Blooming legacy

At the dinner table, I tried my best to act nonchalantly, but I didn't want to look at them too much. I just stared at the dishes on the table and the rice in the bowl.No one talked much, the atmosphere was weird, I don't know if it was because of me.I ate quickly and left, not forgetting to return their smiles and humorous words.

Lying on the bed, I thought, why is Du Ming still not leaving.Why is the American education system so fucking good, you can get in if you want to, and you can't get in if you don't want to.At Du Xiao's place, Yun Kai took care of him every day, this kid didn't even go to school, why did he open a bar with Du Xiao.Hao Lei occasionally went to help, which relieved Yunkai a lot of burden.Hao Lei is so interesting, why didn't I think he was so interesting before, when Yunkai was hospitalized, he helped Du Xiao take care of Yunkai, now that Du Xiao is hospitalized, he helps Yunkai take care of Du Xiao.What kind of spirit is he promoting?When I was in the hospital, oh, Xie Chi was there, every time Xie Chi drove him out and insisted on taking care of me alone.Thinking back to the days when Xie Chi took care of me, my nose felt sore, I am afraid I will never go back to the days when he was exclusive to me.I want to share a him with others now, but I really don't want to share it with others.I think this feeling that cannot be shared with others is probably love.Just as I was thinking wildly, there was a knock on the door.I guessed it must be Xie Chi, so I asked him to open the door and come in.In the end, it was Du Ming who came in.I stood up, as if to greet him.He smiled and sat on the edge of the bed.

"You lie down, I'll lie down too." I wondered, "I'm tired. Hehe..." He raised the irresistible corner of his mouth again.I laughed too, and lay down without saying anything.He also lay down, looked at the ceiling, and said, "I'll be leaving in two days." I said "oh", "I like Xie Chi." I was stunned, I can't even "oh" Oh", "I like you too." I was even more speechless. "I want you to be together." What kind of logic is this, dealing with triangular problems, can it still be solved in this way.

"Don't you want to know who Xie Chi likes? He likes you, don't you know? Why do you do this? You like him, and he likes you too. The ones who are together should be...you." I finally said what I wanted to say all the time Having said that, it's time for me to quit, I can't stay here any longer.Staying in love is one thing, leaving is another.

"Xie Chi likes me, the kind of friend."

"What about you? Do you like him? Is he the kind of friend?"

"Yes." Very short, the shorter the answer, the less likely it is true, because the reason behind it is not short at all, and there is no way to finish it.Another kind of brevity is speechless, which is true, because no one takes silence as a lie.

"Can I trust you? Hehe..."

"You don't have to trust me, you just need to trust yourself and Xie Chi." He got up and was about to leave.

"I believe in myself. I believe that you like him, not as a friend. I believe in Xie Chi. He likes you, not as a friend." I said to his back.

He turned around and sat down again, "He really likes you, and one day, you will understand. You have to trust him, you must." He lowered his head, "I've been bothering you these days, and I'm with you Say sorry. Also, at first, I came here to test you. I wanted to know if you really liked him. When you left that time, I understood that Xie Chi really liked you. These days , I see, you really like him." I stood up, unable to believe these words. "I understood when he did that with Yunkai when he was in high school. They are all my good friends, and I hope they are happy. Du Ruo, you can make him happy, and you can." After he finished speaking, I wanted to leave. I grabbed him, but I didn't know what to say. "He is more guilty of me, I know."

"You can't go, you love him." I continued to grab his arm.

"I don't love him." He tore off my hand and went out.I looked at his back, at a loss.After a while, I got up to go out, when Xie Chi came over with medicine in his hand.

"Where's Du Ming?" I took the medicine from his hand.

"Watching TV in the living room, what's the matter?" He took the water glass. "Du Ruo, today, you...are you not angry?"

"No. You go out." I lay down, thinking of Du Ming.

"I'm not going out, I want to stay with you for a while, haven't you noticed that we haven't talked much recently?" Why didn't I find out, after finding Du Xiao, everyone was worrying about him and Yunkai, now it's okay, the two finally speak. "Du Ming will leave in a few days. He said he wanted to take you to a good place. Let's wait for next summer vacation."

"Don't just take me, can't you go this winter vacation?"

"It's not fun to go on winter vacation." He also lay down, where Du Ming just lay down.

"Then I don't know if I can wait until next summer vacation, I..." I want to go, but I have to go.I didn't know it before, but now I understand it, so I shouldn't hang on.Perhaps, in high school, Du Ming liked Xie Chi, but he suppressed his thoughts because he didn't want to make Yun Kai sad.Now, I can't let him be depressed, I want him to be with Xie Chi.Anyway, I don't live long.Grandpa is not omnipotent, neither is Chinese medicine.

