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The house Zhou Jingtang bought is in the center of Dongcheng District, which is close to Hengyi. It is a high-end residential area where every inch of land is expensive. It is more than an hour's drive from the Wetland Park.

The black car passed by on the bustling avenue in Jincheng, hidden in the traffic like flowing water.The two people in the car felt like a dream, and the pedestrians outside the car kept moving back, just like the past nine years.

While waiting for the red light, Shen Qi saw the teenagers on the bicycles parked outside the car window, the people in the back seat carefully pulled the clothes of the people in front, and the corners of their eyes were crooked when they laughed.At that moment, the picture seemed to merge with the streets of Liucheng nine years ago. When the boy turned his head, Shen Qi saw Zhou Jingtang.

He suddenly wanted to call his name, as if he just stepped over the fence to buy his favorite popsicles across the street, and turned around and walked for nearly ten years.

Zhou Jingtang suddenly asked, "Qiqi, have you ever returned to Liucheng?"

"No," Shen Qi withdrew his thoughts, recovered his voice, and said, "I have been in Jincheng since then."

Zhou Jingtang smiled wryly, and said in a joking tone: "That's really a coincidence, I've been in Jincheng too. Obviously Jincheng isn't that big, why haven't we met?"

"Aren't you abroad?" Shen Qi asked without thinking about it, and regretted it after asking.

Zhou Jingtang said: "I have been back to China for several years."

"Oh," Shen Qi said, "Is that so."

After Shen Qi finished speaking, there was another long silence, and the car stopped not long after.

Zhou Jingtang got out of the car, chatted politely with Xu Dongcheng for a while, walked to Shen Qi's car window and took his mobile phone to keep in touch with him.

The driver turned his head around, Shen Qi kept looking in the rearview mirror, Zhou Jingtang seemed to have stood there for a long time.

Shen Qi suddenly felt that this scene was very similar to when he watched Zhou Jingtang leave many years ago. At that time, he also stood there for a long time, and he was still unwilling to leave until the car had disappeared.

There is nothing more heartbreaking than a long time no see. It is obvious that they once wanted to be together forever, but now they can only pretend to greet each other as if nothing had happened, and they are afraid of being abrupt and presumptuous if they ask more questions.

"Qiqi, Zhou Jingtang...is that the boy you liked in high school?" Xu Dongcheng asked.

Shen Qi said, "Yes."

"Does he know?" Xu Dongcheng asked again.

Shen Qi shook his head, his voice was very low: "He doesn't know."

Xu Dongcheng thought for a while, and said hesitantly, "But I don't think he has feelings for you."

"He won't like me anymore," Shen Qi said, almost pinching his palms, then laughed at himself and said, "He should be with a very good and gentle person, at least, he shouldn't be with me." It's me."

Xu Dongcheng was very distressed. His child was once the most excellent and gentle person, but as a father, he came too late.

"Qiqi, you are the best," Xu Dongcheng said.

Shen Qi rolled up his cuffs, revealing the ugly and twisted scars on his wrists. When he touched them lightly, his fingertips felt horrible.He pulled out a mocking smile, and asked back: "The best one? A lunatic who jumped off a building and jumped into a river to injure himself, or a psychopath who took medicine to become skinny and lose a lot of hair, or, a lame barren child?"

"Uncle Xu, am I really the best?"

Xu Dongcheng was in great pain: "No, it's not this kind of Qiqi, you're not..."

"I am, Uncle Xu."

"I hate myself like this. When I see myself, I don't understand why such a person is still in this world?"

"If I were Zhou Jingtang, I would never like such a Shen Qi."

Shen Qi was very tired, he gradually couldn't hear what Xu Dongcheng said behind him, he leaned back in the chair and closed his eyes tightly.

He thought over and over, why did he still meet Zhou Jingtang, why did Zhou Jingtang see him like this.

He would rather Zhou Jingtang had always been that simple girl in his memory, and he wondered if Zhou Jingtang would also find him disgusting, would he also think that he was an out-and-out pervert.

Shen Qi fell into a dead end, he suddenly regretted going to the hospital today, why did he meet Zhou Jingtang again?Why did he have to meet Zhou Jingtang?

No, it should be why is he still alive?

Shen Qi suddenly lost control and threw the phone out of the car window. He was afraid, he was afraid that there was Zhou Jingtang's number in the phone.

