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There was a red light ahead, Zhou Lan turned her head to look at Shen Qi, she hardly resembled the thin and clean girl in her memory, her eyes dimmed a lot, but she still felt firm when looking at people.

When she mentioned this paragraph again, she felt equally sad in her heart, but the smile on her face remained unchanged: "Jingtang went on a hunger strike, can't you tell? He is such a pampered person, and he still went on a hunger strike. His father has always been simple and rude, so what should I do when I go on a hunger strike? Let’s beat him once, or twice if he can’t do one. Later, when he went to Australia, he was about 1.8 meters tall and weighed only a few hundred kilograms. He knew he was going abroad, but he didn’t know that he thought he was sent to serve a prison sentence. .”

Shen Xi's eyes got wet unconsciously, he listened in, Zhou Lan's tone was brisk and lively, but he couldn't feel a little relaxed in his heart.

"And then?" he asked.

"Later?" Zhou Lan continued, staring intently at the front, "What can I do? Go abroad as soon as I go. In Australia, I'm still tough, and I'm being watched by someone arranged by his father. I don't want his father's money. I almost missed it a few times. It didn’t starve people to death. If you say whether he can do it or not, he doesn’t understand the spirit of being able to bend and stretch.”

It seems that Zhou Lan has not finished speaking, but the car has already arrived at the place.It's a French restaurant, Zhou Lan stopped the car and took him to the box.

After such a pause, she forgot what she was talking about, so she simply didn't mention these unhappy things, and happily introduced the special dishes of this restaurant to Shen Qi.

But Shen Qi never laughed again, his mood was still in Zhou Lan's words, at this moment he couldn't taste what was in his mouth at all.

It suddenly occurred to him that he hadn't seen Zhou Jingtang for a month.

Zhou Lan looked at Shen Qishi's tasteless appearance, her eyes didn't know where to go.She suddenly felt sad, and felt deep regret for the umpteenth time. She really did something wrong back then.

She failed to lend a helping hand to Shen Qi, and failed to lend a helping hand to the relationship between Zhou Jingtang and Shen Qi.Ten years later, everything seemed to be peaceful, but after hearing about Zhou Jingtang's situation countless times in the ten years, she would feel regretful.

The time she regretted the most was when she received a call from Lin Yuan a few years ago, asking her to help clear up the relationship and ask the traffic bureau for help.The cause of the incident was that Zhou Jingtang inquired about a person who was very similar to Shen Qi who was teaching in a mountain village, so he went into the mountain regardless of the heavy snow blocking the road, and was trapped until his whereabouts were unknown.At that time, she knew that the child she loved the most had never been able to forget Shen Qi.

After Zhou Jingtang came out of that mountain village, he was sent to the hospital directly. There were countless frostbites on his body. When she arrived at the hospital, the doctor was treating his festering wound.After the doctor left, she cried and lay down in front of Zhou Jingtang's hospital bed, so distressed that she couldn't speak.

Later she figured it out, it doesn't matter about the same sex or the opposite sex, it doesn't matter whether it's male or female, it doesn't even matter about worldly views.All that matters from beginning to end is whether Zhou Jingtang is happy or not.

During the ten years when he lost Shen Qi, he was never happy.

"Can I still call you Qiqi?" Zhou Lan asked suddenly.

Shen Qi was startled for a moment, and after a moment of silence, he smiled lightly and said, "Auntie, you can call me whatever you want."

"Qiqi, have you ever been angry with aunt?" Zhou Lan couldn't help asking, "Back then... aunt didn't help you..."

Shen Qi just smiled, and said: "Think about it differently. If I were in my aunt's position, I probably wouldn't be able to be as good as my aunt. I never blamed my aunt, and I have always been very grateful to my aunt."

For a moment, Zhou Lan was ashamed several times, she couldn't compare to this young man's heart.

That's right, this is Shen Qi, that Shen Qi who always thinks of others, that kind Shen Qi.

Zhou Lan answered the phone, it seemed to be about work, she went out for a while, and when she came back, she said to Shen Qi: "Qiqi, you eat first, I paid the bill, there are some work matters, I have to go first gone."

Shen Qi nodded: "Okay, Auntie."

Zhou Lan took the handbag and left, Shen Xi was the only one left in the box, he immediately let go a lot, eating without any burden.

When he was eating for a while, the door of the box opened suddenly.Shen Qi thought it was a waiter, but when he raised his head, he saw Zhou Jingtang.

