhyun knows all about those 17 years ago, her tragic and terrifying childhood resounded in Baekhyun's ear over and over again with Kathy's voice.Such a scene would appear when he dreamed back at midnight, and he would break out in cold sweat with fear, let alone Cui Zhiyun.

Bian Boxian is now suddenly afraid that Cui Zhiyun will think of that horrible childhood. It is really possible for Cui Zhiyun to die in the situation as He Xian said.

She can't think of it, she must not, just let that experience dissipate in the past time, and let the personalities that carried this incident disappear with that history is the best.

But will things really develop as Bian Baekhyun wishes?

Is God's joke really all there is?

Bian Baekhyun pushed open the door of Cui Zhiyun's room vigorously. The heavy curtains made it difficult for the room to have much light even at 08:30 in the morning. The slightest light coming in was because Bian Baekhyun opened the room. The door, the fan-shaped light broke in from the door.

But the person on the bed still didn't react too much, she just blinked her eyes as Bian Boxian opened the door.Looking at the figure sitting on the bed, Bian Baekhyun suddenly breathed a sigh of relief, at least she woke up, at least she wasn't another crazy and uncontrollable personality.

He stepped up to the window and opened the curtains to let the bright sunlight shine in. The sudden light made Cui Zhiyun, who was sitting on the bed, close his eyes.

But she still didn't say a word, she was like a speechless person without saying anything, that made Bian Boxian frown.

"Why don't you go out to eat?"

"... "

All he got in return for his question was silent silence, not even the sound of the wind, and no response at all.She refused, refused any response, with no expression on her face.

"Choi Jiyun!"

"Bian Baekhyun."

The two called each other's name at the same time, and then the room returned to silence.The dead calm silenced both of them.Byun Baekhyun look

What happened to Choi Jiyun?

In fact, if this disease is pursued like this, it will look like this. Bian Boxian would rather face that indifferent her every day, and would rather face her personalities with a different personality.

Compared to curing her disease, now he is more afraid that she will really remember the experience of being abused in her childhood.Just like what Casey said, that memory is not something everyone can bear, even Baekhyun now can't bear that kind of situation.

"Jiyun, let's go eat." Bian Baekhyun's voice was much softer, and he just uttered these words lightly.

He didn't want to mention what happened yesterday, nor did he want to mention what happened after she fainted and lost consciousness.

"My memory is back." Cui Zhiyun said flatly.

"Memory? What memory?" Bian Boxian suddenly became nervous. What memory was she talking about?Which memory is it?

"Those memories that were lost have all come back, and at the same time, Cui Yunxi's memory is also mixed in."

When she spoke, her voice was so hollow and weak, she seemed very tired, but there was a hint of despair.

Her lost memories, whether it was the return from the United States or the subsequent reinstatement meeting, how she met Wu Yifan in the Jiangtan cemetery before, what he said, the lips of Baekhyun and Wu Yifan at the reinstatement meeting The tongue-in-cheek battle was still Park Chanyeol’s teasing, Choi Jiyun remembered all of them, those memories were like toys locked in a certain box, although they couldn’t be found no matter how hard they looked before, but one day they

Suddenly ran out again, and then found it again.

But Cui Zhiyun didn't have the slightest joy of regaining what was lost, that kind of memory didn't make her happy at all, let alone that memory brought Cui Yunxi's.

Cui Zhiyun remembers the memory of Cui Yunxi meeting Baekhyun. In those messy and mixed memories, there are Baekhyun testing Cui Yunxi's expression in a western restaurant, Cui Yunxi answered Baekhyun's opinion on lemonade, and Baekhyun was there 'Picked up' Choi Yoon Hee's weather in an unknown park.

In Cui Yunxi's memory, in the scattered memories, there is a person, a protagonist, and that is Baekhyun!

"Memory of Cui Yunxi?" Bian Baekhyun suddenly thought, after Cui Yunxi asked him to go to the playground with him, he never appeared again. At that time, Cui Yunxi seemed to be making a final farewell.

Could it be that Cui Yunxi has already lost his memory?Cui Yunxi's memory has come to Cui Zhiyun's head little by little.

Cui Yunxi's memories brought not only those moments with Byun Baekhyun, but also Cui Yunxi's feelings. Those feelings suddenly surged up, which made Cui Zhiyun a little unbearable.

It felt as green as first love but unforgettable.

"A memory of her first love." Cui Zhiyun was making judgments.

"First love?" Cui Yunxi still has a first love?

"you."

"What?" Bian Baekhyun didn't hear Cui Zhiyun's words clearly.

"That memory is you!"

Choi Yoon Hee's first love is Byun Baekhyun!

Bian Baekhyun suddenly smiled, is that him?It turned out to be him!That kind of satisfied smile filled Baekhyun's handsome face.

Looking at Cui Zhiyun, Bian Baekhyun suddenly remembered what Kathy said. In fact, it was not only Cui Yunxi, but Cui Zhiyun's first love was Bian Baekhyun.It’s just that those are all in the memory of 17 years ago, Bian Baekhyun suddenly discovered that Cui Zhiyun’s first love was not Wu Yifan at all, Cui Zhiyun first fell in love with him, Bian Baekhyun.

But so what?Bian Baekhyun still doesn't want Cui Zhiyun to recall that horrible and dark memory.

"Okay, since the memory loss has come back, it's a good thing, let's go eat!" Bian Baekhyun breathed a sigh of relief, if Cui Zhiyun just returned the lost memory, then it's nothing, it's a good thing.

Bian Baekhyun was about to go out: "I'm going to work, you can relax at home and call me if you have anything to do."

