[Hammer Base] White Night

"Those people don't like me, I know." Loki twiddled his fingers in front of Frigga, as if practicing his newfound magic, "I know what they say behind my back, but it's okay, I don't care."

"Loki, don't always be like this." Frigga gently persuaded, this was the umpteenth time.

"Understood, Queen Mother." Loki conjured up a necklace, his smile shone like the jewels on it, "Does it look good? I'll put it on for you."

Frigga stroked the necklace with some surprise, and she looked up at Loki, whose black hair always filled her eyes at the first moment.

For years she'd wondered who Loki was Laufey's son, smaller than a giant and more sensitive than a protoss.In the past two years, she gradually felt that he was becoming more and more mysterious.He has something that giants and protoss will never have, he is better than anyone.

"Loki, we are family."

Frigga said to him and herself with a guilty conscience. Loki is her son.

"Of course." He said without hesitation, "Mother, next time I will make you a beautiful dress, so that you will be radiant wherever you go." The eyebrows he smiled were completely different from Thor's, stretching, Meticulous and tender.

But there are always shadows that cannot be erased.

"Father let Thor inherit the throne, are you sad?" Frigga realized that this was nonsense, she knew Loki's thoughts, but she still wanted to ask him in person.

"I'm happy for him." He said to her solemnly, "My father chose him because he thought he was the most suitable candidate. There are still many ways to become a hero of Asgard, and he took the most difficult path of responsibility."

"Don't you blame the father for being partial?"

"We're all the same. It's the same whoever is king." Loki interrupted her. "Father can't be wrong. Thor will be a good king, and he will bring light and happiness to this country."

Loki almost fooled himself with his words, but she couldn't hide from her mind reading skills. Frigga suddenly felt sad and heartbroken. Loki will always only say things that please her in front of her, and he almost never disobeys her.In front of her, he is very obedient. He has been very obedient since he was a child, and he can do everything she arranges.

She raised him, but owed him so much.

"Do you really think so? You don't need to hide from me. I believe, Loki, you are as good as the king of Asgard."

"But my father denied me." An indescribably sad smile appeared on his face, "I think this is his definition of me."

Frigga couldn't say anything for a moment.

"Loki, don't blame your father, he has his reasons."

"I know." Loki is still smiling.

Frigga stood up, with a deep sorrow on her brow.She puts her arms around Loki, the lonely child she hasn't hugged in a long time.His bones rested in the crook of her arms, and he was thinner than she had ever seen him.She showed a distressed expression and hugged him tighter.Sometimes she felt that from the moment this child came into this world, his identity was doomed to be exiled on the lost road, he was a child with an ambiguous identity.Confronting this world seems to be his natural ability.Eager to have his own sense of existence, he embarked on a journey to find his identity without hesitation.The world is vast, and the journey has no boundaries.Under the scorching sun, the shadow behind him was black and long.

The gods then stroked Loki's black hair, their eyes fixed on the distance.The rolling hills under the black sky are like a black curtain at this moment.

"Do you blame Thor?" Frigga asked.

Loki's green pupils twitched, his heart trembled for no reason, he was slightly surprised, and an unknown feeling spread rapidly.But his expression quickly returned to calm.

"Mistress, why are you asking this?" After saying this, he shrugged and smiled, "Are you still afraid that I will fight with Thor? The Mjollner in his hand will smash me into chicken on Volstagg's plate cake."

Frigga was amused by the words, "I know you won't." She sat down, "You love him, and he loves you." She looked at Loki as she spoke, as if telling him the truth of the matter she knew.

Loki wasn't overwhelmed by Frigga's point, his expression softened.He looked at his mother, and slowly knelt down, speaking slowly and clearly.

"I once thought, why there is Loki when there is Thor in the world? One of us is destined to succeed, while the other will fail; it is destined that only one can be the pride of the father, and that person must not be the father. I'm disappointed. Since the reality can't be changed, why should I bother to find out the reason?" As he said, Loki raised his face, letting himself be as proud as usual.He chuckled, seeming to be very happy.

