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"Teacher! Teacher..." Ming Chen chased after Xie Yiran who was walking away quickly.

Xie still felt as if he was fleeing, and finally he could leave there without panic standing in the eyes of those mocking and laughing eyes. He felt that their eyes were piercing him all the time, belittling, sneering and whispering.

Xie still walked faster and faster, wanting to escape, the farther the better, the faster the better.But Hannah's words are still echoing in his ears, harsh and harsh, leaving no room for it.What she said was ugly, and he knew it was ugly, but how could he refute her.

Although she was crazy and arrogant, but what she said was not all wrong, yes, how could I dream of going back to the past with Lu Heng again, Lu Heng is back, but he should live a normal life, he will have a huge family business in the future To inherit.His family would not accept their children coming out.He is an orphan, but he is not.How can I ruin his future with my current state...

"Teacher, where are you going? Don't leave, there are cars ahead..." Ming Chen stumbled and fell to the ground.

Lu Heng caught up with him in a few steps. He wanted to go after Xie Yiran, but when he saw Ming Chen lying on the ground, he quickly helped him up.

"You are chasing the teacher!" Ming Chen pushed him after being pulled up.

"Walk carefully by yourself." After finishing speaking, Lu Heng went after Xie Yiran.

Mingchen rubbed his knee, it hurt like hell.Reaching into his pocket, he took out his cell phone and called Ji Bei: "Squad leader, I'm injured."

"What hurt, where are you?"

"Very serious injury! I'm on Yunfu Road... on Yunfu Road... here," Ming Chen looked up and looked around, a little confused about the direction, so he could only say to the other end of the phone: "I'm next to you Now there's a...trash can."

Ji Bei on the other end of the phone asked strangely: "What are you doing so far in the morning? How did you get injured?"

"me……"

Lu Heng in front caught up with Xie Yiran and held him back: "Yiran."

Xie Yiran glanced at him with red eyes, took his hand away, and turned his face away.

Lu Heng looked at the wound on his face, the blood was still on his face, looking at it in the cold wind made people feel chilly and distressed.Lu Heng touched his face with distressed expression, but he didn't dare to approach the wound: "Yiran, does it hurt?"

Xie still couldn't restrain his words, his eyes gradually became foggy, he didn't want to cry in front of him, what is this?To win his sympathy or to draw his pity.It was just that I was too useless.

Xie Yiran shook his head, and managed to smile with the corners of his lips curled up: "It's okay..." The two words were still spoken so calmly and indifferently.Sometimes, being calm and indifferent is a cover-up that takes a lot of pitiful strength.

Xie Yiran finished speaking lightly, turned around and was about to leave, he wanted such a fragile and embarrassing self to get out of his sight as soon as possible.

Lu Heng hugged him from behind, and he held him carefully in his arms: "Yiran, I'm sorry..."

Lu Heng took him into a nearby pharmacy for disinfection.

Xie still sat on the stool, and when the clerk wanted to disinfect, Lu Heng brought over the cotton swab and disinfectant and disinfected it for him himself.

He wiped him little by little, very cautiously, for fear of hurting him, he knew that when the medicine irritated the wound, it would hurt.It's just that Xie Yiran has never responded.

"Does it hurt? Just say it hurts." Lu Heng asked him softly.

Xie still smiled wryly, he was in pain, how could he not be in pain?His face hurts, and his heart hurts too, but he smiled wryly: "Speaking out the pain...would it be useful?"

Lu Heng paused, looking at Xie Yiran whose eyes were full of sadness, he felt more uncomfortable than ever before.

Xie still looked at Lu Heng in front of him, he cared about himself, he cared about himself, maybe he was the same as himself, in the past three years, he had never had a good time.

Every day in the past three years, I have a trace of unbearable luck in my heart, hoping that the old Lu Heng can come back.But he couldn't come back.Since the day I left three years ago, I can't come back.

"twinkle Twinkle Little Star

leave traces of the years

center of my world

It's still you..."

The next piece of music was playing in the shopping mall next door. When the music started, Xie Yiran was in a daze when he heard it. This song was a song that Lu Heng liked to sing to himself in the past.I remember that at the party that year in college, he stood on the stage and sang very affectionately.

Looking at the person in front of him who was still concerned about him, he suddenly remembered many things, those words that he once thought were too naive.