"What do you mean?" He turned to look at me.

"I can't live with you like this anymore, I'm going to live with Dad." I prevaricated with reasons.

"Does this conflict with not going to that place? Also, why did you suddenly decide to live there? Your father insists you go?" His tone became severe.

"No, I always feel that it is not good to go on like this. I should be happier to be with my family." Is this good for everyone?

"Are you unhappy with me? Du Ruo, I can make you happy, you have to trust me." His tone softened again, and I knew why he was blaming himself.However, Du Ming loves him.And Xie Chi, loved him before.I didn't answer him, I don't know how to answer him.I am very happy with him, so happy that I want to be together forever.Seeing that I didn't speak, he leaned over to kiss me, but I avoided it.I can't bear to look at his sad eyes, but I plan to continue to be cruel.I walked out of the bedroom and into the living room.

I watched TV with Du Ming, I wanted him to be with Xie Chi, but I didn't know how to say it.I can no longer say that he likes Xie Chi, and I don't want to know about their glorious past. In short, I understand that their past was brilliant.However, looking at Du Ming's appearance, it was not very painful.Is it true that if you really love someone, you really want him to be happy, no matter whether he is with you or not?Is watching him happy makes me happy?

It's eleven o'clock, and Xie Chi hasn't come out of my bedroom. It's time to go to bed. Could it be that he... No, then I'll go to sleep in his room.Du Ming turned off the TV, smiled and said good night to me, I admire him very much, he can hide his love so well, but I can't.After Du Ming entered the room, I was still sitting on the sofa in a daze.It's twelve o'clock, let's go to Xie Chi's room to sleep, he probably fell asleep in my room.As soon as he stood up, Xie Chi came out.Suddenly afraid of seeing him, he hurried to his house.

"What are you doing in my room? Want to share the same bed?"

"not me……"

"Come here." I didn't move, I couldn't move.He came over, hugged me, and picked me up.I glared at him, but he ignored it.I told him to put me down, but he didn't listen.I was thrown onto the bed, not released, but thrown.Such a rude gesture made me aware of his anger.While he was undressing, my brain finally started to function normally, and it turned out that I was going to share the bed.

"Don't! I don't want to, I have a bad heart, you know!" He continued to move, and then began to take off mine, I stopped him, "Xie Chi, let go!" I grabbed his hand, I wanted to cry.However, my tears were frightened back because he cried.He cried, and I panicked and messed up.He tried his best not to cry out, which made my heart twitch, and I hugged him hastily.When he cries I'm in a mess, I hug him tightly and he hugs me tightly.I didn't know what to say, so I didn't say anything.In silence, he gave me an unsuspecting kiss.This kiss tasted salty, it was the taste of tears.I fiddled with his soft hair, just like fiddled with his soft heart, he breathed deeply on my shoulder, as if looking for a direction to reach a distant place, and I want him to take me away, as long as there is him, It doesn't matter how far away.

"Why? You can see their pain, but you can't see my pain." I hugged him tightly, feeling sorry for him.He is forbearing, he is calm, and he can always handle things well.Maybe it's because I imagined him too strong. In fact, he also cried, but he always found a place where no one was around. He was fragile, and I don't know if it was just for me.He looked into my eyes and kissed me, I didn't hide.It just fell on the lips like a superficial water, and the silence that followed allowed us to hear each other's heartbeat.

"Du Ruo, I want to share the same bed with you for the rest of my life." He pushed me down, "Is that okay?" The warm breath made me blink.I don't know what to say, I suspect I have aphasia.I felt his breath getting hotter and hotter on my face, I couldn't help turning my head away, but unfortunately he pulled it back again.His eyes were still wet from crying just now, but there was fire-like enthusiasm. I closed my eyes and dared not look at him again.He started to undo my belt, I thought of Du Ming, I pushed him, but to no avail.

"Du Ming, he likes you." He continued to move, "No...not in the name of a friend."

He stopped and squeezed my chin with his hands, "He said, or...you guessed it?"

"I...I...he..."

"You are always thinking wildly, when will you only have me and no one else in your mind." He began to pick up my pants, and his movements were not gentle, and I did not resist.How can I only think about you, only think about you, I must lose miserably in the end.In fact, it is miserable now, and I love you miserable.I don't want to monopolize you, but I don't want you to be trapped in the prison of guilt when facing Du Ming.I want you to love me without burdens, but knowing that you have burdens, you can't bear to let go.

That night, Xie Chi and I shared the same bed, skin to skin.Rejecting rationally and accepting emotionally will never achieve the ideal state.As I listened to Xie Chi's breathing, I felt guilty for him, as well as myself.