don't make a fuss, bend

From childhood to adulthood, Bai Yang and Bai Qi went to the same elementary school, the same junior high school, and the same high school, but Bai Yang was one grade lower than Bai Qi.Because the age difference is only one year, Bai Yang has never called Bai Qi his brother (although this reason may be a bit far-fetched).

Bai Yang has been used to living a life of relying on Bai Qi since he was a child, and Bai Yang, who is now a 16-year-old Pianpian boy, can't wait to get rid of his dependence on Bai Qi.But my mother thinks this way, living in the school dormitory, the two brothers must be divided into different dormitories, and renting a house to live off-campus, the two live under the same roof like family members, seeing each other, can somewhat enhance the brotherhood.

But Bai Yang didn't think so, firstly he felt that Bai Qi was too aggressive, and secondly, renting a house would cost more money.However, the mother was willing to spend the money and rented a room outside the school, allowing the two brothers, Bai Yang, to live together outside the school.

At a certain time, Bai Yang would be convinced that he must have suffered from a serious illness not long after he was born.Parents and other family members would definitely not want to tell Bai Yang about this kind of thing.They may think that Bai Yang was still very young at that time, ignorant and unable to remember, just like other children in the family.Obviously, they didn't understand at all that Bai Yang was born to be different.

Bai Yang naturally likes to be alone, he is a standard otaku.Bai Yang can lock himself in the room all day, and then find endless fun from various books.Bai Yang couldn't remember when these questions began to trouble Bai Yang - what is the meaning of life?How is the world changing?How do time and space interact?

Bai Yang gradually realized that no one can truly understand this world.Therefore, Bai Yang also slowly realized that in fact, in this world, no one can understand Bai Yang and Bai Yang's loneliness.

When he was a child, his skin was not good, and his mother applied medicine to Bai Yang's face, probably because of something like chicken pox.Later, some relatives and friends joked that Bai Yang was ugly when he was a child, only Bai Yang's mother dared to hug Bai Yang, and everyone else started to hug Bai Yang.They thought that Bai Yang didn't remember, so they dared to joke about Bai Yang like this.Actually, Bai Yang remembered it.Bai Yang accepted their jokes very seriously, and secretly vowed that when he grows up, he must look good-looking.Sure enough, when Bai Yang grew up, he never had pimples on his face again.

But Bai Yang was born with a bad physique, no matter how much he ate and how much he exercised, he always looked skinny.This made Bai Yang wonder if he was a premature baby.Even if Bai Yang is the product of his mother's pregnancy for ten months, then Bai Yang must be congenitally deficient.Bai Qi of Bai Yang is less than two years older than Bai Yang. After his mother gave birth to him, within a year, her body was still weak, and she conceived Bai Yang again.

Bai Yang thought, this is all forced by the family planning policy.After learning to read, Bai Yang came across the family's birth book by chance, which was recorded by his grandfather himself.Excitedly, Bai Yang found his row, and the time written on it was [-]:[-] am.So Bai Yang remembered again, someone seemed to have said that Bai Yang was delivered in a small local clinic.This made Bai Yang even more sure that he was a premature baby, because the date of birth was not predicted in advance, so it was too late to be sent to the big hospital in the city.

Once, a distant relative came to the house, and after she knew who Bai Yang was, she showed a surprised expression.The family members mysteriously told her some words that Bai Yang had frightened them when she was a child.The family members winked, implying not to tell Bai Yang about the matter.Therefore, Bai Yang had no choice but to think wildly by himself.

Bai Yang guessed that when he was a child, he must have fallen from upstairs to downstairs, but he was unscathed, or maybe his brain or internal organs were injured, but no one noticed it.Bai Yang's conjecture was not fabricated out of thin air.Bai Yang had several nightmares of jumping from tall buildings.Every time when he was about to fall to the ground, Bai Yang would wake up in shock.Mother not only never mentioned such things, but also never took Bai Yang to see a doctor when he was growing up.

Bai Qi was born one year and eight months earlier than Bai Yang.Perhaps it was because he plundered his mother's flesh and blood first, he was much stronger than Bai Yang.Innately, Bai Qi had the upper hand.But ever since Bai Yang was born, her mother has never favored any of Bai Yang.Maybe many people think that mother always prefers Bai Yang, but Bai Yang thinks they are wrong.

Mother's love is equal, but the way of love is different.From childhood to adulthood, the two brothers, Bai Yang, shared food equally for each person.This kind of habit caused Bai Yang to leave half of the students who were assigned to Bai Yang and go home to Bai Qi.From childhood to adulthood, the Baiyangs slept on the same bed.Until Bai went to the town to study, Bai Yang had to get used to sleeping in a bed alone.When I was young, my mother liked to buy the same clothes for Bai Yang, so that Bai Yang would not quarrel and want the same one.

Later, when they grew up a bit, they might be ashamed to wear the same clothes, or because they were not twins, they had different aesthetics, and they began to wear different styles of clothes. Bai Yang didn't even like to wear clothes worn by Bai Qi .Once during the Spring Festival, his mother asked Bai Yang to wear a new dress that was given by relatives and friends on Bai Qi's birthday.Bai Yang suspects that Bai Qi wore it, always trying to find different reasons not to wear it.Bai Yang even said that this dress is a girl's dress because it has a leopard pattern.But it was useless, the people around tried to convince Bai Yang one by one, saying how new the clothes were and how masculine they were.