He remembered the first time, he said to himself: "Xie Yiran, listen to me, I want to chase you!"

I remember him saying: "Yiran, I've been chasing you for so many years, if you don't promise me again..."

I remember him saying: "Still, we will be together."

He said... Still, I love you.

But, it's all over, the past Lu Heng, can't come back.

"... year after year, year after year, flies by in a blink of an eye

I'm not like my old self, and you're a little bit like you..."

The song is still playing, it seems to be deliberately forcing myself to recall, the better the memories of the past, the worse it seems to be now.How pitiful is he who can only live with the beauty of memories...

Xie still looked at Lu Heng who was carefully rubbing the medicine on him, he was in front of him now, but what would he do, accept him or just make a difference, will we be at ease when we separate?Can we live in peace together?

He's back, and now it's better not to come back.I used to have hope, but now I don't have it, because the reality tells me cruelly that the real result is that the person is right in front of me, and I can't be together anymore.

The song was still playing, but now listening to why it was so harsh, Xie Yiran felt sore, his eyes flushed, he hurriedly opened Lu Heng's hand that was rubbing the medicine on himself, and rushed out of the store.

"Still..." Lu Heng followed immediately.

Xie still ran out of the store, he was running desperately, tears were blown into the wound on his face, cold by the wind, causing deep pain.

When Lu Heng caught up, Xie was still running, so Lu Heng grabbed him and fell into his arms.

"Let me go..." Xie Yiran struggled to cry.

"What's wrong with you?" Lu Heng asked worriedly, he hugged him gently on his chest, and protected him there tenderly and carefully: "Yiran, it's okay. If anyone hurts you again in the future, I will kill them."

Xie Yiran shook his head and pushed him away, Lu Heng still hugged him forcefully, Xie Yiran shook his head and said: "Lu Heng, we can't, love is useless!"

"Why is it useless? If we love each other, no one will separate us. No one can. Unless one party no longer loves, I will always love you. You... still, so do you still love me?"

Xie Yiran couldn't hold on anymore when asked by his words, tears flowed like a bank burst.He remembered that Lu Heng had said "I love you" to himself countless times in the past ten years, and asked himself "Do you love me or not?"

Xie Yiran cried out in Lu Heng's arms, he cried out loudly, crying out of strength, he held on to Lu Heng's clothes tightly, he loves it!How can you not love?But it seems that he has never said "I love you" to him.

Seeing that Xie Yiran finally burst into tears, Lu Heng seemed to stop caring about the eyes of passers-by.Lu Heng hugged Xie Yiran even tighter.

Xie Yiran cried with helplessness, he said: "Lu Heng, you will have nothing if you are with me."

Lu Heng laughed softly: "How come? My "everything", isn't it you."

"You will have nothing, no wealth, no reputation, no shares, no future..."

Lu Heng couldn't help laughing and said: "Fool, how could you compare yourself with these useless things?" Lu Heng's smile was gentle.He may need these, but if you take them and still weigh them, they are all eyesores.

He felt that he could still care about these things because he cared about himself.He felt that he was going back to his side, so everything was not important anymore, but seeing Xie Yiran's tears bursting out again, he felt that it was a sign of happiness, and his sadness and pain were all because of himself.

"Yiran, do you love me?" Lu Heng looked at him and asked softly.

Xie still looked at Lu Heng, his eyes were full of anticipation and faint joy.Love, but I never said it to him once.

"Love..." Xie Yiran choked up and said, "Lu Heng... I have always loved you..."

Lu Heng blocked all Xie Yiran's words and choked up with his mouth.He kissed him affectionately, with pity and distress, as if he wanted to absorb all his sorrows into himself.His tears were bitter, he kissed his tears, on his cheeks, on his eyelashes, on the corner of his mouth, he swore that he would never let him cry again, and he must protect him.

That piece of music seems to be still circulating according to the occasion.

"Days can only go forward, clockwise in one direction.

I don't know how long love is, so I want you to understand.

I still love you, maybe it is fate, after many years, no one can replace you. "

The author has something to say:

Ah——I’m kind enough to post again→_→Tun Wen last night and post at 6:00 this morning, and I’ll write another chapter when I get up in the morning... I want to wear a little red flower T^T but I still have to follow Say it to everyone: Let everyone suffocate T^T Sao Rui T^T