Moth

On the first day Lu Hanzhang followed Fang Bingbi into the Donghai camp, he fell asleep in the cabin and fell unconscious.As soon as he moved, he felt that his body had become a huge container, in which Liu Jiang's blood and Xie Qingyun's bone marrow were swaying. The eyeballs seem to be floating on the water.

Along the way, Zhu Dianyi murmured that he was sober for the first time, and that he would stay awake if he could hold on.He was so stupid that he was sober all the way, and he made a container for the whole way.

After finally waking up, he was seasick and vomited for a few more days. His whole face was unbelievably pale. Like Xizi, he kept putting his hands on his chest and pursed his mouth tightly, as if he was about to vomit upside down when he opened his mouth.The pill that Zhu Dianyi handed him had to be pressed under his tongue, and then he slept peacefully for the whole day, and refused to take the pill after waking up.This deadly attitude of vomiting awake rather than sleeping well awakened Widow Zhu's long-sleeping indifference and nothing to do with it, she simply played with Xie Yitong directly.

On the tenth day after Liu Changzhou lost the news, Lu Hanzhang was fine, and Fang Bing couldn't hold back his pen.

The entire Donghai camp seemed to be isolated from the world. As far as the eye could see, the majestic and majestic ships of the Sixteen Wars were arranged in a patchwork pattern on the endless sea, and small boats shuttled back and forth between them. Things then occupied his mind very domineeringly, making this bear man keep a straight face every day, he didn't have a good face to anyone, and when he spoke, he seemed to have eaten a firecracker, and he was very angry.

On this day, the sea was very windy, and the clouds from the horizon were blowing in. The sky above the head was covered with black clouds. Looking over, there was only a silvery white border at the junction of the sea and the sky.Not long after, feather-white snowflakes fell under the black clouds, sparse but stretching for thousands of miles.

Lu Hanzhang dragged his body paralyzed, wrapped in a snow-white cloak, took a pot of tea to the deck, sat on the floor, poured himself a drink quite happily.After a while, Fang Bingbi, who came out with a bottle of wine to breathe, also went on the deck. The two met unexpectedly and became chatting friends for a while.

Fang Bingbi glanced at the coast on the west side habitually, and then said worriedly: "It's been the tenth day, and if no one comes, at least give me a message, dead or alive."

Lu Hanzhang took a sip of his tea in a godlike way, and said indifferently: "What? What will Mr. Fang do if he dies? Go to the capital to avenge him?"

Fang Bingbi didn't expect him to say such a thing, and his heart suddenly became angry, and he felt that Liu Changzhou was not worth it.Liu Changzhou had accumulated a bunch of meaningless dog marks and some messy letters in the general's account, but this man said in front of him that it would be okay if he was dead or alive.

He looked over and said slightly dissatisfied: "Of course not. People often say that being with the king is like being with a tiger. He has the ability to reach the sky. When the emperor is unreasonable and has ulterior motives, disasters and fortunes are always unpredictable."

Lu Hanzhang stood up holding on to the railing, walked a few steps forward facing the sea breeze, and leaned on the railing.

From the angle of Fang Bingbi, only a figure of a shapeless back can be seen. The man hilariously tied his white hair into a strange shape of a scorpion's tail to prevent it from being blown upside down by the wind, and the exposed ears are transparent. Clean and looks very fragile.

Then, he heard the man say flatly in an unquestionable tone: "Master Fang thinks, which one would he be more willing to take over his position and help him realize his long-cherished wish for many years, compared to these meaningless worries?" What did you see?"

Fang Bingbi was so excited that he jumped up, and said stiffly: "Then just watch him drowning and there is no help?" He suddenly couldn't control himself, and said angrily: "I can understand what others say, but Boss Dulu, you are the least qualified to say that. If I were you, I would do whatever it takes to find him, even if it takes the entire Donghai camp!"

Lu Hanzhang turned around suddenly, leveled his hands, his eyes suddenly turned cold, and said sharply: "Look at this moment, which one is not more important than Liu Changzhou's life and death? Donghai camp is so deceptive, you exchange the lives of 8000 people for an unknown life and death This is stupid! The Donghai Camp I raised with 900 million taels was not used to fight against the imperial court! It was not used to serve you to instigate rebellion! Besides, do you know where he is now? If you act rashly, you will only Providing the emperor with evidence of 'collaboration with the enemy and treason' will only make him die faster!"

