The male partner of the rebirth system does not die

eye line.

What did you think at the time that you chose to embark on such a road of no return?

Even now, he has never been able to figure it out.

So if I have to say it, I probably can only blame it on my youthful arrogance at that time!

I haven't slept well recently, thinking about this, Xiang Gu Huai was heavy again, and slowly closed his eyes.

Anyway, all the work and announcements are gone so far, so I still have a lot of time left.

There are so many that he can't even imagine, and he can spend as much as he wants.

Then the time in the dream went back again to sometime in the distant past.

In fact, his thoughts at that time were still very simple, no one agreed and affirmed, and the people around him were almost indifferent or even disdainful towards him.

So I don't know when, in his heart, he wants to be superior to others one day, and then let those who secretly dislike him regret their contempt.

At the beginning, he also really liked acting.

Because it's just a script, but it allows him to enjoy the different lives of different people in just a few months, which in his opinion is a very interesting and amazing thing.

But then gradually, as time went by, he achieved almost nothing in a few years. Even the directors who worked with him said that he was a good seed worth cultivating, and that his acting was real and contagious. What good could they say?

I still can't be popular, I can't be popular!

With the growth of time, he also began to be just a walk-on at the beginning, and later he reached the position of supporting role where he can play a lot of roles in various scenes.

But at the beginning, it was obvious that I was satisfied just being able to act in a certain drama I liked, and even being full of energy at the time didn't need my face to be shown in front of the camera.

But human beings are greedy, their desires are endless and will never be filled.

When slowly, he finally got a simple frontal shot on TV, at that moment, he began to want more for granted.

I want more people to see my performance, and I want more people to see the different roles I interpret.

However, after each acquisition, it is accompanied by another more and more inflated greed.

Until the end, since you all said that I have potential and I performed well, why?Why not give me a leading role to be Dangdang!

Probably since then, his heart has started to wither slowly, and then another dark flower bud has bloomed!

The daily life that could be easily satisfied in the past is full of vitality every day, as if there is endless energy in the daily life, and gradually, it begins to be swallowed by these dark desires that are becoming more and more utilitarian.

But how can you get what you want in life?

Therefore, when he felt that he could no longer be satisfied with something he was looking forward to, all kinds of negative and dark emotions gradually filled his whole body.

He wants everyone to see his goodness and perfection one day, so he only knows that he needs more, more... more opportunities!

What is "waiting"?He no longer wants to understand.

I am no longer willing to continue wasting on such a sensitive word that seems to be far away for me.

Since in order to realize his wish, he really needs to pay accordingly, not to mention that he has already paid painfully once, then the next second and third times, and a few more times, what's the problem?

He wants to rely on his own strength and ability to climb to a certain position on the peak one day, and then overlook all living beings.

Then let everyone know, "Look, who said I can't do it!"

Even the one he loves so much.

But at that time, I didn't understand, even if I finally obtained a steady stream of good resources one after another by such means, and by the way, when I was gradually known and sought after by the public with my increasingly superb acting skills, how many people would I have? At night, there is no one caring person by his side to accompany him?

Later, in the long and long years, what I really paid for and lost for this was the happiness that I had at my fingertips for a lifetime!

Looking back on the past, what you say depends on yourself, it's all on yourself!But is it really on your own?

Could it be that his so-called self-obtained opportunities were also traded with others through speculation?

After all, don’t you also rely on others?

What the man told him at that time still rings in my ears today.

"I'm not pretending to be selfish, but I really think that you, Huai, just lack an opportunity. So you wait for me, at most a year, and then I can choose a suitable time for you. As long as this one step, I believe you will be able to soar into the sky!"

But I ignored it.

He thought it was probably his Aiwujiwu.He talks about how good he is all day long, but what about the truth?

If I really have such good words as he said, why have I been so unknown all this time?

That's right!It turned out that since no one knows when, his heart has begun to no longer believe in himself.

There were too many doubts around him, and even he himself was gradually affected!

Or maybe he was still a little unwilling from the bottom of his heart at that time, thinking "Why?"

"Why do you say that and I must listen to you like this! Why do you take it for granted that my success depends on you to help me accomplish it!"

In fact, now that I think about it, my ugly thoughts at that time were probably not due to a short-term competitiveness, but a cowardly inferiority complex that has been suppressed until now!

That person was always by my side, even though I was running around because of work, in fact, the two of them didn't really meet each other a few times in two years, let alone warmly.

But he never showed the slightest dissatisfaction when facing himself.

He always said to himself with a smile in his mouth, "Ah Huai, no matter what you want to do, as long as you are happy, I will always support you!"

He was such a warm person, but I lost him!

When I have finally stood at a peak that others can hardly reach him one day, I look back and find that there is no one behind him.

Why did he want to achieve the so-called success in the eyes of others so urgently?

