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At the age of 12, all of Shen Qi's previous cognitions were shattered and reshaped. He was no longer her, but he had to live in her name.

Shen Qi is the most delicate and beautiful girl in the east of the town, which is recognized by everyone in Tangqin Town.He is always revealing a milky white, wearing a gray butterfly collar shirt, standing by the Qinghe River, is a scene.

There are still many people saying that Hu Meizi's daughter is also a Hu Meizi, no matter how beautiful she is, she will not be on the stage.

In the past, when Shen Qi heard such remarks, he could not avoid arguing, but after the physiology class in the first year of junior high school, he never quarreled with anyone again.

Originally, he had no friends, but now he keeps a distance from everyone.

Shen Qi is a girl, and he has maintained this cognition for more than ten years, and it is deeply ingrained. Even if it is overthrown physically, it is not easy to change psychologically.

But he didn't dare to get close to those girls even though he always thought he was a girl, but after all, he was not physically, so he was afraid of offending, so he didn't even dare to approach girls.

He is also afraid of boys.Watching them flaunt themselves, I always feel that that should be my own appearance, with longing and low self-esteem.That should look like a boy, but what exactly is he?

monster?

What is a boy in a floral dress but not a monster?

Shen Qi felt that there were two people tug-of-war in his head, one was a boy and the other was a girl, they were constantly arguing, trying to pull him into his camp.

"Shen Qi, I've been a girl for so many years, isn't it good to be a girl? You know, mom only likes girls."

"You're not a girl, girls don't look like this!"

"You think you're a girl, you are a girl."

"you are not!"

"You are not you are not!"

"..."

He was physically and mentally exhausted, and sitting under the willow tree, he felt like a contradictory body, with two souls living in his body.

Shen Qingzhu came over at some point, squatted beside him, and opened the small bag in his hand, "When I saw it today, I thought it was very suitable for our Qiqi. Take a look, do you like it?"

Shen Qi saw that what Shen Qingzhu put in his palm was a strawberry hairpin.

He looked at Shen Qingzhu in a daze, "Mom thinks... pretty?"

Shen Qingzhu put it on for him, pinned it behind his ear, smiled very gently, and stroked his waist-length hair.

She said: "It's pretty, my daughter is the prettiest."

Shen Qingzhu entered the room, he took off the hairpin, held it in his palm, looked at her back, and didn't look away for a long time.

Because you like your daughter and only like your daughter, do you raise your son as a daughter?Even the gender column on the household registration is female.

Shen Qi pinned the hairpin back again, sorted out his emotions, and went into the house to help Shen Qingzhu.

This year was 1999, and Shen Xi was 14 years old. For the first time, he felt that getting his mother's love cost so much.

When Shen Qi was in the third year of junior high school, Shen Qingzhu fell ill twice. She had always been in poor health, and she suffered from coughing all the year round. She went to the small hospital in the town several times.

Occasionally, Shen Qi mustered up the courage to propose changing the gender of the household registration, and then explained the matter to the neighbors and classmates. After mentioning it several times, Shen Qingzhu didn't beat or scold him, but just sat there wiping his tears and stopped talking to him. They didn't even give him a look.

If he mentioned it again, she would become anxious and cough up blood, and he would not dare to say anything more.

In the summer of 2000, Shen Qi was admitted to Liucheng No. [-] Middle School.

What kind of education reform was going on in Liucheng that year? As a municipality directly under the central government, it planned to rectify the city's junior and senior high schools.Among them is Liucheng No. [-] Middle School, which became the city's key point after the rectification, and because its location happened to be in the new urban area, it was jokingly called Liucheng's Noble Academy.

The reason why Shen Qi chose Liucheng No. [-] Middle School was very simple. It was a semi-closed school and day students were allowed.

He needs to go to school too much, so he rents a house off-campus, and the most important thing is that he doesn't have to live in the school dormitory.If he stays once, he will be arranged to live in a female dormitory, which is an offense to those girls.

Shen Qingzhu came to the city several days in advance to rent a room for him, in the alley next to the school, because it is adjacent to the new building developed by the government, so the security is very good.

She kept living expenses for Shen Qi, and told him to go home after the holiday.

There was still one day before Liucheng No. [-] Middle School started, and she could have started school with Shen Qi, but because she was busy going back to make steamed cakes, she refused to stay for one more day.

Shen Qi sent her to the entrance of the alley.

The light at the entrance of the alley is very dark, but the sunshine at the intersection is bright.

When Shen Qingzhu turned his head, he saw Shen Qi standing in the shadow of the alley.

He seems to have opened up, and his originally delicate facial features are now more refined, and his eyes are so bright that people want to get close even if he doesn't smile.

What a, beautiful, girl.

Shen Qingzhu withdrew her gaze, she knew that the child would keep watching her back disappear.He is a good and obedient child.What a pity.

After Shen Qingzhu left, the first thing Shen Qi did was to go straight to the barber shop.

Shen Qi was not familiar with Liucheng, so he asked the landlady's wife and found out that the nearest barber shop was at the corner of No. [-] Middle School Left Street.He looked for it slowly, only to find that it was a very large hair salon.

He hesitated a little, worried that if it was too expensive, the living expenses would not be enough.

The hairdresser in the hair salon has sharp eyes, and he saw the very beautiful girl at the door of the shop a long time ago. He smiled and said to his colleagues: "The little girl at the door is mine, I must show my hand today!"

He went out to entertain customers, and the colleague who was making hairstyles for the customers laughed and joked with the teenagers around him: "It's terrible, that little girl is terrible, this old ghost is a ghost!"

All the boys smiled face-to-face, only the half-closed smoking boy on the sofa in the back didn't even lift his eyelids.He has long legs and long hands, with his feet resting on the barber's stool and his hands hanging on the back of the sofa, looking impatient.

"Little girl, how about a haircut?"

Shen Qi was a little nervous, and asked, "How much?"

The barber looked at her hair and said, "Seeing that you are a student, let me tell you the truth, a haircut costs only five yuan, but your hair is long and straight, and can sell for dozens. If you want to look good, your hair will cost you $ If you can’t sell it, if you are willing to sell your hair, I will give you 30 yuan.”

"So good?" Shen Qi was very happy, "I don't want to look good, I want 30 yuan."

After the talk was over, Shen Qi followed him into the shop with some trepidation.The barber sat him down and began to take the scissors.

When the boy sitting next to him saw him, his eyes lit up, and he coughed a little excitedly, as if hinting at something.

Implied that there was no response, Ning Zhe became anxious, and simply shouted: "Brother Jing! Brother Jing!"

Shen Qi was startled by Ning Zhe's voice, and heard an impatient male voice behind him.

"Call the soul, call!"

Through the mirror, Shen Qi saw the young man who suddenly opened his eyes on the sofa behind him, and his eyes met each other, so he quickly looked away.