if i am not me

Harry never imagined that he would face such a situation.

Minutes, maybe hours, he, the Boy Who Lived, had finally crushed "The Man" with his wand.

After Voldemort's six Horcruxes were destroyed, only the last fragment remained in the body. Maybe he is still powerful, maybe he still has many followers, but Harry, who is also at the peak of power, does not So scared.Now Harry is confident that his magic power will not be lost to Voldemort, but in any case, after a decisive battle with the most evil dark wizard in the world, even as the "savior" I can't take it anymore.

God knows he wished he could lie down and have a good sleep right now, but he couldn't.The war was not over yet, and it was his responsibility and obligation to ensure that all the Death Eaters were captured, to acknowledge the damage the war had caused to the Order of the Phoenix and the Ministry of Magic, and to ensure the safety of the people he cared about.

Extremely exhausted but had to force his body up, Harry continued to search for clues left by the remaining Death Eaters in the already silent woods - not letting go of any possibility, this is what Dumbledore taught him repeatedly during his lifetime Yes, and he kept it in his heart.

Not long after, several figures suddenly appeared in his field of vision. Looking up, the familiar figure made Harry relax his vigilance after seeing the coming people—a group of Order of the Phoenix headed by Moody. Members and a few familiar Aurors.There was a smile in the green eyes, and their assembly undoubtedly meant that the cleaning of the battlefield had been completed.Harry waved to them, looking at those familiar faces and their fairly vigorous steps, he did not hide the joy in his heart at this moment, "It's over?" His face was stained with blood, but no one could deny it , his smile can infect everyone present.

"Soon." Moody's voice came, unexpectedly hoarse and unpleasant. It seems that this battle has caused some problems with his voice.But it doesn't matter, I believe Snape has prepared a potion for them, just a little bit...

Laughing uncontrollably, Harry approached his comrades in arms, but was stunned after seeing their expressions clearly.Indifference, alienation... Although Moody and the others seemed to have nothing wrong with them, Harry stopped cautiously out of the excellent instincts he had trained in the war.

"Wait!" Harry said to them, trying to prevent Moody and the others from approaching him, but he didn't expect that this would make his comrades point their wands at him without exception.Suppressing the surprise in his heart, Harry quickly backed away, but he had to stop before taking a few steps—there was someone behind him, and more than one.

At some point, he was surrounded and trapped in the center of them.

Now it was clear that he was surrounded by Death Eaters masquerading as his comrades.

Squinting his eyes, Harry looked worriedly at the wand in 'Moody's' hand.It was indeed Moody's, and he could even see the crack in the middle of the wand from a fight not long ago...

Could it be that Moody and his comrades were given by this group of Death Eaters... to use this despicable method of disguise.

A great sadness welled up in his heart, and Harry stared angrily at the group in front of him.But soon he calmed down, because he knew very well that now is not the time to be sad...

Since the woods designated as the battlefield had already covered a large area of ​​Anti-DisapparationJinx (anti-apparition spell), Harry knew that it was absolutely impossible for him to escape by apparition-he was confident that he would defeat Voldemort, but But it couldn't stop them from escaping.The Death Eaters who are good at escaping forced them to take more measures to ensure that they could catch all of them!Before the decisive battle started, Harry even personally consolidated this magic many times, but now, he deeply understood what it meant to shoot himself in the foot.

In fact, until now he still doesn't understand why there are so many 'Death Eaters'.A dozen or so are undoubtedly high-level personnel, which is an almost impossible staffing.The arrangement of Voldemort's side was very clear to Harry because of the excellent spies of his own side, and it was precisely because of this that their previous battle was so smooth.

But now something went wrong in the plan.

Standing in a stalemate with the group of people, his green eyes flickered rapidly behind the lens, "Voldemort is completely dead." He said, trying to distract the attention of some 'Death Eaters' to improve his chances of survival, of course, if he can convince them Even better, after all, without the leader, they don't need to continue to work for it, right?