He was startled, choked, and hurriedly poured the tea next to him into his mouth, swallowing it raw.

Zhou Jingtang's eyes were full of smiles, he leaned against the door and laughed for a while before coming in, sat next to him, and asked him, "You see me so excited?"

Shen Qi was sure that there was no food in his mouth before he dared to ask him: "Why are you here?"

Zhou Jingtang removed a pair of unused chopsticks next to him, and ate together, saying: "My aunt said that she invited a child to dinner, but she forgot to pay the bill and left, and asked me to pay, so that the child would not be detained to wash the dishes. "

"Come on, my aunt said she bought it." Shen Qi said without thinking.

Zhou Jingtang flipped through his phone, took out the chat page with Zhou Lan and gave it to Shen Qi, it was exactly as he said.

"Why didn't Auntie tell me, it's not like I can't afford it," Shen Qi said.

Zhou Jingtang smiled, poured himself a cup of tea, and said, "Isn't that right, our classmate Shen Muxi is now the owner of a grand restaurant, how can we be short of money for this meal? My aunt is really old and her brain is not good. Made it."

Shen Qi frowned and looked at him: "Don't say that about elders."

Zhou Jingtang choked on him, and suddenly thought about it and felt that he was not a thing.

Shen Qi had already eaten, and Zhou Jingtang bought the bill within a short while.It was rare for Shen Qi to want to stay with him for a while, so when he proposed to take a walk around to digest food, he did not refuse.

Zhou Jingtang has already mastered the method of how to correctly calculate Shen Qi's true thoughts many years ago.Just like how he liked to buy popsicles for him back then, he said he didn’t want it, but he could give it to him, he didn’t say anything, he just wanted it very much, if he said he wanted it, he wanted it so badly, he wanted it right away.

The location of the French restaurant is in the city center, and the southeast is a People's Park, where there are many people walking at night.It's cold now, there are few people, and there are a few elderly people with children here and there.

Zhou Jingtang gestured to Shen Qi's stature with his hands, and joked with him with a smile: "You seem to be taller, no, maybe I've shrunk."

Shen Qi looked at him with an idiotic look: "You would rather say that you have shrunk than admit that I am tall?"

Shen Qi just reached Zhou Jingtang's ear, and he was indeed taller than when he was in high school.

Zhou Jingtang took big steps, and found that Shen Qi was walking very slowly, then slowed down again.He walked back a little on purpose, and saw that Shen Xi's walking was indeed not as agile as ordinary people.He felt distressed at the tip of his heart, but he remained patient and didn't say anything, he just stepped forward and put his hand on Shen Qi's shoulder.

"Don't break free," Zhou Jingtang thought he was threatening him viciously, "If you break free, I'll just lock your throat. If you don't believe me, try it?"

Shen Qi tried to struggle a few times, but found that Zhou Jingtang's strength was still astonishingly strong, so he simply gave up struggling and let him go.

Shen Qi suddenly thought of something funny and said it: "I used to think...you like my sister..."

"Xiaoxiao?" Zhou Jingtang's eyes widened in shock, refusing to believe that it was Shen Qi's words, he made sure for the second time, "You said you thought I liked Xu Xiaoxiao?"

Shen Qi nodded: "Yes."

Zhou Jingtang was amused, and asked him: "In your Shen Muxi's eyes, do I, Zhou Jingtang, eat tender grass like this? You really dare to be young, and if I grow up, your sister will call me uncle when she sees her."

"It's not... how close..." Shen Qi couldn't help muttering in a low voice, but was stopped by Zhou Jingtang's eyes.

Zhou Jingtang smiled brightly, his hard outline softened, and most of his hostility dissipated. He poked Shen's head with a smile: "Shen Muxi didn't realize that you have a talent for messing around with couples."

Shen Qi was speechless and honestly lowered his head.

Zhou Jingtang stared at his head for a long time, glanced around, asked Shen Qi to sit on the bench beside the artificial lake guardrail, then squatted in front of him, looked at him seriously, and asked, "Qi Qi , let’s talk about what happened last time? Why did you react so strongly last time?”

Shen lived in Zhou Jingtang's gentle eyes that seemed to drown people, his heart was in a mess, and he still wanted to escape subconsciously.He didn't dare to look him in the eyes, didn't dare to let himself think too much.

Just like when he heard from Xu Dongcheng that Zhou Jingtang had admitted that he liked men, he couldn't control his delusions, but he couldn't help thinking what if?But in the end he is afraid, afraid that ten years of emotions will still be unable to escape in the end, and it will end in vain.