The car finally stopped at the gate of Xu's villa. When Xu Dongcheng turned his head, he saw Shen Qi's pale face with a distorted expression. He was crying and laughing at the same time, biting his fingers to keep himself from crying.

Xu Dongcheng saw that blood was oozing from Shen Qi's fingers, he was anxious, and quickly opened the car door to get out of the car, and went to open Shen Qi's car door.

"Qiqi, what's wrong with you?"

Xu Dongcheng quickly helped Shen Qi out, and hurriedly told the driver: "Call Zhang Hao and ask him to come over right away."

Shen Qi suddenly grabbed Xu Dongcheng's arm, and asked him tearfully, "Uncle Xu, why didn't my mother just kill me?"

"Why didn't she just kill me?"

"Why didn't they just kill me? Why didn't they strangle me in the toilet?"

"I'm scared, I'm so scared, why are they all looking at me? Why don't they help me? I'm human! I'm a real person! Why are they stripping me naked and throwing me in front of everyone ?”

"Uncle Xu, look at me." Shen Qi randomly put Xu Dongcheng's hand on his face, and asked him crying, "Look at me, I'm a real person!"

Ruan Changling and Xu Yang hurried out when they heard the crying, and what they saw after they came out was the picture of Xu Dongcheng hugging Shen Qi who was crying and fussing.The whole family was in chaos all of a sudden, and no one knew what to do.

Xu Dongcheng and Xu Yang hugged Shen Qi together and carried him into the bedroom.After putting down Shen Qi, Xu Dongcheng asked the driver: "Is Zhang Hao here?"

"Doctor Zhang...is still in the hospital..."

Xu Dongcheng panicked and forgot about it, and quickly said, "Hurry up and call other doctors over."

"What's wrong with Qiqi?" Ruan Changling burst into tears in anxiety, "Hasn't he been fine for the past two years? Why did he suddenly..."

Xu Dongcheng was so busy controlling Shen Qi to hurt himself that he didn't have time to answer Ruan Changling's question. "Dad, I'm asking you!" Xu Yang was also anxious, "Didn't my brother be fine before he went out?"

"I don't know either," Xu Dongcheng said, "He just met an old classmate..."

"Could it be the person who bullied my brother before?" Xu Yang thought more and more that it was possible, and suddenly became angry, took a baseball bat and said, "Who is that bastard, I'll destroy him!"

"What a waste!" Xu Dongcheng yelled at him, "No, no, no, if it's really bullying Qi Qi, I can just come back like this."

The three of them were at a loss, Shen Qi on the bed had already collapsed, crying and shouting, talking incoherently.

Ruan Changling went over to hold his hand, gently wiped the blood on his fingers with a handkerchief, tears kept falling, and said distressedly: "My poor child, it's my fault and it's all my fault..."

Shen Qi struggled hard, trying to break free from Xu Dongcheng's shackles. He looked at Ruan Changling and cried out: "I'm not your child, I'm not..."

Ruan Changling suddenly collapsed, crying and passed out in Xu Yang's arms.

The Xu family's villa was in a mess, and the last doctor who came was Zhang Hao. He, Xu Xiaoxiao and Zhong Chenglin received a call from Xu's family in the hospital and rushed over after pulling out the indwelling needle.

Zhang Hao tried to appease Shen Qi but it was useless, he had no choice but to temporarily calm Shen Qi first.

After Shen Qi fell asleep, Zhang Hao treated the wound on his finger.Shen Qi bit too hard, the knuckles of his index finger almost didn't have a piece of intact skin.

"Tell me," Zhang Hao said, "what happened to make Shen Qi lose control again."

Xu Dongcheng sat at the end of the bed, heaved a long sigh, and said, "Dr. Bai said before that Qiqi liked a male classmate in high school, and I met him in the hospital today. It seems that Qiqi doesn't recognize him anymore, so I just said something casually." In a word, he was quite peaceful all the time, but he became like this after the person left..."

"Dad," Xu Xiaoxiao called out, "Don't tell me, that male classmate is Zhou Jingtang?"

Xu Dongcheng glanced at her and nodded.

"Who is Zhou Jingtang?" Xu Yang asked in confusion.

Xu Dongcheng said: "My business partner, I only found out today that he and Xiqi are high school classmates."