It was not until the long and countless years of loneliness that he finally woke up.

It turned out that what he wanted all along was nothing more than that person's praise or approval for him!

Just for such a person!

But he was completely wrong. From the very beginning, all his ideas were wrong.

Has that person ever underestimated himself even for a moment?Never praised yourself?

how could be?

Obviously, he said to himself all the time, "Ah Huai, you will always be the most dazzling star in my heart."

Ah, it turned out that from the beginning to the end, it was just my ridiculous and pitiful so-called arrogance and self-esteem at work!

The purpose of his efforts to climb to the top is nothing more than to want that person to always look only at himself.

But what if, in the process, he'd already lost him?

Everything is just running counter to my own heart!

Drowsy until late at night, he wobbled and got up again.

I casually ordered a bowl of noodles for myself, and when I turned on the TV and sat cross-legged in front of the sofa, I realized that what was playing on it turned out to be the red carpet opening ceremony of the Fair Film Festival.

There was a pause in the movement of the hands, but he came back to his senses after a while, and then slowly picked the things in the bowl.

When he saw that Mu Chenyi actually won the prize, Xiang Guhuai looked at him who still looked like a half-grown child, and felt a little emotional for a moment.

But I'm really happy for him!

After lowering his head and sucking two chopstick noodles, when he heard Yuan Bu mentioned in his mouth, Xiang Gu Huai raised his head again in a daze.

When he saw the hands that the person was holding tightly with others on the TV, Xiang Guhuai touched his chest, felt a more powerful beating there, and sighed softly, "So, I Still alive!"

The person who was to me in the past has already become someone else to me.

It's just that I can't let go and can't escape, I don't want to admit it!

In fact, I knew it a long time ago, and I knew that there was no possibility for the two of them anymore.

After all, I broke up with him under such circumstances.And Yuan Bu was originally a ruthless person who could not tolerate the slightest bit of sand in his eyes.

So how could it be possible to turn back for yourself?

He already knew that, didn't he?But ah, but still unwilling to give up!

In fact, the first time he knew that there was such a persistent person beside him, he had already expected it, didn't he?

Yuan Bu's kind of person who is now completely self-centered except for Mu Chenyi, probably, only the kind of person who is willing to completely lose his self for him can regain his full sincerity. gone.

That's why, compared to other people, I am more targeted at him.

When Xiang Gu Huai finally heard that Mu Chenyi even classified himself as one of his friends, Xiang Gu Huai was silent, and then slowly grinned.

That's great, the kid.is really good!

His life has always been too simple and clean.It is another life attitude that is completely opposite to the past self.

So let him both love and hate!

It's just that although his feelings towards him were complicated, Xiang Gu Huai was sincere and never thought of destroying or hurting him.

In this world, you always need to know one or two energetic and completely uplifting people around you.

Even if you don't have a deep friendship with it, even if you just watch it from a distance, then you won't be completely depraved one day.

Thinking of this, he picked up his mobile phone, quickly dialed a number of the other party, and then answered it there.

"Well, it's me. I want to know more about that investment case, so when do you have time?"

The man on the opposite side laughed heartily, "Hey, the sun really came out from the west today? I thought you would still reject me outright this time!"

Xiang Gu Huai chuckled in a low voice, "Oh, but I just think that I should save more wife money as soon as possible before I can't move at all!"

Hearing what he said, the man over there was silent for a moment, and then said softly, "Old Xiang, just figure it out, who doesn't have such a difficult hurdle in their hearts!"

Xiang Gu Huai couldn't help laughing at his sudden sentimentality, because this kind of tone really didn't suit him who always only knew a hippie smile.

Hanging up the phone, Xiang Gu Huai sat up halfway, took another look at the figures of the familiar people that were finally shown on the TV, finally got up and left, and walked slowly to the bathroom.

Well, the smell of sweat that has accumulated on my body for several days is really enough!

Yuan Bufan:

Many acquaintances around me have come to ask me, why from the very beginning, he seemed to have made up his mind and was willing to give up the family child he held in his hands to Hua Lengxuan? ?

Yuan Ge asked, Ren Kong asked, and even Hua Lengxuan himself came to ask him one day.

But Yuan Bu always just smiled faintly, or simply told them that it was just an agreement he had made with his sister.No matter how redundant it is, it has never been disclosed.

I still remember that after my sister married that man regardless of her father's objection, she must have discovered something at that time!

So there was one time after the two met, there was nothing abnormal in the whole process, but at the end when they left, they said to themselves, "Do you still remember the hexagram that the master helped me and Xiao Chen to calculate? "

At that time, whenever Yuan Bu recalled the ominous words of the old man, he would show fear, "It's just nonsense, sister, you must not take it seriously."

But at that time, my sister looked at the blue sky outside the courtyard with some regret.