"Loki, we all love you. We..."

"That's it." He raised a finger and put it on his lips, indicating that the conversation was over. With a "snap—" Loki clapped his palms, and many birds flew out of his palms and flew around Frigga, flapping their wings and making chirping sounds.

"Mother, I'm tired, let them chat with you. Good night!" Loki blinked mischievously, and disappeared in front of Frigga.

Frigga stares blankly at the place where Loki disappeared.

"You don't have to lie to me, kid." She sighed.

He still chose to deceive, deceiving others while deceiving himself.This is his way of protecting himself.It's just, is it your own truth or the hearts of others that make your lies blinded?

Frigga realizes sadly that her two children, Thor and Loki, cannot exist without each other, that they are forever bound together and cannot exist without the other.

But always, unable to integrate.They are so different.

Although he has a humble expression towards everyone, he doesn't have the airs of a prince at all.But she knew that if what she said was the same as what she said, then it wasn't Loki.

Odin's passing of the position instantly extinguished the expectation in his heart, and his heart became cold like this.He finally discovered that everything he did, all the hope, love, pain and joy he gave, turned out to be deceit.

Since you accept it, you will bear it all.Willing to gamble and admit defeat, that's all he thought.

But she could feel the uneasiness and anxiety in his heart. Jealousy and love existed in his body at the same time, constantly struggling and struggling, making him breathless.

"Loki, is there a day when you won't be able to tell which is the real you?"

Frigga closed her eyes and waved her hand to make the birds disappear, and the room suddenly fell silent.She fell into this mood of infinite worry, a little at a loss, and more of a dilemma.She's shocked that Thor's accession has given Loki such a conflicted and brutal start.

The initial struggles come on the eve of Thor's accession to the throne. Asgard's winter has not yet come, and the icy wind penetrates every corner with uneasy emotions and unknown dangers, like the souls of the defeated Jothuheim. Laufey's blood-red eyes stared at the golden kingdom from the extreme cold.

The night before Thor's enthronement, Loki looks at himself in the mirror.He wished he could take a good look at himself now.But all he saw in the mirror was Thor's smile.

Watching him laugh, Loki couldn't help but laugh too.

I just looked at him like this.He smiles, and so does he.Although their smiles are exactly the same, they seem to be different souls in the same body.It seems that no matter how you look at it, you will never get tired of it.

Loki reached out and stroked the cold mirror, muttering hypnotically to himself.

Thor Odinson

Do you love me?

His fingertips rubbed against the mirror and made a creaking struggle, and his heart began to ache sharply.Thor's smile in the mirror is still upright and contagious, so simple it's unbearably sad.

Loki looked at the image in the mirror that was completely different from himself, and said calmly and without any emotion.

I love you.

love you to death.

In the next second he caused the mirror to burst.The shards burst out and ran across his cheeks, leaving streaks of blood.The lenses on the ground were immediately soaked in red as if stained with tears.

He let the blood meander down his face and laughed dumbfoundedly.It turns out that this is his true love, so devastating.With the anger and fear that he was desperately suppressing in his heart, he naively thought that he didn't care anymore.

His father taught him since he was a child that as long as it is worth doing, he must do his best.He is a very talented and caring boy.Thinking back to the days with Thor, it was quiet and peaceful.He put away his edges and corners, seemed to have no desires, and tried his best to become the son admired by his father and king.But thinking about it now, to him, it seemed like a scene of wear and tear.

From simply wanting his father to recognize him at the beginning, to Thor's succession to the throne, he found that what he got in exchange for his life was not what he wanted, which made him not know whether to be grateful or to cast aside all this.The things he wanted to see, the things he wanted to keep, all fled in haste; the character and habits he had tried to change, hoping to be a good heir to the throne but was told that it was useless-now he can do it with a smile Anything you want to do without breaking the rules, because no one cares about him anymore.

He almost forgot what he was like before.