"Bian Baekhyun." Cui Zhiyun called him, telling him to stop.

"Huh? What's wrong?"

"Casey showed up yesterday, didn't she? What did she say?" Cui Zhiyun still sat on the bed with a deep voice.

How did she know Kathy showed up?Bian Boxian was suddenly surprised, how did Cui Zhiyun know?

"..." Bian Baekhyun didn't answer.

"Did you talk about your childhood?" Cui Zhiyun suddenly smiled, that smile was so similar to Casey's, and it was also sarcasm and desolate.

Bian Boxian turned to look at Cui Zhiyun, what happened to her?What's the matter with her state?

"It looks right! Otherwise, why do you have sympathy and pity in your eyes?" Cui Zhiyun's smile deepened: "Why is she so talkative? Or did you seduce her by Bian Baekhyun?"

"What are you talking about?" Bian Boxian was a little furious, what the hell is Cui Zhiyun doing?

"Isn't it? After all, Casey can do anything for you."

"Are you no longer confident in treatment?"

"Confidence? After so many years, 17 years, what kind of confidence is there?"

"You have to at least believe..."

"Trust? Who should I trust? Who should I trust? Who can I trust? Even my own mother can't be trusted, so who else can I trust? Zhang Yixing? Do you really think I don't know that he is using me as an experiment? He just It's just to prove his clinical treatment effect, and to prove that he can control my life at will."

Cui Zhiyun is a little excited, Cui Zhiyun knows what Zhang Yixing has been doing for so many years, and the medicine used to have side effects, Cui Zhiyun also knows!

biological mother?Weng Meihua?Weng Meihua was mentioned in Cui Zhiyun's words?

Bian Boxian suddenly discovered that Cui Zhiyun might not only remember those lost memories, but also what happened 17 years ago.

"You remember?"

"Of course I remember, that dark storage room, that beautiful non-speaking multicolored glazed glass, that biological mother who beat me crazily." Cui Zhiyun smiled, that miserable and sad smile was the last thing Bian Baekhyun wanted to see .

She actually remembered, how could it be?How could Choi Jiyun remember?

That memory is so bad, why does she want to remember it?

He regrets it.Regret taking her to find that memory, regret taking her back to that mansion.

But it's too late, there is no medicine for regret in the world!

Cui Zhiyun looked at Bian Baekhyun without shedding a single tear, but her nose was sore, she had no reason to cry at all, but that sore nose was unconscious.

Why cry?Why did such a childhood let her waste tears? Suddenly, Cui Zhiyun also understood why Kathy would be so angry when she saw the photo of herself and Weng Meihua.

After all, what qualifications does such a person have to be called a mother?How is it worthy of the sacred title of 'mother'?

The violent Weng Meihua is even worse than the violent 'Choi Jiyun'.Cui Zhiyun's mind has already remembered the woman who kept beating her with a murder weapon, and Cui Zhiyun hated her terrifying appearance.It turned out that it was like this 17 years ago, that's why it was like this, and that's why she became like this.

What's so tragic about being just an illegitimate child?What reason does a being who has not been blessed from birth have to live in this world?

Suddenly Cui Zhiyun felt that her birth was a joke, her life was really ridiculous!There is no point in being alive at all.So why live?

Cui Zhiyun was desperate and lifeless at this moment!

When the meaning of a person's birth is denied, what reason is there for her not to doubt life?

Cui Zhiyun got up suddenly and ran down from the bed, and ran towards the balcony.

"Jiyun!" Bian Baekhyun immediately shouted out of fear.

Cui Zhiyun leaned on the railing of the balcony and turned to look at Baekhyun: "Baekhyun! What am I doing alive?"

"That's over, Choi Jiyun! That's over, Weng Meihua has been dead for 17 years!" Byun Baekhyun looked at Cui Jiyun on the balcony and said, "Choi Jiyun, I don't want to stop you from committing suicide again and again, whether it's Minyan , Yunxi is still you!"

He doesn't want to be like this again and again!This happens every time!It's like this every time!

"Is there anything you don't care about? Cui Zhiyun has nothing to make you hang around? Cui Zhiyun, look at me!" Bian Baekhyun shouted furiously, what do you want him to do!

What exactly does she want from him, Baekhyun?

Baekhyun has had enough!Is God playing with Choi Ji Yoon's life or Baekhyun's feelings?Every time he sees Cui Jiyun on the brink of destruction, Baekhyun's feeling of helplessness makes him feel very useless!

care?Cui Zhiyun looked at Bian Boxian, the person she cared about was in her eyes at the moment, but what's the use?they have ended, or

Or say they never started!

The feeling of rapid heartbeat and shortness of breath surged up, Cui Zhiyun's face began to turn red, and he began to tremble, weakly and slowly sitting on the ground leaning against the railing, that feeling made Cui Zhiyun grasp the position of the heart on the left side of the pajamas.

Bian Boxian ran over to help Cui Zhiyun: "What's wrong? Medicine, where is the medicine?"

Baekhyun turned around and ran into the house to search for Cui Zhiyun’s medicine. There was nothing in the backpack or the cabinet. Baekhyun finally found the few medicines left in the drawer. He just came to the balcony. The person on the balcony was a little red. Other than that, there is basically no difference.

Bian Baekhyun frowned at that person, she finally came.

"Finally, you have shown up."

"You are waiting for me? Zhang Yixing is also waiting for me, isn't it?" Min Yan looked at Bian Boxian with a smile.

"I really want to find you..."

"As long as she doesn't want to live, I will naturally appear, but it seems that you don't have a very urgent desire to see me." Min Yan looked at the medicine bottle in Bian Boxian's hand.