However, those 'Death Eaters' were not moved, they still stared at Harry closely with sharp eyes, not letting go of any of his movements, and the murderous intent on their faces made Harry understand that their only His purpose seems to be to kill himself.Suddenly, a possibility flashed in his mind, but then he instinctively denied this idea, no, it's impossible!That's just my guess.

...but what if it was?

Do not……

If it's just a hypothesis...

It is impossible for others to know.

Dumbledore!He's the smartest wizard in the world...

Do not!

Forced to interrupt the wild thoughts, Harry forbade himself to think about that horrible thought.At this moment, the fake 'Moody' waved his wand quickly and skillfully, trying to kill Harry in one fell swoop by taking advantage of his unpreparedness.

"Avada—"

But someone is faster than him.

"Expelliarmus! (Expelliarmus)"

In an instant, a beam of blue light knocked down the wand that the fake 'Moody' was about to attack, and Harry, who had already been ready to go, succeeded in knocking out two of the 'Death Eaters' in one fell swoop by taking advantage of the momentary astonishment of the 'Death Eaters'. Death Eaters'.But this group of people is indeed an elite who can defeat Moody and others. As soon as those two fell, someone standing behind immediately filled the gap caused by their coma, making the circle surrounding Harry Not affected in the slightest by this.

"Who?" Picking up his wand angrily, 'Moody' obviously didn't expect anyone to help Harry at this time. According to the plan, all the remaining people in this battlefield should be here now.

Platinum blond hair was disheveled, his footsteps were unsteady and his breathing was disordered, even so, Draco Malfoy still maintained his usual arrogant and dragging tone, "Is your arrogance already unbearable even by your comrades-in-arms? Potter..." He raised his delicate eyebrows and glanced at the crowd, when he heard the faint fragment behind the door, he understood that there was a bigger conspiracy hidden behind this battle, but he never expected it to be like this a situation.

"Aren't these your 'old comrades-in-arms'?" Harry heard his own voice say, and seemed to be trembling, and it seemed that there was still a prayer.

The thin lips gently opened and closed, and the tone of the tone seemed sympathetic, but it was also so firm...

"It's not yours!"

The body swayed, and the thoughts that were deliberately forgotten a minute ago once again occupied Harry's thoughts irresistibly.His brain went blank for an instant, and Harry looked at the so-called 'Death Eaters' blankly.

Not Voldemort - but... the Order of the Phoenix.

Moody's eyes flashed unbearably, but thinking of Dumbledore's last instructions, he could only point his wand at the boy he had watched grow up and was staring at him with heartbroken eyes.

Harry wanted to ask why, but when he saw Moody's expression again, he suddenly understood everything.In fact, instinct has guessed it a long time ago. All the signs revealed that the message was already so obvious, and he just avoided it deliberately, so he deceived himself and others.Dumbledore is indeed the smartest and greatest wizard of this century, when did he know?Was it before his death, or when they touched the Horcruxes, or, earlier?

Truly the head of the Order of the Phoenix, even after his death he still controls everything - including the ultimate fate of the "Boy Who Lived".And he, the so-called "savior", was just someone else's tool from beginning to end, how ridiculous and sad...

He just wanted to live...but it was so difficult...

But this is not important anymore, suppressing the fragility and sadness in his eyes, Harry took a deep breath, and clenched the wand in his hand with his almost pale knuckles.When his drooping eyelids opened again, they were only enemies, enemies that prevented him from living.

Glancing coldly at the people all around who were on alert, Harry remembered the 'old enemy' who had blocked the blow for him just now, "What are you doing here, Malfoy?" His voice returned to its usual calmness, Harry Without looking at the rather embarrassed boy, he secretly thought about the reason why he appeared here.After all, the relationship between them is well known, and he would not simply think that that person just came here to remind him.

