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In addition to visiting school, during this period of time, Bai Qi's most frequent place was the Internet cafe.Through the Internet, Bai Qi finally got news from Cheng Fan and Jiang Dao.Cheng Fan is still repeating his studies in Jianzhou, while Jiang Dao went to Beijing to study.Through cyberspace, Bai Qi came across a diary written by Jiang Dao called "Jinse Turns into Ashes".His words stabbed Bai Qi's heart for no reason——

"We remember each other. Obviously at the beginning. We want more than these. But standing now. We can only do so much. Life is plain and clean. It is as gentle as a kapok tree. It is as beautiful as a silk tree. After losing I have lived a lot of worlds. I am alone. I grew up hard. I remember I said it. I never want to see my friends sad. But now. I just give up. I can't be anyone's salvation. What I can do. Just accompany Who is addicted to. But if you love me. You will not want to see. Then I will be good. I will live with you. Enjoy with your life. I will live well. Today I say to a person. Slow down Slowly you will find out. Happiness is not important. My world is cold. White snowflakes are blooming. The wind is raging. The important thing is to be alive. Not happy. Not happiness. Not even freedom. Who told me. You have to Hold on to your freedom. You don't forget your dreams. After we've turned our backs. Such persistence loses its meaning. Who knows. I live firmly. You know. This is already the best I can do. Non-stop Talking. All purposeless and meaningless. It should stop after all. I will be a normal child. Bear sweet fruit."

The military training was coming to an end, and both Bai Qi and Li Li were assigned to the "La Fang"—garbage phalanx.That's good, you don't have to train so hard in order to go through the motions to show the leaders at the "military parade".During the rest time, Li Li took out his mobile phone and took a few photos of Bai Qi.Bai Qi didn't use a mobile phone at that time, so these few photos are very precious.Li Li is simply a living treasure of Bai Qi.One night, Bai Qi went shopping with him to several universities next door.On the way, he talked with Bai Qi about his studies with relish.From then on, Bai Qi knew that Li Li was a very studious child.

Nearly a month since the beginning of school, that is, the day when the military training was about to end, Li Li, Fan Fan and Bai Qi went to the photo studio to take a commemorative photo of the military uniform.With the click of the photographer, their one-month military training came to an end with a bang.

During the first winter vacation in college, Bai Qi returned to his hometown Jianzhou City and met Cheng Fan.The school Cheng Fan returned to was not No. [-] Middle School, but Jianzhou Senior Middle School, not far from City No. [-] Middle School.Cheng Fan hasn't had a holiday yet, and they still have to make up lessons for a while.That day, Bai Qi went to Jianzhou Senior High School after visiting the No. [-] Middle School alone.Cheng Fan studied by himself last night, while Bai Qi waited downstairs.Finally they finished class.Cheng Fan took Bai Qi to the place where he lived, the village behind Shi No. [-] Middle School.Cheng Fan shared a room with an old classmate of his, and each of them shared a room, not separate rooms, but interconnected.Four years later, Bai Qi and Cheng Fan slept together again.That night, winter went to spring, and the weather became warmer.Following Cheng Fan's example, Bai Qi took off his underwear and lay down under the blanket shirtless.Bai Qi held back his pettiness, and hugged Cheng Fan tightly.Bai Qi once again realized what it means to sleep together.

In the first summer vacation in college, Bai Qi didn't go home, it should be said that he didn't dare to go home.Bai Qi felt more and more that he was a different kind of person.Bai Qi found a part-time job, but he didn't do it for long.After the summer vacation, Su Hao asked someone to bring something to Bai Qi, so that Bai Qi no longer needed to go to the Internet cafe.After that, Bai Qi met Yang Yang.Bai Qi always felt that getting to know Yang Yang was the beginning of stepping into this circle.

At that time, Bai Qi had a laptop of his own.Regarding the configuration of the computer, Bai Qi does not have too high requirements.For Bai Qi, there are three uses for a computer—browsing the web, making friends and chatting, and watching movies and TV shows.In Bai Qi's subconscious mind, these three uses are more or less developing toward one goal, that is, to know himself and find an organization.

Although Bai Qi realized that he was different when he was in middle school, he never had the time to know himself, let alone find an organization, or he didn’t seize the opportunity——Bai Qi once knew that the classmate There is a classmate who is his own kind.After entering college, Bai Qi began to spend time getting to know himself.

The way to get acquainted is nothing more than the Internet, or hang out in the Internet cafe of the apartment, or in the electronic reading room of the library-because of the hourly billing, Bai Qi's economic situation does not allow to spend too much time.If there are other ways, of course, it is the few professional books on sexual psychology that are displayed on the physiology and psychology shelves-but there are only a few pages in there.

After more than a year, Bai Qi finally realized that he belonged to a minority group with a proportion of 4% to 10%.In his spare time, Bai Qi learned all the theoretical knowledge about this minority group.At the same time, Bai Qi found that his secrets became more and more heavy, Bai Qi became more and more unable to integrate into the group that was mostly heterogeneous, and Bai Qi felt more and more lonely and lonely.

