15 diary

The night outside is very cold, but the sky is very blue, and the night blue night blue is bottomless.

Lu Jue sat down on the stool in the courtyard, looked up at the sky, and smiled faintly.Countless stars, have you seen them for a long time?Seems like it's been a dozen years.

It has been more than ten years, and I still like it. How long has it been?

I remember seeing him when I was a child, but at that time he had an older brother by his side, such a cheerful older brother.When they were in junior high school, they often walked together. Even though they were entangled by their elder brother, those who didn't smile very much were still infected by him, and occasionally smiled.

How much I envied them at that time, they were really suitable together, if I appeared by myself, they would look out of place.

But I never forgot about him, that quiet person, the one I wanted to protect.

At that time, before his death, his brother said that he hoped that he would take care of Yi Yi for him. When he looked at the face that looked exactly like his own with pleading eyes, he knew what the phrase "take care of" meant.

When he said, what should I do without him?He said he still couldn't bear his disappearance.

At that time, when I saw my brother's worried and reluctant eyes when he said these words, I knew that their love was too deep, and maybe I couldn't get involved at all.

Only as Lu Heng.

Even though he knew it was wrong, and knew that no matter how dense the lie was, it would be broken, but he still decided to make a mistake.

When I passed by Xie Yiran in the corridor of the community where 1203 is located, when I saw him standing alone downstairs in the community and looking up, when I looked at him from behind countless times with distress When living in memory.

He knew that he still needed Lu Heng to appear, and he also needed to appear with that identity.

If he didn't appear as Lu Heng, then where is Lu Heng?I can't tell him that Lu Heng is gone.At that time, he still couldn't bear the pain at all. After all, he waited for him for three years.

So I chose to be Lu Heng.Even if you want to hide it from him forever, in fact, Lu Jue was the one who loved him.

But... yeah, I love him too, even though this love is mean when it's exposed.However, I really don't want to give up.

When it was almost dawn, Lu Jue woke up on the bench in the yard for a while, and found that he had a coat on his body. It was not his own, but it was obviously Xie Yiran's.

At dawn, the door of the South Room was opened, Xie Yiran glanced at Lu Jue, but didn't speak when passing by.

Yu Chuan came over in the afternoon, begging for a meal with a smile.

Grandpa smiled and pulled Yu Chuan over to chat, and from time to time took Yu Chuan's hand and put it on the steamed bun to smooth the hair.While touching the steamed buns, Yu Chuan praised the steamed buns for being cute and sensible. Grandpa was very happy when he heard it, as if someone praised his grandson.

Lu Jue watched from the side with cold eyes. He saw Yu Chuan laughing and talking, and he thought of someone.

Lu Jue frowned slightly. In fact, Yu Chuan's character was very similar to Lu Heng, and more similar to Three Points than Ji Bei.

Although Ji Bei is somewhat similar to Lu Heng, he is not so glib in his speech, and has no skin or shame when flattering people.But Yu Chuan is very similar to Lu Heng in this respect.

Seeing that Xie still kept him at a respectful distance, but treated Yu Chuan very easy-going, Lu Jue's heart rang alarm bells.

Still he still can't accept himself, could it be that he likes Yu Chuan?

"Yu Chuan, it's time to eat." Xie Yiran reminded Yu Chuan after cooking the dishes in the room.

Yu Chuan understood very well, and every time he heard this, he quickly cleaned up the tables, stools, dishes and chopsticks.

Xie Yiran came out of the house with the dishes, walked past Lu Jue, and reminded him in a low voice, "It's time to eat."

"Okay." Lu Jue nodded.Then seeing Yu Chuan following Yi Yi with a bright smile and busy serving dishes, Lu Jue's eyebrows twitched again.

Grandpa came over with the buns in his arms and pulled Lu Jue: "Xiao Lu, let's eat~"

Mantou also meowed twice, as if inviting, Lu Jue felt more balanced now.But after thinking about it, his face became even more ugly, how could he be reduced to finding a sense of accomplishment in the attitude of a cat!

At the dinner table, Yu Chuan and Xie Yiran had a good chat. U Chuan liked to laugh, and his smile was contagious, and Xie Yiran would smile back occasionally.

Lu Jue's face became more and more ugly.

Yu Chuan and Lu Jue smiled and said, "Lu Jue, I heard that you have been taking care of him before?"

Lu Jue didn't expect that Xie Yiran would mention himself in front of Yu Chuan, and he was a little surprised, but he still only glanced at Yu Chuan, expressionless: "Yeah."