Bai Yang has many quirks, such as eating too much food, being distracted, and being obsessed with cleanliness.Bai Yang's obsession with cleanliness is mainly because he doesn't like things that other people's mouths have touched, including the ham sausage that Bai Qi took a bite of, and even the soup that Bai Yang's mother scooped up for Bai Yang.Mother often blamed Bai Yang in this regard, saying that Bai Yang was ungrateful for crossing rivers and demolishing bridges, and she was the one who chewed the rice before raising Bai Yang.And every time Bai Yang heard it, not only did he not know how to repent, but he felt even more sick to his stomach.Bai Yang admits that he is hopeless in this regard.

Seven years before Bai Yang was born, Bai Yang's mother failed the college entrance examination.She has been obsessed with it for a long time, and she will be online in a few minutes.According to my mother, the score line for urban hukou is lower than that for rural hukou.If the mother is from the city, she can go to college.My mother is the eldest sister in the family, and there are two younger brothers and a younger sister who are in school.Bai Yang's grandfather was an alcoholic, and he was completely exhausted from drinking.

Just when the mother was hesitating whether to retake the make-up exam, Bai Yang's hardworking grandmother fell while carrying the sack, her leg was seriously injured and she couldn't walk.In this way, my mother resolutely decided to give up the make-up exam and stay at home to take care of grandma.That year, Bai Yang's mother was immersed in endless sorrow, especially when she saw those former sisters walking on the way to repeat the make-up exam, she felt that she was the only one abandoned by this world in hell.It wasn't until the news that those sisters failed the exam again came that Bai Yang's mother returned to the world from the hell of grief.

A few years later, the mother married Bai Yang's father, lived in that old house, and gave birth to Bai Qi and Bai Yang.About the memory of the old house, Bai Yang's mind is running out.The old house was built by Bai Yang's grandfather's grandfather, that is, Bai Yang's great-grandfather.The main structure of the old house is supported by wooden pillars, and the ground is made of large stones.The house had a symmetrical layout.

I heard from my grandfather that when Gaozu was building a house, he was threatened by a Feng Shui master and defrauded of a large sum of money.At that time, Baiyang's Gaozu was still a wealthy family, and he was in the business of brewing wine.By the time of Bai Yang's grandfather's father, who was also Bai Yang's great-grandfather, the family's financial situation had failed.The great-grandfather sold half of the old house at a very low price.Since then, two families have lived under the eaves of this big house.

Bai Yang still remembers the time when he watched TV dramas in the old house.Bai Yang likes to watch TV dramas, and he never forgets the plots in them.At that time, TV stations in mainland China often repeated Hong Kong and Taiwan dramas.Along with those Hong Kong and Taiwan dramas, Bai Yang's TV has entered the era of color TV from the era of black and white.

Before Bai Yang was four or five years old, Bai Yang and his family moved to live in the county town, opened a snack bar, and started a business.The grandmother told Bai Yang that at that time Bai Yang was already a very well-behaved and obedient child.The adults can do their own business in the store, and they can rest assured that Bai Yang is sitting alone in front of the store.And what is Bai Yang doing sitting in front of the store?Grandma smiled and said that she secretly put the snacks sold at the door into her mouth one by one.

But Bai Qi is an uneasy child.Bai Qi is just five or six years old, and it's time for him to go to kindergarten, but he always complains that he doesn't want to go to school, even if he is sent to the classroom, he keeps crying.Children from other people's families can play alone in the garden with other children, but Bai Yang Baiqi wants his family to stay with him all day in the garden.In the end, there was no other way. My mother took the preschool education qualification certificate, returned to the village in the countryside, and opened a kindergarten by herself.Bai Yang didn't remember these things at first, but when his grandmother said this, some images seemed to come back to his mind.Especially for those snacks, such as powder pills, oil cakes, pot sides, and nadi.

Regarding the time when he was in the small class in kindergarten, Bai Yang basically didn't have any memories.I only remember one time, on Children's Day, my mother took Bai Yang and others to perform on the large campus of the village primary school.After the event, take a group photo.When Bai Yang was a child, he was extremely afraid of taking pictures, which is exactly the opposite when he grew up.Forgot whether it was because of shyness or fear, Bai Yang ran away desperately on the campus, while the rest of the students chased Bai Yang back to take pictures.In the album is the only photo of Bai Yang when he was a child. There is no smile on his face, whether you want to call it melancholy or dull.Later, Bai Yang went to the big campus to study in the kindergarten class. The school with the lowest level was considered a big school for little Bai Yang.

His father's character is impetuous, Bai Yang witnessed two big quarrels and fights between his father and mother.Once when I lived in the old house, and once when the new house was just completed.Some things that were broken at that time are still at home.My father has done many jobs, including farming, carpenter, tea plantation contractor, and finally a fruit merchant.The image of his father is tall and majestic, but Bai Yang is afraid of getting close to him.