forgive me for not being able to touch you

The early morning was beautiful and quiet, and the sky was still bright, so there was a dull sound, followed by the sound of fine footsteps.

Ye Feiran woke up from sleep, rubbed his eyes, "Qi, what's wrong?" Uncle An stood motionless in the hall, "Uncle An, what's wrong?"

"Ah?" Uncle An came back to his senses, "It's okay, the Eldest Young Master has gone out, and he might catch a plane." He saw the Eldest Young Master's eyes just now, it was really scary!

Ye Yue left?Qi frowned. He would never close the door so vigorously even in a hurry. It feels like he slammed the door and quarreled with Yan Binyang?

He strolled to Ye Yue's room, the door was unlocked and ajar.He opened the door, eyes wide open.

The room was in a mess, the quilt fell to the floor, and there was a person lying motionless on the bed. There were many bruises on his body. A shirt covered the parts below the lower abdomen. There was a small bloodstain on the shirt. On the bed sheet Also bloodstained.

He yelled inwardly that it was not good, and strode to the bedside. Yan Binyang opened his eyes, but his eyes were dull, and the tears in the corners of his eyes were not dry yet, and tears kept gushing out.

"Yan Binyang?" He tried to call him, but the person on the bed didn't respond, and didn't even roll his eyes. If it wasn't for the occasional half-blink, Qi would almost doubt whether he was still alive.

Qi picked up the quilt, covered him, then picked him up and walked outside the house.

"Uncle An, let's go to the hospital! Hurry up!"

His arm was suddenly grabbed by someone, and when he lowered his head, Yan Binyang's face was almost wrinkled, "No, don't go to the hospital...don't..." He said with tears streaming down his face.

"Yan Binyang!" Qi felt helpless.

"Please, don't..."

"Okay." He carried him back to the room and gently put him on the bed.Then let him not think about anything, rest first, and hurried out to let Uncle An call for a doctor.

Yan Binyang looked at the pure white ceiling, thinking of his hard begging last night, his voice was hoarse from crying, Ye Yue still didn't stop, not even comforting him!At that moment, he suddenly felt that the warming weather became colder, and the winter frost and snow were freezing him out of breath.

Ye Yue is on a business trip to Sudan.He said he wanted to take himself with him, which would have been a good thing, but it wasn't a happy trip for them.So Yan Binyang refused. He had promised that he would not let go of his hand, but this refusal was for their lives.

"Sudan is a country that does not support homosexuality!" he argued.

"If you really love me, follow me!" Ye Yue threatened.

Neither of them knew the reason.Each is for the other.One is that the memory has been restored, and his father said that he will not interfere with them when they go to Sudan; the other is that he knows that the law of Sudan stipulates that homosexuality is the death penalty, and he does not want to hurt the other party.

But no one said, no one knew.

——Yan Binyang, right?

——Hello, I am your attending doctor, Ye Yue.

—I will definitely bring you to him.

--why me?

——Binyang, Binyang...

Ye Yue, what should I do?I'm starting to despair.

As soon as Ye Feiran understood the situation, he rushed to the side of the bed, looking at the person on the bed with his eyes closed, his whole body was full of despair. "Yang, Yang, don't be like this, just talk."

Yan Binyang didn't answer, just opened his eyes quietly, and then stared at the ceiling again without looking away.He was reminiscing, reminiscing about that first encounter, that sunny afternoon, when he was reading a book, the gentle and jade-like voice was suddenly interrupted, and then that peaceful and gentle face broke into his heart without warning. Life.He still remembered that the book he read that day was "You Love Me So Much", and there was a sentence in it.

"You love me so much, but you always hurt me." He whispered softly.

The sound was not loud, but in this quiet environment, everyone present felt dejected when they heard these words.

"Okay, Feiran, let him rest." Qi pulled Ye Feiran up and said in a low voice.Yan Binyang needs to be alone now, and they can't help much here now.

It took 9 days for Yan Binyang to get out of bed for activities. The doctor said he would have to stay for at least half a month, but he couldn't stand it anymore and used various naughty ways to get Ye Feiran to agree to get up for activities.

On this day, he first sat on the balcony of Ye Yue's room for half an hour, crying and laughing for a while, not knowing what he was thinking; The plants became more energetic; then he took out the veil that the maid used to clean and wiped the stairs of the whole villa one by one; finally, he walked into the kitchen under the surprised eyes of everyone, and then Waiting with anticipation and doubts for his works to come out.

"Eat, don't be in a daze." He came out with fresh mung bean pork rib soup, put it on the dining table, and then covered his ears. His hands were numb from the cold all the time while cooking.

Ye Feiran looked at him sadly, "Yang, don't do this."

"No need." Qi echoed.

Yan Binyang's movements paused, his eyes were like a pool of clear lake water, but it was so deep that he couldn't see the bottom.He smiled, "What are you talking about, I'm in a good mood to cook you a meal, it seems to scare you?"

"That's because you finished our servant's day's work." Ye Feiran shrugged helplessly.This behavior is too abnormal!

"Ah," Yan Binyang was a little embarrassed, "Is that so? But if you're idle, you're idle, so it's like paying the rent!"

"You!" Ye Feiran really couldn't do anything with him, walked over to stroke his hair, and said in a low voice, "Don't be sad."

"I'm fine, really!" Yan Binyang pursed his lips, and pulled his hand down, "I've been in Beijing for so long, and I'm still idle, looking for something to do."

That's right, if you want to find something to do, you won't think too much, and you won't be too sad.

"Then I'll find you a job." Ye Feiran said hastily.

"No, I'll go by myself." Yan Binyang tried to make himself smile better, "Feiran, my injury has healed, I want to go for a walk." Let me go, I am not a person who cannot take care of himself Man, as Ye Zhan said, I also have my dignity!

Ye Feiran thought for a while, "Well, I have a small apartment in the third ring road, you..." Seeing his calm eyes, he couldn't continue.

Yan Binyang just smiled, didn't say much, then went upstairs to tidy up his things, and said goodbye to them.

Ye Feiran still wanted to keep him, but Qi covered his mouth, and he said to let Yan Binyang adjust his mood.

Yan Binyang left Ye's house without looking back. When he walked out of the villa, he realized that this place was too luxurious, like a dense forest, with too much oxygen in the forest. He was just a bird who didn't know what to do. He wanted to fly out. Get out of this cage.

In other words, Beijing was originally a provincial capital city. For someone like him who grew up in a small county, it was too grand, wasn't it?

He doesn't have many things, at most he can pack them in a small suitcase.

In this way, Yan Binyang left the Ye family, no one knew where he was going, he was like a lone goose, looking for his habitat.

For some reason, Ye Feiran suddenly had a familiar feeling—the feeling of six years ago, when he took Yan Binyang's hand and asked him to elope with him, he resolutely shook off his hand and said no.

A moment of astonishment is not disappointment, or even despair.

His heart was suspended, and he unconsciously grasped Qi's clothes, "Say, do you want to send someone to follow him?"

Qi pondered for a long time, then patted him on the shoulder, "Look at you." He also felt that it was not safe for him to be outside alone.Especially in his current state, it is even more unsafe!

Suddenly, a piercing voice broke the dullness. Uncle An went to answer the phone, his face suddenly darkened, and then he listened carefully, and soon hung up the phone.

"Young Master, Eldest Young Master is missing!" Uncle An looked serious.

I heard that Ye Yue didn't know where he went after staying in Sudan for less than a week. The person who monitored him also said that he saw the young master go out to discuss business that day, and told them not to follow them, and then he didn't go back to the hotel.

Where will he go?