if i am not me

Early morning is the beginning of the day-people often like to describe the time when they climb out of the warm quilt every morning.Perhaps for most people, a vibrant vocabulary can always make people feel energetic, but this does not mean that everyone likes to do something during this energetic time, for example, there are guests early in the morning What.

But often things are not determined by people's subjective will.

As soon as the morning sun broke through the sky, a beautifully decorated manor by the lake area ushered in an unexpected visitor.Of course, the definition of a guest is the little man who answers the door.

Wormtail looked at the tall man standing outside the door, and silently turned sideways to give him a gap that only one person could enter and exit.This width has two advantages - first, it can appear that he is very cautious, in fact, they really need to be cautious recently, although Wormtail does not think that reducing the width can reduce the danger; as for the other reason... is that he can In this way, it is upright to cause inconvenience to the visitors.

For him, as long as these people feel uncomfortable, his always uncomfortable heart will feel a little bit more comfortable, even if only a little bit.

He didn't like Death Eaters, never had.Even though, he is now one of them...

Dolokhov didn't respond to Wormtail's action. Maybe it never occurred to him in his mind that this cowardly man whom he had never looked down upon would make him uncomfortable in such a way, so he continued as before. along the gap and squeezed through the door with difficulty.After entering the manor, Dolohov finally set his sights on Wormtail who came to open the door for him.

It was a recent habit of every Death Eater who came to the manor.

It was just this look that made Dolohov's heart skip a beat.

Wormtail's expression was not bad, but it was by no means good, especially his tightly wrinkled brows made Dolohov feel a little uneasy.

You know, Wormtail is the closest person to "the one".Although they all look down on this short and wretched guy, the irony is that his words and deeds often reflect the immediate mood of "that person".

"Master, now...?" He hesitated and opened his mouth, but Dolokhov still decided to ask the situation clearly before going to meet the master.In any case, no matter how loyal a person is, he will never dislike the master's anger.

And Wormtail seemed to have expected him to ask this question a long time ago, frowning again, and said in a calm tone as much as possible, "Master is not here."

"What?" Dolokhov obviously didn't expect that the master would not be in the manor, and just about to ask where the master went, but immediately woke up to the fact that he shouldn't ask this question.So for a moment, he could only close his mouth abruptly, and put a pair of eagle-like eyes on Wormtail standing in front of him without blinking.

He needs the man to speak the answer himself.

Sensing Dolohov's gaze, Wormtail shrank his neck involuntarily, "Master... The master said he has something to do, so he asked me to stay in the manor."

After saying this, Wormtail raised his head to look at Dolohov, and immediately said in a tone that was obviously faster than before, "He didn't leave any contact information, and he said that there is something for you to decide on your own. "

"How long?" Wormtail's words obviously did not satisfy Dolohov, but he didn't expect the man to be more enlightened, so he could only ask himself a question.

Wormtail licked his dry lips when he heard the words, and said after a while, "Three days."

Dolokhov raised his hand and reached into the hood, as if stroking his hair, or doing something else, but he didn't say anything in the end.The two stood by the gate silently for nearly 10 minutes, and then just when Wormtail thought he would say something more, Dolohov turned and walked towards the gate, raised his hand, and disappeared into Wormtail in sight.

"Hmph!" Until he was sure that he was the only one in the manor again, Wormtail straightened up with his bent waist, and a look of disdainful coldness flashed across his face, which was always full of panic and uneasiness.

A bunch of self righteous bastards...

It's just a tool that person can throw away at will.

Just like... myself.

Thinking of this, panic and bewilderment once again climbed into his heart that he had finally calmed down, and Wormtail couldn't help closing his eyes.

He knew very well that he was really talented in disguise, otherwise he wouldn't be alive until now.It's just that the uneasiness in his heart has made him less and less able to control his facial expressions freely.

Because, he felt the "distrust" of "him".

You know, since he found Voldemort, he hasn't left "him" side, but now...he hasn't seen that person for three whole days.For these three days, he could only honestly stay in this luxurious but empty room, quietly waiting for that person's return.

What... can't grasp it.

He had imagined how great it would be to be completely out of Voldemort's control, even if it was only for a day.But now, after not feeling that person's presence for three days, Wormtail felt that the taste was not as good as he had imagined.

Not that he missed that person's presence so much.No one likes being around that person, not even Death Eaters who claim to be loyal.He, just hates the feeling that he can't control the situation.

Why did he return to Voldemort?

Anyone who asks him this question, including himself, will only have one answer: because Voldemort is his master, and only his master can keep him alive and let him bathe in the sun again .

But in a place that couldn't be more deep in my heart, there is another answer hidden faintly, an answer that cannot be touched and is like a taboo.

For this reason, he was very devoutly grateful to James who taught him the brain defense technique.

But now, he feels that the "trust" he bought with his life seems to be gradually losing.And the departure of the "master" this time is the best sign.

Bowing down habitually, Wormtail returned to the big house and walked towards the study.

Maybe, he should start doing something.

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