Fang Bingbi stepped up, grabbed Lu Hanzhang's collar with both hands, and forced him to the point where he could not retreat. His upper body was already hanging overboard, and he burst out, "After all, you are still a profit-seeking businessman at heart. I'm still a passer-by who has nothing to do with me, I'm afraid Liu Changzhou is valuable in your heart, no matter how important he is!"

Lu Hanzhang's heart was so "hot" that a fire burst out-how many families were hidden behind the 900 million yuan, and how many fears were hidden. In the eyes of these soldiers who clearly value love and righteousness, how could it be misinterpreted like this.

Why isn't he worried about that person, and when his head gets hot, he will want to abandon everything, as long as Liu Changzhou can come back safely.But when he calmed down, he knew that if he really resorted to unscrupulous means, he would turn all of Liu Changzhou's perseverance into a fight.

Moreover, the rumors of Dongying soldiers approaching the East China Sea are already raging. Although the East China Sea Battalion under the Ministry of War has been fully prepared for war, with the Daqing navy that has been scattered for many years, it is tantamount to hitting a pebble with a pebble to fight against the invasion of a country whose main military force is the navy. .

It was the time when people were panicking, and he could understand the anxiety of these people, but Fang Bingbi, as a lieutenant general...

He gritted his back molars, stretched out his index finger and stabbed Fang Bingbi's shoulder fiercely, and said word by word: "You are a soldier of Daqing, and you must first pretend to be the world in your heart."

Fang Bingbi's hand holding his collar was released in an instant, and he fell back a few steps as if he lost his strength. After calming down, he supported his forehead and sighed: "Your heart is unpredictable."

The snowflakes suddenly became denser, but the wind was much weaker.

Lu Hanzhang suddenly heard a sound behind him, and just as he turned around, a drenched person fell into his arms. The person he thought about day and night was dying and said: "Fang Bingbi, I haven't seen you for a while." , are you… aren’t you… skin tight?”

Lu Hanzhang's hands were subconsciously hugged tightly, and the tentacles were all cold and lifeless.He hugged Liu Changzhou without much effort. The muscles and bones of the person in his arms, which were usually full of strength, were limp, and his body was trembling almost imperceptibly, as if he was about to fall down if he blinked.

He turned his head and shouted: "What are you doing so stupidly? Call Miss Zhu!"

There were almost no intact parts on Liu Changzhou's body. After Zhu Dianyi cut open his tattered clothes, a strong smell of blood came to his face.A row of ribs below the collarbone were broken in sevens and eights, and there were large bruises and whip marks from the whip, and the appearance was horrible.The butterfly bone on the back protruded more and more clearly, and the wound on it had already penetrated the chest and lungs. The gauze used for the simple bandage earlier was completely wet with blood, deeply embedded in the flesh and blood, and the description was very hideous and terrifying.

Rao Zhu Dianyi, a doctor who is used to seeing injuries, was almost disturbed by his injuries, and found that the nonsense of "auspicious people have their own appearance" can only be used to deceive themselves.

Fang Bingbi stood the furthest away, his hands clenched into fists, and the veins on the back of his hands bulged.

All the hard-bodied men at the scene rolled their eyes at the same time. Because the injury was too serious, Zhu Dianyi healed him and debrided the wound until the end. In and out of the wound.Even so, the person on the couch didn't even hum, it wasn't that there was no pain, it was just that they were so numb that they couldn't feel the pain anymore.

Liu Changzhou's pupils dilated for a while, and then shrunk to the size of a pinprick. The eyes that had been open all the time were out of focus, and it seemed that there was no need to blink to relieve dryness, not for a moment.

Lu Hanzhang looked into his eyes motionlessly, feeling that countless things in his eyes were collapsing and breaking, and they were no longer as clear and clean as they were when they first saw each other. Those black and white eyes sometimes seemed to be covered with a layer Water mist, sometimes it is like a frozen spring that has dried up.

His heart skipped a beat, he bent down and touched his forehead, holding his breath, he smiled lightly and said, "As soon as I see you like this, I want to pay you two liang of silver right away."

As soon as he finished speaking, Liu Changzhou's neck, which had been a little stiff before, suddenly collapsed, and he fell down docilely, sticking to the bed, and slowly closed his eyes.He stretched out his hand and shook it aimlessly for a while, managed to squeeze out a smile, and said intermittently: "I hate you...I hate you, and you never come to pick me up..." It seemed that he couldn't hold his breath, his Adam's apple went up and down After moving, he continued, "...I just... came by myself."