Yu Chuan asked: "Then you take care of Yiran, and the food is cooked well?"

Lu Jue held the vegetables expressionlessly.

Yu Chuan said with a smile: "Then teach me? They still say that I am not suitable for cooking and refuse to teach me."

"The young master who has no worries about food and clothing, do you need to learn how to cook?"

"Aren't you also worth a lot of money? Cooking is also good."

After hearing this, Lu Jue took a look at Xie Yiran: "I am for Yiran."

Yu Chuan smiled again: "I can't always ask Yi Yi to cook for me, and I can't help at all."

"I don't teach." Lu Jue remained expressionless.

Yu Chuan shrugged: "Okay, in fact, the taste of waiting for dinner is pretty good~"

I remember that Lu Heng once said similar things to himself.Lu Jue's heart was shocked, they were really similar.I never thought that if one day I met Lu Heng and said that we would compete together, who would win?

If the opponent is someone else, I don't take it seriously, but if he is Lu Heng, I am really not sure, or will he run over desperately?

Lu Jue glanced at Xie Yiran, who was still eating quietly with his head down, without any response.

No, without Lu Heng now, I still have no choice, and I won't let others take it away.

After eating, Yu Chuan scrambled to pack up the dishes and went into Xiaoxiwu.Xie Yiran smiled and didn't say anything, Yu Chuan rushed to wash the dishes and it was almost cost-effective.

From Lu Jue, I have never seen Xie Yiran smile at himself, not even a relaxed expression.

But for U Chuan, he seems to be relaxed and gentle with the flow.This made Lu Jue very upset.

do not know why?This kind of fear that he might not be able to grasp it at any time made him very uneasy.In Yiran's heart, could it be that he could only love someone like Lu Heng, even if he was a similar person, he couldn't compare to him?

At night, Lu Jue waited for Xie Yiran in the house.

Lu Jue stood there looking at him, the emotion in his eyes was not clear, but his brows were tightly frowned.

Xie Yiran opened the door and came in. Seeing Lu Jue like this, he felt nervous, so he took a step back and prepared to close the door again: "I still have something to do, I'll sleep later..."

"Still." Lu Jue went up to grab his hand that was about to close the door in two steps, turned him back with one hand and leaned against the wall, kissing him.

Xie still stared wide-eyed, his body froze in fright, and only a second later, he violently resisted.

"Let go of me!" Xie Yiran pushed him away.But once again Lu Jue pushed against the wall, and he looked at him: "Do you like him?"

"Let go of me! Let go!"

"Answer me, you won't like him, I've loved you for so long, you won't..." Lu Jue hugged him and hugged him tightly: "Yiran, let me Close to you......"

"Lu Jue...I'm scared, don't touch me...I beg you to let me go..." Xie Yiran began to tremble, and unconsciously twitched his shoulders.

Lu Jue felt that the person in his arms was no longer struggling, like a helpless leaf falling in the wind, only the ability to tremble was left.

"What's wrong with you? Still?" Lu Jue let him go.

Xie Yiran hugged his shoulders and kept shaking his head. He suddenly pushed him away: "Let me go!"

Lu Jue grabbed him worriedly, only then did he realize that something was wrong with him.He had such violent resistance in his arms before, and even overreacted and became nervous.

"Tell me, what's the matter with you?"

"I don't know! Let me go! Let me go!" Xie Yiran struggled hard and hit him.

"still......"

The door was slammed open, and it was Grandpa who rushed in with a wooden stick. As soon as Xie Yiran's eyes were red and he hit someone in Lu Jue's arms, he knew that Lu Jue was bullying his grandson!

The usual slow Yoyo disappeared for a while, but now he moved vigorously and called Lu Jue with an angry expression.

Lu Jue was protecting Xie Yiran at that time, and he didn't want to hide at all, and was hit by a solid stick.He frowned, as if enduring the pain.

Xie Yiran saw that his grandfather didn't understand the situation clearly, and when he was protecting his grandson, he got angry and rushed fiercely. He immediately wanted to stop him, but was stopped by Lu Jue.

do not know why?But he hugged himself in his arms, not letting go.

"Let you bully my grandson! Let you bully Yiran! Let you bully Yiran!" Seeing that he was still holding on to his grandson, the grandfather kept beating him with a stick, not lightly.

"Grandpa! Grandpa, stop beating!" Xie Yiran saw that the situation was a little serious, so he started to call on Grandpa to stop.

Grandpa said angrily: "I beat him to death! I beat him to death! Let him bully you and cry! Let him bully you and cry!"