Now that he has his own computer, Bai Qi can spend several hours a day checking relevant information and watching related movies and TV dramas.But within a few days, Bai Qi realized a new problem, that is, he already knew himself and found an organization, and any materials and film and television dramas could no longer release Bai Qi's sense of loneliness.Therefore, Bai Qi has a new plan in his subconscious mind——Bai Qi wants to move from theory to practice, Bai Qi wants to know someone of the same kind, Bai Qi wants to join this organization, and Bai Qi wants to liberate his loneliness.But obviously Bai Qi didn't find the base of the organization on the Internet, otherwise he wouldn't always be on the school intranet and university forums.

Until one day of the National Day holiday, Bai Qi opened the Internet browser as usual, logged into the university forum, and casually browsed all kinds of posts on it.At this time, Bai Qi's eyes were extremely sharp and he discovered that the sensitive word composed of three Chinese characters unexpectedly appeared on the title of a post.When I opened the post, the group number of an online chat tool was impressively written on it.Bai Qi's heart bloomed like a flower - Bai Qi found the base of the organization.Can't wait, Bai Qi joined this group through the chat software.Then like a coincidence, Bai Qi found Yang Yang among the group members.Bai Qi read Yang Yang's profile in the group, and when Bai Qi saw that Yang Yang's hometown was Jianzhou, Bai Qi jumped up from his chair in surprise.How lucky Bai Qi is. Bai Qi found his own kind in Changsha City, far away from his hometown, and he is also a fellow.

Bai Qi decisively added Yang Yang as a friend, and communicated with Yang Yang for the first time as a fellow villager.After getting to know each other, Bai Qi knew that Yang Yang was studying at a medical school in Changsha, the same age as him but one grade lower, and the high school was not the same middle school.In the first communication, they didn't talk about similar topics, but they added each other's friendship on Xiaonei.Bai Qi saw Yang Yang's profile photo on the school net, it was a sweet and warm smiling face.After going offline, Bai Qi was secretly delighted to know Yang Yang's identity, but did not reveal his identity to Yang Yang.Bai Qi thought that Yang Yang was in the light, but he was secretly guarding the secret.This exchange is enough to make Bai Qi happy for a few days.

A few days later, after the National Day holiday, Bai Qi was faced with an important and interesting study course.The college arranges all the students of the three majors at their level to go to the factory for a one-month internship.The name of the major Bai Qi studied is very long, called mechanical design, manufacturing and automation, referred to as machine automation.The other two majors are Vehicle Engineering and Industrial Engineering. XNTU is located in the south of the Yangtze River. This internship is in an automobile factory in Shiyan City, north of the Yangtze River.Each class is assigned a leading teacher.All teachers and students take the train (hard sleeper for teachers, hard seat for students), which requires a one-day or one-night journey.Bai Qi didn't tell Yang Yang that he was going to be an intern. During the online chat, Bai Qi hesitated for a while, and finally just asked for Yang Yang's mobile phone number.Sometimes, Bai Qi is glad that he lives in the era of advanced network technology. They have both fetishes like computers and good things like mobile phones.When holding the mobile phone with Yang Yang's number in his hand, Bai Qi didn't feel lonely at all.Bai Qi felt that he was very close to Yang Yang, as long as he moved his thumb, he could exchange words and hear the other party's voice - although Bai Qi didn't dare to dial Yang Yang's phone at this time.

In the evening, a large number of people from all grades set off vigorously.They arrive at the train station by themselves in class units, and then the whole grade gathers at the station and boards the train.There are 28 students in Class 7 of Jizi where Bai Qi is in, and the proportion of girls is about 14%.On the way to the internship this time, Bai Qi was unexpectedly a little excited, perhaps because he seldom participated in class group activities.This time, Bai Qi seemed to naively regard the internship as a group trip.Bai Qi brought a magazine specially, and the MP3 was full of songs about travel.But group travel is different from traveling alone. Traveling alone can be very artistic, but traveling in a group is to be down-to-earth and playful.After entering the station and boarding the train, the sky outside the train gradually dimmed.The fat man took out the playing cards and shouted, playing cards, playing cards, one short three.Soon, Fan Fan responded to Fatty's call, and one missing three became three missing one.Then Fan Fan called Bai Qi and asked, whether to play or not, friendship comes first, losing money comes second.Bai Qi thought to himself that apart from attending classes in the classroom, it was rare for him to get together with everyone.So he simply dropped the magazine, took off his earphones, and joined the poker lineup.Among the other 27 students in the class, Fan Fan is the one that Bai Qi feels closest to.In fact, Bai Qi has been secretly in love with Fan Fan for a long time.

Bai Qi and Fan Fan became acquainted with each other because of a club activity.This association is called the Strong Society, with the slogan "Civilization is the spirit, barbarism is the body."The community organization has two activities, one is a morning run and the other is a forum.The morning jogging is in response to the slogan of "Brutalism is Your Body". Members jog along the Xiangjiang River every morning at 06:30.The forum is in response to the slogan of "civilization is its spirit". Every week, a member will give a speech on a topic of his own interest.At that time, Bai Qi was the first to see the club's recruitment poster.