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When Ruan Changling came to Liucheng No.1 People's Hospital, it was already the afternoon of the second day.

The temperature in Liucheng is much lower than that in Jincheng. Even with a shawl on, the clammy cold still makes people upset.She took a taxi as soon as she got out of Liucheng Railway Station, and she was never at peace along the way.

She got out of the car in front of the outpatient building of the hospital. The crowd was noisy, fragmentary voices could not be heard clearly, and the siren of the police car was sharp and piercing. A few police officers trotted over from behind her to clear the way from the crowd. cordon.

She looked up following people's line of sight, and what caught her eyes was a thin figure standing on a towering tall building.

For no reason, her heart started to twitch, and her cell phone rang in her bag. It was Xu Dongcheng's assistant.

"Ma'am, where have you been?" The other end was in a panic.

"Downstairs in the hospital, is someone going to jump off the building?" Ruan Changling asked.

The assistant said, "It's Shen Qi."

Ruan Changling remembered the name, and Xu Dongcheng said that it was her child.

"God--"

Ruan Changling couldn't even hold the phone steadily, staggered, and ran towards the hospital hall in a hurry.

"Nurse nurse, where is the elevator?"

When Ruan Changling stood in the elevator, her palms were already sweaty. She stared at the numbers in front of her, from the first floor to the 26th floor. When she came out of the 26th floor, her mind was full of that crumbling figure.

People from the hospital guarded the entrance to the top floor, and Ruan Changling was in a daze, so they stopped her, and it was Assistant Chen who came to explain and let her go up.

The wind on the top floor was very strong, and the boy's loose clothes were blown back.

Shen Qi stood on the top floor for a long time, holding the scissors he took from the nurse's station in his hand.

The cold scissors were held in his hands and pressed against his chest. The cold touch penetrated through the thin fabric and reached his heart.

He was sleepless last night, unconscious, and couldn't even remember where he was when he regained consciousness a few times.At dawn, he finally fell asleep, and he didn't wake up until the nurse came to change the infusion bottle at noon.

He was very tired, but vaguely heard Shen Qingzhu calling himself to go home, obviously his heart was riddled with holes, but he still wanted to go with her without hesitation.

He followed her voice out of the ward, took the scissors by mistake, and went up to the top floor.

Standing outside the guardrail, he heard Shen Qingzhu talking to him. Her tone had the soft tone of a southerner, which made people yearn for it.

In an instant, Shen Qingzhu disappeared. He saw the ants-like crowd downstairs, and behind him was Xu Dongcheng who was in chaos and did not dare to move forward.

"Son! Child! Don't mess around..."

It was the flustered cry of a strange woman, who pulled her scalp and became numb.

Shen Qi turned his head dumbly, and saw a completely unfamiliar face.

"Your name is Qiqi, right?" Ruan Changling cried, "I am mother, and I am mother. Good boy, Qiqi, go home with mother... Good boy, mother, take you home..."

Shen Qi thought, that's what Shen Qingzhu said just now.

Who should he go home with?

Ruan Changling wanted to hug her child, she wanted to take a good look at him, but at the moment she dared not take a step closer, she could only stretch out her hand tremblingly to Shen Qi.

The wind blew harder.

When Shen Qi raised the scissors, Ruan Changling could hardly stand up. She was held in Xu Dongcheng's arms so that she would not collapse to the ground.

She watched as Shen Qi raised the scissors and pierced them into the flesh of his wrist. When the scissors were raised again, blood spurted out and slashed in the air.

"what--"

Ruan Changling cried and fell down.

Shen Qi was on the verge of falling, and when he was about to fall, Xu Dongcheng quickly pulled him down.

The emergency doctors and nurses at the hospital were in a hurry to stop the bleeding and put the man on a stretcher.

As soon as the group left, the rooftop suddenly became empty.

Ruan Changling's face was covered with tears, and the blood on the ground was shocking. She clutched Xu Dongcheng's clothes and burst into tears, crying hoarsely: "Ah...God damn Shen Qingzhu, I'm going to kill her! I'm going to kill her!"

"The most important thing now is Qiqi." Xu Dongcheng said.

When Ruan Changling heard Shen Qi's name, her senses gradually returned. She hurriedly stumbled downstairs and followed the medical staff.

The red light was on in the emergency room, Xu Dongcheng and Ruan Changling waited anxiously in the corridor outside, every minute and every second was suffering.

Finally, more than half an hour later, the doctor came out and said, "I have been rescued temporarily. Fortunately, the blood loss is not too much."

Ruan Changling finally felt relieved.

After the observation in the operating room, Shen Qi was finally pushed out of the ward. He was still in a coma, and his face, which was originally fair, was even less bloodless now.

