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Yu Chuan's face was a little ugly, and he was a little angry: "Yiran, who hurt you? Was it that bastard yesterday?"

"I don't know...just suddenly..." Xie Yiran shook his head, not wanting to think about that feeling: "Go back."

Xie still said that he wanted to go back to the house.

"Yiran?" Yu Chuan also forgot in a hurry, just about to pull him, Xie Yiran stared at him nervously like a conditioned reflex.

Yu Chuan immediately withdrew his hand, seeing him like this, felt very distressed.

"I won't touch you. But what are you going to do tonight?"

"I'm not going to sleep."

"Then I won't sleep either." Yu Chuan leaned against the door.

The two of them stood in the yard, and it was difficult for either of them to go back to the house.

Seeing that Xie still didn't leave, Yu Chuan smiled, walked to the center of the courtyard, sat down on a stool in the courtyard, and looked up at the starry sky late at night.

Yu Chuan opened his arms towards the stars, squinted his eyes and smiled, "I haven't seen such a perfect starry sky for a long time. I almost forgot that there are stars at night among the neon lights of the tall buildings in the city."

Xie was still looking at the sky, the stars were twinkling in the bottomless night, so clear and bright.Yes, when is the memory, almost forgotten.

Yu Chuan patted the stool beside him: "Yiran, shall we chat? As friends."

Xie Yiran sat down beside Yu Chuan, but did not speak first.

In the end, it was Yu Chuan who asked with a smile: "Yiran, have you been this quiet since childhood?"

Xie still didn't speak. He is used to being quiet, but it doesn't mean he doesn't like being cheerful and lively.He saw Yu Chuan always smiling in front of him, and actually envied him very much.

Xie Yiran smiled faintly, but still forced a smile: "Actually, when you smile, you look like a person in my memory, very bright and cheerful."

"Oh? Who is that person to you?"

Xie Yiran just shook his head and said flatly, "It's all over."

"So... what do you think of me?" Ukawa asked suddenly.

"I've only known you for a day, but knowing you is very simple, like a big child."

"Child?" Yu Chuan couldn't help laughing: "I thought you would say that I am so good at taking care of people, like a big brother? If I were a child, I would be a giant baby!"

Xie Yiran also smiled lightly: "You look like a younger brother. You don't understand many things, and there is still room for willfulness."

U Chuan wanted to say, maybe I still look like a boyfriend?

But he changed his mind and thought that he changed his first ambition to be a teacher, and on his 19th birthday, he left all the relatives and friends on the party, ran out of the province alone to participate in the racing car, and came back to play tricks and scare the blind date away. things, and now...

Yu Chuan shrugged and said frankly: "I do have a little willfulness, but as for you saying that I feel like your brother, I don't think so. First of all, you don't have a brother."

"I am older than you."

"My mother is also older than my father!"

Xie Yiran frowned, as if he understood the meaning of these words.

Yu Chuan realized that some information had been leaked in his words, smiled, and then changed the subject and said, "Well... do you still have a girlfriend?"

Xie still shook his head.

"Then what is your job?"

Xie still lowered his head: "Not yet, I don't want to think about it so much now."

Seeing him like this, Yu Chuan smiled and said, "It looks hurt."

His words reminded me of Lu Jue. The reason why I decided to leave this time seemed to be because of that night. sleep well.

Sometimes I can't figure out, what is the reason why I suddenly desperately want to escape from that city?

Yu Chuan looked at Xie Yiran's ecstasy, and felt a little lost: "Actually, I still have something on my mind. I have someone in my heart."

Xie still looked up, then shook his head again: "No, it's gone now."

Yu Chuan didn't ask any more questions, he was really afraid that he would find out what he would ask again?Because looking at Yi Yi's appearance, he already knows that his love is very painful.

It seems that it is impossible to rely on Xie Yiran's house.

Although Yu Chuan didn't know why Xie Yiran was so resistant to having physical contact with others except his grandfather, but he knew that if he stayed at his house again, Xie Yiran would only make Xie Yiran take a nap on the chair every night.

The so-called closeness to the water and the moon first, although I wanted to live in the same yard with Xie Yiran under the name of a friend first, but it was not what I wanted to force Xie Yiran to sleep.

Despite being frustrated, U Chuan applied to the principal the next day for a small dormitory in the school.

But the school didn't care about the food, and the meal was assigned to the richer Li Guangxu's family in the village.

