can i trust you

"where is this?"

Ding Li originally thought that he already knew the situation of the school well, but after walking with Shen Mo, he still found many places that he hadn't been to.

"Here?" Shen Mo glanced aside, "Maybe it looks different at night. Here," Mo Mo pointed to the side, "isn't it the school hospital?"

Ding Li looked over, "Oh~ yes."

Smiling silently, "You are also good enough."

Ding Li looked around, "I came out too little."

"Ok?"

"That's right, I seldom go out for a stroll, so..."

"Wait," Mo Mo looked at him, "Say, you don't go shopping much? Who is wandering around the school all day long?"

"That's on the west side. I really rarely come to the east side."

He raised his eyebrows silently, "You have the final say."

Ding Li pursed his lips and smiled.

The two of them were walking all the way, when Shen Mo suddenly said, "Saturday, do you have anything to do?"

Ding Li was stunned, "Huh?"

"Do you know about flying cups?"

"Ding Li nodded, I've heard it..."

"In the past, I bought a lot of things to play with. Rubik's Cube Turning Pen Fly Stacking Cups. Practice your hands."

"Have you played well?"

Silently smiled, "It's okay. I dare not say the speed. At least I can have a play."

"Yeah." Ding Li nodded, "So what does this have to do with whether I have something to do on Saturday?"

Shen Shen tilted his head and looked at Ding Li, "Let's go out to play on Saturday. I'll play those things for you to see."

"Oh..." Ding Li turned to look at him, "Where are you going?"

"Just... there is a quiet star outside the south gate..."

"Oh." Ding Li suddenly looked at Shen Mo, "..."

Shen Mo raised the corner of his mouth and looked at him, "What's wrong?"

Ding Li pursed his lips, feeling that he shouldn't think too much about messy things, he shook his head, "It's okay..."

"so?"

"I... I have nothing to do on Saturday..."

"Well, then we have agreed, we will go together then."

"Ah."

Shen Mo looked aside, "Orange."

Ding Li looked over, "I've never seen an orange tree before."

"I've seen it now."

"Actually, after arriving at our school, I felt like a fool, as if I had never seen anything."

"It's because the places are different. The south and the north. Many things are different."

Ding Li smiled, "That's right. I found that many schools like to use pomegranate flowers as their school flowers."

Silence froze for a moment, then laughed, "School beauty."

Ding Li nodded, "Oh, what's the problem?"

Shen Mo approached him, "Speaking of which, what type of girl do you like?"

Ding Li shook his head helplessly, "You...you should know, I..."

Silence seemed to have just reacted, and the corners of his mouth dropped suddenly, "I'm sorry...I..."

Ding Li smiled, "It's okay, I really don't care that much anymore. It's just..."

It's just that there are some things that he doesn't want to care about, but they affect him like they are carved into the bone marrow.

Like.

The people or things he doesn't want to care about will always affect him in his life because of the pain that he has brought to himself.

Like, he can always recall that he was cheerful, angry, and irritable.

But now, Ding Li no longer knows how to vent his emotions.Even when he was extremely angry, he just kept silent.

he did not do it on purpose.

But I don't know how to change it.

Silence looked at Ding Li, "Why do you..."

Ding Li smiled, he knew what Mo Mo was asking, and said softly, "Actually, you already know about Bai Ran."

He nodded silently, realizing that Ding Li wanted to say something to himself.

Ding Li took a deep breath, "Actually... After I cut off contact with Bai Ran, I didn't understand why for a long time."

Why do people who I treat sincerely from childhood have to use a knife to cut my heart.

Sometimes looking back on the past, I feel like I am jumping in front of other people like a clown.Therefore, after high school, Ding Li gradually became less willing to talk and less willing to open his heart.

But it will also be moved by a little sincerity of others.

But it was just kept in my heart.

I don't want to get close, not because I don't want to get close, but because I am afraid that after getting too close, I will be sad again.

What about silence?

Ding Li turned his head to look at Silence.

Ding Li himself didn't know why he took the initiative to approach Shen Mo, and why he allowed himself to get closer and closer.

But just when he overthrew his own principles time and time again in order to get closer to Silence, Ding Li also felt that Silence was different to him.

Silence stopped suddenly.

Ding Li looked at him suspiciously.

Mo Mo suddenly raised his arms to hug Ding Li, "Ding Li."

Ding Li suddenly felt his chest swell.

Shen Mo buried Ding Li's head in his embrace, "Ding Li, you know? Although I don't know why, but... I want to protect you. So, let me protect you in the future."

Protect you from the things that bury the real you.Help you, throw away all the pain that is weighing on your heart.

Although, I have never seen the once brilliant you in your mouth.

But I believe that you must be beautiful at that time, so I want to see you like that.I will also accompany you to find the you back then.

Ding Li leaned on Shen Mo's chest, listened to Shen Mo's violent heartbeat in a daze, and slowly raised the corners of his mouth, "Okay."

The author has something to say:

That is, because I seemed to write about their feelings in peace before, so I have been thinking about how to make them more natural when their feelings change.In fact, the bookstore has already written some of them before, and I want to strengthen them here.Then, in the middle of writing, I wanted to write about Ding Li's experience.It's just that I said before that I don't want to keep writing about Ding Li's past experiences, so I omitted some of them.Hope it's not too obtrusive here.The plot may be relatively small today, so the content is a bit less.It may be because of my ability, I always feel that my plots are not full enough.In fact, my feelings for Ding Li are still very complicated.I feel sorry for him and want him to get better, but I also feel that he is really not that easy to change.But I'm sure he'll be fine with Silence's company.

Thanks to everyone who came in and supported me.Thank you for the hot dry noodles without spicy kids.Than a 2!