can i trust you

Bai Ran is Ding Li's and Li Hang's elementary school classmates, and coincidentally, they are also in the same class in junior high school.

Bai Ran is a very gentle girl, not pretty, but she has an aura that boys like.

Ding Li has always liked to get along with Bai Ran, and it is very comfortable to talk and communicate with her.

Bai Ran seems to be very willing to get close to Ding Li.

By the time of junior high school, the two seemed to be getting closer.

Ding Li and Bai Ran have always maintained an almost ambiguous feeling.

Although boys and girls at that age actually don't know how to distinguish what is true love.

The two have always maintained a seemingly distant relationship.

But because of Ding Li's personality, they don't actually have much time to communicate.

Except at school, at school.

Because the two of them walked relatively close at school, in fact, everyone in the class tacitly agreed that they were together.

And in the tacit eyes of everyone in the class, the two of them acquiesced in their relationship.

Later, Ding Li was recruited away by a key provincial high school, and the communication between the two became even less, and they could only see each other during the holidays.

When returning home one time, the class made an appointment to hang out. On the way to the meeting point, Li Hang said to Ding Li calmly, "Actually, I call Bai Ran every night."

Ding Li didn't know how to describe his mood, he wanted to say, it's nothing, after all they are good friends, they have been playing together since elementary school.But I always feel weird.Like a thorn, it hurts when you move it.

Ding Li didn't think he felt this way because Li Hang talked with Bai Ran on the phone every day.It's just that he couldn't tell what it was that made him feel so uncomfortable.

Then, there was a holiday, and several people made an appointment to go out together.

Ding Li only went home once a month, so he had little time and many things to do. That day, he was driven by his mother to his aunt's house to do some errands, so he didn't go.

Ding Li moved house when he was in junior high school, so their house is no longer as close to Li Hang's house as in elementary school.

But Ding Li's aunt's house was near their original house, and when he came home, he still passed by Li Hang's house.

There is an alley at the corner next to Li Hang's house, because it is a bit dark, so there are few people walking there, but it will be closer to Ding Li's house if you walk from there.

Ding Li accidentally saw a figure when he was walking, and when he was about to turn around and leave, he felt that the figure seemed to be Li Hang, but the person there was not alone.

There is another person in the lower position in front of him.

Because of the standing position at that time, Li Hang was turning his back to him. Although he was blocked a bit, he could still see that the person in front of Li Hang was Bai Ran.

In fact, the sky is already very dark, and the moonlight is not very bright, only a little dim light from the side hits a place not far from the two of them.

Bai Ran's face was hidden in the dark, but Ding Li felt that he could clearly see every expression on her face and every movement of him.

Ding Li felt that his whole body was frozen, but he also felt that he shouldn't be in this place, so he staggered back from the side road.

He walked home quickly, but he still unconsciously recalled the picture that just appeared in front of him in his mind.

Thinking of the two people in front of him just now, thinking of what they were doing, thinking of that scene, those pictures made him feel unacceptable.Ding Li suddenly felt something rushing up from his stomach.

He squatted next to the green plants by the roadside and retched unceasingly.

He walked for a while, and for some unknown reason, he dialed Li Hang's phone.

Li Hang answered quickly, "Hello?"

"Hey, I'm done here, are you done?"

Li Hang's voice sounded very depressed, "It's over. You came from your aunt's house?"

"Ah."

"I'm near my house now. Bai Ran is also there. Come over here? Drop her off."

Ding Li pursed his lips, "...OK."

Ding Li hung up the phone, laughed at himself, and when he turned back, he didn't know what he was thinking.Why are you making this call.Why go back.

He didn't even know how to face the two of them later.

When Ding Li arrived, the two were waiting for him not far from Li Hang's home.

Ding Li walked over and looked at the two of them, the feeling of nausea began to rise again.

He pretended to greet Li Hang naturally, and then left with Bai Ran.

On the way, Ding Li seems to have intentionally or unintentionally opened the distance between the two of them, as if he could smell Bai Ran's body.Ask Bai Ran, "Bai Ran, I have never asked you before. What do you think we are?"

Bai Ran looked at him suspiciously, as if she didn't understand what he said.