The psychiatrist contacted by Xu Dongcheng has already arrived, and he just witnessed the whole process on the rooftop.

"If Mr. Xu said that Shen Qi has already jumped the river once, then this is his second suicide. The current situation is very serious."

Only then did Ruan Changling know that Shen Qi had already jumped the river once.

Her child, who is only seventeen now, has already committed suicide twice, and Shen Qingzhu has caused him too much suffering.

Ruan Changling regarded Shen Qingzhu as her best friend until yesterday.She knew that she made a mistake back then, Shen Qingzhu lost a child, so she aborted all her full-term children in order to atone for her sin, but she never counted, her child did not die, but became Shen Qingzhu's child, It became the carrier of Shen Qingzhu's resentment.

She hates herself.

These years, she has lived a happy life, her husband is considerate, and her sons and daughters are sensible and filial, but she dare not think about that child back then.Because she finally came together with Xu Dongcheng, so what was the purpose of everything at the beginning?

Looking at the unconscious Shen Qi, Ruan Changling's heart was pierced.

Xu Dongcheng comforted her: "It will be fine, it will definitely be fine."

Shen Qi wakes up at night, he is still alive, he has calmly accepted this fact.

When he opened his eyes, he saw Xu Dongcheng and Ruan Changling, who had been standing in front of his hospital bed all afternoon.

"Qiqi, wake up, it's good if you wake up," Ruan Changling was at a loss for a moment, and asked him a little stiffly, "Are you feeling bad? Tell mom, mom will ask a doctor to come and see."

Shen Qi looked at them and asked, "You guys, did you get married later?"

The two were stopped by the sudden question, and it took Xu Dongcheng a long time to say: "It's over, we've been married for ten years."

Shen Qi smiled faintly with a pale face, he looked at them, and his voice was as calm as a pool of stagnant water: "I wish you happiness."

They finally came together, it's ridiculous, why did they come to that step in the first place?Shen Xi thought that he was still a blessing, and had lost in the word fate all his life.

He has no fate with Zhou Jingtang, turning around is the end of the world.

He has no fate with Xu Dongcheng and his wife. They obviously formed a family in the end, but they abandoned him back then.

It seemed that he had died like this once, and then Shen Qi was much quieter, he was as obedient as a marionette, and cooperated with doctors and nurses for treatment.

During the hospitalization, the psychiatrist arranged by Xu Dongcheng would come over once a day. He would sit with him for a long time like an intimate and talkative uncle. Even though Shen Qi was often silent, he would tell him some interesting fables. .

The psychiatrist observed for more than a month, and said to Xu Dongcheng and his wife: "Severe depression, accompanied by serious suicidal tendencies, can't leave people around, pay more attention on weekdays, and stick to treatment."

In 2002, in this year, people didn't know much about mental illness. If it was completely irrational, it was a lunatic, or a mental illness, and there was no other name for it.

Xu Dongcheng and Ruan Changling were very unfamiliar with the word depression, almost never mentioned it in the first half of their lives, and then on this day, someone told them that their lost child was suffering from this disease.

Xu Dongcheng smoked a pack of cigarettes in the open space downstairs of the hospital, and finally threw away the pack of cigarettes, and made up his mind.

Shen Qi is his child, and he will be responsible for his life.

By April, Shen Qi's body had improved a lot, the wound on his wrist had healed, and the wound on his leg, Xu Dongcheng and Ruan Changling decided to take him back to Jincheng for rehabilitation.

Assistant Chen managed to discharge Shen Qi from the hospital, and Ruan Changling bought him a new set of clothes. She didn't want anything in the hospital. She planned to buy the best for him when she returned to Jincheng.

When Xu Dongcheng said that he would return to Jincheng immediately, Shen Qi shook his head and refused. He didn't care where he went in the future, but he wanted to go to Shen Qingzhu's tomb before leaving.

Xu Dongcheng and Ruan Changling agreed, and they personally sent Shen Qi to the foot of the cemetery.

When Shen Qi stood in front of Shen Qingzhu's tomb, his mood was hard to be at peace after all, but no matter how hard it was to be at peace, that person was gone, and he didn't even have the chance to question him.

Shen Qi thought, Shen Qingzhu really has no regrets in this life, her revenge was so successful that he wanted to applaud her.

Shen Qi suddenly hated herself very much, hating herself still loved her.

"I'm never going to have a child of my own."

"Mom, you ruined my life."

Shen Qi said: "I love you, and I hate you too. Love can't offset hate, and hate can't offset love."

"If there is an afterlife, I still want to be your daughter."

"A real daughter."

"But I don't want to see you again."