In the end, the father gave up his son, his brother left him, and he himself was completely changed.The Loki who was the enemy of the world was thrown in a dark corner by him in disgust, weeping secretly.

Loki turned sharply, and a gust of wind from his green cloak extinguished all the lights in the room.He conjured layers of fog to cover himself, and closed the door.His entire world is all to himself.

Thor's figure slowly appeared in the mist.In the restaurant, he accepted everyone's congratulations with a bright smile.Drink a glass of fine wine under the blessing of everyone.

"Your Majesty Thor." "The future of Asgard." "The pride of the father of the gods." The gods showed flattering faces, and tried their best to flatter them with good words.There are also pure friendship and sincere wishes. Loki doesn't want to distinguish who else could have this kind of emotion besides the three warriors.

"Thor, you alone can protect Asgard." A voice from the crowd sounded convincing.Everyone immediately echoed and spared no effort to make the cheers more enthusiastic.Another prince was forgotten by them in the shadow of the backlight.

"Really?" Loki stroked his lips with his finger, and smiled, his long-lost mischievous heart revived.He snapped his fingers to dissipate the dense fog, put away his sneer and walked out of the room.

He also went to toast a glass of wine, and chatted with those people about the preparations for the enthronement ceremony.

Of course, he must have a humble and friendly expression.

Frigga's seemingly piercing eyes still stare, and her heart is drawn to the child's every move.She wanted to help him see the way ahead, but there was sadness in her eyes.

Frigga, who knows everything, understands that Loki led the frost giants into the underground palace of Asgard.She hid the secret and kept her face untouched by her Heavenly Father.With the ability of the Destroyer, the situation will not be serious, and Loki just wants to destroy Thor's enthronement ceremony, without malice.

This kind of behavior is the same as his constant pranks in the past to get Odin's attention. He hopes to achieve inner balance by constantly causing trouble for Thor.Instead, his heart became more and more empty, and he fell into an infinite endless loop.

Odin warned the future king because of the frost giant's invasion, "It is forbidden to use force to solve this matter!" Thor returned to the palace and overturned the long table in the restaurant, and all kinds of exquisite food were immediately scattered on the ground. Loki hides silent behind the pillar, he has never seen Thor lose his composure so much.

Seeing his brother sitting on the steps clutching his blond hair in self-loathing, Loki felt the need to come out and comfort him.He was about to speak when the blond man said, "I think you'd better stay away from me, brother."

Loki stopped in his tracks, but he didn't move away from him.

"Father is such an old fool," he said.

The cold wind from the corridor brushed against Loki's neck, freezing his blood as pale as his face.He thought that his elder brother was regretting the shattering of his dream of succession, which was enough to make him fall from a thousand feet into the abyss.

Must be.

Loki stands, motionless as a mountain.He said calmly, "Today is a good day for you, father should not suspend the celebration. With the Destroyer guarding the ancient winter coffin, there will be no problems."

Thor slams his fist against the ground and growls, "Who cares!"

"That is?"

"I really want to teach those damned frost giants a lesson! But I can't do anything if my father doesn't nod."

Loki twitched the corner of his mouth, this was the Thor he was familiar with, his brother would not care about the throne; let alone respond to his concern with resentment because he could not succeed to the throne as he wished.His dazed face changed into a smile.He sat down beside his brother and said to him.

"I'm not trying to comfort you, brother. You're quite right, if they break into Asgard's defenses, there's no way they won't do it again." He looked at him. "It might be the army next time."

"Loki, accompany me to Jothuheim!" Thor took Loki's hand.

Loki didn't realize that his words would have serious consequences. He thought that the Heavenly Father would just let Thor fast or go to the ice river to be punished, but Odin sent him to Earth instead. Thor Odinson was no longer King of Asgard, as if he had never existed in Asgard.

After making up his mind in the mirror, he set up a big game, but only expected most of it.