But Yu Chuan still often came to Xie Yiran's house for dinner, because after the first dinner he came here, he found that Xie Yiran's cooking skills were really good.

Because he had to interact with the children in the elementary school every day, Yu Chuan gradually became very childish. After getting along with Xie Yiran for a long time, Xie Yiran gradually became familiar with him.

Yu Chuan gradually figured out that Xie still had a soft and kind heart despite his superficial indifference, so he gradually became a rascal.The little Jiujiu in his heart no longer carefully concealed it deliberately, except that he couldn't directly rush to hug him to take advantage of him, Yu Chuan almost directly expressed his love for Xie Yiran.

Xie Yiran knows Yu Chuan's feelings for him, but he just wants to treat Ji Bei as tolerant to him. He is only 22 years old. In Xie Yiran's eyes, he is just like a playful and willful younger brother.

Yu Chuan is very careful about his pursuit plan, he will come to curry favor with his grandfather every day, serve tea and water to accompany him and coax him, knowing that his grandfather likes to listen to operas, he even went to the top of the mountain and squatted by the only signal tower to bask in the sun for a day, I ended up downloading a few tracks and a video.

Grandpa has Yu Chuan playing with him every day, and he doesn't feel bored anymore. He even forgets to meet the chess friends in the village while holding his mobile phone.For U Chuan, who is lively and caring, Grandpa is happy to see him.

Xie still didn't bother to control Yu Chuan's various practices, knowing that he couldn't control it and couldn't persuade him.

It's rare to see grandpa so happy recently, Xie Yiran is also much more relaxed.

But the only thing that made Xie still embarrassed was that Yu Chuan was always clamoring to help in the kitchen, but in fact it was a disservice in the kitchen.

Xie Yiran looked at Yu Chuan chopping vegetables like chopping vegetables, he couldn't tell the difference between salt and sugar, and then he didn't say anything, but when he saw him "troubleshooting", he smiled very sadly, as if he was looking at another people.

In fact, at some point, Xie Yiran gradually realized that his shadow in his memory had gradually faded away.

Yu Chuan was getting better at chopping vegetables. After many times, he also found that Xie Yiran looked at himself at this time, which was not the same as usual.

He smiled and said, "Why, does it remind you of the person I mentioned last time, was he like me before?"

Xie still smiled lightly and shook his head, but this time he didn't avoid it like before with a smile and no words.

"I loved him, but he's gone." Xie Yiran lowered his eyebrows.

Yu Chuan was taken aback for a while: "I'm sorry, I don't know."

Xie Yiran smiled lightly, and continued: "When I knew that he had already left me, I thought that I would never get better anyway. But gradually I realized...that all the pain can be healed by time."

He is still in his heart, but every time he thinks about it, it is no longer painful.Because I now know that Lu Heng will never be erased in my heart, what he gave me is love and beauty, so I don't have to feel heartbroken every time I think about it.

I shouldn't regard the past as a scar, it is part of my memory, even though he is no longer there, I can still remember him.

Yes, for the past, you can let go, don't forget.

"The children are so skinny today." Yu Chuan was exhausted after returning from school, patted the dust on his body with his hands, squinted and smiled: "But the children here are pure and cute, I like it~"

"What did you do today?" Xie Yiran asked, looking at the dust on Yu Chuan's body.

"I took the children to collect wind."

Xie Yiran smiled and said: "This is the countryside, they collect folk songs every day, you just take them to play."

Yu Chuan hurriedly said while taking off his casual jacket: "I took them to pick up leaves. I didn't expect that there are quite a lot of tree species on the mountain here, and the leaves are in various shapes. I picked them up and taught the children to draw. My primary school art teacher often Encourage us to have a pair of eyes that discover beauty. Still, don’t wrong me, I will be very sad~”

"Then how is your teaching going?" Xie Yiran asked.

Yu Chuan was a little frustrated: "I am good at language and mathematics, but children's drawing is very simple...why do the children worry that they can't draw?"

"Children are too young, and their hands-on ability is not very good. At this stage, the main thing is to maintain and develop their interest and imagination, and don't set too high requirements for them, let alone the aspect of likeness and dissimilarity. "

After hearing this, Yu Chuan looked at Xie Yiran with a smile and said, "Yiran, you look like a teacher!"

The grandfather on the side said proudly: "My family is still a university teacher!"