"I suddenly felt that we didn't explain a lot of things. Since junior high school, I have actually acquiesced in our relationship. But I found that I was the only one acquiescing. I have never asked what you mean."

Bai Ran smiled, "Of course we..."

Before Bai Ran could finish speaking, Ding Li continued, "I usually don't have much vacation time, and we don't seem to communicate much... Li Hang told me before that you guys are on the phone every day, right?"

Bai Ran seemed a little flustered, "I have nothing to do with him, Ding Li, don't think too much. It's him who called me. It's hard for me not to answer, Ding Li. Although our relationship has never been explained, our classmates and Don't all my friends know that we are a couple?"

Ding Li frowned.

If their relationship is just a misunderstanding of his own, then Ding Li can let himself accept it, after all, from the very beginning, these things are all in his own opinion.

However, Bai Ran said such words clearly.Ding Li instantly felt that this person was uncomfortable.

He couldn't hear what Bai Ran was still saying, he just felt his whole stomach turning.

Bai Ran suddenly grabbed his arm, as if eager to explain something.

At this moment, Ding Li smelled Bai Ran's body again, and the scene just now jumped into his mind again. Ding Li rushed to the side of the road and retched again.

Bai Ran was taken aback and wanted to come over to see how he was doing.Ding Li stretched out his arms to keep her away from him.Then slowly stood up.

"Bai Ran, the two of us never said we were together from the beginning. Since we never said we were together, then let's pretend we were never together."

Ding Li couldn't remember how he sent Bai Ran back home, and how he returned to his own home.

He never said what he had seen.

He didn't even quite understand why Bai Ran could still say the words of being with him after he had done such a thing with Li Hang.He also didn't understand why Li Hang could do things that hurt him again and again, and still act as if nothing had happened in front of him.

After that, Ding Li gradually alienated Li Hang.

Originally, after Ding Li moved to high school, the communication between the two became less.

However, since then, whenever a girl gets too close to him, he always seems to be able to smell something from her body, and then his stomach starts to churn.

Ding Li looked at the blindfolded Shen Mo beside him.

I don't know what kind of mood this person will feel now that he can't see anything.

The author has something to say:

You will find that there seem to be a lot of memories about Ding Li's past so far.In fact, writing these contents is also to explain why Ding Li is not so good at getting along with others, he is not so willing to trust others, and even a little bit of things will make people lose trust in him.It's not that he doesn't want to believe it, but what happened in the past and the people he met in the past made him dare not trust others easily.He used to treat others as friends with all his heart and soul, but it was those friends who hurt him the most.In fact, he still has his heart and soul when getting along with everyone now, but he no longer believes that the people around him are so pure when getting along with him.That is, he himself still has nothing to hold back, but he is no longer willing to trust others with reservations.This is why I said that Ding Li really has many problems, but I still hope that everyone will not dislike him.Then, the last thing about Ding Li's past has been explained.After that, it is to get along well with the people around you now!I just wanted to say something but I can't remember it, so uncomfortable!ah.Yes, Ding Li and Bai Ran have nothing.The hand...is it pulled?Because they were too young when they met, and they didn't understand anything.The words are half-spoken.Coupled with the fact that the two of them didn't have much chance to get along, Ding Li went out again afterwards.So they should be more like "oral couples" like elementary school students?Ding Li must have had a good impression of Bai Ran, but that kind of good feeling cannot be said to be in any category.But this can't alleviate the shock he received when he saw certain pictures.Li Hang is the person who has the deepest influence on Ding Li's understanding of friendship.Because he was the first person Ding Li contacted, and they got along for many years.But Li Hang didn't seem to take Ding Li's sincerity seriously.He appeared when Ding Li's concept of friendship was still vague, and then trampled on Ding Li's most sincere friendship.So Ding Li treats his friends very well, he doesn't know what to do.So he will not take the initiative to maintain friendship.Because he didn't think it would work out.That's a lot to say, and I don't know if I didn't express myself clearly.Anyway, everything will be fine.Thanks to everyone who is willing to click in.I know that my ability is limited and my writing is average, but I still hope that everyone will like it.