Xu Xiaoxiao rested her forehead and sighed.

"He really didn't bully my brother?" Xu Yang thought it was unscientific. Since he didn't bully, how could his brother go crazy when he saw someone?

Xu Dongcheng said: "Looking at the two of them talking, they should not be bullying."

Zhang Hao said: "Shen Qi has been stable all these years, but it doesn't mean his illness is cured. Let's wait and see when he wakes up. If his mood is still unstable, I suggest continuing the medication."

"No," Xu Xiaoxiao said, "My brother didn't take less medicine before, and it was useless except for a bunch of side effects. Then he didn't take medicine, didn't he get better?"

"Let's see the situation, and then look again," Zhang Hao said.

It wasn't until very late at night that Zhang Hao and Zhong Chenglin left Shen Qi's room and rested in Xu's guest room.

Ruan Changling also fell asleep peacefully under the care of the family doctor, and Xu Xiaoxiao stayed with her in her room.Xu Dongcheng and Xu Yang took care of Shen Qi in Shen Qi's room.

Shen Qi woke up once in the middle of the night, Xu Dongcheng fell asleep at the end of his bed, and Xu Yang dozed off by the bedside table with a baseball bat in his arms.He glanced at it and closed it again, recalling all the memories of this afternoon.

He knew he was going crazy again.

The effect of the medicine hadn't worn off yet, his whole body was limp, and he struggled even to lift a finger, so he could only look at them feebly.

Shen Xi knew why he was out of control again. When he saw Zhou Jingtang again, he was terrified, joyful, inferior, sad, and more embarrassing.In recent years, he often dreamed that he was being abused by everyone, and Ning Zhe and Lin Yuan looked on coldly. He would feel scared after waking up, but he felt fortunate that Zhou Jingtang was not among them.

Fortunately, he still retains a bit of dignity with Zhou Jingtang.

As the night became darker and dew heavier, Shen Xi struggled to cover Xu Dongcheng and Xu Yang with blankets.

After waking up on the first day, Ruan Changling prepared breakfast for him and brought it to his room. Zhang Hao and Zhong Chenglin came to see how he was doing.

Shen Qi said, "I'm sorry for making everyone worry."

Xu Xiaoxiao leaned towards him with a smile, and the little girl coquettishly said with grievance: "It's okay, as long as my brother is well, it's more important than anything else."

At that moment, Shen Qi felt sore, he touched Xu Xiaoxiao's head, but for a moment he didn't know what to say.

"Qiqi, you can't hurt yourself in the future," Zhong Chenglin said, "you can beat your younger siblings if you are unhappy in the future. They are younger and more resistant to beating. If it doesn't work, I can use Zhang Hao to beat you. Anyway, he has been your doctor for so many years. , I didn’t do my job, and I got a lot of salary.”

Zhang Hao looked back at him and struck out with a heavy punch.

Xu Yang quickly said: "Brother, I am young and strong, really."

Xu Xiaoxiao gently raised her small face in front of him, and said, "If brother can do something to a cute little fairy like me, then I can do it too."

Shen Qi was amused by them, he laughed quickly and briefly, and said: "I'm really fine, I was an accident yesterday, you don't have to worry so much."

Shen Qi knew that everyone was smiling on the surface, but in fact everyone was full of sorrow in their hearts, and they carefully maintained the warmth on the surface, for fear of touching a certain tendon in his heart.

Shen Qi rested at home for several days, Ruan Changling deliberately broke the lock of his room to prevent him from closing the door, and the whole family would find excuses to visit him every half an hour.

Zhang Hao and Zhong Chenglin also come here every day, even if they just sit with him for a while.

Ruan Changling was terrified. Ever since she saw Shen Qi on the roof of the hospital for the first time, she had always dreamed of Shen Qi stabbing the arteries of her wrist with scissors. In the following years, only when Shen Qi was not in front of her, her heart would be broken. There is no peace for a moment.Every night before she goes to bed, she has to take a look at Shen Qi, and only after making sure that he is well can she fall asleep peacefully.

She used to be a woman who paid special attention to maintenance, but these years, she was worried about Shen Qi's condition day and night, thinking too much, and she became much older.People who are less than fifty already have a lot of white hair on the temples.

All she wanted was for Shen Qi to be well.