can i trust you

Until sitting in the box with Shen Mo, Ding Li didn't know why he agreed to Mo Mo to come out.

Si Mo sat in front of the karaoke stand, "Do you want to sing?"

Ding Li shook his head, "I can't... you can sing by yourself."

"It's just the two of us, what are you afraid of. Let's play some songs."

Ding Li was silent for a while, and walked to the karaoke stage.

Shen Mo leaned back on the sofa and watched Ding Li order a song, "Speaking of which, I really haven't seen what you've done."

Ding Li turned his head and looked at Shen Mo suspiciously.

Mo Mo raised the corners of his mouth, "Whether it's class gatherings or group day activities, you don't seem to talk much. When there are too many people, you will disappear."

After hearing this, Ding Li also smiled, it was true.

When there are many people, he doesn't like to talk.

It also has something to do with his personality.He didn't want to make himself too present, didn't want to dance too much, so when there were many people, he chose not to speak, and gradually got used to it.

When someone is there, he doesn't speak.

Both of them were silent for a while, then Shen Mo suddenly asked, "What do you like?"

"Ok?"

"What do you like to do? Besides studying."

Ding Li smiled, "When did I say I like studying?"

"Don't all of you masters like to study?"

Ding Li sighed, "I'm not a top student, and I don't like studying. Studying...just because it's what I have to do."

Ding Li has always disliked studying, but he has to study.

He once regarded study as the whole of his life because his family said, "study well" and "good student". However, in the third year of high school, he suddenly didn't know the meaning of his study.

As a student with excellent grades since he was a child, he always felt that his grades had to be good enough, and his grades had to be good enough to be worthy of his title of "good study", so his grades in the second year of high school were always mixed At that time, he went to talk to his former head teacher.

The former head teacher was because the head teacher was on maternity leave, and because of this, he had the courage to talk to the teacher.

In fact, he knew that he was just too lonely at that time.

He has always felt that he is very depressed every day. He is studying outside alone, surrounded by people he only met in high school. collapsed.

The consequence of communicating with the teacher is that in the heart of the former class teacher, he is not very good. He really wanted to ask the teacher, do you remember that I was in the top three in the class and the top 50 in the grade... He knew that he Not very top-notch, but still can't accept the indifferent attitude of the teacher at that time.So he really didn't care.

In fact, after chatting with the teacher, he once called his father, just hoping to get encouragement from the other party.

It was the first time he called home to talk about these things, and the phone call of less than 5 minutes turned out to be the last, so much so that he is now used to digesting everything by himself.

So much so that he didn't know what he had done in the past.

He doesn't like studying, but he still tries hard to learn.

All learning is for oneself.

and then?

Then, during that time, Ding Li kept thinking, what would he do if it was really for himself.

Thinking of the things he had discarded in order to study, he suddenly felt very tired.

So, when others were struggling to review, he exiled himself to the corner of the last row of the classroom, living in a daze, learning day after day.

When the final results came out, he knew what he had done.

Everyone in the class thinks that he is a top student, but only Ding Li knows that he is not a top student. The reason why he can learn so easily is because the place he is in does not match his grades at all. It was taken at the end of the day.

Not to mention he is not.

In fact, it is really simple when a person wants to give up on himself.Doesn't he like eating, sleeping and playing games every day?

It's very fragrant, but Ding Li doesn't like it.

However, he still doesn't know what he likes to do.So eat, sleep and watch videos every day.

Then, eat, sleep, and watch videos.By the way, each course is 90+.

Ding Li's ranking is actually very average. A class of more than 90 people ranks in the top ten, but that's because Ding Li's grades in elective courses are average. As long as it is a PPT class, it is not easy for him to get the highest grade—after all, the teacher is still there. Give excellence to those who are "excellent".However, Ding Li did not score below 90 points in any of the examination subjects.

This is also the reason why Ding Li is not ranked high but is called a top student.

Sometimes Ding Li would also think about what else he would do besides taking exams.

"What can you sing?" Mo Mo asked Ding Li as he casually flipped through several pages.

Ding Li pursed his lips, actually there were quite a few, but he was too embarrassed to sing.

Seeing that he still hadn't figured out what to sing, Shen Mo said, "Let me order for you. What I order, you sing." Then Shen Mo helped Ding Li order some legends, "Everyone has heard of it." songs.

Then Ding Li really sang.

The moment Ding Li opened his mouth, the silence froze.

After a song ended, Shen Mo smiled, "You sing so well, why don't you want to sing?"

Ding Li also smiled.

Yes, I used to like singing so much.

Ding Li recalled that when he was very young, he used to take the mp3 of his neighbor's brother to dictate the lyrics. The child didn't know many words, and after he finished writing, most of the lyrics were in pinyin.

Ding Li still remembers the lyrics he used to fill in. For the first time, he used the song "Summer Blown by the Wind".

Those memories that he left in the past surged up, and Ding Li suddenly wanted to cry.

"I don't like studying," Ding Li heard his hoarse voice, "I don't like it at all." After speaking, he sat there with his back bent, tears streaming down his face.

He didn't know why he was acting like this all of a sudden.

Maybe this is the reason why I no longer want to sing in places with people since my third year of high school.

Memory is such a thing, maybe at a certain moment at a certain point, it will trigger something buried in the depths, and then let you examine yourself as a bystander who is gradually becoming stupid.

Ding Li Neng recalled himself walking to school while carrying his schoolbag and singing songs.I can also recall that as I got older, I gradually became taciturn.

Qiao Yang didn't spend long with him.But during the time he was there, he was his real self.

As Qiao Yang left, and as he walked towards Li Hang little by little, Ding Li gradually buried himself.

The support and trust given to others have also been exhausted little by little in life.

Ding Li hates himself now.

Silence froze for a moment, walked over and hugged Ding Li lightly, without saying a word.