Zhou Jingtang held his hand, lowered his head and chuckled, raised his head to look at him again, and said with a smile: "I had a meal with Uncle Xu a few days ago, and he told me that you liked him when you were in high school. I once had a boy. I was so surprised, I was so good with you in high school, I treated you to popsicles every day, took you on a bicycle, and found you all kinds of delicious food, why didn’t I know that you had someone you liked? "

After finishing speaking, he muttered, "It's still a boy."

Shen Qi was already surprised to see Zhou Jingtang today, but he didn't think much about it because Zhou Lan called him over.But when Zhou Jingtang mentioned Xu Dongcheng, he felt that Zhou Jingtang's appearance today was premeditated.

"Tell me quickly," Zhou Jingtang said, "I'm so curious, which outstanding boy is so honored to be secretly loved by our classmate Shen Muxi."

Shen Xi cast his eyes here and there, his mind was completely confused, and he said stubbornly: "Anyway, it's not you."

Zhou Jingtang let out a chuckle, and nodded in agreement with him: "Isn't it me? Sorry, sorry. Who is that?"

"Is he very handsome playing billiards?"

"Is it cool to ride a scooter?"

"Or the one with the wind in the fight?"

"Then I know, it must be that bastard who sits behind you and keeps kicking your ass!"

Shen Qi heard Zhou Jingtang say more and more shameless, he stared at him, and then ran out: "Do you still know that you are a nuisance?"

Zhou Jingtang put away his hippie smile, and looked at him seriously, with a casual but bitter tone: "Yes, I know that I am not only a nuisance, but also someone Shen Qi likes."

Shen Qi was trapped by him, and immediately panicked when he heard this sentence, his brain exploded, and he organized his words for a long time, but when he opened his mouth, he found that he couldn't utter any excuses.

Zhou Jingtang said: "Shen Muxi is really Shen Muxi, she is different, what age is she still playing secret love, look at me, I am frank, I like someone has always been a clear love. I liked Shen Muxi when I was in high school, I hope everyone The world knows. Now I still like Shen Qi, and I also want to tell the world."

Zhou Jingtang wanted to pass all the warmth of his palms to Shen Qi, he held his hand firmly and earnestly, looked into his eyes and said: "I know that the road between two men is not easy, if it was easy, I would have done it back then." I won't be like that bear anymore. I know it's hard to go on, I know this road has always been a long road, so I'm out, I came out a few years ago. Shen Muxi, I just want to Take the hardest part of the road, and the rest is smoother, can you walk with me?"

Under Zhou Jingtang's gaze, Shen Xi's eyes were red, and he pinched his palm with the hand hanging by his side, because he felt that it was unreal, like a dream.He was afraid that after sinking into it, he would never wake up again.

"Shen Muxi, talk to me, okay?"

Shen Qi was about to speak, but he couldn't utter a single word when he opened his mouth, tears fell down first, as if the thread had come off, he burst into tears.

He lowered his head and made no sound. Zhou Jingtang could only see his trembling shoulders.

After more than ten minutes, Shen Qi's shoulders gradually calmed down.After a long time, he raised his head, his eyes were red, and he only said one sentence.

"I'm a man," he said.

He wanted to say that I am Shen Qi, but I am not the Shen Qi I used to be.

Zhou Jingtang gently wiped his tears with the pulp of his thumb, and said in a soft tone: "I know you are a man, do you remember that I broke my leg once when I climbed your window and found out that you were a man? Yes. I thought about it a lot at the time, and then you were nice to me and smiled at me, so I figured it out. I like you, and I like you as a man."

You are a man and I like it too.

As soon as these words came out, Shen Xi's tears fell again.He has been emotionally sensitive over the years, but often has no tears.Only things related to Zhou Jingtang often touched his heart.

Shen Qi looked at him, and after the emotions passed, for a moment he wanted to hug Zhou Jingtang and say that I like you too, but the inadvertent pain in his calf reminded him whether the broken Shen Qi could still stand in front of Zhou Jingtang. beside.

I don't know which book said, what is the initial mood of liking someone?is humble.The moment I fell in love with that person, I could see almost all my shortcomings.

Zhou Jingtang said that he likes Shen Qi.

But in Shen Xi's mind, he remembered the scene in the hospital in Liucheng, the doctor said that he would never have his own child again.

dilapidated, unbearable.