Lu Hanzhang bit the tip of his tongue hard, held his hand, and said lightly, "Hey, everyone is watching, we'll talk about flirting tonight."

Zhu Dianyi ignored all the movements that happened under her nose, and quickly made Liu Changzhou, who was like a bloody man, look like a human being.Probably Liu Changzhou, who had never seen this unlucky appearance before, decided to praise him out of conscience, and said, "This is just you, if it were another person, he would have died eight hundred times already."

Lu Hanzhang coaxed: "Yes, you are the best."

The resources of medicinal materials at sea were very limited. Zhu Dianyi picked out as many medicines as possible and brought them in. He dragged Fang Bingbi and the commanders of the four battalions back out, and closed the door very understandingly.

Lu Hanzhang avoided the wound on Liu Changzhou's body, and wiped him all over his body with warm water. The more he wiped, the more he wanted to escape, because Liu Changzhou's body was pitifully small.He covered him with a quilt, and stood in front of the porthole in a daze.

Ever since Liu Changzhou lost the news, the thoughts that lingered in his heart and had never been separated, but had been forcibly suppressed by him, after seeing him in person, not only did not disappear because of it, but became more and more unscrupulous.

There is no other word to describe the feeling of caring about someone except fear.He remembered that when he fainted for the first time, Liu Changzhou once said a word to him, he said: "Please take care of me too, please?" He could finally empathize with the feeling of not landing on the ground.

He was originally an outsider with nothing to worry about, and all his emotional experiences were more inclined to ease and pleasure.He never made trouble for himself, but the appearance of that person on the couch turned his world upside down.That person, with his every move and every word and deed, taught him what is persistence, what is sincerity, what is... reluctance.As silly as it is, it's so true.

At this point, it dawned on him that the real holding hand does not stop at growing old together, but also...to teach him for the rest of his life.He thinks this is probably the true face of Fengyue, that is to accompany each other and support each other.

With such a stop, it will be the time when the moon is in the middle of the sky.

There was a light landing sound behind him. Although the steps were very slow and dragged, they were stepped steadily step by step.The moment Lu Hanzhang summoned up his courage and turned around to see him, tears flowed out unexpectedly.

Liu Changzhou was taken aback, held his face in his hands, and leaned on his toes with difficulty to kiss his eyes.When he got closer, he found that the person standing by the window was pale, and there were fine traces of pale blue on the tip of the chin and the neck protruding from the fur collar. He was very surprised and said, "Where are you going these days?" gone?"

Lu Hanzhang tilted his head and said, "I just came back from reincarnation."

Liu Changzhou smiled lowly, thinking that this was probably the best news he had heard during this period. Lu Hanzhang was saying, "I have been reborn, and I can always be with you from now on."He put his forehead against his, grabbed his shoulders to support himself, and said: "... No wonder I just came back from the ghost gate and didn't find you. So you have been reincarnated."

Lu Hanzhang was silent for a while, and said abruptly: "Okay, stop pretending."

Liu Changzhou laughed dryly, his eyes wandered around, but he didn't look at Lu Hanzhang, trying to forcefully change the subject: "What are you pretending to do? You haven't seen me for a year, and when you see me, you look like a ghost. You still don't feel sorry for me." He thought for a while, and then added a very humble sentence that was full of Lu Hanzhang's personality, trying to pretend to be weak to win sympathy, and said: "I think I need sympathy and pity very much now."

Lu Hanzhang ignored his nonsense, and said concisely: "Zongyi."

Sure enough, the subordinate's body suddenly stiffened, and his originally regular breathing seemed a little messy.Liu Changzhou said stiffly, "Can we not mention him?"

Lu Hanzhang didn't speak, just looked at him without saying a word.

The corners of Liu Changzhou's mouth were still smiling, but the corners of his upturned eyes turned red bit by bit. The redness spread from the inner corner of his eye to the outer corner of his eye, as if soaked in a layer of blood.But the redness was limited to the lower eyeliner, making his willow eyes look as if Dan Qing had painted a stroke of cinnabar.

They looked at each other silently for so long that the tip of Liu Changzhou's nose began to turn red.Then, he couldn't help it anymore, his brows frowned, and a line of broken tears fell from the corner of his right eye.

He licked his lower lip and said in a trembling voice: "How should I put it, I think I am a big fool. I always feel that I am being played around like a monkey. In the first half of my life, I have never seen a dog official or a cold boy. Dead bones. But it seems that only when I shaved my hair and picked it up, I ran back and forth like chicken blood, and now I suddenly feel that everything seems to be my wishful thinking, and some things may have a good ending without me. , everything tends to prove that what I have done is meaningless, even ridiculous. I have always wondered about one thing..."