"Just to pay back the life I owe you." Malfoy didn't seem to see those cold wands, ignoring those wands that would attack him at any time, and gradually approached the open space where they were.Moody also has no intention of ordering everyone to attack for the time being. Malfoy's appearance is too sudden, and he has to carefully consider how this unplanned factor will affect their mission.

"Harry!" Suddenly, a slightly green male voice echoed in the empty woods, and with this loud voice, Ron's fiery red hair appeared in the eyes of everyone, but His hair is now completely wet with sweat.

"Ron?"

"Weasley...why are you here?" Kingsley looked at the boy who was supposed to have returned to the headquarters in surprise, while Moody began to curse angrily.

"I'm just asking what you guys want to do?!" Roaring, he knocked away several people and rushed to Harry to block him behind him. Ron looked angrily at the members of the Order of the Phoenix. "Look clearly, he's Harry!" Because of the uneasiness in his heart, he ignored his parents' objections and secretly returned to the battlefield, but he didn't expect to see an incredible scene in his opinion.

"Get out of here, Ron." The devil's eyes rolled rapidly in their sockets, and Moody yelled at the two boys who disrupted his plan with hidden anger, "And you too, Mr. Malfoy."

Hearing this, Malfoy gave a cold snort full of disdain, and he was really foolish if he still thought he could leave here safe and sound.Besides, from the moment he decided to show up, he had already prepared for the worst, even if it was completely out of character for him as a Slytherin.

Glancing at Malfoy in disgust, Ron didn't understand why he appeared here, but he had no time to pay attention to him at the moment, then he turned his gaze back and glared at Moody viciously, "It's me and Harry who are leaving! And you I owe an explanation, Moody."

Staring at Ron's back in front of him with mixed emotions and Malfoy who seemed determined not to leave, Harry felt bitter in his heart.If they knew the real reason, would they still behave like this?Yes, Ron was his best friend, and the Malfoy who made him suspicious and suspicious was also conveying his kindness in various signs.But that's because they still don't know the reason why they have to die. After knowing the truth, maybe, he doesn't even have the last two traces of warmth...

But it is only a matter of time before the truth is revealed.Say by Moody?No, come by yourself...

"The last Horcrux, it's me." Hearing his own voice ringing in his ears, Harry was surprised that it was full of strange indifference, but it was exactly what he wanted. "Now you and Malfoy can leave, Ron." Come on, at least we're still friends for now.

Ron was stunned, this answer and this explanation was like a bolt from the blue to him, and Malfoy also gasped, even though he was prepared for it, he was still shocked by it—the words he heard at the door really It wasn't his hallucinations out of thin air, but something that was hidden very deeply...

Shaking his head violently, Ron turned his head to look at the indifferent Harry behind him, with unconcealable horror in his eyes, "Are you joking...Harry, how is this possible..." Yes, maybe this It was a prank where they celebrated their victory in the Great War, as the twins often do.Ron comforted himself like this, but the expressions of everyone present were so real... Needless to say, Ron also understood.

Merlin, why did this happen? Even if he wanted to break his head, he would never have guessed that this was the final reason why the Order of the Phoenix wanted to kill Harry—the last hope of Voldemort's resurrection still existed, and that hope was Harry... His pupils shrank rapidly , the body began to tremble uncontrollably.Ron lowered his head dejectedly, making it impossible to see his expression clearly. He could only peek into his heart from his violently shaking body.

He frowned and looked at the red-haired boy. From Moody's point of view, there was no suspense about the boy's fate.Winking at several Aurors and members of the Order of the Phoenix next to him, he said to Ron and Malfoy for the last time, "Let's go." After speaking, the Auror standing in front of Ron moved his body to the side , the wands that were originally pointed at the three of them were concentrated on Harry to prevent him from using any spells to escape, even though the boy's magic power was almost exhausted due to the war.