Isn't it a good thing?No one will ignore his existence anymore, no one will compare him with him, and he no longer has to struggle for the throne—in order to regain the love of his father, he has dreamed of the past almost every night for many years Time passed, and his father's eyes returned to him, and he reaped all his father's love.

He seems to be at ease now.It turned out that it was just a simple sentence that made Thor believe in himself and risked the world's dissatisfaction to conquer other countries.It takes such a short time to change all that and make the day dark. Thor's departure means that Loki's suppressed heart has been liberated.He doesn't need to be jealous, let alone love.

He should be happy but he isn't.

He is such a conflicted evil god.

This is actually the best situation he imagined, he and himself are far apart.

His father fulfilled the resolution he had been unable to make. Perhaps what his father had been waiting for was this moment, and he could kill this taboo feeling without going out on his own or doing it himself.

The torment that he and his brother still suffered physically and mentally when they hugged each other could end now.The most special thing in his life has been lost, and he can only live the most normal life.As an Asgard protoss, he will continue to guard the homeland for his brother, and let all the sunken scars be filled in the long years to come.

He stood at the entrance of the Rainbow Bridge, silently lost in thought.

"This is not a place for you to stay." The black-faced doorkeeper Heimdall has always called him by his first name, and he has a natural majesty on him.

Instead of answering him, Loki asked, "Have you ever regretted anything you've done?"

"No." Heimdall looked ahead, his expression still calm and unchanged.

Loki fell silent, "What would you do if you regretted it?"

Heimdall glanced at his face, "It's useless to regret, you can only move on."

Loki stared at him for a while, "You are indeed the most suitable guardian of the Rainbow Bridge."

"He's complicated, and his mind doesn't seem to be in his control."

After Loki left, Heimdall answered the questions of Frigga, queen of the gods.She questioned this objective and impartial door god in the tone of a queen mother, and Loki's behavior was enough to make her fearful.

"If Loki comes to you again, you open the Rainbow Bridge for him."

"Where?"

"Earth, where his brother Thor is."

Frigga knows her children, even if they are not biological.He's definitely going to see Thor.

Thor came back to his senses, the hallucination in front of him flickered a few times before disappearing.Night has fallen, and there is still mist over Asgard, like tears that haven't been wiped away.

Frigga appears behind him, her hand on Thor's shoulder.

"You're mourning Loki, Thor," Cupid said, "don't beat yourself up, because it won't help."

Thor, who had his mind read, didn't know what to say to his mother.Or, there is too much to say.Too many turbulent emotions are stuck in the throat, unable to pour out smoothly.But he said to his mother, "I will find him." He saw Frigga's body tremble slightly.

"He won't let you find him. He's hiding from you, from us," Frigga said.Look at everything between him and Loki with the eyes of a queen mother. "That's all I can tell you about Loki." She plucked leaves from the Loki tree behind Thor and smoothed them out with her hands.

She said, "Do you know what this tree is and where it leads?"

"Loki said that the way to another world after the death of the god is...memory?"

"It's memory." Frigga affirmed Loki's original conclusion.She handed the leaf to Thor carefully, as if she was afraid of ruining the vivid veins of the leaf, which were all memories from the past.

"It's all stuff that Loki doesn't want to forget. He hides it in the leaves of this tree and doesn't want anyone to know."

"He doesn't even want to tell me?" Thor's pupils twitched slightly.

Their mother was noncommittal.

He held the small leaf like a treasure, and many fragments made up Loki's memory.He can't wait to learn all about his past, and every time he sees it, he seems to get closer to Loki.Only then did he realize that the self who kept claiming to love him did not understand him so well.He once thought that he was the person who understood his younger brother best in the world, but he found that what he could understand was only a drop in the ocean.

You go west with the sun,

You will glimpse the vast evening mist.

Everything Loki has experienced, he will also experience personally.

He thinks he knows everything, but in fact he knows it later.

For the first time he felt powerless to hold on to anything.

He lowered his head and touched the leaves carefully, his eyes gradually blurred.

He hoped he wasn't crying.