He was suddenly emotional, the blood in his chest surged, he turned his head suddenly and coughed up a mouthful of blood, the tear bank suddenly collapsed, and he said aggrieved like a bullied child: "I thought I was so awesome, I pulled down from the crater So many lives came out, but it took only a few days. I got my mother involved and made Bingbi a widower. Who am I sorry? I just can’t figure it out. I'm too stupid..." His words became more and more incoherent, and in the end he almost jumped out word by word, and it was almost incomprehensible.

Lu Hanzhang sighed, pulled him into his arms, patted him on the back with one hand to comfort him, and said, "There is a saying called 'The straight is like a scorpion, and the way is as solid as a snake'. The appearance must be submissive and easy-going. The smoothest road in the world is the most bumpy. Do you know what you lack? You are always unwilling to give in and compromise. I estimate that if you give you another 200 years, you will not learn how to follow your heart It’s not enough to deal with children. The ability to control the world is far from enough, at the very least, you have to save your own life.”

Liu Changzhou understood, but he was not convinced: "Blame me?"

Lu Hanzhang coaxed very smartly: "...But it's very attractive, um, no, it's very attractive to me."

Liu Changzhou was quiet and said, "If it were you, what would you do?"

Lu Hanzhang smiled, and said as a matter of course: "Assembling a clique, Zong Yi asked Zong Yi to weigh my weight and see my backer before beating me."

Liu Changzhou felt a little better, sniffled his nose, and said, "If you're capable, you're serious about it. What's the use of telling me."

Lu Hanzhang said, "I don't bother to deal with those trash, the only time my back doesn't hurt is when I'm standing and talking."

Liu Changzhou: "..."

Liu Changzhou was educated by such criticism, but his heart became more open, and he said: "Some people and some things are indeed worthy of my compromise, but some things, I feel that changing myself is completely blasphemy against myself. In fact, what I have never understood is One thing, I've always understood, but I can't figure out why."

"'When the ostrich is gone, the good bow is hidden; the cunning rabbit is dead, and the running dog is cooked; the enemy's country is destroyed, and the counselor is dead.'"

With a smile on the corner of Lu Hanzhang's mouth, he pulled him in front of him facing the sea, flattened his palms, and said, "Where's your 'Chess World'?"

Not knowing why, Liu Changzhou took out the jade tablet from his waist and put it in his palm.

Lu Hanzhang tossed the little thing up and down in his hands, and then threw the thing out unexpectedly, only to hear a "boom", and a splash of water splashed on the surface of the sea covered with a layer of silver gray by the moonlight.

The piece of jade was tossed up and down several times by the undulating waves, and then suddenly sank underwater and disappeared.

Liu Changzhou opened his eyes wide, and suddenly felt an inexplicable force pouring into his body, causing the grievances and anger hidden in the corners of his heart to suddenly disappear——

He tapped on the window lattice with his fingertips, and thoughtfully said: "There is one reason why I am called 'Liu Changzhou', and that is - there is no reason, is there? I just happened to be at a specific point in time. In fact, I am just a pawn in the tide of history... No, everyone is, Zong Yi is too, we are all... involuntary."

Lu Hanzhang wrapped his arms around his waist, closed his eyes and yawned, stretched out his index finger and clicked out of the window casually. The exhaustion of the past few days has accumulated until now, and it seems that he is waiting for such a time, saying this sentence: "People can change a lot. Things, but these few things can’t be changed, one is the sun and the moon, and the other is the cold and heat. Humans claim to be able to create history and civilization, but they are nothing but clowns in front of nature. Maybe there is a bird named The hand of "Da Yan Zhi Shu" has been hiding in the dark and using the existence of people to play an endless game of chess. Some people are black pieces, some are white pieces; some people are in Tianyuan, and some are on the edge Star; some people are used to hold the breath, and some people are destined to be raised."

"Everything has a definite orbit. This is probably the so-called... the heart of heaven and earth."

There was a sudden beating of war drums outside the cabin, and the hull was violently bumped. Someone yelled loudly, "Fuck my mother, attack at night!"

Liu Changzhou turned around suddenly, causing a pain in his old waist covered with gauze.His complexion became serious, his brows and eyes were cold, and he said in a cold voice: "The virginity of Donghai Ying is about to be broken."

Lu Hanzhang: "..."

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