Seeing the small gap created by the man's movement, Ron slowly took two steps forward. Moody approved, Malfoy dismissed it, and Harry, ignoring the sudden sadness in his heart, pulled his eyes away. Leaving the back of my best friend.That's fine, next, he can concentrate on dealing with the 'enemy' without any scruples.

While thinking about countless ways to escape, suddenly, a beam of blue light enveloped Harry silently - someone gave him a protective charm!Feeling the hand that was not holding the wand was suddenly pulled tightly, and then Harry followed the owner of the hand and slammed all the way towards the gap that was finally opened.That direction was facing Malfoy, and Ron and Harry clearly saw him raise his wand and point it at them.Harry and Ron had already raised their wands and were ready to attack, however, "Impedimenta! (There are many obstacles)", an invisible barrier appeared behind Harry and Ron, just blocking Moody and others from shooting at Harry or the red Or blue spell.

Swallowing the attack spell that almost blurted out, and looking at Malfoy who was following them, Harry didn't have time to think about why they made such a decision, he just cast another layer of Protego on the three of them without hesitation ( Armor body protection), and ran towards the border of the forest together-as long as they were out of the range of Anti-DisapparationJinx (anti-disapparation spell), they would be safe for the time being.Apparition can take them to any part of the world, including those areas beyond the reach of the Order of the Phoenix.

They could hear the chaotic footsteps and shouts getting farther and farther behind, and they had gradually thrown off the pursuit.But except for the moment when the defensive spell and the enchantment spell were released, the footsteps of the three of them would still not stop in any way.Harry was panting heavily, feeling like his lungs were going to explode, and his feet seemed to be filled with countless lead, but he couldn't stop.He could only yell in his heart, it's almost there, it's almost there!

After running for an unknown amount of time, when the big tree marking the boundary of the Anti-Disapparation Jinx (Anti-Disapparation Curse) finally appeared in their field of vision, they couldn't help cheering.There was a gleam of joy in their eyes, and they moved in that direction, pulling their almost unconscious legs.At this time, Harry, who had been unable to speak due to running away, had the opportunity to say quietly, "You two idiots..." If you choose him, you are doomed to escape...

He wanted to laugh out loud at Harry's words, but only a few weird wheezes escaped from his parched throat.Yes, Harry is a so-called Horcrux, but he is also his only good friend in this life.He, Ron Weasley, didn't regret the decision he'd made and Malfoy curled his mouth into an arc and said nothing.Now is really the worst situation, he has become a fugitive from the heir of the Malfoy family, but he is willing.Just to repay Harry?Let it be like this...

Finally, the three of them were less than 10 meters away from the tree. Staring at the big tree that was getting closer, Ron turned his head and said to the two people behind him, "Get ready to go..."

However, he kept his next words in his mouth forever, and several green lights shot out from behind the big tree at the same time, silently breaking the shining blue light from the armor protection charm on his body, and submerged into Ron just now. And a vigorous body.

Staring blankly at Ron who fell into the mud, Harry looked up in the direction from which the spell came.That big tree, countless red signals are constantly shooting into the air, more and more figures appear around it, a few, a dozen, dozens...

...fall short.

The hand that Ron had grabbed was forced into the other's palm, and Harry felt a strong tug from his hand.But it was too late.

"Let's join together!" The voice was so familiar, did that distorted face really belong to the person who often told him jokes at the headquarters?

"Avada Kedavra! (Avada Kedavra)"

It was a unison ensemble, and it was also a soul song that led them into death.In an instant, countless green lights filled the field of vision of Harry and Drake...they were powerless.

—On the last Thursday of late summer in 1998, the three-year war came to an end.Harry Potter, a hero in the wizarding world, completely defeated Voldemort, the most evil dark wizard in the world at that time.It's a pity that our hero died in that blood-stained battlefield.A group of fleeing Death Eaters took advantage of Harry Potter's weakness and killed him, his best friend Ron Weasley, and Order of the Phoenix spy Draco Malfoy.All three died at the age of 18.

Excerpted from - "The Dark War, 1995! "